mind scribbles for June 20 2000 from terrell neuage visiting Adelaide South Australia
Return to neuageVIEW"I believe that fate has brought us here And we should be together But we're not" macy gray "I try"
MOON: 13aquarius13 ~ SUN: 29gemini51 ~ MERCURY: 19cancer44 ~ VENUS: 2cancer27 ~ MARS: 2cancer57 ~ JUPITER: 28 taurus00 ~ SATURN : 25TAURUS32 ~ URANUS: 20aquarius33R ~ NEPTUNE: 6aquarius06R ~ PLUTO: 11sagitaruius02R ~ CHRION: 13sagitarius00R ~ CERES: 1libra04 ~ VESTA: 29capricorn38R ~ PALLAS: 28leo02 ~ JUNO: 26aquarius46 ~ CUPDIO: 3sagitaruis09 R ~ HADES: 19gemini21 ZEUS: 3libra54 ~ KRONOS: 28gemini21 APOLLON: 20libra03R ~ ADMETOS: 20taurus26 |
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Dreams. So much is made of them. Martin Luther King had a dream, though some say it was someone else's dream and he repeated it. Dylan sings 'I"ll let you be in my dream if I can be in yours" Terrell writes "Pick a dream and stay awake in it". A once-were-priest from a former formal foreign Order religious group gave me grief over it. Did the religious number on it. Oh we need to be ever vigilant not living in dreams and all. Good golly, can't get away from people trying to save me. My 95-year-old father still prays for my salvation up there in Clifton Park, New York. "Hi dad!" I grew up in a missionary family. Now detest the missionary position. Post-missionary position - that's me. We had family missionaries to China (back at the beginning of last century before they were given the boot), Cambodia, Africa, some other places. To digress just for a second here - to make amends for what I had to put up with I kind of pinched a few suitcases of things these missionaries stored in our basement from their 'missionary work'. Some century old robes and stuff like that. We give. They give. I got. Now the world coughs and sputters from the love of God these missionaries spread around to the less fortunate. Dreams! Are we speaking of aspirations? Such as my son's baseball... or my son's piecing....? Or are we talking about the dreams we have when we sleep? The dreams we drive into town for? Day dreams...I had a dream we were not a dream...
I can never sleep alone again with the dreams I have in my sleep The person I am is free to love life away Whilst in my waking times the who I am could not have the same genetic code as Last night was extra good The lady in my dream said so too. When I awoke she was still smiling then as my eyes focused to some distant phase of my being. I walked out into the kitchen children somewhere on the periphery of my mist ask if breakfast is ready. I don't even know her name and she was so good. Another one night stand Another dream filler come and gone Every night it is a different possesor Months to years I remember them from my dreamsbut nothing similar ever happens in my day. Life can never give contentment when the night is so fulfilling. Last night she was an oriental. She was my first Asian lover. After we mad love she asked me not to leave because if I did she would become danger's sisterBut I did leave her and her.Now in the kitchen I try to recall how to make a cup of coffee. She had a perfume on I had never sensed before. Now the smell drifted through the kitchen while I tried to make a cup of coffee. Soldiers returning from the battle-field say they can smell death before it happens I could smell evanescent love as the sun rose spread-eagle across morning's desires I felt dazed again Usually I'd awaken during the night trying to recall that other world then try to figure out how to bring it into the conscious. Now it was well into morning I stood still in the kitchen My children yelling for breakfast it was time to catch the school bus Cartoons were menacing morning's fading breath the dog whined for attention I wanted to go back to the oriental lover who said she'd be in danger if I left. A refugee trapped in my dream world. I managed to get milk out of the refrigerator My children needed nourishment. I looked for breasts which had faded with morning's shadows. My nourishment had slipped away too, just like my motherless children's had long ago. I gave them milk and ceral saw them out the door watched them catch the Port Elliot school bus. Children's paraphernalia lay about like the end of every battle. And as I moved about collecting pajamas, comics, lego, and G.G. Joes I quietly closed my eyes and slipped back into my lover's arms.
Dreams of one with conjunct Saturn/Pluto (exact to the minute) and Sun all in Leo whilst semi-squaring Uranus/Mars in Gemini (in 8th), square Jupiter (in Scorpio in first) and ruling Libra ascendant and Taurus Moon with Neptune, ruling fifth in the 12th.
there was a point to this at the beginning but I forget what it was. Sorry. Deconstructin' with ya next week
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Behance Project - Thoughts in Semi-Isolation June 2020
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She was a carefree flower girl of 18
Selling flowers on Bourbon Street
1968
I was a street artist...
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I threw away my umbrella
Tree - the story
Pick a dream and stay awake in it
I threw away my umbrella
Tree - the story
Pick a dream and stay awake in it
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All Images of picture poems
Terrell Neuage (Adsit) ~
update 10 December 2010
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