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Contents
4. Corner of Ten
before twelve and ten after midnight
6. Erased yesterday’s
thoughts
11. I wish I had
thought of that
13. Two
bytes short of a perfect poem..
22. So excited to hear
you say yes
26. I became another
year older
29. Reflected echoes
of pleasure
30. At the shrine of
the unknown god
32. I followed the
instructions
35. New page new book
knew life
40. Home – islands of
memories
Ten words 50
characters with spaces
46. I
thought my love for you was a virus
57. Nice
body I said to the Ford
58. Each
one of them stopped me in my tracks
60. I
changed my vegetarian diet
11 words 61 characters
with spaces
62. I
stumbled on my last poem
71. Vanquished
to a minor space
73. In
the often time of failure
74. Stretched
across the horizons
75. So
many ways to tell the truth
76. I
reversed engineered your love.
77. We
dream that we are awake
81. So
excited to be your shadow
82. Thought
I would never be satisfied
83. We
connect at a higher level
85. I
watched the weeds bully my lawn
6 words 46 characters with spaces
89. It is only a matter
of time
7 words 43 characters with spaces
9 words 43 characters with spaces
94. Sun rose as a
mistaken identity
95. Desire perpendicular
to dreams
101. Creation tried a
different technique
102. Everything I do is
outdated
106. There are things I
am not sure of
107. Surrounded sunrise
surprise
109. When finally, I had
nothing left to say
110. I like the way the
pressure is finally off
111. Stories of past
times gone
115. Worked through the
playful part
118. I hid in my
prehistoric disguise
119. god copied and
pasted our solar system into another galaxy
120. Based on what I
never did before
122. I use to know what I
would do next
123. Like any
award-winning film
126. I traded my
happiness for your love
127. Memory of who we
were when
129. I thought we were
retired
132. At the height of
foolishness
139. I lost my creative
function
141. It was not clear at first
142. I changed my
calendar to fifteen years ago Leigh
144. Letting loose the
last grasp on reality
145. Waiting for the next
big bang
146. I spent sixty-eight
years
147. I was put on to life
supportive system
Camping trip to York
Peninsula
148. Reflection
perfection of morning
149. If only there was
time and space
150. Where the sea meets
my dreams
151. While critiquing a
thought recently shared with me
152. Unbeknown to those
who knew
154. Snuggled up to
falling rain
156. I chiseled my memory
into the cliff face
157. The transformational
aura of a chance forgiveness
158. I look out the
window into the darkness
159. Under strong advice
from a herd of nice mice
160. Laughter mingled
with evening breeze
161. Shipwrecks along the
coast Book 3. P. 110
162. 816 full moons have
passed my way Book 3. P.
58
164. Absorbing fully the
moment
165. I set the time to
five-minutes before I would appear in your dream
171. The plot
thickened Book 3. P. 44
174. Heroes are nothing
more than memes
180. Fantasies Dreams
Hopes Wishes
182. I didn’t set out to
be the legs of a table
185. Impossible to embrace past
-----------END OF YORKE
PENISULA TRIP-----------BACK ADELAIDE-------------
188. I saw a bird try to
be different
190. I wanted you to be
more than a poem to me
191. I tried to keep up
with my youth
192. Take away the motion
of emotions
193. I was stunned when I
discovered Gods
195. I thought it was
just another average dawn
196. Ten minutes before I
was born
199. My mum was confused
when I was born
201. While waiting on a
new start book 3. P. 93
202. We made so much of
so little
203. Our love an accident
amongst nature
Lyell McEwin Hospital *
207 – 2--
******************************
207. I began ten minutes
before the end
208. Filled my time with
thoughts of you
209. Syncing tomorrow’s
embedded memory
212. While reflecting on
what was not my life
216. The reason I close
the window?
218. I offered my
services to a fleeting shadow..
219. Now that you are one
with the wind
220. Never could ride
life with a saddle
224. Expectations at the
start of a rainbow
226. Colourful sounds Book. 4 P. 41
226. Scanned brain for
alien-irregularities
229. After realizing I
had said it all
234. I dreamt we were two
wheels
236. Following particles
through air
238. Hopefully there will
not be a nuclear war
240. To be lost in the
maze of love
241. Ritualistic
fulfilled desire
242. An over calculated
moment
244. With no physical
distance left between us
246. I filled a mold with
dreams
248. I wanted to gamble
responsibly
249. I wrapped several
memories
250. I cast a dream at the crossroads
Written: 12/05/16 Port
Parham, South Australia
Written: 12/05/16 Port
Parham, South Australia
252. Fanfare at the start of our love
257. While looking
forward to tomorrow
258. If it wasn’t for the
same technique
259. The day after I
forgot my name she called me
260. My father was a
world-class explorer
261. While waiting for
life to load
264. We talked about
times no more
271. Streets we once
laughed and played in
272. I wanted to chart
our moments
273. Silhouettes quickly
dissolving
277. Frolicking cells in
the bottom chamber
280. I thought my love
for you was sustainable
281. I had a significant
consciousness-opening life-altering
282. Your life was my
life neither no more
284. In a disruptive
moment Book 3. P. 16
285. Along the ridge of
my dreams
286. In the least amount
of time
289. A chocolate covered
dream
291. Unfortunately each
iteration
293. All that you could
have been
295. The plane crashed
into the sea
296.Only I knew it was my
turn
297. I thought love had
gone cold
300. Waiting on a phone
call from god
301. So surprised to be
at the same
312. By sleeping through
today
314. With an average of
eleven memories
315. With you as a basic
ingredient
318. Without morning’s
fickle startup
319. I went to sleep
looking at a photo of you
321. I thought it was a
metaphor about my heart stopping
322. Losing becomes
victory’s favourite
329. I tried living life
in the space between
333. Thoughts of you
casting shadows in front of each step
335. After gathering most
of it all
339. No attempt was made
to record the change
349. On my way to
Shakespeare Book 4. P. 61
350. Disappearing into
the midst
354. While replaying a
memory-film
358. The robot that was
created
361.
Threatened by the extinction of feelings
364. While watching words
float by
365. Humans were
domesticated by cats
366. To chance the sail Book 5. P. 90
368. Dissatisfied with the laws of gravity
369. What we lost gained momentum
371. I reshaped my life so it would fit
376. I do not care about
living in a zoo
377. Life like love
lingers longer
379. I followed you to
the end of my dream
380. I was so far from
the truth
382. In the distance I
saw my past
383. I took a day off
from being me
384. Silence beckoned an
evening calm
394. So much easier to
tell ourselves lies
395. I downloaded karma
recognition software
396. On a miscellaneous
planet
397. On the final test of
my life
398. I scribbled my
sentiments for you
400. As if life does not
continue
402. I turned to a
whispering wind
403. Life neatly sorted
folded placed
406. Next life time if I
come back as a shrub
408. I looked you up on the internet
409. While assembling an
explanation
410. The more I like this
moment
411. During a practice of
total difference
412. Cast out from a
lingering memory
413. Found love amongst a
tear gas lit alley
414. I dreamt of success
long after failure
415. I am a minor actor
in my life
416. With so little
working this morning
421. I knew something had
changed
422. In a moment of
anxiety performance
423. Ripened fruit at the
end of the alley
424. In a dangerous
speculation
425. I watched outside my
window
426. Frustrated with
creation’s lack of desire
428. Too few pages turned
quickly
429. Wisdom floated out
to sea
430. “Is this all I lived
for”
432. Now that the
pressure is off
435. Not being prepared
for sudden passsions
437. In a superstitious
ritual
438. In a blended
good-bad moment
439. We hold hands
walking through the mall
444. I lay naked in the
paddock
445. In a transformative
moment
446. Free-will is the
biggest threat
448. While waiting for
inspiration
458. Analysing systems of
love
462. I tossed my GPS out
the window
464. Your love was a
treasure trove
470. I was learning a
lesson in survival
471. We were watching the
finals
477. Impressed by
imperfection
478. While quietly laying
still
479. Mistakenly I was
chosen to be
480. By making tomorrow
four hours shorter
487. Too short our time
together
490. I finally arrived at
that magical place
492. Desire soaked by the
rain
493. I was attempting to
get warm
494. While waiting for
scribbled thoughts
499. The individual
creative artist genius
502. I lost you on the
horizon
503. I waited outside for
you at the bus stop
504. Silence echoes
through this rainforest
506. So environmentally
correct
507. According to popular
conventional conspiracy
508. While counting the
stars in the sky
509. Forever frequently
frightened
510. “All my hopes,
dreams, wishes, never to eventuate”
512. The government’s
stimulus independence package.
513. On the curved road
of love
515. The note in the
fortune cookie
517. Last exit on the
freeway of your love
518. I lived my life in a
titled world
526. As a critic of the
natural progression
528. In a
self-explanatory moment
529. In a delusional epic
of want
534. Blinded by a
smothering loss
535. I splattered
thoughts of you
536. Navigating foggy
thoughts
539. Annoyed by all that
goes wrong
540. Frightened about
life alone
543. While laughing in
the moment
545. Within my virtual
sacrifice
546. I started selling
love insurance
550. Your body was an
aircraft carrier
553. Thrilled by the
obscurity
555. Maddening in its
eloquence
559. To inhale ubiquitous
nature’s surroundings
561. While meditating on
this moment
563. In a random
whispered secret
565. Listening to a foreign radio station
566. ‘PLOT THICKENED’
‘PLOT THICKENED’
569. After being off on holiday
570. In a dwindling perspective
571. Surprising in its implication
574. In a case of
mistaken identity
575. When I once lived in
the flower garden
577. In a moment of lost
intent
580. The last chance I
had to be successful
581. The odds of being me
is one in seven-plus billion
583. I went beyond all
expectation
584. In all the
excitement of being me again
585. One of life’s great
pleasures
28/07/16 - Perseverance Road, South Australia
588. While watching a
waiting moment
589. An evening’s taste of success
590. The bubble I live in is available
591. Once settled with the new rountine
592. It is not the short time we spent together
593. With no time left
love transported
594. I downloaded one of
those ads on Facebook
595. All went to how we
did not plan
597. I tripped over my
words
ad, South Australia
598. Too long the fruit
on the trees
599. In a most
un-creative plagiarizing moment
606. You could have heard my voice
608. 3-D printers can make so much
609. I lost my compass on the path of love
610. In a hastily conceived feeling
614. Captured freedom bottled and sold
615. In an ill-conceived fantasy
616. The banging, crashing, pounding
617. In a most delicious moment
620. The future never looked so bright
621. We took to the streets protesting the loss of love
623. I memorised the
hills and valleys
624. I smiled evening sky smiled back
625. Quick capture the sun set
626. While living in la la land
627. Humans are a result of creation
628. Complications of the past made construction of today
629. While putting my life on pause
630. Love sailed in a century ago
631. While standing still the world sped by
632. Life is just a temporary pause
633. While beating my own non-Olympic record
634. In a spherical
theatrical rotation
635. So similar to today was to a day past spent
636. What was a barrier between yesterday and today
638. As if I would not count the years passed by
639. During a borrowed sequence of past memories
640. As if time were producible
641. I put a box out to catch all the thoughts
642. Love became so intoxicating
644. Thrilled by the
obscurity of your touch
645. Frequently lost on
the horizon
646. What is most
enjoyable about the muddled confusion
647.Feeling lucky to have lived so long
648. Surprised by sudden sunrise
650. Surrender was only part of the battle plan
654. Comets a better life
than planets have
656. Waiting for disappointment
657. Today’s performance was so perfect
658. I am sorry you no longer miss me
659. In a difficult scenario I forgot my role
671. Too funny such
streams of dreams
673. Feeling suddenly
patriotic
674. My last thought
before I died
676. Frequently waiting
on the sideline
677. While waiting for inspiration morning rose evening set
686. I waited for you on the corner
687. All I chose in every
sport
681. More than needed at my call
682. I knew today would be different
683. Frequently frightening futures without
684. The start of our universe
685. As a creative love mapping technique
686. I asked my doctor for a prescription
688. In a routine life-altering
689. Sail with me on this quiet breeze
692. I rounded up all my
favourite dreams
693. I tricked myself into believing
695. Unconcerned about the beginning of time
697. Always treating trending moments equal
698. I took a day off from being me
699. I returned to a time before the clowns of sorrow
700. I lost my way when you locked the door
701. I looked up a list of people trending now book 4. P. 55
703. The equation did not match
704. In an unexpected sequence of events
705. Time ran out but
love stayed
706. Very excited to see your
reflection
707. While planning the
future
708. With a slight scent
of love
709. Sensitive sensual sensations
710. Alarmed by the
constant terrible news
712. Flowers in the gutter washing toward the sea
713. Tempting in its discovery
714. The abstraction of the wind’s tormented self
715. In a most stressful
moment
716. Excited by your
departure
717. So full the moments
purpose
718. In a
non-illustratable breath
719. In a shocking
miscarriage of justice
721. Lined up against the
wall
722. Your love became
buried treasure
723. In an incredible
instance of a missed opportunity
724. In a struggle of
re-inventing myself
725. In a fast flowing
fancy fantasy
726. In a short-term
memory lapse
727. In a strange change
of plans
728. For the short time the light was on
729. Tomorrow I will go a
new direction
732. In an easily forgotten moment
735. Circumventing
surrounded surrendered dreams.
736. Embarrassed by who you thought I once was
739. I watched life pass
by in a sun-reflecting bubble.
740. Troubled by the
knowledge of multiple
741. Love’s imitation of
dawn’s final call
743. I predicted you
would live forever
744. Originally this
change in pattern
748. While waiting for something to do
749. While saving/hoarding so much for the future
750. While waiting to grow
old
751. I waited all night
to hear you sing
753. I borrowed some
ideas from blooming flowers
754. Perhaps mingled with
maybe
756. In a sleepy dreamed
filled moment
757. In a flawed romantic
moment
761. While writing about my past
762. From the excitement of what dream will I have tonight
763. Psychic theoretical narcissistic conspiracists with
mixed agendas
764. From whispering digital readouts
765. Unsure what I wanted to be remembered for
766. Manipulated memories distilled and stored
767. Shadowed by a
foreign accent
770. In an endless search I found what I had lost
772. Overwhelming was the thought
778. Randomly selected sequences of love
780. All knowledge accumulated soon to be disproved
782. While searching for a happy thought
783. Creative chance changes captured a fleeting feeling
784. In a most irritable moment
789. Lost in my garden looking for life
790. Forgot to wait and went forward
791. I thought I was being clear
793. I left a note of insignificance at the temple
796. Particularly those looking forward
797. Tomorrow when I return to being me
798. I thought I saw Elvis at the end of my street
801. While in orbit
around your love
802. So quick this short time has passed
803. Flooded memories swept away
804. I was put on the
spot when morning asked
808. To calm the still held memory of you lingers
811. So perfect chaos is leaving me
812. Today ended like I knew it would
814. While waiting time stopped
817. Lost at the corner under cover
823. Dwindled to bite-size memory
824. Changed switched direction
828. I buried myself in the back garden
829. There was always more to do
830. In an alternative reality
831. Lasting longer than a passing flash
833. Unable to end I started over
835. In a shocking tale of memory collisions
836. Unsure to why the
direction we took
839. In a slowly evolving progressive space
840. Tomorrow they will take me apart
841. There is so much to worry about
842. Such a changed environment
845. While lost in your
narrative
846. The past lay strewn across the present
847. Concerned with today’s appearance
848. In a grand gesture of sympathetic climate change
849. It has become perfectly clear
850. In a bouncing untethered clear sphere
851. In an impossible scenario
853. Frustrated at the outcome to what could have been
854. Frozen laughter shook the landscape
855. I lost you in the rear-view mirror
856. Finally time to fill this blank book
858. While waiting for the effect to wear off
859. As a lot less to much more
860. Out of reach gives strength and motivation
861. This morning the river of knowledge
864. Too busy to match yesterday’s
865. Morning tried to
befriend me
866. As a black and white painter
867. I received a dangerous driving summons
868. An un-assisted feeling of love over took a moment of
doubt
869. While constructing a new religion
871. Covered majestic peaks with dreams of
872. Being so ignorant for such a vital time
873. Too many interpretations of the way it was
874. At the grave of the unknown winner
875. I butchered the English language
876. Unable to define what I defend
877. So many declare themselves so different
882. In a definitive defining declaration
883. Girl with curls
swirls furls
884. Knowing life has been spent
888. Too often the dead taunt me
894. I became lost in my journey
896.I lost a poem but gained a set of words
899. We lined up in anticipation
900. I wish I had spent more time knowing you better
903. I promised you a magic carpet
904. The journey from dawn to sunset
905. In a gentler time the wind was playful
907. With nothing left to
interpret
911. I heard a herd of elephants
912. I overheard God speaking with a crippled beggar
913. I write self-inflicted poems
914. Being the last to hear the news
915. So often getting it wrong
918. In a fickle trickle of passing infatuations
922. Disappointed at the
array of colours
923. What needs wild
animals have
925. In a slow progress
of time
926. While erasing
non-sensible
927. Upon a jingle juggling jungle journey
928. A weed became the voice of my garden
930. Each day’s ritual consisting of changes out of control
933. A far flung favourite feature
935. Freed from falling forward
936. I reached beyond where I could imagine
937. In an ill-conceived notion of self-importance
938. Hopefully today will be remembered
939. I spent so long
setting down foundations
940. Watching winners become losers
941. As unfamiliar territory loomed across the horizon
942. Easily the wind blows true
944. After viewing my favourite conspiracy site
946. Extremes merge
blurry mirages
948. I am the tree in the
forest
950. Acting like a warrior king saint
952. We sacrificed
routine on the altar of change.
953. Trying to predict
the future
954. Instructions lost to
where to being
958. We pushed through these hard times
959. Glazed over passing memory
962. Little worthwhile was said
964. I upgraded my happiness to bliss
965. Funny patterns flash shattered shadows
966. There was never another way
970. When the weeds in my
garden
971. I watched snails racing across my garden
972. Sitting on my special cloud
973. I knew the way freedom seemed such a simple task
977. I gathered together my five favourite friends
982. I stocked up on magical memory moments
983. I got halfway through a shortened thought
984. Rapidly rotating random love
985. I have nothing more to remember you by
988. We tried following the wind
989. In a playful serenading performance
990. On my journey from your toes to your lips
991. I saw you in my
kitchen window
993. While counting the stars in the sky
997. The stats are in
Bk 4. P. 62
998. Continued stopped continued
1001. Mistakes filtering through so much perfection
1002. Laid here thinking how great it would be
1004. Today passed by without incident
1007. Fed up with my
greeting the dawn with
1008. Bouncing meanings
landed
1009. Excited by the
news of innovation
1012. In an empty corner
of time
1013. Collections laying
alongside the street
1014. I was improving
daily so rapidly
1016. With the end of humanity
1017. Observation for
the moment
1021. While thinking of stores to write
1022. Another great start to the day
1023. Unable to fathom what we wanted
1026. In an unpredictable
moment
1027. I cheered for the
losing side
1029. In the alley
behind the local robotic brothel
1030. We could have been
fantastic together
1031. Fortunate for my
imagination
1032. Long before there
was an after
1034. Concerned tomorrow
would bend over
1035. Shocked by the
unbelievability
1038. In search of a happy
thought
1040. Goodnight to the
morning
1043. Too sleepy to
conquer the world
1050. Tip-toed through her garden
1051. Not sure what I
feel is in-line
1052. Winds blew my
ripped-up memories
4. Those
beliefs that you defended so fiercely all your life
Book 3. P. 140 part of a group
5. I
still call my six-foot thirteen-year-old
6. Anger
toward you to create a villain.
7. I
tried to duplicate the me
8. Chilly chilly Pass the spring please Book 3. P. 92
9. I
enjoy entertaining my fantasies
10. I
counted on you to raise the flag
11. And
when they said it was going to rain
15. It
wasn’t my wanting you so
16. Like
any man playing with his trucks
From webpage
http://www.neuage.org/picture_poems/drinking.html
Celebrates come and go
Passing past
Our fading horizons
Pleasing moment’s entertainment
Soon replaced by the next
Fleeting famous one
But you and I
To one another
we are always
celebrates celebrating
All we are
Opening and closing
Windows into worlds we view
As passing pasts to a world
We will never share
As they pass us
Faster than we can imagine.
January 12 2016
I merge yesterday’s
scribbled thoughts
With photoshopped images
of today
So tomorrow can recall
the past
if then sucks now
needing replacements
from merged befores
12/01/16
Sitting on the beach
Island of make-believe
She passed by speaking
French
I was speaking gibberish
Our feet became
entangled
In the most foreign
way
Language never was a
barrier
Movement hinders time
But not in the sand
Wave after wave swept
us out to sea
Landing on rocks never
imagined
Waking in my hammock
on the beach
Hearing a distant
muffled voice
My wife saying
“Were you having a
dream dear?”
Bus Kep to Phnom Penh
1/31/16
I was standing at the
corner of
Ten before twelve and
ten after midnight
One foot in yesterday
the other in today
Looking for signs of
tomorrow
Watching traffic
by-passing
my grid-locked life
If only I could
remember the password
To retrieve my deserted
life
I would join others
In their detour of my
life.
I can see through the
thickets of time
Mountains climbed
When I looked forward
toward the future.
But did not see now
Valleys loved in now covered in thorns
Rivers of sunken dreams
Memories fading
Stolen by false beliefs
Empty and forgotten
Eyes open
Everything new
How exciting today
will be.
28/01/16 on bus Phnom
Penh to Kep, Cambodia
Looked for a new line
To test an old story
Seasoned echoes showed
me
As the last peasant on
the border
Of love and hope.
How could I tell a new
generation
my story when their
online story passes by
at the rate of a
thousand eyes per posting?
My life like my server
Too slow
With no views
Everyone likes their
own posts
No one sees my
sorry-ass avatar
‘An image of me
three-life-times ago’
When I was the first
peasant on the corner
Of love and hope
Now I just ramble
And become lost
In everyone’s
confusion.
1/30/16 Kep Cambodia
Erased yesterday’s
thoughts
Clogged mind
Needing a new data
plan
Abbreviated longings
in a world
Of disposable beliefs,
fleeting cyber heroes,
And dissolving avatars
I seek to juggle
Everything with
nothing at all
Stop the bus
Drop me off in a rural
dream
Pass past pollution so
I can transcend now
And merge with
A newly last week
discovered celestial body
That I will be in a
distant dream.
Bus Kep to Phnom Penh
1/31/16
The chimes of times
Quickly replacing
Tomorrow’s dreams
Of us being free
Like we were
Before chimes of times
Longing to forget
Block now
And futures too
January 12 2016
Re- writing
History
Of myself
Vanquishing my loser-
self
Championing the
victorious
New nation of me
So future times
Will celebrate my
winning self
Once I awaken
From the slums of me.
Kep to Phnom Penh
1/31/16
Universal love
Like any other
inner-galactic
Sporting trophy
Is an OK award.
I hope someone
receives one
So we can see what it
looks like.
1-31-16 Kep to Phnom
Penh
I wanted my poem
To last longer than
Two or three ‘likes’
In a fast passing
digital
Whirling dervish
social swirl
Of on-line
insignificance
So I had my poem
Tattooed on my thigh
In Khmer.
Foolish me
She spelt the word
Transcendence wrong.
Bus to Phnom Penh
1/31/16
Make page of images
‘Bitches and Bastards’
Retired school
teachers start
I wish I had thought
of that
I said to a rising sun
Covering naked island
girls
With blankets of
warmth
On shifting sands
That was once my life.
3 February 2016 Phnom
Penh
Applause at landing
I could hear them so clearly
Were they happy to see me
How did they know?
A gathering of the elite
The applause grew louder
Drums
Then a band
I could hear them as if they were on the same plane as me
I looked out the window
We were just touching down
I did not see crowds of people
But I could hear them
I was so excited
Felt so important
My moment finally arrived
I felt a tug on my arm
‘wake up dear
Take the headphones off we are landing”
It was someone else arriving on stage in my music
Not me in the dream of me
And once again
I arrived without applause
But glad for whatever comes next.
February 09 flight to Bangkok
Feeling so much pressure
Replaces the best I could do
Leaving me two bytes short
Of a perfect poetic thought
Bus to chiang mai 13/02/16
Downloaded your love
Implanted your touches
Embedded your fantasies
Freedom forever
Never being me again
Bus to Chiang Mai 13/02/16
Recycled dreams
Environmentally safe
You and I
On a distant galaxy.
Kampot, February 5 2016
Quietly love consumes somber truths
washing away liberal deficiencies wasted on youth
as the desires consummated in melting moment’s passions
produce life-long wants to return to when freedom
was an organism lasting for months
wasteful fantasies wished for but never relived.
21/01/16 Chiang Mai
Drawn conclusions
Interrupted creativity
Deconstructed parables
Myths overturned
I believed in us
History did not
Walking alone
On a deserted beach
Conclusions interrupted.
21/02/16 Chiang Mai – our apartment
Blended visions
Fluorescent sounds
Echoed feelings
Melting dreams
Taste of you
So easily imagined
Chiang Mai 21/02/16
I hid in the alley as crowds chanted
“free the dead”
Knowing I would not need to wait much longer
To be free too!
Chiang Mai 21/02/16
My dreams spilt out
Creating puddles of fast flowing colours
a tsunami
Drowning out my wishful thinking
Chiang Mai 21/02/16
Riding away never
knowing where
The dream always the
same
You at the end
Photo/Written:
21/02/16 Chiang Mai, Thailand
So excited
To hear you say yes
Again
If only I could stop
waking
From these dreams
I would believe you
21/02/16
Lined up
As if a pains free day
Equals a manifest of
freedom
I fail in my bid
To understand what
comes next
And throw myself
Into the lion’s den
To acquire the pain
I so do deserve
21/02/16
Love is a magician
Making me disappear
Each time it comes my
way
21/2/16
What I enjoy most
About being dead
Is being free of
beliefs.
January 12, 2016 Phnom
Penh
I became another year
older
It was not my birthday
I wore a new set of
clothes
Though I was naked
I breathed fresh air
deeply
I was in space
I counted my blessings
Because I was dead
January 12, 2016 Phnom
Penh
Will my poems remember
me
After I die
Like no one else will
February 6 bus to
Kampot
To dream again like
when I was an orphan
To hope again like when I had
So little for my children
To thank creation
Like when I was offered tokens of love
To believe again…
Sweating now in a void
Coughing in a vacuum
Cringing at my end
Wasted life
No way to do it again
Except to lie to myself
“yes you did well
Good on ya
Your ashes will be added to dustbowl
Sweeping these last days of a once
Feasible life
Away.
February 6 bus to
Kampot
The joy of this moment
Reflected echoes of pleasure
Of a night before
24/02/16 Chiang Mai
At the shrine of the
unknown god
I place a portrait
Of myself
To enhance
My unknownness
24/02/16 Chiang Mai
Too short the thought
no explanation
possible
limited
possibilities
love finally
24/02/16 Chiang Mai
I followed the
instructions
“how to become lost in love”
reflections of you
smudged memories
as mist settled
over a lost dream
of a restless past.
24/02/16 Chiang Mai
Past flashes pass
“crash bang” sang time
I recall what saw after all
sum total
composite composition
this moment’s future
reinvented past
pieced together
for tomorrow
22/02/16 Chiang Mai
Mechanical dreams
sprayed into our minds
no longer left to wonder
newly created me
such a good citizen
blended into
such a mix of you and then
now
me.
24/02/16 Chiang Mai
35. Calisthenics of love
I met her the morning
after winning the Olympic gold medal for
the calisthenics of love
A solitary figure shadow dancing
alongside a dreamless alley
lighted only by her breathing
My vision was
disconnected when
monks from yesterday’s temples
disrupted then interrupted me
as they caressed a sacred cow
chanting my names in broken dialects of nonsense
They looked like Halloween pumpkins rotting in the sun
lined up for a full moon festival.
I always get confused
between religious and secular orgasms
I pushed away the robed intruders
and touched the Olympic winner
But I was terribly wrong
my delirious perceptions failed me
there was no love no chanting pumpkin monks
I was just waking sober on yesterday’s crossroad
a foreigner lost once again
in a distant mist
hugging a stop sign.
25/02/16 Chian Mai
New page new book
knew life
few knew.
This moment so grand.
If only could recycle
it often
to become
a permanent now
Then all I would know
would be what I knew.
26/02/16 business
class to Singapore
Final
no more
close the door
open next
passages
death
birth
blank
future
the miracle of change
free to leave
free to enter
the future
wild as love’s first scent
27/02/16 Singapore
flight business class Singapore to Melbourne
Amongst the ashes
of past dreams
I found the will
to live another moment
and enter a new dream
27/02/16 Singapore
flight business class Singapore to Melbourne
Love a final
background
in my dying wishes
27/02/16 Singapore
flight business class Singapore to Melbourne
Sun broke through
cleared away clouds
your touch
now so easy to inhale
your scent
so easy to feel
your whispers
so easy to understand
now
before cloud-covered-hope returns
27/02/16 Singapore
flight business class Singapore to Melbourne
Home
island of memories
flying over
distant thoughts
vanishing
home now
above these clouds
pointing toward the sun
avoiding looking
at the ground below
my city, my street, my trees
my home
passing over
let me stay here
in the clouds
on this flight to elsewhere
27/02/16 Singapore
flight business class Singapore to Melbourne
Scientifically
we are not sure
if we are coming
or going
proof and theories are in flux
beliefs changing
However within the sphere
between
coming and going
scientifically we know
we are not standing still
or are we
27/02/16 Singapore
flight business class Singapore to Melbourne
Today ended
like everyone before
in excited anticipation
of what comes next
all that we are
so much more
tomorrow
we will be
27/02/16 Singapore
flight business class Singapore to Melbourne
I changed but no one
noticed
I changed but I looked the same
I changed I forget who I once was
now I am a statue in my chamber
blended yesterdays
waiting on nuclear storms to vanish me
so I can be born again
as me
01/03/16 45 Southey
Road Elwood
The journey’s end
proven successful
not by dreams fulfilled
but by distance travelled
and stories left behind
3/03/2016 147 Perseverance Road
Simple said in few words
simpler done with a touch
Waking in your scent
3/03/2016 147 Perseverance Road
I thought my love for you was a virus
now deleted
I am unable to reboot my life without you
3/03/2016 147 Perseverance Road
Yesterday’s sketch
wind traced motionless memories
outlining transparent centres
filled with meaningless reflections
of tomorrow kneeling undressed
beckoning fulfillment
“take me” I sing out of tune
“I am naked too”
but chaotic echoes laugh in the wind
saying my name upside down and backwards
in muted three-dimensional sounds
laughing in the wind.
So I get on to a bus
and cuddled up to strangers
who see me as an online outline
for a joke they want to play on a digital lover
No one colours me in
leaving me to start another day blankly
3/03/16 on bus to hospital to see Narda
I tried to escape the next memory
by pretending a favourite one would be next
not the one glaring at me for recognition
BUT
Morning’s magical mystical mist
made me be me
out of context without content
Just another cardboard cutout
along this winding dreamless cliff
where life pushes me over knowing what happens next
will be tomorrow’s yesterday’s memory
3/03/16 Royal Adelaide seeing Narda
We set the record
no winners ever again
losers
just a forgotten hashtag
at the end of time
equality set us apart
from history’s division
neither us
nor them
we have become
perfected segments
of a work in progress
a future completed whole
when each of us competes
for nothing at all
3/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
If you had waited to end your life
until after mine had ended
I would never have known
that I knew almost nothing at all
about you
and these past thirteen years
would have unfolded kindly
an unwrapped you
celebrating life that you tossed away
before we got to know
all you could be
3/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
While floating downstream
avoiding
rapids, falls, obstructions, extinction
I stretched imagination
to its breaking point
letting it burst forth
a rusty damn leaking
floods of sequential thoughts
drowning out crowed ideas
I tried to swim
but my arms and legs were wrapped
around a miscellaneous lover
leaving me no explanation
to why climate change rambles
past a cremated earth
that is no longer a topic of love forgotten
or why my dreams like my thoughts
are so fragmented, broken, breathless
and not held together by the confusion
I float through life upon.
3/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
On my way to now
I ran out of time and space
The moon rose
clouds formed
rain fell
I lay down in a field
to rest from nothing at all
if I awake tomorrow
I will continue my search
for time and space
and all I will do
with my new found reason to breathe
03/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
No one saw my creativity
as a reflection of a dream
they never had
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
I won the surprise prize
Another morning
to mangle
with my positive thinking
new-age reasoning
and frozen beliefs
of radicalized sameness
Hello yesterday again
Photo: 19/02/16 Kok River National Park,
Chiang Rai, Thailand
Written: 04/03/16, Vista, South Australia 147 Perseverance Road
Your love
a placeholder
in a digital
image editor
@ the outskirts of my life
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
She had the right-of-way
so I landed in the gutter
and waited for rains
to wash me away
04/03/16 car park Tee Tree Plaza
Nice body I said to the Ford
only to have a Chevy
slap me with a discrimination notice
for being such a blatant Leo
04/03/16 bus stop tee tree plaza
Each one of them stopped me in my tracks
to tell me what was best for me
so like everyone else
I created a God to follow
so I could be saved too
and do what is best for me
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Rd
Obscure as I may be
without me
I would never be
So lost in your symbolism
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Rd
I changed my vegetarian diet
to have saturated tastes of you
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Rd
Muted revolution
Change without sound
Change without heroes
Change without colours
Change without us
We did not hear
We did not follow
We were colourblind
We got left behind
Spare change at the dawn of the end of creation.
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Rd
I stumbled on my last poem
meaning aborted
pro-poem groups
stabbed me
with empty words
leaving me
to fossilize as unread
alone and defeated@ Gutenberg’s last stand
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Rd
I used the wrong font
to describe our love
making our text-life
misinterpretable
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Rd
I You Them
nothing at all
to re-post
re-tweet
rumours of beliefs
dreamed of
made redundant
by hackers changing tomorrow’s headlines
saying stop believing to be free.
04/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
Copied transparences
of your love
as imprints on my cells
your love sees through me
translation not needed
if only you had stayed
not traded your life
to be the invisible love
I cannot explain
but so often feel
though you are dead
you still live in my empty wanders
through this life
05/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
I believed it would work researched,
explored, tasted, failed
started again
deconstructed
reconstructed
obstructed
I would succeed
they turned and left
not knowing I succeeded in being alone
05/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
Poetically yours
I claimed:
for you
flowery verbiage
selected meanings
windy imagery
but nothing else
you will always live
in notebooks and sketches
the real you
I no longer touch
or wish to
your ashes
covering past memories
never forgotten
06/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
She fucked the world
because she wanted more than me
06/03/16 Royal Adelaide Hospital
As long as you
see me
being invisible to seven billion others
is OK
06/03/16 Royal Adelaide Hospital
Time lost me
in the valley of make believe
06/03/16 Royal Adelaide Hospital
Vanquished to a minor space
Deserted by the best in me
Forgotten during a time of remembrance
I roll over and play dead
in someone else’s’ dream
07/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
Where did you go
my wonderful child?
all the world you wanted
your dreams could only come true
to be a pitcher for the New York Yankees
would be your life you said when you turned ten
we worked every day after that for your dream to be true
In Australia few played baseball
they loved cricket we never tried
they loved surfing we tried once and almost drowned
they loved their footy we looked the other way
But you were to be a baseball star nothing else for you
seasons blended years of dreams grew
you signed and flew to Dodgertown
To me you were still my wonderful child
Age 17 was still the dreaming age for your friends
but to you it was life realized
I missed you those seasons away
I tried to track you so far away but I was lost in my own world
and your life was just a random glimpse I retrieved from the Internet
I missed your changing moods of youth
I missed throwing the ball with you every morning and evening
Seasons of your away I counted them knowing we would return
to father and son and dreams of the future coming true
Season One, Two, Three
We drifted apart but I believed it was only your becoming a man
and me trying to stop stumbling through my own life
You became confused
baseball and love were clashing they were on different continents
different dreams in hopes of coming true
You had just turned twenty
The day you left the Los Angeles Dodgers no one knew you were gone
flying to Sydney to try and save a youthful love
I too was in Australia that weekend finishing my PhD
a long hard earned dream in my world that you never knew I was doing
I was returning to New York on Monday
The message came to me two days earlier on Saturday
13th August 2003
My wife, who you never got to know, put her arms around me
“Leigh is dead”
I fell, disappeared into night, thirteen years later I still wait for you
You ended your life without saying goodbye
I held you at your birth, raised you with Sacha for eighteen years
your mother somewhere else far off in the shadows of our life
fighting herself in her own tormented dreams
I saw you again the afternoon of your death
your fifteen story fall stopped you from looking like you
your Topps Rookie Baseball card in your pocket
Where are you now?
Do you wish you had stayed?
or perhaps there is no more at the end of our life
All left is a broken dream stared at by us, the left behinds
A father waiting to see one more time
Thirteen years later I awake this morning
you once again in my mind
What would your life look like if you stayed?
A baseball star?
Grandchildren for me?
Movie Star?
Sports announcer?
Alive?
All the possibilities of life
wonderful child
the one who will never grow old
always never older than just turned twenty-years-old
07/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
73. In the often time of failure
In the often time of failure
I succeed in
I found early success in the morning sunrise
shining on me and no one else
08/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
Stretched across the horizons
riches of past dreams
spent before
morning absorbs night before
rumours of past and future lives
Dreams raining promises of us
being together again
But no
just wishful thoughts that life could ever be
anything more
than it is
stretched across
hobbled hollowed horizons without harmony
08/03/16 147 Perseverance Road
So many ways to tell the truth
I lied to morning to see
if she would notice
Looks like it will be
another stormy day
11/03/16 Adelaide 147 Perseverance Road
I reversed engineered your love
as morning broke out
in rhythmatic breaths
of wanting more
Often I seem to know
when you are near
your scent
your whisper
your longings
Desire always was universal
love just an add-on
a pop-up ad
an afterthought
to creation’s haphazard methods
of self-discovery
But you were one I could create
duplicates of
for when the world
no longer could breathe
miscalculations
leaving us breathless
desiring more
when none was available.
09/03/16 Adelaide 147 Perseverance Road
77. We
dream that we are awake
We dream that we are awake
making sleep
the only viable response
to where we were yesterday.
09/03/16 Adelaide 147 Perseverance Road
To late the start
letting go dreams
where to wake?
rushing toward a windowless future
closed too often
I took now as the truth
Silly me
left behind
by time and space
with nowhere to start.
09/03/16 Adelaide 147 Perseverance Road
Too few
for so many
determining what to appease when
masking where
but how
then there was none.
09/03/16 Adelaide 147 Perseverance Road
I was yesterday’s youth
misunderstood by whom
I became fifty years later.
09/03/16 Adelaide 147 Perseverance Road
So excited to be your shadow
waking in your dream
reflecting your laughter
dancing with your memories
Dying with you
damn!
I don’t want to be
your shadow
anymore.
11/03/16 Adelaide 147 Perseverance Road
Thought I would never be satisfied
· wanted at least two more moons
· longer days
· bigger planet
· less people
· more recognition
· longer to live
· three times more mornings in a year
· more resources
But your love satisfies and erases all
other wants
dreams tonight perfect
once again.
11/03/16 Vista 147 Perseverance Road
We connect at a higher level
top of the morning
wrapped together
beyond earthly logic.
11/03/16 Vista 147 Perseverance Road
With forgetting yesterday
today became worthwhile
and tomorrow like yesterday
forgettable
And the last seed
to be Planted
becomes what survives
when often the birds
have eaten all the rest
in this
the only moment
there ever will be.
12/03/16 Vista 147 Perseverance Road
I witnessed weeds bully my lawn
so I started a grass fire
it spread to the neighbour’s paddocks
to an uninhabited-sacred temple
to an ancient forest
a medieval town
to an important city
to my glorious end
oops!
13/03/16 Vista 147 Perseverance Road
Missed the moment
· Breaking moment
· Breaking news
· Breaking evening
Took off the brakes
rolled into dreams
new moment here I am
so much more alive
13/03/16 Vista 147 Perseverance Road
87. stopped moving forward
I stopped moving forward
world moved backwards
now caught up to each other
standing still waiting for the next big bang
you and I creating new worlds
no one can change.
16/03/16 Vista, South Australia 147 Perseverance Road
Rarely satisfied
morning
keeps starting again.
16/03/16 Vista, South Australia
It is only a matter of time
before the end
Before time
no end in sight
you and me wrapped only in our scent
16/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Dawn’s relatives
· Mist
· Rainbow
· Time
· Clouds
· Music
· Love
· Storms
· Life
· Death
· Light
· Darkness
· Us together
· Us apart
Me and dawn’s family
sometimes at odds with one another
Like today once again.
16/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Went into competition
with myself
And lost
18/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Mimicking creation
you and I
& the big bang
18/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Overcrowded galaxy
no space
to stretch my wings
no room
for you to love me
nowhere
to dream
Photos: 27/12/2005 St. Chapelle, Paris, France, Me 2012 Shanghai, hands = White Temple, Chiang Rai, 21/02/16 Written: 18/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Sun rose as a mistaken identity
desperate to veil
our night
before
before
day realized
we were on the run from our foreign past
Disguised passions
playing out in the zoo of life
Caged freedom
laughed @ by a % of #YouTube fans
& put on trial by hackers of life
in the mistaken identities
we often find ourselves in
Written: 18/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Desire’s perpendicular dreams
confused my momentary momentum
when trying to use an umbrella
to harness this strong wind
Blown away by your love
Cyclone Goddess of the Coastal-Morning-Rise.
Written: 19/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Walked into a wall
thinking the door’s shadow cast
was the way to you
Bruised now by inconsistent vision
and misinterpreted thoughts
I will limp into the future
believing it is the past
and thankful that I left reality
in the bin
with the other
rubbish.
Written: 19/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Book 1 P.07
Earth
just an experiment
by mice
(evolved mice)
from another *-system
to see how we would react
to various conditions
love, too much, non-beliefs, hate, not enough, beliefs
and an assortment of other variables
including
how we look after mice
I think we are in trouble
Written: 20/03/16 Vista, South Australia
To quote my lower self
I think my higher self is full of shit
Written: 20/03/16 Vista, South Australia
When you were a star
and I your shadow
the future was an exciting place
to visit
Now it is the past
You no longer a star
I no longer your shadow
and the moment has no bridge
between past and future or now
Dreams so far off
I wish I never had them to begin with
shadows and stars
and all that could have never been
swept away
like you did with your life
Written: 21/03/16 Vista, South Australia
On the way to greatness
I took a nap
no one noticed
so my dog took on greatness
got a hashtag
went viral
and I went back to sleep
how perfect is that
Written: 22/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Creation tried a different technique
now all life
ended
Written: 22/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Everything I do is outdated
ten minutes before I do it
Written: 22/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Snippets of facts
mingled with surrendered dreams
makes truth obsolete
and your love surreal
Written: 22/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Thawed love
frozen logic
life explained
Written: 22/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Step by step
no idea why
where I lead myself
always a mystery
Perhaps the next time
will take me back
to where I began
then I will see where I am headed
Written: 23/03/16 Vista, South Australia
There are things I am not sure of
said yesterday
to tomorrow
but if you come back
I may be of assistance
Written: 24/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Surrounded sunrise surprise
as if a prize
a trophy even
naked on the beach in my dream
melting away
before I could have a taste
But the thought lingers and haunts my day
that if only once
there would be a sunrise surprise
that would be real
for longer than a passing thought
I would be surprised
Written: 24/03/16 Vista, South Australia
The first should be last
and the last should stay last
Leaving first
as a place holder
for when at last
I get there
Written: 25/03/16 Vista, South Australia
When finally, I had nothing left to say
I listened until I became deaf from all of what was being said
Now I can only hear my thoughts
echoing off of my lack of understanding
as they absorb
any notion I ever had of making sense
before dawn shows me to the world
as just another lunatic
on the corner of deliberate
and I have no idea how to stop
what I did not have to say
Written: 25/03/16 Vista, South Australia
I like the way the pressure is finally off
to make ourselves
ü attractive
ü appear clever
ü act wealthy
ü educated
ü friendly
when we are dead
Written: 25/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Stories of past times gone
forgotten by all
only me left
to forward memories
Faded years of narratives
1911, 1090, 1915, 1912
my horizon covered with postcards
from the long-ago dead
family past almost forgotten
And from the 1980s
my son’s early computer games
outliving him but not me
I hold onto the past
so tomorrow will have
memories
Written: 26/03/16 Vista, South Australia
People of earth
developed and designed
to reflect
the defects
of designed development
Written: 26/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Once again set adrift
by runaway
emotions
a victim
of someone else’s
narrative
Written: 26/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Without translation
we cannot know
the mind of creation
which is why we don’t
Written: 27/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Worked through the playful part
o Love
o Spending
o Experiments
o Explanations
But stumbled on all the rest
o Love
o Spending
o Experiments
o Explanations
Written: 27/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Sort of a theme here
Took the easy way out
past midnight
left @ dawn
right @ you
escaped into flight
flying untethered
through life
into the open spaces
of my gone wild dreams
Written: 27/03/16 Vista, South Australia
No! Not me
I heard myself say as doors closed
surrounding myself
with
an atmospheric pressure
minimizing the space I was dreaming in
No!
Not me
wake me up
I can no longer breathe
my mind shattered from disillusionment
There is no time to lose because time
no longer exists
Written: 27/03/16 Vista, South Australia
I hid in my prehistoric disguise
but the joke was on me
no one looked
as they trampled my dreams
like so many school children
running through a rose garden
blood pouring out
from the thorns
drowning me
before I had a chance to change
my disguise
Written: 27/03/16 Vista, South Australia
god copied and pasted our solar system into
another galaxy
with the hope to watch a copy of me stumble and fall
like I do here
on the simulated new earth planet
for a bit of a giggle
but it was a flawed duplicate of me
that merged two success viruses
leaving out the multiple failure ones
Now I am the go-to-human
in a distant galaxy.
‘sucked in god’
Written: 28/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Based on what I never did before
with hunger
(almost desire starvation)
I reached into
then beyond
possibilities
foreign
territory
not imaginable
not survivable
too nebulous
for comprehension
Then the phone rang
Wrong number
I forgot what I was thinking about
such a trajectory of
useless thoughts
Written: 28/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Starting tomorrow
yesterday will be forgotten
gamblers only winners
lovers forgivable dreams
losers cloud-based storage fillers
wishes scientifically disproven
energy created and destroyed
our brains uploaded to disease-riddled mice
But for now
I will just explore today
reflected in your touch
unfolding in your scent
dissolved by your desires
Written: 29/03/16 Vista, South Australia
I use to know what I would do next
All so predictable
the wonders of tomorrow
no more than an equation
notes written in my diary
alerts in my calendar
scribbled notes uploaded to the cloud
bookmarked in social media
names tattooed on my thighs
poetry left in my will to a third-world charity
But that was the past
now I make plans
then delete them
right after
Such a thrill
Like being in love
for the first time
over and over
Written: 29/03/16 Vista, South Australia
Like any award-winning film
morning’s performance
constantly outshines evening
Though often evening gets honourable mention
and noon is somewhat questionable
like when I was adopted
Written: 02/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Too many letters
not enough words
left explanations
of you, us, me
scrambled
Written: 02/April/16 Vista, South Australia
The day I died flowers leapt out of their beds
Animals born Discoveries made New love unexplained
A distant star exploded and spewed cosmic dust
Stories shared Dreams came true
The day I died
was full of life hope
fulfillment
Though not for me
I traded my happiness for your love
you offered me
a thrift-store copy
a good for two, coupon
used and discarded
tattered and worn
lost and burnt
So I took my happiness back
Lucky me
it was still partially intact
so I could die with a smile too
Written: 03/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Memory of who we were when
drifting by on a fearless wind
taking me forward
memory still attached
tattooed in my mind
pieces from a puzzled past
falling from the wind’s furious fanciful frightening flight
I reach to collect what I can
But I forget too easily
how it all fitted together
the process never mattered
sections of time did
memories in the breeze
of we who we were when
Written: 04/April/16 Vista, South Australia (first in caravan)
Aligned
everything in place
so I turned
went the other direction
scattering
all beliefs
of the order of things
Written: 05/April/16 Vista, South Australia
I thought we were retired
sun-setting people
our day most done
stories told
past put on a shelf
future empty
like at our birth
rushing through life
now here we are
too busy
to know
why it was we retired
and the sun still has yet to set
Written: 05/April/16 Vista, South Australia
First impression
like morning and me
captured love at first sight
last impression
like fastly developed night and me
lost love
too dark to see
too cold to feel
too deep to hear
death is warm
life unknown
but I will try again
if tomorrow comes
Written: 07/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Each new day a mystery
like
what is discoverable
behind a new
lover’s smile
Written: 07/April/16 Vista, South Australia
132. At the height of
foolishness
At the height of foolishness
I fooled myself into believing in myself
False doctrines of how I should be free
naked along the shore
making love in the alley
floating amongst the clouds
laughing in a youth long past
now that I can dream again
I can believe in me
at the height of foolishness
Written: 08/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Leaf on a branch
outside my window
inside my sight
out of control
landing pad for flies
dew, rain, snow
changing colours
without desire
exhaling
Is there free-will involved
We cut the branch
making room
for more of ourselves
the leaf never complains
I sweep it into the trash
Who remembers
the life of that leaf
or its ancestors
or its fate
Does the leaf
have an afterlife
to look forward to
or like me
just is forgotten
if ever noticed
to begin with
Written: 08/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Watching time slip away
out the door
down the drive
around the corner
onto the freeway
past town
over the river
into the Outback
disappearing through the night
like love firstly found
Written: 08/April/16 Vista, South Australia
A reckless wind
tempting the sleeping river
whispering of changes
solitude’s stillness invaded
The river tried to ignore
feeling powerful in its calmness
transparent resistance
protests giving in to
inevitable change
The wind had strength
the river had power
the land was barren
no harvest in sight
The reckless wind
became obsessed with the river
tearing it from its ancestral bed
Flood destroying
Bridges picturesquely rearranged
Trees leaping into a radicalized river
torn from their birth place
drowning in sorrow
Stars hid behind clouds
refusing to bear witness
Foolish towns lost their now non-existence
I too once was strong
I swept through life
a reckless wind
only the brave could wave
everyone else turned another way
Now the river and I are calm
I see my reflection in the water
The wind just a cool breeze
like a lover’s vanishing touch
The past a storm
A story to tell
riding the current to I don’t know
where
Written: 09/April/16 Vista, South Australia
I took a detour
of your exploding love
tonight alone
Written: 10/April/16 Vista, South Australia
The feeling was mutual
I felt bad for feeling good
I felt good for feeling bad
A glass fell off of the table
I looked at the ceiling
A knock at the door
reminded me of a dream
I recently had run from
A distant voice
called the name
of whom I was long ago
I did not answer
Failure has tried to tricked me
often with incredible
success
I was too confused to notice
The feeling was mutual
but I do not know with whom
Written:
10/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Historically your touch
a healing refrain
without substantial substitution
unexpected
possibly eternal
though believable
lightened my moment
became my shadow
and infused possibilities
into my movement
without precedent
so I could again today
embed
your historical touch
in this quickly passing moment
I lost my creative function
so I went to the zoo
had a great ape
type out on my new electronic device a poem for you
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but it was too esoteric for me to understand
so I bought a computer program
that would write poems
but it only spat out how many 1’s and 0’s it had
in a most narcissistic fashion
tonight alone
Written: 11/April/16 Vista, South Australia
I changed my diet
so I would not keep repeating the same metaphors
similarly
I wore a new tie as a disguise
to trick my dreams
into believing in me
so I could walk in the Outback
And go back to walk in
like changing seasons
with a conman
for a moment’s magic
your love for me appearing again
Written: 13/April/16 Vista, South Australia
It was not clear at first
how set goals
Would find an audience
to my accomplishment
Now I see
it was barely a step
without end
toward nothing at all
Written: 14/April/16 Vista, South Australia
I changed my calendar to fifteen years ago
You had just turned 18 and on your way to stardom
an exciting career pitching for the LA Dodgers
I set my clock for six AM to be sure I got you
to the airport in time
for the flight
Adelaide to Sydney to Los Angeles to Dodgertown in Florida
Years of work and dreams wrapped in a package
for you to unwrap once you were there
A year later I went to see you
you felt alone
not sure of hour past dreams
being what you wanted anymore
I returned to Australia believing everything was good
you returned too
another year later
telling no one you had left the Dodgers
one morning to fly to Sydney to rekindle lost love
who found you in the morning
fifteen floors below on the street
And still now all these years after I still in my mind
see you going off your hotel balcony
your life passing you by in those final two seconds
Did you see me in sorrow for you
all these years after staring at my calendar
on the wall
with the day you first left
circled
Written: 15/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Fitting moments
large ones into small containers
small moments into large containers
contraction
expansion
quantity vs. quality
a bundle of love
for an explosive passing moment
vs. a little love
for so long
the Big Bang
proof of a moment
of released love
while galaxies living too long
die of boredom
and become Black Holes
ripping apart
fabrics of time
for us to express our desire in
Written: 15/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Letting loose the last grasp on reality
I floated away
like a whispering wind
disturbing a sleepy rainbow
into suddenly
letting its colours
bleed into the desert
changing the mundane
into lust
Written: 16/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Waiting for the next big bang
starting over
forgetting all that was before
billions of years down the hatch
but until then
one more saturation of you
with you will do
Written: 16/April/16 Vista, South Australia
I spent sixty-eight years
seven months
six days
eleven hours
twenty-two minutes
in preparation for this moment
I Googled, read books, meditated
ask common and non-common people
in social media and on the street corner
about this moment
But now here
standing naked in the alley
I have no idea what to do
Written: 18/April/16 Vista, South Australia
I was put on to life supportive system
You in my life
Written: 18/April/16 Vista, South Australia
Reflection perfection of morning
another dream
so I no longer will sleep
freedom
over life itself
Written: 18/April/16 Port Parham, South Australia
If only there was time and space
for the seven billion people of earth
to each receive the attention
that they deserve
I could stop hiding in the shadows
so I could be me for all to see
for just a moment
on this merry-go-round
that I fall off of so often
before being noticed
Written: 19/April/16 Black Point, South Australia
150. Where the sea meets
my dreams
Where the sea meets my dreams
I set sail for turbulent waters
to break a cycle of painful tranquility
And surely enough of course
I was rewarded with a tsunami
of non-retractable change
that strengthened my resolve
to never be calm again
Written: 19/April/16 Black Point, South Australia
While critiquing a thought recently shared
with me
by a woman who had just swum ashore
I was struck by the similarities
of our childhoods
How we had both
emerged from clamshells
in the midst of a midnight mist
of a full-moon in Pisces
with important concepts to share
I had intended to share my insights
with the mayor and other insignificant folks
Surely wisdom is only allowed to a select few
and it is the duty of us
who ooze wisdom
to embed others with it
But like all of us who have come up from the cove
in clamshells
I was given medication that confused me
while being placed in a padded cube
which I was unable to swim free of
Once again I am here stuck in cyberspace with no chance of land
Written: 19/April/16 Black Point, South Australia
Unbeknown to those who knew
along the shore
of less and more
past the unforgiving cliffs
where ancestors cry out only if
I would acknowledge what they gave
before my mother left me in a cave
to live on dreams and smoothies of organic kelp
I then would stop pleading for help
and new solar panels so my veggie-mixer would work
But at the end of the day a jerk is a jerk
And I will always be one of the few
unbeknown to those who knew
Written: 20/April/16 Black Point, South Australia
I heard the warning
“do not orgasm next to an open flame”
I coughed and proceeded anyway
On the jetty a dayglow sign blinked
“do not dive into love”
but I did
next to the sign
“no dumping”
she left me to rot
Being rebellious
I have learned life rarely gives a pause
to heed
before life’s demolitions
have left me
whimpering and whining
without merit
or any signs of regret
Written: 20/April/16 Black Point, South Australia
Snuggled up to falling rain
rooftop dancers
whisking away
built up yesterdays
I once feared the rain
now it enlightens me
pools of reasoning
drowning dreams of illusions
it keeps falling
I keep rising
somewhere we will merge
beyond umbrellas wayward warning.
Written: 20/April/16 Black Point, South Australia
Broken passage
next line swept away
the nature of nature
leaving us with a story undeveloped
no manual given
plug in turn off count to ten
when I was young
and had no sense
of purposeful direction
I developed a taste for the unknown
sprained emotions
tempered with recycled beliefs
there was no room for the absurd
that would come later
when I was force fed
tainted interpretation
so I live in the moment
the one that came before
when royalty seemed possible
perhaps even enlightenment
would be mine to surrender
morning came early this autumn
I listened to harmony synchronized
without reason
believing in the next line would repair
a broken passage for me to follow
knowing my fate is to endlessly ramble
and to lose myself in useless narratives
Written: 21/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
I chiseled my memory into the cliff face
only to have time and erosion
break it down into sand
where dogs and children peed on it
leaving nothing for future memories
to attach to
Written: 20/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
The transformational aura of a chance
forgiveness
cleared predictive change
letting fly free
karma’s twisted hold on a mistaken identity
releasing the weight of the past
so I can truly start anew
thanks again to yesterday’s dream
made manifest
Written: 21/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
I look out the window into the darkness
and see a stranger fading
the stranger looks back through the window
and sees my life
surrounded by darkness
Neither one of us perceiving the light
within the other
gradually replacing
celebratory shadows
Written: 21/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
Under strong advice from a herd of nice
mice
the annual bush fire fate
delayed destruction
to a more convenient time
Soon after tourists stopped camping
and leaving cheese flavoured beliefs
Then burn they did
flames uniting with the sun
cooking remnants of past indiscretions
along with the final words to this thought
Written: 22/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
Laughter mingled with evening breeze
the world in flames
tonight forgotten
laughter masks reality
laughter mocks sorrow
laughter heals the broken desire
tonight ripped free
from its tortured past
nothing left to do
but laugh with you
too
Written: 22/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
Shipwrecks along the coast
but not mine
your love
is my lighthouse
letting me
touch the rocks
but never enough
to smash apart
Sailing so calmly through our life
(most of the time)
Written: 22/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
816 full moons have passed my way
leaving me to wonder
how many new moons
will my life yet to know
Written: 22/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
Closing my eyes
I reached into the past
a grab bag of experiences
only to pull out
the same one as yesterday
· was it fate
· is it luck
· will it be my undoing
ü Should I run
ü maybe hide
ü stand and cheer
If I did yesterday again
would today then be tomorrow
if so
I will have my eyes open
and choose which experience
to redo
perhaps
the one of when we first met
discarding caution
social norms
running naked
into the future
with no limiting limitations
what a time
we will have
being free again
Photo/Written: 23-April-16 Innes National Park, South Australia
164. Absorbing fully the
moment
Book 3 P. 84
Absorbing fully the moment
The point
in having no future
is to have a future
with no point
future flying free pointlessly
Written: 23/April/16 Innes National Park, South Australia
I set the time to five-minutes before I
would appear in your dream
there was a southerly breeze changing the course of my hair
so artistically sculptured to a western direction
but I knew you would not care
I polished my thoughts to reflect the best of you
ironed the wrinkles out of my past errors
embedded memories of a past-life
when I was more than a common hero
and photoshopped an image of a saint over
a hologram of who I was yesterday
Your dream was short swift and accurate
You sat up smiled at me took me in
all my desires fulfilled
In your dreams
Written/Photo: 23/04/16 Innes National Park South Australia
In a transformative haze
secrets of life were redefined
discoveries assembled
evolution halted
beliefs cast to the wind
and we awoke
to the sounds
unrecognizable to all but the silent
to Those who were prepared
to take the next wave of creation
past the muddled hum of
the current crucified on earth
23/04/16 Innes National Park
This morning’s news
missed the story
of my transcendence
Today
Unknown
Again
23/04/16 Innes National Park
I try to imagine
what you would think of me
wearing your clothes
thirteen years after you died
would you laugh
think I was ill of mind
silly by all standards
or would you wish
you had decided to stay alive
so you could wear
them instead
23/04/16 Innes National Park
Refresh
reboot
restart
“why not”
said the morning
“today over again”
Written: 23/04/16 Innes National Park
I heard on the news
how two black holes merged together
What I wondered though
was whether it was love or just a passing fling
deep in space
Should we celebrate their union
or shame them
Because once they were different galaxies before converting to black holes
or perhaps just ignore them and concentrate on the trivia
we call life on this planet
this solar system
this galaxy
which too one day will be swallowed by a black hole looking for love deep in
space
Written: 23/04/16 Innes National Park
The plot thickened
as the story began
you and I
before the start of Act One
exiting the stage
to the applause of no one at all
and the cheering
of a plant dying in the corner
We waved
and emptiness waved back
So we did an encore
The empty seats seemed pleased
If it had it all to do again
I would have tipped my hat
and removed my pants
but until then
I will be content
that you noticed me
before taping me
to the ceiling
Written: 23/04/16 Innes National Park
Dreams tumbled in unison
out of their container
trapping me in another blur of reality
while sequences of colours
dissolved my initial waking
so I went back to sleep
tumbling
back into your dreams
Written: 24/04/16 Innes National Park
Waiting for change
change went on
disregarding directions requested
no motive known
no way to prepare
no result welcomed
change is creation
made manifest
Written: 24/04/16 Innes National Park
174. Heroes are nothing
more than memes
eight words
Heroes are nothing more than memes
without chains
Written: 24/04/16 Innes National Park
Morning yawned
would anyone notice
flowers bloomed
would anyone notice
birds sang
would anyone notice
the mysteries of nature unfolding
people digitally engaged
no one looked up
so nature stopped
and everyone died
Photos/Written: 24/04/16 Innes National Park
The past crumbles
as fast as this moment
and then the future (crumbles)
All that is built
but a passing monument
for us to see
those before us who lived and died
like those who follow
will to us
Written: 24/04/16 Innes National Park
To be lost on a path
is to find one’s freedom
beyond any path
Written: 24/04/16 Innes National Park
Through adaption
we become one
another shooting star
through this local moment
Written: 26/04/16 Corny Point, South Australia
Remove the distance
between childhood and old age
taking out the middle years between
touch that moment as if nothing between
so easy to do
just a leap and a jump
a whistle and a song
all that was between
never happened
then and now and no in-between
glad to be a child again
and no one can see
cut out all between
now and then
in this quiet moment between
Written: 26/04/16 Corny Point, South Australia
Fantasies Dreams Hopes Wishes
what an exciting life
a tree does have
Written: 26/04/16 Corny Point, South Australia
Book 3. P. 22
Up before dawn
a well-planned day
No time left
for the sun to rise
Written: 26/04/16 Corny Point, South Australia
“I didn’t set out to be the legs of a table
for stupid jokes
and beer to be spilt over me at the pub”
said the driftwood to the sea
after a tidal wave brought it
along with the pub
back into the sea
“But now I am happy for the experience
and insights of human nature
I gleamed”
said the driftwood to the sea
as bodies of the locals
floated by
with no jokes left to tell
Written: 26/04/16 Corny Point, South Australia
Carol Ann part 1
I remember you
what you said
dreams of a better life for us
the future would be so much better
It was the 1960s
the world was becoming better too
that new dawn we were all headed to
where flee it to
Our future never came
you drifted away
I rushed forward dragging too much baggage
blinded by what I thought would be
Your life
the envy of all
until your mid-twenties
when you faltered and wilted
then you died
Today more than forty-five years later
I think you are here
almost within reach
I want to call, text, like your profile
see your latest video
even go retro and send a letter
I know we look different
I am almost sixty-eight
a few grey hairs
not as fast
thinking is about the same
And you
dead for way too long
But I remember you well
always almost within reach
27/04/16 Yorke
highway, South Australia
Carol Ann part 2
We put a frangipani
into a pond
at the Honolulu Airport
1969
Locals told us we would return together
with our flower floating in the water
but we never did
Or do we
Me in my mind
You somewhere way beyond
this physical world
meeting often at the Honolulu Airport
27/04/16 Yorke
highway, South Australia
Impossible to embrace
past
Impossible to embrace future
Embracing now
Never before Never again
27/04/16 Yorke
highway, South Australia
Analytical contentment
swept over
what could have been a boring lifetime
providing an escape from caged freedom
so illusions of happiness
could run out of the gate
in a fit of analytical contentment
Written: 26/04/16 Corny Point, South Australia
Resting now
after travelling through past memories
exhausted actually
I could barely keep up with myself at times
Where did I get all that energy
Did I really believe what I said
to have love come my way
to get hired into jobs I had no idea about
raise children by myself when I was still in the clouds
How did I manage to get from one experience to the next
Am I alone in my memories
No one from all those decades remembers me
those few who are not dead
do not respond
Only I want to have anything to do with the
me of then
yesterday me
today me
tomorrow me
All of us best of mates
Until the end
Written: 27/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
I saw a bird try to be different
to be a non-conformist
try the path less traveled
not follow the flock
change an evolutionary flight
It crashed into a tree
all the other birds looked and laughed
then crashed into trees themselves
How stupid birds really are
Written: 27/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Error at the crossroads
confusion around the corner
lost my way
unable to be able
sabotaged by storm clouds
Forgot your name
so I called someone else
Always the way
lost at the crossroads
Written: 27/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
I wanted you to be more than a poem to me
lasting longer than some fading verbiage
stumbling across a scrap piece of thought
Structure and rhythm I dreamt of
shaping a vaguely tumultuous future
So I traded my wavering mind for a small pile of gambling chips
Then lost them too
Now I forget why
I ever wanted you to be more
than a poem
Written: 27/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
I tried to keep up with my youth
but it rushed ahead
then went through a broken door
I was blocked from
So I sat down in an alley
to grow old
Wondering how my youth
was doing on the other side
of the broken door that had slammed shut
so long ago
Written: 27/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Take away the motion of emotions
and we would have a much smoother journey
though maybe not
as interesting
Written: 28/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
I was stunned when I discovered Gods
were using my jokes, profile, and life events
as their own
in other galaxies
(as if I won’t find out)
But what could I do
when they always
have the last laugh
Written: 28/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Too much pleasure
leaves no room
for dessert
Looks as if it will be
gravel, sticks, and sour times
again
tonight
Written: 28/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
I thought it was just another average dawn
but with more than seven billion people
having each a different perspective
about the dawn
this one in particular
may not have been
to each and everyone
just another average dawn
as it was to me at my birth
Written: 28/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Ten minutes before I was born
I realized I wanted to stay
in the womb
so I did
and fantasized a whole life outside
Now I am happy I stayed forever
in my mother’s womb
Written: 29/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Poetry is more than
a thought rearranged
jumbled words sounding fancy
some dumb-ass being praised for word combinations
Poetry is me being tattooed on your thigh
in antique gold ink
Written: 29/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Broken narratives
sequential verbiage
textual vibration
Thoughts In Patterns
autumn colours of my mind
seasonal unfoldment at the end of time
reflected patterns
melting patterns
frozen patterns
life summed up then released in
Thoughts In Patterns
Written: 30/04/16 Adelaide, South Australia
My mum was confused when I was born
thinking I was a garden gnome
and put me outside with the birds
next to miscellaneous artificial plants
I grew and learned and started down the road
Before long I heard my mum ask the neighbours
where was her garden gnome
no one knew
I left
went south
then three other directions soon after
If there was another direction
I surely would have tried it because the others were crap
as I wandered and discovered stuff
it was clear
I was not a garden gnome
which of course never mattered
Yesterday at a bankrupt garden centre
I found no other gnome looking like me
so my mum’s confusion must have been based
on nothing at all
just as all my decisions since
have been
and now I know why
Written: 02/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
I watched plants
mostly weeds
grow between the blocks
holding my life together
Out of my ears, nose, mouth, and etc.
A result of staying in the same mindset
for too long
Looking forward to change
freeing me of
the briars and weeds
holding me back
Hello New World
Written: 02/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
While waiting on a new start
morning spun a story of intrigue
to a quickly passing promiscuous night
Disregarding an opportunity for surprise
· Cycles maintained routine
· Routines left town
· Seasons blushed
and a flirtatious moon hid behind
a brothel of loveless clouds
However due to a computer glitch
morning’s story
became lost in the cloud
The night returned
and morning went off
to reflect
an unfinished poem
Written: 02/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
We made so much of so little
there was enough light from your touch
to find a path
through this turbulent life
Written: 02/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Our love
an accident amongst nature
you and I
two bubbles
crashing
moments before
the end of time
together
Written: 02/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Difficulty with starting
Difficulty with maintaining
Difficulty with closure
otherwise today has all the makings of a meltable moment
Written: 03/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Without letters
words collapse
Without words
meaning bleeds
Without meaning
touch breaks
Without touch
life shatters
Without letters
we cannot start again
Written: 03/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Too short the dream
left me alone
to face a moment
raw in its infancy
Written: 03/05/16 Adelaide, South Australia
Lyell McEwin Hospital * 207 –
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I began ten-minutes before the end
races run and lost
erased dreams
blessings counted in single digits
fools fooled me
often
I have no regrets
and may be excited
at the end
to begin again
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Filled my time with thoughts of you
forgot who I was
now I am you
loving me
How good is that
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Syncing tomorrow’s embedded memory
and yesterday’s online memory
with today’s online post
no one liked it
Now lost in a digital night mare
of a conspiratorial hack
screaming
new-age (Neuage) slogans
at my gravesite
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Alarmed by sameness
evolutionary exchanges laid dormant
beneath frozen Surfaces
until we are ready
to let go so long
sameness and progress
to a level of oneness
life was created for
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
You sleep in my bed
when it was me who was dying
You dreaming
I can see by your smile that I hope it was about me
I stare out the hospital bricked-up windows
We are still alive
Nurses and doctors lined up
interlocking smiles
checking their timetable
waiting to escape in an disco-ambulance
searching for new blood to play in
I am writing your name on my arm
in case I blackout
again
and forget who I am
I will let you sleep
they have taken too much of my remaining good karma
to leave me alone
I sit here I don’t need a bed
I will just vaporize if the world ends
You will never know sleeping so peaceful
in a world
I am locked out of
once again
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
While reflecting on what was not my life
I watched success wash over islands of my barren life
I heard cheering at my disappearance
I felt the love from the masses for whom I should have become
But out of fear lost myself in foreign virgin forests
Why I embrace darkness now is to avoid
reflection
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
I was so proud to be
the person I would never be
I threw myself a party
surrounded myself with stuffed animals
sent invitations to my award ceremony
to all my favourite dead family and friends
Got naked in front of my finest oriental mirror
Liked dead celebrities’ profiles
and sent myself a surprise present
which I can’t wait to open
once I die
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
She waltzed into my room
short red dress
gathered together high over a tattooed left leg
(was my name there or was it an image of a youthful me)
blouse revealing twin peaks of past memories
Beckoning smile at the end of my bed
I waved back
rubbed my eyes
put on my glasses
revealing my hospital bed
nurse in white
needle in her hand
searching for a vein in a vein me
I sighed
closed my eyes and fell to sleep
counting the hours to my death
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
So close to end of life
so close to not thinking of you
so often
So close to end of life
you won’t see me
but I will see you one more time
at the last spark of my final breath
So close to end of life
our ashes to be mixed together
as I always knew
We will be cast to the wind
together
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
The reason I close the window?
I like the way love comes rushing through
my open door
To have an escape
would leave me alone
in the cold
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
The joy of being here
there
anywhere
Pretending where I am
is really a step out
of a destressing dream
I was having difficulty giving away
at the Our Once-Lonely-Virgin of our Lord and Saviour
of Broken Dreams
thrift shop
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
I offered my services to a fleeting shadow
on my wall
though in hindsight
after falling off of my high horse
and looking up
I realized
it was really myself attempting an escape
from wishful thinking
which dissolved when the sun rose
and showed me in my final lunacy moment
Written: 05/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South
Australia
Now that you are one with the wind
each cool breeze I feel is you
Surrounding me
with your love
I thought had gone forever
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Never could ride life with a saddle
clinging on
trying to keep my feet
from touch ground
avoiding banging into clouds
So far so good
if it all ends
I will never know
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
It is not my choices
are so great
just you liking the same
makes each
the pick of the moment
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Doctors set out
to change the terrain of my body
Put in various devices
Chop and change
Graffiti my soul
Reorder my structure
Send me back out
being someone else
I needed to escape
so excuse me
curled up on your sofa
pretending I am a cat in heat
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Stalled
standing in the rain
flowers happy
I am drenched
Neptune in Pisces
Everything as it should be
except for me
Attempting to use leaking good-karma
as an umbrella
to preserve a fleeting memory
washing away in the rain
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Expectations at the start of a rainbow
positioned to remain captive
If only we could meet
at its end
All between would be
a perfect storyline
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Without limitations
morning whispered warnings
of a passing time
so we would have an empty pocket
to store it in
for later use
after the storm
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Colourful sounds Surrounded touch This path
we chose
step-by-step
wrapped in a moment
Package deal
You and I exploring
without question
whatever we could breathe in
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital,
Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
A rainy afternoon in Halls Gap Grampians
Victoria
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
Scanned brain for alien-irregularities
Hat of wires
collecting electrical information formations
Eyes open
I saw a room of machines
and a cardboard-cutout technician
Eyes closed
waves of light
In a blurry distance coming into focus
you and me on a golden-scented shore
Every time I almost captured a focused snapshot of us
I had to open my eyes in preparation
for the next test
When the tests were finished
I asked the cardboard-cutout technician
if he witnessed what we were doing
on the distant whispering gold-scented
dunes
But he showed screens of graphs
Wavy lines with no images of us
What good was the test
It was not able to interpret my brain waves
How faulty technology really is
Written: 06/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
227. Love as an experiment
Love as an experiment
with it
without it
no other variables
statistics clearly favour
with
Written: 07/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Subtracting differences
we are the same
If only other nations could do the same
by now
we would all have our heads in the clouds
not just me
Written: 07/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Morning came early today
verifying
I was still alive
Written: 07/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
We were so superior
to all around us
that our reflection
in an illusion-smudged mirror
turned away and blushed
too
Written: 07/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
After realizing I had said it all
I learned another language
so at least the same I say
would sound different
Written: 07/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
Enough room for the rain
Enough room for your love
Enough room for dreams
this bubble holds it all
if it bursts
another big bang
all starting again
like we do each time we touch
Written: 07/05/16 Vista, South Australia
At the goal line
I scored with you
Fans looked skyward
wishing for rain
but we endure
against all odds
And when I awake
I expect
an instant replay
Written: 07/05/16 Vista, South Australia
232. Without your love
Without your love
I would be just another scarecrow
in the veggie patch
But now look at me
glowing through
darkest night
Written: 07/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Safe before birth
Safe after death
the space in between
a bit frightening
Written: 07/05/16 Vista, South Australia
I dreamt we were two wheels
on a bicycle
with experience
taking us out
for a noontime spin
Written: 07/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Juggle struggle
jungle love
balanced landscapes
alternatives abound
draw the curtain
on a simple life
time to fly free
of this comic life
Superheroes cosmic strife
so difficult being a saint (scan envelope from Chialeah)
as I struggle in this life
of who I should be at the start
of this fading new-age
Written: 07/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Following particles through air
does each have consciousness
A universe not seeing the bigger picture
you and I dashing through life
creating pockets of resistance
blowing particle universes out of their orbit
drifting fates
free will not a concept
for a long time
And what does our touch do
in the bigger picture
Two particles colliding
drifting
riding on waves
of light
bending in direction we cannot observe
from our minute place in the bigger picture
of the small picture we are yet a bigger picture
viewable only
by the small particle
at the start of this story
Written: 07/05/16 Vista, South Australia
While making a graph
of highs and lows
of touch and love
I spilt coffee
on my paper
blurring
smearing
smudging collidable data
So touch and love
equational summaries
were indistinguishable
So excuse me for needing to start again
this morning
with so much touch and love
It really is data
for my research
Written: 08/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Hopefully there will not be a nuclear war
as I would lose many of my
two or three e-book readers
Showing how deeply I care for
the needs of others
Written: 08/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Thankfully trends change
with often times
thankless trends
taking their place
Take morning for instance
without love
the trend to turn to night
would be unexplainable
Written: 08/05/16 Vista, South Australia
To be lost in the maze of love
haze of love
days of love
Is the path
of being found
in love
Written: 08/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Ritualistic fulfilled desire
love’s proof
of a spoof
confirmed
Written: 09/05/16 Vista, South Australia
An over calculated moment
storms unexpected
love thundering by
last gasps before surrender
Surgery of the lower dream channel
Inserted implants
to mute wayward thoughts
Now it only rains
clouding memory
short-circuiting
an over calculated moment
Written: 09/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Galloping hope
dawn’s charade
before mid-day
melting transitions
no one to be left
to realize dawn’s game
left fading
at the doors of tomorrow
too soon to limp away
Written: 09/05/16 Vista, South Australia
With no physical distance left between us
death made you
always at my
fingertips
Written: 09/05/16 Vista, South Australia
With death
you forgot me
but not me
you
Written: 09/05/16 Vista, South Australia
I filled a mold with dreams
and put it onto
the front porch
so neighbours
would see
that there was more to me
than meets
their eyes
Written: 09/05/16 Vista, South Australia
Took time out
to get
to know myself
sixty-eight years later
I still don’t
Written: 10/05/16 Vista, South Australia
I wanted to gamble responsibly
took your love
for granted
Woke this morning
during the discovery phase of
the slight reality
I call my life
and found I had lost
But not to worry
loss is but a reminder
of what I could have had
so I bask in a memory
that was once
a reminder
Written: 10/05/16 Vista, South Australia
I wrapped several memories
in glow
others in neon
some random ones in shadows
Surprisingly
during a routine
operation
the wrappings dissolved
leaving me with
raw memories
none of which mattered
Written: 11/05/16 Vista, South Australia
I cast a dream at the
crossroads
drifting out to sea
bouncing toward town
climbing up the mountain
twisting around your love
At the crossroads
dreams became fragments
I stayed
Nothing was retained
Drive-through love
much more stable/in-depth/profound
than
·
Cyber-love
·
Back-room-pub-love
·
Jungle-love
·
Mile-high
love with a foreign speaking stewardess
·
Ritualistic-love
·
Dance-floor
love
·
Zombie-love
But never as
honest
as alley-cat-love
Fanfare at the start
of our love
and all these years later
continual
orchestrated
symphonic moments
celebrating our touch
at each direction
we become
Written: 12/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Settled
unfamiliar with this colour
not sure about this sound
do not understand
this feeling
living a life
unexplainable
Written: 12/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
When time bended back
on to itself
folded memories
twisted space
and atoms grew with
the thought of love
I heard echoes of your whispers
vibrate through both past and future
simultaneously
making now
forever more
without ending or beginning
By following the end to its beginning
the essence of love
was captured then released
to create a perfect
spiral cycle
with you and me
in its midst
Written: 12/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Once back in order
morning’s obsession
with evening
sparked an endless
discussion
of how direction
enslaves
and why with what follows
is a bias of nature’s
orderliness
Leaving chaos
confused and randomness
at odds with itself
Written: 12/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Put on a disguise
went incognito
grew a bead
changed my hair to polka dot
funny glasses
got a new name
tried some new-age thinking
became a vegetarian
moved to Australia
drove a fancy bike
had children
planted a garden
Still my karma found me
recognized me
Tonight sleepin’ in the alley
hungry for dreams
never to come true
Written: 13/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While looking forward to tomorrow
today came and went
and I missed it
Looking forward
to tomorrow
to do today again
because I missed it
Written: 13/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
258. If it wasn’t for the
same technique
If it wasn’t for the same technique
I would not be able
to make the same mistakes
over and over
surprising my critics
and leaving me bewildered
Written: 13/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
259. The day after I
forgot my name she called me
The day after I forgot my name she called me
I did not know
now in old age
I would be reminded
about a youth I lived and now
would probably remember
if only I could recall my name
and why she is calling me
or whomever I am
with a muffled voice
blowing past me
on this wicked wind
of distorted memory
Written: 13/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
My father was a world-class explorer
He discovered my mother
raised the flag
staked a claim
sounded a salute
But like all great explorers
there were other places to conquer
‘Why set up a settlement
leave her to the next explorer’
my dad probably often said
So my dad went forth eventually
quite soon after I came along actually
to start colonies in other lands
My mother did too
Life without me
After tiring of being an orphan
I too became an explorer
looking for mum
looking for dad
looking for life
Along the way to Never-Finding
I discovered a lot
all of which I passed on to No-One at all
So she would not spend time following
the same path as me
with never a result too
Written: 14/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
261. While waiting for
life to load
While waiting for life to load
morning to re-boot
the virus of last night to be removed
I planted a garden
of new hope
mulched with dreams of a better time
You and I before you died
Written: 14/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Morning laughed at night
‘now is my time’
as night snuck
away
under a cloud of suspected secretive suspension silently
Written: 14/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
You live in hope
I live in dreams
together
cares of the world
beyond our free to love touch
always knowing
tomorrow
will be so much finer
Written: 14/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We talked about times no more
we can have
As if we could
step into the past
and never get to where we are now
Reminiscing
and talking about
where we would be in the future
Which would never have been
here
Written: 14/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
265. Raced through
Raced through
No stopping
Focused
Fading distant start
Clear the finish
So exciting
Only issue
What to do
When there
Written: 14/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Great people
have time to be great
We common people
are too busy
Written: 15/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
My life
a shrine
to
the unrealized dream
Written: 15/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Because morning
has no one to please
no one to judge
no one to doubt
everyday
so original
Written: 15/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
269. God was created
God was created
to blame
to praise
to fear
to thank
to request
to love
to hate
To morrow
we will create ourselves
so the God we created will have
someone
to blame
to praise
to fear
to thank
to request
to love
to hate
Written: 15/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Clouds moved in
unexpected rain fell
sunny prognosis now
you through
an open door
protection
from anything
nature
sends our way
Written: 16/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Streets we once laughed and played in
changed
New buildings
different traffic patterns
foreigners filling sidewalk cafes
not there when we were
Memories of us together momentarily replace
the present unwelcomed scene
I try to focus on them
Horns beep People yell
I am in the middle of the street
laughing and playing with you
But then we’re not
I limp to the sidewalk
tears blur my vision
If only you had not taken your life
I could text you
email you
Facebook you
about being caught
standing in the middle of a busy street
thinking about
a moment we had shared so long ago
and again today
Written: 16/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I wanted to chart our moments
To navigate past Saturn’s stubbornness
and Mar’s desires
Planets merged we didn’t
Futures without prediction
Making it up as we go
So much easier without a chart
Written: 17/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Silhouettes quickly dissolving
along this horizon
replaced repetitions
of misplaced harmonies
Shadows grew
dreams diminished
peacefulness fell
discord arose
what a time to party
When balance has no rhythm
and life merges
with silhouettes upon our horizon
Written: 17/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In perfect proportion
clouds filled the space between moments
covering
you and I running through the sky
invisible to judgement
by an ill-tempered
approaching storm
Written: 18/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too tired
to even dream
of love
Written: 18/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I came second
in a race
with myself
What a disgrace
for a shadow
Written: 18/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Frolicking cells in the bottom chamber
of my heart
Not sure if it is from
thoughts of you
shock from not seeing you
or just the faulty vales
I have
that the doctor is shoving
a pacemaker in to ameliorate
Written: 18/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Chosen
this for that
here not there
freedom over slavery
yesterday over slavery
yesterday replaced today
the best choice
ever
Written: 18/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Dream snippets
spliced together
packaged
carried away
in a wind
for me to navigate
an unpopular tomorrow through
Written: 18/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I thought my love for you was sustainable
until I awoke
You were not there
and my pillow was on fire
I ran out the door
swam to a neighbouring island
saw you swimming out to sea
Now stranded
I have only a few coconut shells
to spell out my demise
on this deserted beach
Written: 19/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I had a significant consciousness-opening
life-altering
Self-enhancing
epiphany
But she passed
Before I could remember
who I was
Written: 19/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your life
was my life
Neither no more
Written: 19/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
283. Preparations
Preparations
every detail
nothing left to chance
perfection in the making
no one informed us
we slept in
morning came
we didn’t applaud
the dawn of a new age
we missed it
Written: 19/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a disruptive moment
love
sailed away
Written: 20/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Along the ridge of my dreams
I galloped away
from wakefulness
fearing discovery
I was not a warrior
would end my reign
of this life
I live amongst the clouds on the ridge
Written: 20/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In the least amount of time
yesterday
catapulted
over today
tomorrow reborn
Written: 20/05/16 Vista, SA
Book 3. P. 104
As I thought it would be
A scenic lineup
of drifting thoughts
pasted together
as my life
at my last breath
to recall in a dream
in some future life
Written: 21/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Sky screamed
River chuckled
Highways rambled
The way to you
difficult
The way without you
impossible
Written: 21/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
A chocolate covered dream
ruined
any chance of a diet
of realism
you not with me
Written: 21/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Such drama
If only change was calmer
I would welcome
what I cannot control
and be free
of this quickly
evolving life
Written: 21/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unfortunately each iteration
disproved the one before
scrambling
my reasoning
as I lay in the alley
Believing I was
sunning myself on the beach
Written: 22/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Book 3. P. 15
Unable to locate the key to success
failure slipped out a side door
and visited me
so as not to go
into tomorrow
alone
Written: 22/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
293. All that you could
have been
All that you could have been
never having a chance
at any
leaving life by choice so young
so we
the left behinds
could only imagine
all you
could have been
Written: 22/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So many connections
We talk
about nourishment
I would rather eat a handful of strawberries
Leave the connections
to the unconnected masses
Being disconnected
and full
is plenty
and all I could ever want
Written: 22/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
The plane crashed into the sea
Do we mourn our loss
or celebrate
their freedom
from an imprisoned earth
Written: 22/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Only I knew it was my turn
sun rose
sun set
I waved
The seagulls took my turn
no one saw
so I will wait
until it is my turn again
three-lifetimes hence
on a distant
solar system
so great are my chances
If only I could wait
Written: 23/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I thought love had gone cold
but it was just my coffee
left over from a time before
and a cool breeze
coming down from the hills
causing a shiver
I had not foreseen
Written: 23/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
298. Love’s mask removed
Love’s masked removed
dissolved longings
detoured hurdles
freed logic
and left me wanting
more
Written: 23/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Genetic consciousness
spliced with caveman desire
begat a myth
revolution
you and me
and every story
possible
Written: 23/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Waiting on a phone call from god
checked my email
twitter Facebook
messenger
snapchat
Instagram
as well as 73 other apps
Nothing
Next month
when I go back outside
I will see if god is using smoke signals
to tell me I exist
Written: 24/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So surprised to be at the same
when all had
assumed
to be at so different a places
More like a reflection of once before
than a shadow of what could be
So thank you
this moment
for letting now be so perfect once again
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In the future
when everyone else
forgets today
I won’t
and will do it again
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Random thoughts
hidden amongst fading memories
each a surprise of once were possibilities
Some nourished
others packaged
and sent off to sail on foreign ideas
the best saved to appear
as tokens in the breeze
at the end of time
not long after yesterday
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I traded love for desire
what a traitor
emotions are
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I went missing
no one noticed
after running circles
around maybe who I was
the sky settled
rain cleared
I found a mountain lake
with my reflection
I dove in
and found myself naked at birth
again
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Expectantly
nature stopped
humans didn’t
life no more
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We do today
which tomorrow
will quickly reinvent
to learn change-adaption
as the future will not embrace
today or yesterday
but only then
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Ideas replaced books
on the shelf
leaving dust to settle on
somewhere else
less narrative
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
A dream drought
created a perfect reality moment
A world so clear
in a most surreal fashion
where dreams and reality meshed
surrounding me in a mist
of first born scents
Written: 26/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
310. Numb to now
Numb to now
Pain a while ago
They cut me open
Played with my heart
Inserted
defibrillator-pacemaker
who knows what else
I tried to focus on a past dream
when my heart was poetic
nothing came and went
Not sure about the nature of the physical
Time to chill
But I want to dance
that is the nature of the physical
Take good drugs
to make bad pain float away
The best part of life
is the escape from life
Written: 27/05/16 Lyell McEwin Hospital, Cardiology Unit, Elizabeth, South Australia
The pedestal
we placed today upon
dissolved into tomorrow
with variants of rainbows
capturing our imagination
creating a new pedestal enhanced day
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
By sleeping through today
I forgot an opportunity
to do it over again
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I downloaded today
as an app
from the tomorrow store
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
With an average of eleven memories
per hour
the past got bundled into one
travel into tomorrow-sized package
So we could travel in first-class
on an economy budget
all the way through the mountain pass
of another dreamless night
alone
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
With you as a basic ingredient
I feasted upon a royal
banquet
of endless pleasure
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
316. I did every single
one
I did every single one
leaving none behind
Now I stand in awe
watching others
pick up after me
laughingly proclaiming
‘he missed this one’
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While jotting down
notes of how to rule the world
I noticed that testing was not allowed
while driving
so I stopped
knowing the loss the world would receive
but felt proud
I had followed the rules
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
318. Without morning’s
fickle startup
Without morning’s fickle startup
everyday would start the same
without interpretation
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
319. I went to sleep
looking at a photo of you
I went to sleep looking at a photo of you
so it would appear in my dream
as once-we-were
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
By stretching the truth
I managed to believe
more than I had ever before
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
321. I thought it was a
metaphor about my heart stopping
I thought it was a metaphor about my heart stopping
until I awoke from surgery
and felt the mechanical tools
plugged into my heart to keep it going
long after love has gone cold
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
322. Losing becomes
victory’s favourite
Losing becomes victory’s favourite
pastime
as gutters and alleys
fill with the unforgiven
and memories of you
Written: 29/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
A radical moment
discovered the purpose
of a reason to disrupt
an ordinary space
in time
Written: 30/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too bare the winter
shivering
in embarrassment
that Eden is covered in snow
and the Outback
left naked
to face dawn’s
suspicious smile
Written: 30/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Farmers smiled
as skies grieved
and cloud tearfully
covered the parched land
with healing rain
Written: 30/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Proclamations absorbed
directions desired
leaving us
to dispute wisdom
as a guiding factor
of creation’s evolution
We could have not listened
gone forward
as if our vision
was warranted
But with the herd
we trampled
any chance of creative direction
and limped defective
into a future
scripted by the self-appointed
elite
who stole our birthright
and left us
sniveling along the side
Written: 30/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I stumbled on an idea
that left me as a bruised and battered
narrative
with no concluding storyline
to these non-rhythmic chapters I live
and worse still
no troubadours in sight
to carry on such a tale
Written: 30/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
My proposal:
Cover telephone towers with chocolate
top with organic cherries
Recognize my saintliness
Take the dogs surfing
Paint fences tree colour
Educate dead politicians
Let children destroy silence
And make dotted lines legal
Anything else would prove a conspiracy
of rulership by aliens
creating an environment unsustainable
Written: 30/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I tried living life in the space between
two dots
Then the rain washed away
one of the dots
and twisted the space I lived in
Preventing
my imaginary world
from turning back on
the street lights
so I could see
my life dissolving
in the loo
Written: 30/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I was on the wrong side
to learn the right thing
Proving learning
has little value
Written: 31/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
The paranoid dawn
hid from an alien night
trying to embed
a past memory
of unfulfilled desires
while she slept
cloudy day ahead
Written: 31/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
332. Bouncing about
Bouncing about
Ricocheting off of what could be
Thrown against
too many what ifs
Cast into seas of doubt
Torn by thorns
born of fears
So excuse me
for not following
or believing
while I lay here
in the karma of my ancestors
who no longer worry about anything
except that I may redo
what they undid
in an ancient dream
Written: 31/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Thoughts of you casting shadows in front of
each step
I take
wondering where
you are leading
Whether I will ever catch up
or always
just out of reach
as you were
just before you tossed your life away
Written: 31/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Book 4. P. 64
Food for thought
left me hungry
and malnourished
Written: 31/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
After gathering most of it all
together
I created a hole
as a receptacle
and waited for a UFO
to neutralize my efforts
so I could donate it to the local museum
as a Halloween prank
Written: 31/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Weeds in my garden
often dream of becoming
beautiful flowers
picked and placed on the Queen’s table
Silly plants
they have no concept
of reality
and should stop pretending
as they choke to death on my weed-killer spray
Photo/Written: 31/05/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Words replaced feeling
Saturday’s magicians
played a hoax
on Sunday’s love
making me feel OK
to be without us
again today
Written: 01/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
“I will be right back”
evening screamed
running behind
a nuclear sequence
Evolution will start again
then evening will return
to party
millions of years from now
with no memories of us
Written: 01/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
339. No attempt was made
to record the change
Now being lost
is the new being found
Written: 01/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Creation beganwith a series of sticky notes
stuck to the wall of time
Now as they lose
their stickiness
we will have to figure
how to keep
things going without instruction
Written: 01/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Barely halfway
through the start
the end waits
laughing at our indiscretions
Written: 01/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Such a distressed tree
every morning complaining
to me
about never achieving fame
not having any Facebook friends
no recognition
not having enough water
not able to rest because of shrieking birds
being jealous of the neighbour’s flowering tree
the day she lost her leaves
and on and on
day after day
so I chopped the tree down
used it in my fireplace
to warm myself as I sought fame
social media friends, and quenched my thirst
with fancy cheap champagne
Written: 01/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Now she wants me:
whispering romantic lyrics
catching me seeing her
in the corner of my eye
scent my path
with THAT perfume
hums our favourite jingle
laughs at my jokes
If only she had continued
instead of killing herself
thirty-years-ago
I would be more attentive
to her innuendos
Written: 01/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While reframing today
morning swept away dreams
leaving only us to glow
together
at the edge of time
Written: 02/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Lined up ready to go
cleared paths
no hindrances
the marathon began
social media was a buzz
one-by-one
the grass started to grow
Written: 02/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Dissolving walls no hints of resolution
When I was a child I had a plan
to free the forest
I too would escape soon after
following a path yet to be determined
I may have taken a detour
before I had learned to read the signs
Somehow I became lost
I can hear beyond me being all still
a muffled sound
quieted by an abstract wind
“this way mate”
I turn then it changes direction
Nothing is predictable
though now that the walls are crumbling
I may yet remember my plan
to become free of this life
I and the forest are tethered to
Written: 02/06/16 Vista, South Australia
Photo: July 2009 Castello Estense, Ferrara, Italy
Deconstructed love
values minus feeling
shaped enhanced in extruded desires
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
If I could do it over
I would have had my eyes open
when you dug a hole and went into it
just to see what direction
you would come out of
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
On my way to Shakespeare
I wrote something else
An unremarkably broken-sonnet in its own right
but quite contentious
in its obscurity
for future generations
to easily forget
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Disappearing into the midst
we could all see through the dream
leaving us all on the horizon
naked in thought
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
A slow start
but eventually
excitement grew
to overtake
such a sluggish start
to our awakening love
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Abundance’s regrets
no one left
to re-performance with
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
353. Failed to understand
Book 4. P. 58
Failed to understand
Now the conjunction
of Moon to Saturn
You to Me
Us to Them
has no bearing on my life
or whether tomorrow will rain
Leaving non-us to cry in the dawn
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While replaying a memory-film
in slow motion
I saw how our first kiss
swept away all thoughts
and filled this time capsule of then
with volumes of fulfillment
replayable
again
today
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We finally die
when we have filled our memory bank
with all we can carry
into our next non-life
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
356. Only one last
Only one last
left
all else
must come before
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Not ready for the change
making the change
so much easier
to experience
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
358. The robot that was
created
The robot that was created
to replace me
went on strike
leaving me
with it all to do
again
Written: 03/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unexpectedly:
Needs faltered
Desires crumbled
Dreams took flight
All plans set aside in haste
So excuse me
Any resemblance to making sense
Ushered out by the mist
Now I laugh freely in non-committal fashions
blindly ignored by the passing elite
but highly sought after by my Higher-Self
as an antidote to whom others deem I should be
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Challenge misinterpreted
Left the victorious asleep
on the side-line of dismantled hope
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Threatened by the extinction of
feelings
Archaeologists stored them away
for a future time
when love will be lost
to all
But observed by youthful robots at the museum
of once-upon-a-time
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Soon after life on earth
was recognized as a novelty
in our local galaxy
it was packaged, marketed, and sold
at a little known random market
in an alley between two dying star systems
to the left of Andromeda
and that is why we are all
still alive
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
What will be
could have been
if only time
was more malleable
so as to curl over itself
then inside out
and reverse
what could have been
to what will be
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While watching words float by
I snatched a few that were incoherent
so I could write
this sonnet
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Humans were domesticated by cats
long before dogs
came along
to spark
religious intolerance
in those while believed they were in control
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
To chance the sail
horizon line readjusted
love on the deck
desire burns free
shore distant memory
Written: 04/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
367. Mapped a way
to restart with secret labels
hidden beneath smouldering rocks
where I could stumble over
if at the end
Then the rain fell and my map washed a way
Now every day
I imagine where I would be
if I had not started
Written: 05/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
Dissatisfied with the
laws of gravity
believing they were part of a larger conspiracy
set in motion
by intelligent rodents of an alien planet
the protesters jumped off of a cliff
to prove their conspiracy theory
and became food for rodents
So their theory was proven to be true
Written: 05/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
What we lost gained
momentum
without reflection
as the miracle of change-booted moments
blew away in the wind
Written: 05/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Without magic
swirling colours
have no chance
to solidify into solid constructs
to live our lives in
Written: 05/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
I reshaped my life
so it would fit through a crack in the door
Now on the other side
the applause I hear was not for me
so I slid back through the door
so as to have a quiet refrain
in the rainy shadows of now forgotten
this misshaped life
Written: 05/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Scribbled thoughts
portraits of us
washed away in the rain
Written: 06/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Times before
mixed with times after
a perfect recipe
for a Saturday dinner-party
alone
Written: 06/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
All you could have
been
baseball star, model, actor, writer
all round great dude
handing me grandchildren on weekends
All you could be
more than ashes in a box
holding up my computer monitor
Leaving me lost in all that
could have been
Written: 06/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
375. You and I
a shocking new age conspiracy
leaving secret societies
gasping for air
in a backroom of our dreams
Written: 06/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
376. I do not care about
living in a zoo
as long as no one else
believes they are too
Written: 06/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South
Australia
Life like love lingers longer
properly nourished
Written: 06/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
My secret lovers
are my memories
I sneak out and visit
when no one is aware
Written: 07/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
Re-invented memory
Today so different
Now I can be who I could have been
if I had been different
than who I am now
Written: 07/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
379. I followed you to the
end of my dream
Now awake
I try to get back
to where you were
going
Rushing off beyond my reach
Always close
but never touching you
who once shared with me the space
of the living
but now just distant areas
of my dreams
so unreachable
Written: 07/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
380. I was so far from the
truth
I almost believed in myself
twisted tales of the way it was
is
just a reminder to stay clear of the truth
when it is blocking a healthy lie
such as
the sun rises each day
to light our way
lighten our way
when in fact
there are no correlations
Written: 07/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
I stretched my mind
to the breaking point
trying to imagine
life before
life after
me
Now in Nano-chunks
my mind floats through random spaces
over broken horizons and into elastic times
hopefully
gradually regrouping
within shattered boundaries
of wishful desires
unfulfilled
Written: 07/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista,
South Australia
382. In the distance I saw
my past
Book 4. P. 44
In the distance I saw my past
rushing toward me
to be repackaged
recycled
regretted
Written: 07/06/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I took a day off from being me
What an interesting error
No one knew who I was
Dogs that I thought were friendly
now growled
The postman took one look
then put my mail in the neighbour’s box
My wife asked who was
the stranger at the table
My children rang the police
Mirror cracked, my pacemaker stopped
My chickens stopped laying eggs
Social media shunned me
The FBI, CIA, secret societies and others
tracking me
stopped
It has been a good day
I may try this again
tomorrow
Written: 08/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Silence beckoned an evening calm
to become master of change
and for the wind to rest for a duration
In response the calm was shattered
like love swept youth
and as in antiquity
wind swept clear all that was present
Written: 08/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Spark of desire
frees innocence
of timid existence
whereas flame of desire
ignites unstoppable
passion
Excitement in my life
Written: 08/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
386. You cried I laughed
often
seldom in sync
rain sun
mountain beach
How love held us together
same as what holds
the cosmos together
Written: 09/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Soon after I died
you texted me
that I was the one for you
Thanks dear
Written: 09/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
388. So many theories
beliefs reasons
to choose from
Mix a few
shake together
merge beat and blend
They work on getting others
to believe the same to agree
sponsor donate
praise follow
anything other than to be forgotten
ignored
pushed aside
as I am
Written: 09/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We swept change away
marvelling at continuation
of conformity
in such fractured
times we live in
Written: 10/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I lined my dreams up
end to end
and followed them into space
now I don’t want to come back
Written: 10/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Without interpretation
we understood one another’s meanings
speaking only
the language of desire
accentuate by dreams gone wild
Written: 10/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Life is
as unpredictable as love found
on an adjancet
bar stool
Written: 10/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We remembered how it was
so differently
that we created new memories
of how it was
So much better
than the original
Written: 11/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So much easier to tell ourselves lies
as long as we get others to believe
them
and the others repeat
the tales to u
so we can believe
in our newly created version of ourselves
and stand naked at the seashore
yelling at the waves
that now is the time to believe
Written: 11/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I downloaded karma recognition software
to see if I could avoid paying off
when I left you alone in the alley
but the app store
said it was hacked into by yesterday’s desire
and to stay in the cloud
for further updates
Written: 11/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
On a miscellaneous planet
humans created god
with so many names
that eventually the created god
got confused and left
leaving the planet to wander
endlessly through my life
Written: 11/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
On the final test of my life
I died
never knowing whether I passed
or failed
Written: 12/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I scribbled my sentiments for you
when the tide was out
Now your message washed away
under a full moon
flooding the shore
wiping out all hope
of you ever knowing
sculptured words for you
washed away in a rising tide
Written: 12/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Heavy with sleep
memories blurred by passing passions
not answerable in this state of mind
waiting for future moments
fulfilment in the making
Written: 12/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
As if life does not continue
we lived it to the fullest
climbing to the top of tomorrow
then letting it slip away
without care or remorse
another time come and gone
another life come and gone
another dream come and gone
never knowing whether life continues or not
Written: 13/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I had so much
to do
today
that I stayed in bed
Went back to sleep
Dreamt of you and me
laying wrapped together
Hidden in a clamshell
on the beach
sand imbedded
with nothing but love
to do
Written: 13/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I turned to a whispering wind
for guidance
What direction
Who to believe
What is the message
Why bother
Without results now unsure
We all fall down
Written: 13/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Life neatly sorted folded placed
Drawers Closets Shelves
Age comes
Years gone
All tossed into boxes
Carted away
Memories all
that are left
No one left
to care
All the years’ collections off to the dump
Landfill
for future inhabitants
to build homes upon
and begin their temporary life’s
passing collections
Written: 14/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Having come to
the
or at least
a
conclusion
that without now
then could never be
we tossed out yesterday’s theories Written:
14/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Rung dry
ran dry
dried up
floating away
nothing left
Wave as I pass by
I am a shadow
Just a streak of light
always in the corner of your sight
We will be one
when it all disappears
Written: 15/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Next life time if I come back as a shrub
I hope to have
less to say
than I do now
Written: 15/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
A chance for peace
blinded us
to a chance to evolve
through
revolution
Written: 15/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
408. I looked you up on the internet
I looked you up on the internet
in hopes of reuniting with a shared memory
All I could fine
were pages I had uploaded
long ago
of moments we knew
back before you died
taking with you
future memories
possibilities
Written: 15/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
409. While assembling an
explanation
While assembling an explanation
to share
for a reason to exist
the slowly eroding mountain
crumbled into the sea
taking millions of years of thoughts
with it
Written: 15/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
The more I like this moment
the more it becomes the past
faster moving into the next
no place left for yesterday
Written: 16/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I forget who I am
start thinking I am you
listening to me
telling one of my stories
that I surprisingly lived through
only to have you remind me
you are dead and I need to stop being you
and pay more attention
to being me
Written: 16/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
During a practice of total difference
not counting synchronicity
city streets united
becoming a country road
for escaping long lost freedoms
to fly away
once and forever upon
Written: 17/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Cast out from a lingering memory
she was
street food
organic freshly picked
foreign taste
Excited by this decaying city
surrendering love
@ the end of a new-moon lit dead-end street
to the chorus of hallelujah
at the church social
(of Our Lord of Lost Virgins Night)
Appetites appeased I went to the night market
to look for more
but it was closed
another night off to bed hungry without love
Written: 17/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Found love amongst a tear gas lit alley
during the riots of virgins
We were
passing passion protesters
striking for love
loving for change
demanding desire
to fill our needs
The fault-line shifted
We were swallowed by moments gone wild
Though no one saw us exploding in the distance
beyond this impossible times
made manifest
in a haze of tears
Written: 17/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I dreamt of success long after failure
gave me the finger
and even though
I know dreams do not come true
I laughed at how successful
at failure I was
Written: 17/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I am a minor actor in my life
My shadow the major performer
hiding from the applause
of deafening stillness
that my life has become
Written: 17/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
With so little working this morning
today was put into a box
stored in a gulley
past the river bend
to be re-visited
after a new saviour
is self-proclaimed
to twist us back
into starting over again
Written: 18/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I traded now for then
and then for before
and on and on
Like any good card trader
So I could
group all together
and burn with the
ashes of yesterday
Written: 18/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I moved into
a self-reflective
outwardly-cloudy
burst-free bubble
and bounced past the world
of importance
without caring
Written: 18/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Yesterday
when I was so much younger
I took a hold of the sky
today I see only clouds
now the situations
is tired
only rain constantly dampening what could have been
Written: 18/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your body
a treasure map
riches full
lifetime
pleasure
Written: 19/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I knew something had changed
when I awoke
Everyone was alive
except for me
I waved
no one saw me
I said remember me
no one heard
I did ghostly things
everyone walked on
Written: 20/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a moment of anxiety performance
morning closed ranks
with the night before
delaying the onset
of today
Written: 20/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Ripened fruit at the end of the alley
tasted too often
to give pleasure again
Me the passing stranger
not knowing she was ripe fruit
until my desire
laid unfulfilled
on the broken pavement
Written: 20/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
424. In a dangerous
speculation
In a dangerous speciulation
I assumed
she would last longer
than the evening’s frost
Another ice age
without repentance
Written: 20/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I watched outside my window
day die
but I didn’t
here inside
filling empty spaces
to pass through my window
so a new day
can be created
Written: 21/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Frustrated with creation’s lack of desire
a new universe filled with me
erupted into being
and put the current universe
filled with you
into a balloon
and sent it a drift
What a colorful universe now exists.
Written: 21/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Since you died
I never go to the door
answer the phone
check my Facebook, Twitter, Instagram
wake from my dreams
Knowing you will not be there
Written: 21/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too few pages turned quickly
fast past
life blurs
sputters
then ends
with rain-washed memories
flooding
then drowning
any possibilities of saving
Life summed up in too few pages
now gone
forever
Written: 21/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Wisdom floated out to sea
in a leaking vessel
leaving all on land
amazed
at how dumb they were
and how wise
the sea’s inhabitants were
Written: 21/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
430. “Is this all I lived
for”
“Is this all I lived for”
said the flower
soon after bees and birds
drained treasures
from her
then was picked by some dude
and given to another
in hopes of getting laid
“if I had known this I would never have blossomed”
Said the once proud flower
now crumbled and stomped on
at the foot of the sweat soaked bed
Written: 21/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Lost power
darkness descending
not sure of renewal
this is it
no chance of return
lined up
all fall down
But wait
life returns
another chance
to start over
excitement sputters
sparkles
ignites
rushing forward
a small ray of starting
bursting through
another world
new to explore
Written: 22/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Now that the pressure is off
I can reveal
I am not me
Written: 22/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I looked for a ring tone
for my phone
of when you whispered fifty years ago
‘together we’ll always be’
but you slipped into death
I did not have a phone in my pocket
just an image of you
then
and though I hear you
still whispering to me
on full-moon nights in my sleep
I am unable to capture
your voice
Or any part of you
to play on my phone
now so long past
when I believed
your whisper
was true
Written: 22/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I looked for a ring tone
for my phone
of when you
whispered fifty years ago
to me in a rainstorm
‘together we will always be’
but you died long ago
I did not have a phone in my pocket
at the time
and though I hear you
still whispering in my sleep
I can never capture
your voice
to play on my phone
now so long past
when I believed
your whisper
would last longer
than the rainstorm
we had been in
that washed you away
Threw me upon the banks
of a flooded past
Written: 22/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Not being prepared for sudden passions
openly displayed
beneath her arms
Bed of leaves
Deflowered desire
Cries of fulfillment
The tree leaned
whispering to the wind
‘next time
I am coming back as a human’
Written: 23/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Dimly the moment shines
surrounded
engulfed
by random nothingness
history records selected spaces
filled with forgotten reason
to why the moment
should shine at all
Written: 23/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a superstitious ritual
trees outside my window
chant my name each dawn
and gently bow toward me
Believing by doing so
I will not use them for firewood
So far their belief system
is working
But if it gets much colder
they will be sacrificed
at the winter solstice
for my salvation
Written: 24/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
438. In a blended good-bad
moment
In a blended good-bad moment
flames destroyed
past memories
and warmed
frozen memories
so we could remember
what we had forgotten
Written: 24/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We hold hands walking through the mall
Laugh at one another’s jokes
Point out items in store-front displays
I order two plates of food
at the diner
Yours goes untouched
because you died long ago
and I am left
talking to a memory of you
in front of me
that no one else
can see
Written: 24/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Sensing a new scent
a swarm of bees
attacked the burglar
disguised as an apple blossom
as he put on the queen’s crown
to turn a quick trick
at the church social
Running through the vestibule
and climbing the bell tower
as it rang for mass
the burglar’s Screams
were synchronized with the bell toll
so no one heard
the flight of the bumble bees
and their discordant hums
in harmony with the burglar’s pain
and the death of the apple blossom
as it wilted without redemption
on another average
typical regular Tuesday afternoon
Written: 24/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
441. Left behind
Left behind
imagination simplified
hallucinations identified
this transformative
moment
left behind
for another time
Written: 25/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I started erasing
all the lame positive sayings on Facebook
pasted over images
of dogs and cats
in hopes
to decommission
irrational emotional
unhappy people
who count likes
to their stupid sayings
as a currency
of fools gone holy
So far this week
I have managed to erase
five of my own
including me
Written: 25/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
443. I googled myself
I googled myself
to discover more about me
After putting in my name
and creating
an anonymous multimodal biometric authentication for face and
voice recognition
I clicked enter
only to find Wikipedia entrees
on common household vermin
and how they can easily be trained
to leave
Now that I know myself
I will start a foundation for others
to find themselves too
Written: 26/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
444. I lay naked in the
paddock
I lay naked in the paddock
gazing forward in time
to twenty-five years after I died
and saw no one
who remembers me
which because
it was only a few years
before the end of all life on earth
didn’t really bother me
too much anyway
Written: 26/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
445. In a transformative
moment
In a transformative moment
I duplicated
the flight of a butterfly
to embed into my DNA
for my escape
when I awake from myself
Written: 26/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Free-will is the biggest threat
to evolution
Written: 26/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Written: 26/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
448. While waiting for
inspiration
While waiting for inspiration
morning came and Went
blue skies highlighting
snow-capped mountains
Animals ran around
Evening sunset
changed sky’s colours
I fell to sleep
waiting for inspiration
Perhaps tomorrow
I will have some
Written: 27/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a 3-D printed memory
of when we first met
I found the line needed
to take you home
then tried to use it again now fifty-years later
But it was just a 3-D printed memory
of when we first met
without you really being there
Written: 27/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I found you on Facebook
fifty-years after
we ran naked through a tropical sunset
repeatingly loving in the surf
declaring forever we should be lovers
My memories are shattered by
who you are now
your red-neck beliefs
feral looking children
your criminal looking 4th husband
your failed dieting attempts
your 3rd world refugee living conditions
your stupid shared videos of cats and dogs
and your total lack of remembering
who I am and our once long-ago freedom
to quench our desires
Written: 28/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Left behind
discard dreams
all the possibilities
left for someone
else to know
to be anything else
never to know
so excepting
without exception
nothing else
to know
Written: 28/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Dream surfing
across surfaces
settling upon
the one
of you and me
not being in a dream
Written: 28/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Limited to not being
anything else ever
the flower wilted
in despair
Written: 28/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Without you
dreaming of me
I do not exist
Written: 28/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your touch
so long ago gone
woke me
from a distant dream
of us
laughing at the edge
of infinity
with nowhere
to land
Written: 29/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
456. We met by chance
We met by chance
such a wonderment we thought at the time
Magic made manifest
To meet again
would only disappoint
We are almost not who we were
when we thought we would be the same
in the future
as we were then
The moment came and went
encased in golden memory
To repeat then now
would be to turn the magic to dust
blown away by the dusk
Written: 29/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Always knew
even before being born
it would end like this
But what I never knew
is what happens next
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Analysing systems of love
in order to upgrade
to the next version
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
After 68-years
living in an imaginary world
I have decided to become a superhero
to save a dying planet
disguised as an imaginary me
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Lost in the ways of love
we were a couple
of honey bees
going for gold
on a plastic flower
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Youth is evolution
on trainer’s wheels
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I tossed my GPS out the window
after crashing
on a detour
whilst navigating
your life
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
No need to change
now that freedom has emerged
from hiding
beneath the rubble of despairing
sameness
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your love was a treasure trove
lost at sea
drifting away
from the island of me
and all other
chances of my fulfilment
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Without today’s end
tomorrow
could never be
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Soft the ache
of pleasure’s
random departure
Written: 30/June/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
467. Changed times
Changed times
miracle magicians
stretched beliefs
we all fall down
curtain call
no applause
life can so much fun
Written: 01/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In fear of letting go
I built a barrier of past memories
backed up by
possibilities from left over dreams
discarded on the way
to a new life
Written: 01/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
New expressions
old stories
recycled memories
life continuous
Written: 01/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I was learning a lesson in survival
Passing her in the supermarket aisle
I was taken by colours
The colour of her lipstick
matching come-hither-eyes
and the morning’s aching skies
rising over the alley behind the market
we suddenly found ourselves in
Out of reach of the store’s security camera
Groceries spilt across the broken pavement
Solids and liquids streaming down hill
toward a cresting sea
Naked we left it all behind
and swam toward tomorrow
I lost you on a neighbouring island
to a lost deprived indigenous tribe
releasing then engulfing you with scents of longing
In despair I let myself become rescued
by female Christian-head-hunters sailing
into a misty sweat filled sunset
As we fought the headwinds of change
I learned my lesson of survival
shopping in the local
supermarket on a national holiday
Written: 02/July/2016 Balaklava, South Australia
We were watching the finals
Triple overtime to win
Scores locked together
Reminding me of our life
Never knowing
whether I would score
one more time
before the end or not
Written: 02/July/2016 Balaklava, South Australia
Chasing shadows
through a tear in time
circular falling
reaching out
to hold onto anything at all
spinning too quickly
to change this moment’s
trajectory
Until I too become a shadow
no one will chase
Written: 02/July/2016 Balaklava, South Australia
Legends passed on
passing by
building blocks
constructed life
chunks of pleasure
strands of sorrow
modules of others
Mended
Embedded
Generations
tumbling over
one another
to the point of being me
and I never cared
as I sloppily reinvent myself
as an ancestral ghost
saying boo
to me
in my dreams
Written: 04/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Nothing said
life in a bubble
never saying
anything more
than selecting phrases
Living quietly
in the toy box
fearing analysis
imaginary playmates
so real
inside this bubble
Written: 04/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Missing the moment
in order to redo a previous
one again
to redo
in this missed moment
Written: 04/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I closed my eyes
and watch words go by
in random languages
then grabbing several
I assemble them
into geometric shapes
to build a new home
But I am always a foreigner
with no explanation
possible
for when I open my eyes
only to see it all dissolve
Written: 04/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Impressed by imperfection
life evolved to destroy itself
Written: 04/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While quietly laying still
the rain bounced off of my head
making crashing sounds
onto the ground
below
echoing against time
and other failures
of nature
Written: 04/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
479. Mistakenly I was
chosen to be
the closing act
to a circus experiment
in the midst
of my cactus garden
Written: 04/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
By making tomorrow four hours shorter
today
I will have
more time with you
Written: 05/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Rolling was a direction
long before the hill
became an obstacle
After
Everything went so fast
the path forward
so obvious
the path back impossible
stopping was never an option
A million years from now
still I will be rolling
long after there will be anyone
left to testify
Written: 05/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Tomorrow your birthday
I may give it a miss
sleep through the day
dream of what should have been
so as not to be there
on the day of your birth
in hopes of not thinking
of when you left
but only of when were here
Written: 05/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So much done
celebrations in place
now here
journey’s start forgotten
to do it again
never
ending at the proper time and place
all consuming
conclusion’s joy
Written: 06/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unexpected
flying past moment
observing
then the change
gradual at first
then engulfing
never same again
Written: 06/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So quick the change
I did not realize
until after
I was no longer me
Written: 06/July/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Clear skies
open moments
passing thoughts
filling empty
collisions of matter
manifesting as new experiences
for evolution’s new change
you and I laughing in the rain
two out of sync particles
forgotten
and left alongside
the highway
eroding
rusting
beneath clear skies
Written: 08/July/16 Dukes Highway, Victoria
487. Too short our time
together
Too short
too breaking
as a memory
that has lived longer
than you did
Written: 08/July/16 Dukes Highway, Victoria
Frequently in doubt
often in fear of failure
comforted with being ignored
dreading change
never wishing to be picked
the rose bush
concentrated on sharper thorns
rather than blossoming
like other convicts did
Written: 08/July/16 Dukes Highway, Victoria
Frequently freedom flies
past what is possible
with no chance
to hold its slipperiness
while time dwindles
to a standstill
imprisoned at last
with me finally able to stop
and breathe
Written: 09/July/16 Mt. Franklin Reserve, Victoria
I finally arrived at that magical place
with a mind
empty of thought
Written: 09/July/16 Mt. Franklin Reserve, Victoria
Unwanted sounds
Harmony of door open
close
open close
mingled with northern wind’s chants
in a time of wanted silence
Written: 10/July/16 Mt. Franklin Reserve, Victoria
492. Desire soaked by the
rain
Book 4. P. 87
Desire soaked by the rain
though passion’s fire
burns unquenched
Written: 10/July/16 Mt. Franklin Reserve, Photo: Daylesford Train Station, Victoria
493. I was attempting to
get warm
I was
attempting to get warm
avoiding snow covered memories
Trying to conjure up melting thoughts
Visions of us as naked shadows
in a tropical dream
Wind and hail grasping at me
I cannot run
The forest is too haunted by failed lovers
gone before
I shiver awake
Coldness breaks silence
I scream
Frozen words
crash to the ground
There is no alternative
but to burn in coldness for eternity
Written: 10/July/16 Mt. Franklin Reserve, Victoria
While waiting for scribbled thoughts to
make sense
of my feelings for you
I grew old
You looked
the other way
Tomorrow became lost
When the train left the station
no one saw me
to wave a wand over my scribbled thoughts
so too
I could understand them
As if magically life could possibly
make sense at the end of it
Written: 11/July/2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
In an appreciable moment
waves of humanity
spread out across the planet
destroying all
leaving a barren planet
for distant alien incarnating vegetation
to begin a new cycle
of evolution
with you and me
being the first stalks of life
Written: 11/July2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
496. First page left blank
First page left blank
empty of purpose
before traffic, building
sky, eternity, forgetfulness
after creations failure
all pages to follow
transcriptions of what was
rather than
what should have been
soon back to that blank first page
with everything else
promptly erased
Written: 12/July2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
497. Dead people
Dead people
never get to see us alive
racing through life
to be dead people
unable to see others racing
through life too
Written: 12/July2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
Wind swept memories
left me blank
Written: 12/July/2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
The individual creative artist genius
no longer looked upon in awe
as the rise of connectivity
with our group creative artist genus
consciousness
churning out robotic social media
blandness
now at the end of this
once creative human cycle
Written: 13/July/2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
500. Love’s quiet whisper
Love’s quiet whisper
cast out upon
a final moonless breeze
before we shut our hearing
to avoid an echo
destined to direct attention
away from
what could have been
if only we had learned to sigh
rather than scream
in the evening breeze
Written: 13/July/2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
In a haphazard dream
I awoke in a foreign state
of beingness
you lying next to me
Written: 14/July/2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
I lost you on the horizon
of a perpendicular dream
Written: 14/July/2016 Williamstown (Melbourne) Australia
I waited outside for you at the bus stop
outside this dirty coal mining town
Storm clouds gathered
Memories scattered
In the drooling distance
you were dancing with
an imaginary youthful you
When the bus came
I died
Never knowing if you were real
If you were on the bus
or whether I wrote this or not
Written: 14/July/2016 Burnt Bridge Reserve, Lake Tyers, Victoria, Australia
Silence echoes through this rainforest
where even the memory of your breath
no longer whispers
Replaced by newly
fallen leaves
racing toward another dawn
without you and me on them
loving
Written: 14/July/2016 Burnt Bridge Reserve, Lake Tyers, Victoria, Australia
As a vegetarian cannibal
having you for my evening meal
meant
having you for breakfast again
too
Written: 15/July/2016 Candelo, NSW, Australia
506. So environmentally
correct
So environmentally correct
recycled love
making the earth
warmer for all us
Written: 15/July/2016 Candelo, NSW, Australia
According to popular conventional
conspiracy
theory
Your evaporating love for me
is the source
of my decay
Written: 15/July/2016 Candelo, NSW, Australia
While counting the stars in the sky
I was interrupted
by my lack of a belief
system
to believe they existed
Written: 15/July/2016 Candelo, NSW, Australia
Forever frequently frightened
I sought condolence
in a passing pay package
or your hourly love
using an expired credit card
Now in debt and on the run
I hide beneath the bridge
looking for an escape
from desire’s hold on me
knowing I never will
Written: 15/July/2016 Candelo, NSW, Australia
“All my hopes, dreams, wishes, never to
eventuate”
cried the fly as she met her end
@ the centre of horizontal
& vertical in the web
of my digital fly zapper
“Never to my calf”
the cow being herded into a truck
for the slaughterhouse
“will I be known”
she moaned
“Will my family miss me”
the solider wrote in a final scribble
never knowing that his letter
would be obviated with the town’s destruction
“What a fucked up planet”
god exhaled
before extinguishing the solar system
Written: 16/July/2016 Princess Highway, NSW, Australia
Thrilled by differences
the corn and the apple
left the garden for a time of passion
@ a junction of the river and tomorrow
With no way to be judged
they were left free to engulf
an engaging moment
and dance differences away
in a peculiar twist
that had no reason beyond their existence
Written: 16/July/2016 Berry Showgrounds Camping Area, NSW, Australia
The government’s stimulus independence
package
woke desires on July four
brought me to your door
passion unwrapped on the kitchen floor
Morning cried out for more
With your recycled love I am no longer poor
thanks to the government’s stimulus package
Written: 17/July/2016 Berry Showgrounds Camping Area, NSW, Australia
On the curved road of love
blended memories folded distances
into a quiet moment
where I escaped my crowded self
and let go into
this peaceful space
I now call my life
Written: 17/July/2016 Berry Showgrounds Camping Area, NSW, Australia
As luck would have it
life waited for me
while I slept
so I could replace dreams
with this yet to be revealed
adventuresome day
Written: 17/July/2016 Berry Showgrounds Camping Area, NSW, Australia
The note in the fortune cookie
proclaimed this to be
my day of luck
so I started my campfire
with the lit piece of wisdom
where we unwrapped ourselves
as one
in the warmth of this
my lucky day
Written: 17/July/2016 Berry Showgrounds Camping Area, NSW, Australia
Deep in the tangled
scattered fragmented
universe of my twisted thoughts
I was able to assemble something
resembling a picture
of what life could have been
if not of me
where peacefulness mingled with spicy love
and random saneness would be my adventures
rather than the confused state
I live in at the end of this broken alley
However the picture shattered
leaving me the way I always have been
Lost looking for you
Written: 17/July/2016 Berry Showgrounds Camping Area, NSW, Australia
Last exit on the freeway of your love
lost way
no return
no waiting
no you
tonight
looking for a new freeway
Written: 17/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
I lived my life in a titled world
bent axis broken planet
out of alignment
spinning aimlessly
through the cosmos
as if we really mattered
Written: 17/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
Obsessed by the flicker
hope
clung on
while chance ran amuck
leaving perhaps
or was it maybe
to change
the direction
in which
we were headed
Written: 17/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
Such a trendy experience
Follow someone
that is not me
in hopes others than me
will recognize
how trendy they are
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
In the darkened whisper
of your vanishing smile
I saw the love
I could have had
if I had not been me
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
Writing non-stop through the night
stopping only
for an adjective
I had dropped
and broken
alongside a noun of a non-descript fashion
crushing it
with a mistake
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
I wanted to be like you
public admiration
massive Twitter followers
so many wanting you
awards, prizes, money, magazine covers
first class travel
lovers waiting
Life passing me by
wanting to be you
until I read this morning
in the comics
that you had died from
an overdose of life too fine
Now I no longer want to be you
But I do not know how to be me
as I spent most of my life
wanting to be you
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
In a complicated moment
I melted
surround by high quality chocolate
and rotting strawberries
Now no one
will listen to me
or any of my simple ideas
in this sophisticated world
beyond my understanding
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
My analysis therapist
told me to talk
to my vegetables
after bathing
dressing and preparing
before eating them
in order to destress them
and get them to believe
that they are more significant
than the organic vegetables
at the metaphysical food co-op
that mimic superiority
but are in actual fact
made of plastic, paper, recycled holistic resign
to appear perfect
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
As a critic of the natural progression
of superior vs. bullshit
I was ex[pected to cast my vote
in favour of what
would come next
then the rain fell
evolution was washed away
and I drowned
in the mundane
with no one to share
my critiqued awareness
with
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
I was hungry
with the culture of greed
that left others in debt
and me with nothing
as I ended with more
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
In a self-explanatory moment
I became silent
and the parade went on
without me
Written: 18/July/2016 Richmond Club Camping Ground, NSW, Australia
In a delusional epic of want
questions were raised
expectations lowered
jokes exchanged
and reality avoided
creating a pause
during love making
in the back of the shed
early morning of the queen’s birthday
Written: 19/July/2016 Ibis Hotel, Olympic Park, Sydney, Australia
You lost hope I lost you
13 years ago
your life ended
so did mine
but the sun still rises
people move on
life multiples
but not in my imprisoned mind
Written: 19/July/2016 Ibis Hotel, Olympic Park, Sydney, Australia
In a pause
remarkable in its sequence
of augmented reality
I grasped a fleeting taste of your love
foreign taste
awakening senses
not felt since
Neanderthal spiritualists
sacrificed thoughts of original love
Written: 19/July/2016 Ibis Hotel, Olympic Park, Sydney, Australia
These years passing by
just patches
particles
mending together
the time I last saw you
with the times
I no longer will
remember who you were before the pain
of losing you disappears
Written: 19/July/2016 Ibis Hotel, Olympic Park, Sydney, Australia
Camouflaged loss
disguising what I feel
with sacraments
at a surrendered alter
with a purging flame
for forgetting
all I wanted
replacing then with now
in the mistaken fantasy
I would forget
Written: 19/July/2016 Ibis Hotel, Olympic Park, Sydney, Australia
534. Blinded by a
smothering loss
like love to me
the rose bush
lay uprooted
along the sidewalk
being trampled
by all
who too were blind
Written: 19/July/2016 Ibis Hotel, Olympic Park, Sydney, Australia
I splattered thoughts of you against
patches of emptiness
hoping for enhanced fulfilments
in ancient discoveries
revealing our once
happy togetherness
Written: 20/July/2016 Ibis Hotel, Olympic
Park, Sydney, Australia
Photo: 23/July/2016 Plushs Bend, Renmark, South Australia
Navigating foggy thoughts
of your fading memories
on this endless road
to where we will
never meet
at its end
Written: 20/July/2016 Hume Highway, New South Wales, Australia
537. In this futile race
through life
foreign landscapes
devoured all directions
leaving me
wasted alone
empty highways
to delusional destinations
where ex-lovers taunted
shadows of my past desires
in a race
with no finish lines
Written: 20/July/2016 Hume Highway, New South Wales, Australia
538. I lost your love on
the altar of hope gone wrong
I lost your
love on the altar of hope gone wrong
you were humming the words of a forgotten song
in the vestibule I waited as my desire covered the floor
rain outside flooded in beneath the hollowed door
as the tower bell rang in tune with your ravaged cries
the memories short and to the point dies
CONTINUE MAKE MORE BETTER
Written: 20/July/2016 Hume Highway, New South Wales, Australia
Annoyed by all that goes wrong
I fastened balloons to my wings
and floated away
letting my problems fall to the ground
and land on others
in their crushing way
20/07/2016 Barbour Park, Gunning, NSW, Australia
Frightened about life alone
the orchard welcomed and loved the weeds
until they grew stronger and squeezed life from her
so at the end when she wilted
losing her flower
she died alone
too
20/07/2016 Barbour Park, Gunning, NSW, Australia
541. “Relief”
After falling in love with a cartoon character
selling podiatry insurance
on the late night mystery channel
I sold the rights to my life
to a transient used-car minister
and became a cartoon too
in hopes of wooing the object
of my affections
only to discover
my lovely cartoon character
was now a prostitute in the cloud
which shattered my moral obligations
and left me
to abuse myself
in a secret ritual
beyond the grasp
of social media correctness
20/07/2016 Barbour Park, Gunning, NSW, Australia
542. Celtic survival music
echoed through the flooded valley
of lost love drowning
eroding and soaking my novel I was writing
I lost the plot somewhere between
the first and second sentence
of the first page
during the final memory of you
before the interruption
to what should have been
my greatest creative spillage
me in you
21/07/2016 Hume Highway, NSW, Australia
543. While laughing in the
moment
driving on the freeway
I avoided the future
as any guru of significance
would subscribe
and crashed off of a cliff
around the curve
of a future moment
I had avoided
living in the moment
21/07/2016 Hume Highway, NSW, Australia
544. Love is a game
best to lose
so as to go again
and many times more
How good is that
21/07/2016 Hume Highway, NSW, Australia
545. Within my virtual
sacrifice
fog settled
moving quickly down the slopes
I watched her spreading across a cloudless space
data filled my senses
I tried remotely to satisfy her
with a virus I had retrieved
from a foreign rebel site
I have always been a bit awkward
with data-sex
often leaning toward too many 1’s
in my code
that makes me vulnerable
to 0’s desires
so I am leaving the virtual world of my birth
to have a human night with my wife
21/07/2016 Hume Highway, NSW, Australia
546. I started selling
love insurance
I started
selling love insurance
out of the back of my ute
“if he leave you I will replace him
almost free of charge”
was my slogan
and after five days in the rain
with no sales
I bought my own love insurance
replacing myself with me
making me satisfied ever since
21/07/2016 Hume Highway, NSW, Australia
Redirected fantasy
rolling through your city
trapped in your smile
if only you would have the same fantasy
I could breathe again
21/07/2016 Narrandera Showgrounds, NSW, Australia
In the distance
a flowing river
reflects on imaginary
dreams up close
21/07/2016 Narrandera Showgrounds, NSW, Australia
I won a night with her
at the church game-night raffle
Everything was going well
until in the middle of an orgasm
she yelled “thankyou Jesus”
I told her my name was Saint Terrell
she opened her eyes
screamed and ran out of the vestibule
leaving me with just a crumpled
raffle ticket and partial fulfilment
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
550. Your body was an
aircraft carrier
Your body
was an aircraft carrier
and I was a jet fighter
landing and taking off
in stormy seas
in a war
I was never destined to win
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
Nature’s Evolution
has created cures
for everything
except love
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
Abolished demolished
washed away
tattooed love
left naked
beneath promises
of a sustainable time
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
Thrilled by the obscurity
of your love
pretendable divine design
at best
I slipped away
peacefully at first
restlessly later
finally invisible
secretly lost
wounded by thoughts
I should never have had
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
An untamed wind
screamed my name
through a biblical valley scene
easily sacrificing me
to a forgone conclusion
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
Maddening in its eloquence
though serene in its longing
and worthy of a chantable moment
carried by chastised wind
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
87% of my life
has passed me by
leaving barely enough
time to reminisce
all that I have experience before
having 13% left
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
Blown gasket
spilt love
frosted highway
How will I explain
no more of me left
when I awake
from this dream
22/07/2016 Sturt Highway, NSW, Australia
In an ordinary dream
now became forever
this magical moment
forever
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
559. To inhale ubiquitous nature’s
surroundings
To inhale ubiquitous nature’s surroundings
as it bursts my yet to surrender
halcyon days of soon past
brings rest to my weary future
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
Book 5. P. 62
In a symphonic orgasm
the trees, river, swamps, birds,
became evening’s climax
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
561. While meditating on
this moment
While meditating on this moment
I fell to sleep
and dreamed
never anything was there
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
Book 4. P. 128
Unable to rest easily
the river playfully
swept away the town
and all the people
Now the town
will rest peacefully
with no one left
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
563. In a random whispered
secret
In a random whispered secret
amongst these trees
I learned I was alone
surrounded by life
whereas in town
I was alone
surrounded by death
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
564. Remembering quiet
Remembering quiet
back before I became lost
before wanting so much
pre-possession obsession
Times without noise
Peace before confusion
Just the river and me
Easy to forget
Long past fused with now
The middle fifty years
Cut out
From 19 to sixty-nine years
Gone
Without reflection
No mirror tricks
From then to now
Such freedom
Again
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
Listening to a foreign
radio station
not understanding
what is being said
what is being song
what is being implied
Were they discussing
our love
our past
our future
should we create our own interpretation
or go foreign too
not understand our love
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
566. ‘PLOT THICKENED’
‘PLOT THICKENED’
My story had no end, beginning, middle
no tension, crisis, redemption, resolution, believability
Without you
I have no story
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
567. In a ripped moment
In a ripped moment
of a broken river reflection
I found a space
between clouds
to imagine a smoother
life for me
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
568. While observing
thoughts
While observing thoughts
rattling around my mind
I saw none
as picturesque as when dawn’s light
refractre4d in kaleidoscope fashion
off of your nakedness
so wide awake
in my dream
23/7/16 Plushs Bend, South Australia
After being off on
holiday
for so long
the sun and moon
went back to their old routine
of rising and setting
with the earth doing its same old axial tilt trip
around and over and around
Only I complained
that it was time for a change
but nothing listened
so too I went back to the mundane and boring
me once again
24/07/16 147
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In a dwindling
perspective
I concluded that any conspiracy theory
involving me was unattainable
and no doubt
self-inflected
24/07/16 147
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Surprising in its
implication
I took a shortcut
to my sixty-ninth birthday
with no one watching
to see if I cheated
getting to this age so fast
primarily by skipping over a few decades
and getting old so quickly
During a memory
leakage
moment
I hugged a telephone poll
thinking it was you
and hearing so many unsbustantied messages
I was unable to filter
which call was you
but now with my memory in tack once again
I can listen
25/07/16 147
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What a bummer
I became famous
ten-minutes after I died
25/07/16 147
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574. In a case of mistaken
identity
In a case of mistaken identity
my shadow danced the night away
in the corn field
with the farmer’s cow
leaving me without explanation
as to why I think I am
who I imagine I am
when the moon is full
and I am standing naked
in the paddock
at harvest time
25/07/16 147
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575. When I once lived in
the flower garden
When I once lived in the flower garden
amongst the flowers
though they perceived me as a weed
I felt almost elegant
when passing heroes
proclaimed the beauty of the flower garden
I so proudly was a member of
and the rain touched me
the same as the others
and the sun shined on me
everything between the flowers
and me was quite the same
until weed killer took my life
26/07/16 147
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576. In a disappointed
moment
In a disappointed moment
time stopped
26/07/16 147
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577. In a moment of lost
intent
In a moment of lost intent
I packed my bags
to move to another planet
then forgot how to get there
HERE AGAIN
27/07/16 147
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578. Got to a position
where I no longer wanted to do
what I do best anymore
so don’t expect to see
the comic superhero
579. I once was
Begging at your door
27/07/16 147
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580. The last chance I had
to be successful
ended twelve-minutes
before I was born
27/07/16 147
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581. The odds of being me
is one in seven-plus billion
WOW what a lucky thingy
27/07/16 147
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582. In great anticipation
god waited for humanity to wake up
then finely giving up
when no one did
27/07/16 147
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583. I went beyond all
expectation
Book 4. P. 15
I went beyond all expectation
only to find myself over the edge
past rational thought
beyond earthly logic
Once again lost in space
28/07/16 147
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584. In all the excitement
of being me again
Book 4. P.12
In all the excitement of being me again
I forgot who I was
so I looked myself up
on the internet
now I don’t want to be
him
28/07/16 147
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585. One of life’s great
pleasures
One of life’s great pleasures
is floating on a banana leaf
in the midst of a billabong
listening to kookaburras
singing the songs of Solomon
on a full moon
in Taurus night
28/07/16 147
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Reflective love
saw me glow
in your eyes
28/07/16 147
Perseverance Road, South Australia
I watched this moment
cascade through the valley
and crash to a broken pavement
in a shattering performance
of love transcended
While watching a waiting moment
to arrive
a wandering movement
lost in wonderment
changed direction
leaving us found
at the end and no one noticed
29/07/16 147
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An evening’s taste of
success
you in the morning
29/07/16 147
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The bubble I live in
is available
for all other bubble dwellers
to in habit
as long as their distractions
do not infringe on my abstrations
and belief of no one else exist
29/07/16 147
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Once settled with the
new rountine
morning rose and shown
and we learned to love then as well
29/07/16 147
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It is not the short
time we spent together
that keeps me forward bound
but the magical possible
in seeing what could have been
if all these years after had contained you
in them too
29/07/16 147 Perseverance Road, South Australia
With no time left love transported
us to a space without gravity
giving us freedom to disappear
together
29/07/16 147 Perseverance Road, South Australia
I downloaded one of those ads on Facebook
that claimed
‘the shocking truth about God’
and after listening for twenty minutes
how extensive research
into thousands of years of history and DNA samplings
as well as direct communications
the shocking truth could now be revealed
for only $9.95 for the e-book version
So I submitted my $9.95
got the e-book on several of my devices
and with great excitement opened the file
which had only one line
‘I don’t exist’
Unable to get a refund
I am now passing this incredible secret
on to you
30/07/16 147 Perseverance
Road, South Australia
All went to how we did not plan
now looking in new directions
the joke is on me
my plan was flawed
going through life
lost again
30/07/16 147
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All through time
there has barely been enough space
to celebrate
love enough
through we give it a try
often
which makes
space-filling
rewarding
when I am with you
30/07/16 147
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I tripped over my words
and fell into feelings
floating away
blissfully with nothing left
to say
31/07/16 147
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Too long the fruit on the trees
left to weather, birds, disintegration
forgottenness
So much like love forgotten
now times past
too late
to taste
to remember
and live on what could have been
a lingering taste
devoured by seasons gone
31/07/16 147
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In a most un-creative plagiarizing moment
evening sky smeared the same colours
across her face
as a previous dusk-time painting
31/07/16 147
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In a losing battle
victory hid behind
tomorrow
so a winning future
would tell the tale
of how an arrogant past
tried to influence
what would come next
then failed
31/07/16 147
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Spent love
need to borrow
for more
31/07/16 147
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too short the thought
for a novel idea
31/07/16 147
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Today went by so fast
I borrowed from tomorrow
and re-did some of yesterday
now to start over again
at the future’s expense
31/07/16 147
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In a desperate challenge
to change
to reinvent
to transcend
change scents
find peace
the volcano erupted
in lava
and yesterday’s
karma
31/07/16 147
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“to quiet the summer”
screamed the stormy approaching winter
as wind, rain, hail
swept through the contentious valley
destroying evolution’s
peaceful unplanned finale
31/07/16 147
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You could have heard
my voice
in your shadow
enhancing your movement toward me
or as fate would whisper
drawing you here
either way
the same path we are running upon
no one else is
sole flyers in this dream together
31/07/16 147
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So easy to dream
now that the mystery of life
has been explained
31/07/16 147
Perseverance Road, South Australia
3-D printers can make
so much
but not love
or any other
such passing fantasies
31/07/16 147
Perseverance Road, South Australia
I lost my compass on
the path of love
now not knowing
if I am at the western setting phase
or the easier eastern starting one
31/07/16 147
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In a hastily conceived
feeling
I found the thought
I was looking forward
laying hungry and cold
along the path
that I so long ago abandoned
And now must proceed upon
for a self-healing shadow
that I can call my own
here at the end of a hastily conceived feeling
31/07/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
We started slow
we ended slow
life between
done too fast
01/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
So much better
miracles without meaning
spheres of meanings
your touch
all that matters
01/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Living life in a
trance
avoiding the lies
of so many average
pretenders to knowledge
glad to be so free
in a trance of you
01/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Captured freedom bottled
and sold
to orphans of love
wings included
I bought a few
dropped them
and as the bottle broke
on the final path to hope
freedom flew off
leaving me shackled
to past dreams
unresolved
as all orphan’s hopes
so often are
01/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
In an ill-conceived
fantasy
we walked through flashes
becoming purified
in the rain
and in a most silly motion
continued together after our cremation
in a sphere
transported though revealing
to a future life
wrapped in peace
finally
01/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
The banging, crashing,
pounding
noise you heard
in your dreams
late last night
was simply me
trying to enter
your dream too
02/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
In a most delicious
moment
the apple and banana
ran off to join the circus
and to the entertainment of all
did a Pas De Valse
across the horizon
in front of a hungry sunset
together
02/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
In a most social
moment
Mars Jupiter Saturn
hummed a ballet about movement through love
not long before a black hole
devoured them
03/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Constructed love
assembled with pieces missing
the laws of diminishing emotional
satisfaction explained
and the reason why
I have pieces missing myself
03/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
The future never
looked so bright
as when the Big Bang
was but a fraction of a fraction old
ever since
problems have grown
until we got to today
when there is no light left for a bright no future
03/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
We took to the streets
protesting the loss of love
the shackling of desire
sacrificing of innocence
released freedom flying free
and the future of loneliness incarnate
replacing our once shared touch
04/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
622. My desires captured
My desires captured
in your eyes reflections
tonight unwound
04/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
623. I memorised the hills
and valleys
I memorised the hills and valleys
of your body
so that if ever
I became lost
I could find my way home
04/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
I smiled
evening sky
smiled back
now I know
what love is
05/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Quick capture the sun
set
before night steals
it away
05/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
While living in la la
land
I made plans for the rest of my life
in a most down-to-earth fashion
then sold them to a passing fairy
I was outside of my spaceship window
05/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Humans are a result of
creation
going on strike
and letting evolution
go stupid
05/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Complications of the
past made construction of today
with wobbly foundation
my life falling quickly
into a sink hole
hopefully it will pass through the earth
and on to the other side
I can emerge from the rubble of my life
and be my neighbour’s cat
and go viral on Facebook too
06/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
While putting my life
on pause
the moment quickly passed by
the moment with so much potential
so much ‘could-have-been’
so possibly nothing at all
while life was on pause
I saved myself the bother of choices
I would now be confused with
if I had not put my life on pause
06/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Book 4. P. 121
Love sailed in a
century ago
now returning
to no one to remember
06/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
While standing still
the world sped by
now no one left
to talk to
no one to fall over
not a single person
to show this text to
06/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Life is just a
temporary panic pause
along the way
to we know
not where
06/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
While beating my own
non-Olympic record
for getting out of bed this morning
I was disqualified before awakening
The esoteric and difficult to detect dreaming of you drug
slipping out from my consciousness
putting me ahead then behind
all else
06/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
In a spherical theatrical rotation
of dawn’s dwindling presence
I followed a trail
easy to see
though difficult to fathom
to a final moment with you
07/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
So similar to today
was to a day past spent
felt the same
like a day when we were lovers walking
in the park
no thoughts of a future
no thoughts really at all
I drifted today
beyond where I should have
through a closing
door
but I was forced back
to here now
so long into the future
from that moment so long ago
08/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
What was a barrier
between yesterday and today
now a link, a bridge, a tunnel
such an easy connection
so that today
and yesterday are one
Now I am going to join tomorrow too
08/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
While lining up dreams
marching them to the edge
several slipped away
hiding behind
desperate beliefs
for a surprise visit
knowing I never count(?)
different between reality and wandering thoughts
09/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
As if I would not
count the years passed by
leaving me behind
and my dreams even further
10/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
During a borrowed
sequence of past memories
I found the one of you and me
sweeping dust off of visions of our
united freedom
vanishing into a make believe sunset
that constantly repeated
until the earth itself ended
10/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
As if time were
producible
manufacturable
a chemical formula
mathematical equation
incubated in test tubes
purchasable on the stock market
borrowable stealable tradable
I attempted to get some extra
though no matter
what method I conjured
no more time could I get
Now that I have run out of it
I have no more time to finish this
11/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
I put a box out to
catch all the thoughts
I never had
now I know there was a crack in my box
as it is empty
and I am still trying to collect
thoughts I never had
11/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Love became so
intoxicating
images of today
blurred into passions without merit
leaving me to dissolve
at the start of this day
12/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Love with you
so many windows
to view life through
12/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Thrilled by the obscurity of your touch
I dove into the sea of unconsciousness
in a frenzied attempt to feel emotions
I had seen displayed in a child’s Saturday morning
cartoon propaganda program
only to be rewarded
by ads of rescued incompetence
of how to download the touch app
onto my life’s integration with the lack of
your touch
13/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Frequently lost on the horizon
I watched love roll in
roll out
rise
set
regurgitate
If only I could extend this lifetime
to see a future horizon
I would know this had been a groovy moment
in a dwindling history
of a small planet’s erectile excursion
that I got to ride through a dissolving phase
of a pissing passing galaxy
wandering an empty uninterested universe
too far from its virginity to care anymore
13/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
What is most enjoyable about the muddled
confusion
I exist in
is the ever changing interpretation
of what the moment’s representation is presenting
and whether I should believe in it
and laugh too
13/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
xxx
Feeling lucky to have
lived so long
the fly flew quickly into the fly zapper
believing it was the fountain of youth
Afterwards he was unable to comment
whether her hypotheses was correct
13/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Surprised by sudden
sunrise
evening ran off
naked
with little regret
for being caught
in such a compromising position
13/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
In a most silly
thought
memory hid beneath belief
as a disguise
only to be discovered
by a passing feeling of
no consequence
13/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Surrender was only
part of the battle plan
for your love
To get past enemy lines
and be imprisoned in your memory
forever
was really the successful outcome
I had earlier rarely dared to dream of
13/08/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Row row your boat
all the way to heaven’s moat
Joseph will unlatch the bolt
dressed in his colourful coat
sacrificing a goat
for all you vegan misfits
and other mythical dreamers
that wouldn't know if your ass was on fire
14/08/16 Campbelltown
Christian Reformed Church parking lot
As with any failure
I threw a party
balloons
drinks
disco drones
altering consciousness goodies
toys
ex-rated exhilarating videos
Pokemon Go eggs
hash brownies
hashtag #celebrate-Terrell-failures-party
party hats
games
invited Olympic swimmers, wrestlers, gymnasts
astronauts
virtual reality goggles
dancing robots
footy game on my 95-inch TV
I was so excited
then
No one came
14/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So short this life
barely enough time
to be anyone
but myself
14/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
654. Comets a better life
than planets have
Comets a better life than planets have
not being held to an orbit
around a hot-shot sun
but free to go to the distance
beyond tethered planets
Me and comets
so much in common
14/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a recurring dream
I repeat what could have been
if my life was not
a recurring dream
14/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Waiting for
disappointment
to transform into light rain
washing away another day
when I did not become king
15/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Today’s performance
was so perfect
that tomorrow will never come
15/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I am sorry you no
longer miss me
could it be because you died
too long ago
for me to remember
15/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a difficult
scenario I forgot my role
so the audience went away to die
15/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In an ill-swept memory
I found love
beneath a clean slate
15/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too funny such streams of dreams
with non being caught
Lost in reality
once again
16/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Impossible quickly flies
a lingering thought
suddenly replaced
by chances of probabilities
wrapped in false beliefs
turned to ashes
yet still I cling onto
the impossible
and imagine success
16/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Feeling suddenly patriotic
I hosted the flag of loneliness
amongst the rubble
of love long gone
only to remember
I had forgotten
the tune
letting the words crash against
an inharmonious
night
16/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
My last thought before I died
We were barefooted
then just for a moment
less became more
entangled on the shoreline
In the distance
a star collapsed
another solar system disappears
so many dreams gone
we all that were left
then nothing
17/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unable to stop
evolution began anew
this time with no one
created to know
17/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Frequently waiting on the sideline
cheering the losers
who would so soon join me
this short played game of life
17/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While waiting for
inspiration morning rose evening set
flowers burst love sizzled
doors opened
galaxies began
shadows danced
cakes were frosted
while waiting for inspiration
I went to sleep
and missed so much
17/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Embezzled love
all my senses fulfilled
17/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Melting into you
dessert again tonight
17/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your sustained touch
in my dream
keeping me from waking again
17/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Not being different
we blended idealistic fake dreams
then traded it all for a passing fling
with a movie star
look alike
proving we were not different
18/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Out of my depth
everything so foreign
losing track
all
becoming nothing
what a surprise
who I will be
when tomorrow arrives
18/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Life reduction
you
anything more too complicated
to ponder
today
19/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Before you
life unknown
19/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
My life
too boring
even for
a #hashtag
19/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I waited for you on
the corner
of A & Z
but you thought
I had said
C & D
not knowing
which way to turn
I went off to the corner of
B & E
and after much confusion
I died
on the corner of you and me
19/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
All I chose in every sport
I watched today
won
unlike me
walking away
saying if only
I had tried harder
I too would have been a winner
I had bet on
20/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So easy to love you
natural nature in flight
surrendered futures
even yesterday
is glossed over
with loving you today
20/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I met my quota today
237 great thoughts
no time left
to count the negative
another day perfectly constructed
20/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
When the curtain
closes
the audience goes away
music stops
whispers go silent
love melts
dreams fade
will there be a galaxy
that will take me in
20/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
More than needed at my
call
left me buried
and the neighbour empty
20/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I knew today would be
different
when I awoke dead
21/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Frequently frightening
futures without
dreams to follow
leaving only yesterday’s shadows
with no one to dance with
So many orphans in the rain
quickly quietly dissolving away
all wanting to be with you
21/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
The start of our
universe
nothing more than a lab experiment gone wrong
now out of control
expanding to bursting point
and all I can think about is
that I forgot to do my taxes
21/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
As a creative love
mapping technique
I left thoughts of you
along the path
to a better me
tomorrow
21/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I asked my doctor for
a prescription
to kill the stupid-germ that has invaded my cells
now I am blank with no thoughts at all
but I have learned to laugh
nonstop
so obviously the medication worked
21/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Waiting
writing wonderful winter thoughts
of once were dreams
manifesting again
like yesterday again
22/08/16 Walkerville
Primary
In a routine
life-altering
earth-shattering
mind-numbing kiss
our future became obvious
we would always be looking to
have the same experience again
22/08/16 Walkerville
Primary
Sail with me on this
quiet breeze
amongst wishful whispers
surrounding
our embrace
beyond fleeting logic
freeing us finally found
from myself
22/08/16 Walkerville
Primary
In a faraway galaxy
at the perimeter of our universe
tucked away behind a few once significant neutron stars
is a small our sun like star
with an earth-like planet roaming nearby
where lives like ours
go on at one-fourth the speed of our lives
I watched last night
my far off space doppelganger
moving twenty-five percent slower than me
with no one to cheer
just like here
on this non-existence planet I am lost on
23/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
23/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your touch
a spiral nebula in an instance of my life
though remembered long after
the universe collapses and the rain
stops falling
23/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
692. I rounded up all my
favourite dreams
I rounded up all my favourite dreams
and selected the best ones
to show
at the opening ceremony
of my life
23/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I tricked myself into
believing
I was real
Problem being
you believe it too
24/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too many stories
in the character
confused me
and I lost the plot
of why we were together
24/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unconcerned about the
beginning of time
stressed thinking
of the end of time
no time left
to live in the moment
24/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a most sexy moment
I saw mother nature
in stilettos
dancing with the moonlight
25/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Always treating
trending moments equal
to just the ordinary
makes me realise
I am not an alone clone
25/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I took a day off from
being me
wore a mask
put on a cape
rode a horse through the mall
tossing out raffle tickets
to orphans and beggars
I waved to strangers
told old people they were sexy
but no one noticed
so I went back to being me
and still no one noticed
Being invisible has always been my life
now if only if everyone else
became invisible
what a wonderful world
it truly would be
26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I returned to a time
before the clowns of sorrow
chased me into a corner
and set fire to my life
back to when I believed dreams one day
would be fulfilled
come true
The dreams I once had but a place
I could run to when I could escape back to my past
26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I lost my way when you
locked the door
behind me
and I was swept away downstream
and thrown with other debris
against a foreign shore
where everyone ran
at the site of me
and the locked door behind me
26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I looked up a list of
people trending now
and found myself
number 5,376,451,157 trending now
Must be 2,169,451,157 are not on the internet
this week
Written: 26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Photos: 21/06/2004
Intercourse, Pennsylvania, &
15/04/16 Corny Point lighthouse, Spencer Gulf, South Australia
Just saw on the
internet
that there were 242,468 births so far today
I do not know where to send the
congratulations to
And there were 10,602 deaths so far today
I looked in the mirror
and noticed I was not one of them
The site did not list how many loves
failed today
but mine didn’t
What good is the internet anyway
26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
The equation did not
match
too much for too much
if only it had been less
then it would have much
but not too much
26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In an unexpected
sequence of events
love rolled over and played dead
while the band played a heavy metal
lullaby
during a mystical after storm rainbow breeze
blew through an enchanted moment
26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Time ran out but love stayed
on the stage
as curtains closed
and spotlights went dim
so I waited
but time never returned
leaving me forever naked
with no applause
or repeat performance
26/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Very excited to see your reflection
in the shop window at the mall today
I waved
you smiled
but kept going
I tried to follow
but you disappeared into the crowd
like you did
when you took your life
thirteen years ago
27/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While planning the future
spending days on the internet
reading
taking notes
talking
the future came and went
leaving us with lots of information
of what we could have done
But we missed all that came and went
while we planned
27/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
With a slight scent of love in the air
outside
I opened the window
unhitched the door
turned off the TV
cleaned out cobwebs
changed my thinking
and exhaled doubt
what a perfect moment
to die
28/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Sensitive sensual
sensations
sustained sweet success
surrounding secret sounds
so smartly surrendered
again today
28/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Alarmed by the constant terrible news
the media feeds us
I went to bed hungry
28/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
A new to us planet
was discovered recently
that is only a 4.2 light years away
finally found somewhere
someone like me
is worth communicating with
28/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Flowers in the gutter
washing toward the sea
to surprise a submarine as it launches
a guided missile
on its way to vaporize a once peaceful village
29/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Tempting in its
discovery
unsolvable in its conclusion
the end of all life on earth
had no consequence
to the discovery of earth by aliens
from a nearby star
29/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
The abstraction of the
wind’s tormented self
frightened love out of its nest
where hiding once seemed safe
but now exposed
is forced to perform
in front of a careless audience of decaying
wishes
29/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a most stressful moment
comparing myself to others
I seemed such a loser
that I moved to a deserted island
with no internet
and became the best of me with no equal
Today I am transferring that once-were-loser
back to on-line status
so others can see that I am better
than they or anyone they know
will ever have a chance to be
Sucked-in still-to-be losers
30/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Excited by your departure
Now I can re-cast you in my life
as a dream I once had
Not the nightmare you were
30/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So full the moments purpose
if all I could have was this one
I would cast all others far out to sea
for some deep-sea mermaids
to have a life with
30/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Book 4. P. 129
In a non-illustratable breath
I took one more
before exhaling across the plains
bringing to life distant dreams
so out of reach
that even the rain
refuses to fall
in fear of drowning
30/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a shocking miscarriage of justice
the moon was forcefully separated
from the earth
31/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Not knowing
whether or not
maybe or perhaps
could’ve should’ve would’ve
we went forward against the trends
loving for tomorrow
over lapping laughing longing seas
but then I awoke
still not knowing
What about you
31/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Lined up against the wall
token dreams unfulfilled
beyond reality
into surrealistic pretzels
then an ever gradual widening crack
in our structure opened up
showing a new horizon
if only we would believe
31/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your love became buried treasure
on a distant hidden island
that left me as a stranded pirate
ready to steal new love
rather than search for
what I had lost
31/08/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In an incredible instance of a missed
opportunity
I did not capture
a fast moving poem
as I was busy gazing out at birds
riding a wind-wave
foreground to a rapidly changing sunset
at the end of a day filled with wonderment
01/09/16 Hewett Primary
In a struggle of re-inventing myself
I became crippled
at the sight of me
unable to un-re-invent myself
in a re-run of too many who I thought I was
left ignored at the start
I supersede all expectations
with no explanation of why I struggle
to not be me
at the same moment
I struggle to be me
01/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a fast flowing fancy fantasy
soon forgotten
I vaguely remember
what comes next
01/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a short-term memory lapse
a collapsing galaxy
forgot its place in the universe
While here on earth
I wonder why there is suddenly a blank space
in the sky
and why I am alone
2/09/16 Blakeview Primary
In a strange change of plans
the moon left her orbit
and wandered off to
join the moons of Saturn
for a dance of singularity
leaving us all
with one less reflective moment
02/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
For the short time the
light was on
I saw the darkness
moving through me
directing me
loving me
then the light went off
I heard laughter
chase me
into a corner
and rob me of a final wish
before I became translucent (look
up images of translucent)
02/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
729. Tomorrow I will go a
new direction
Tomorrow I will go a new direction
but for today
I will continue
along the same old way
that has driven my circular motion
and made me go nuts
02/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Book 4. P. 84
New Stuff
Old Stuff
Stuff
How I long for when we ran naked along the shore
and needed only soft sand to love in
03/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Embedded images of you
upon painted letters
flowed easily
but words were not formed
and your meaning washed away in the rain
leaving me to interpret
smudged images of you
dissolving in this evening’s mist
as a message
that you had gone this time forever
03/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In an easily forgotten
moment
I remembered the joy at the birth of me
Now those thrills belong to smile’s shadows
faded so long ago
I question whether they were ever real
or did I just appear in this life
out of bubbles popped too soon
03/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Along the edge of life
I dance quietly
so only those dreaming will see me
shadowing their drifting sleep
03/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a confusing moment
I traded a night with my former self
and now
I don’t want to return to being me
03/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Circumventing surrounded surrendered dreams
escaped me temporarily
so we could swim together in the self-same sea
04/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Embarrassed by who you
thought I once was
before you saw who I was today
I changed to an exotic animal in fright flight
then you made me extinct
04/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Without a conspiracy
rumoured seeded clouds
could not reign
leaving us dry to float
upon flooded rivers of alleged secrets
04/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Without flow
answers frequently faltered
Now I catch rain in buckets
and empty it into rivers
that flow answers to why
but never to how
so we can die peacefully
without knowing
05/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I watched life pass by in a sun-reflecting
bubble
I waved
the bubble burst
Sun splattered
cross ground
fragments
pierced logical dreams
bursting them too
Embedded life
if only I could feel it
I would be happy again
05/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Troubled by the knowledge of multiple
infinite number of universes
with no way to escape the one born to
one lone fly crashed head first
into a spider’s trap
unconcerned by the future
of swallowing up of local universes
by larger hungrier universes
06/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Love’s imitation of dawn’s final call
replaced all doubt
with seasonal change
leaving me empty.
07/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Umbrella of change
kept me dry
and the world around me
floating by
07/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I predicted you would live forever
But I was hampered
when I died and no longer could verify my prediction
07/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Originally this change in pattern
was to agument dreams
random dreams
while on a new tried path
now so common
are my dreams
I am unable to return to
a better moment
07/09/16 Perseverance Road, South Australia
Whispers in the wind
articulate an urgency to redefine love lost
letting passson
redefine yesterday challenge
07/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
746. I look in the mirror
I look in the mirror
I see a clown
I look in your eyes
I see a stranger
I look in the sky
I see the universe opening to me
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I don’t wish to know
whether you are alive or not
you still loving in my memory
of our youth
is all
I want to ever know
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While waiting for something to do
Unknown to my impatience
Outside of our universe
There was another Big Bang
Starting another universe
Soon to be filled with galaxies
Stars, planets, and other debris
And eventually a person like me
Impatiently sitting in this
waiting room
With nothing to do
Another wasted day on earth
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While saving/hoarding so much for
the future
Filling everything with now
So if I need it then
I ran out of space
To experience now
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Book 4. P. 98
While waiting to grow old Life
passed me by
I waved
No one noticed
Once again being a one man parade
Along this mountain pass
In the storm
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Photos: 2014 - Ballarat, Victoria / 2010 - Lake Atitlan, Guatemala
I waited all night to hear you sing
one more time
across the frozen plains
echoing across my wanting you
Where you have gone nothing prepares me
I look in the alley
I watch the internet
I listen to the change of the wind
If I had known you would be gone so long
I would have left you a trail
not for me to find you but for our paths to cross
perhaps in the outback
where we first found ourselves
lost at the start of the new age
Now I am lost from you
I am lost from myself
if only we could find one another to be lost
for the remainder of forever
together
I would feel found
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Photo, Bike sculpture, Hamburg, Germany, June, 2009
When you won me
you lost so much
nowhere to trade
stuck victory
poisoned freedom
so much to dream
could have been so different
if I had not been won
if you had not dreamed
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I borrowed some ideas from blooming flowers
in the south-eastern corner of my garden
believing I would make
a grand reflection for a setting moment
in the north-western sector
But I was wrongly sided
and gave back blooming ideas
as they wilted in my grasp
08/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Perhaps mingled with maybe
hesitated at spring’s possible overtures
to hinder winter’s hold and lovers
questionable feelings
of now is the time of fulfillment
as where before it was only alluded to
09/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In youth I sampled love
fast passing tastes with no thought
to remember
until youth had been fully spent
Fading glimpses
of what once was sweet
now aged and fallen to dust
covering
once were passions
of now long gone youthful samples
09/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a sleepy dreamed filled moment
I lost my place
letting slip away a senseless grip
on reality
I once claimed to have had
09/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a flawed romantic moment
our love was hacked and infected
by a foreign concept
you and I not together
in the future
10/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Such a victory
no losers in site
grateful to be happy
no party for the vanquished sleeping in the mind
dreaming of victory
worn in disguise by a winning side
with nothing to lose
in this indeterminable game called love
10/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
With the meltings
flowed rapidly winter’s thawed memories
flooding me with too much
to experience today
10/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Such a walk this
morning
on the trail
off the trail
releasing
inhaling
so much clearer today
will be
now we can
pierce through approaching storms
with cloudy minds
replaced with a glorious walk
at the break of day
11/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While writing about my
past
I changed the part about you leaving me
for several magic beans
and a circus contract
to you realising
then accepting
I truly was a prince
though now
hiding in the alley
in disguise
making my life story
much more believable
11/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
From the excitement of
what dream will I have tonight
to what thoughts will I have tomorrow
to what will I remember of the past
is the unexcitable life I do live
11/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Psychic theoretical narcissistic
conspiracists with mixed agendas
gave me a number
then subtracted me from the equation
of zero minus love
leaving me naked and fearful
of my lack of humour that prevents me
from being captain of their inner shadowy world-tribe
that rains on my falling reign
drowning me in obscurity
11/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
From whispering digital
readouts
I barely could decipher the complex code
of my DNA
that so constantly laughs at me
and refers to me as “Terrell-Unplugged”
when all I ever try to do is to say
how evolved I could have been
if I were me now
living 2000 years ago
11/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unsure what I wanted
to be remembered for
I forgot myself
so everyone else
would too
Text: 12/09/16
Vista, South Australia Photo: 21/07/07 Angkor Wat, Cambodia
Manipulated memories
distilled and stored
in an age reversal tonic
unfortunately drunk by my dog
who sits in front of the mirror
laughing all day
though I do not know why
12/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Shadowed by a foreign accent
I hid the translation
in mythologized meanings
of romanticized thoughts
but still I did not understand
why I had to re-invent myself
as a foreign shadow
again
12/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a sun-warmed moment
we touched the sky and conquered love
in a naked realisation
that we would never want more
12/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
769. “Global Warming”
Book 4. P. 9
Global Warming
drowning from too many thawed memories
13/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In an endless search I
found what I had lost
then lost that on the curves of your body
satisfaction averted
once again
13/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
My old world
transformed
when a new thought
entered and washed it away
13/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Overwhelming was the
thought
that started our universe
like the thought
of me without you
13/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Almost Cannibal
Devastating delicious
thoughts of last night’s taste of you
filled me with want
Another meal of you
would suffice
thank you
14/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too short the sleep
to have space for all the dreams
of you I had
14/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Changed texture
masked little of the secret life
of the dead
still knocking on my door
Written: 14/9/16 Vista, South Australia Photo: July 2009
Warsaw Subway
776. In a time of rhyme
my narrative fell flat
with you never rhyming with me
14/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a too long ago
vision
of the way it could be
we sailed calm waters
into a non-returnable
sunset
14/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Randomly selected
sequences of love
left little to balance
unjust moments without you
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Surrealistic surprise
Now faced with disappearing reality
How disappointing being awake is
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
All knowledge
accumulated soon to be disproved
every discovery chipping away
what we were taught
Tomorrow to fly free
never caring what it is that will be
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Disappointed outcomes
no one alerted me
love lost at the drop of a thought
even the clowns
have become magicians
with no one to believe
I swallow the shadows
and vanish from memory
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While searching for a
happy thought
I drowned in a mythological narcissistic reflective
pool
where you face was my face
and a full moon in Leo laughed too
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Creative chance
changes captured a fleeting feeling
Digital apparition of a 3d printable copy of our youth
before being washed away in a late spring flood
that left me and Noah gasping for
a last bit of non-polluted air
before we became unreal once again
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a most irritable
moment
the internet got up and left
to avoid even one more
pithy saying
embedded upon a photo of a cat
to appear
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I wish I could have
though maybe best not to have
gone back to before I had wished
instead of after
so it could have come true
15/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
All together
echoes across the ages
waiting for understanding
never captured
just echoes
long past
16/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Your smile
chasing gloom
out to sea
giving me
another clear day
to float into
16/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Similar simple motions
propelling us like waves of stellar dust
cast forth
from an exploding galaxy
once such a proud home for billions of starts
millions of which had earth-like planets
that had billions of years of life to evolve to
a sudden death
over time and stellar dust
sprinkled over us
in a final farewell
16/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Lost in my garden
looking for life
amongst the weeds
found nothing but pebbles
that had grown into rocks
children’s toys that once were homes
for snails and slugs
and a metro ticket that had expired
so I killed the weeds
Now my rocks, toys, and tickets
will come to life
17/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Forgot to wait and
went forward
preparations replaced in haste by now
with such surprising results
no one realise anything at all
17/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I thought I was being
clear
with the message
I sent with puffs of smoke
until clouds entered the scene
and punctuated my paragraph
in the wrong spot
now they think I asked a question
rather than made an explanation
and the rain obliterated the answer
17/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Pretending to be
flowers the weeds laughed upon my grave
and chased away
the momentary Monday morning mourners
who had arrived to pick a bouquet
to hang on the brothel door
Text: 17/9/16 Vista, South Australia / Photo: 21/07/16
Roadside Camping, Victoria
I left a note of
insignificance at the temple
of the unknown love
causing an uproar
for those who had lost my way
17/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I never lost my way
the way was lost two days after
I was born
now that the road is blocked
I am no longer lost
18/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too often gone
rushing past fast
love burns wild
giving pleasure
moments savoured
deathbed memories
all the worth having
18/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Particularly those
looking forward
missed yesterday’s trailing breeze
and failed to celebrate
a bright new day
18/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Tomorrow when I return
to being me
I should forget being king
and all the glory
that occurred in my dream
so as to be a simple fool
like those around me
18/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I thought I saw Elvis
at the end of my street
waving to me
but my eyes deceived me
it was Einstein in a space suit
writing out speeding tickets
to those who had loved too fast
Text: 18/9/16
Vista, South Australia ~ Photo: 18/9/16 River Torrens, Adelaide
Saving the best for
last
I baked an extra bath of organic tofu-kelp
cookies
to hand out at my wake
18/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I taught my shadow
how to play the piano
while dancing in the moonlight
leaving me free
to swim ashore
and sweet talk
the morning away
to a lonely seagull
18/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Photo: River Torrens, Adelaide
While in orbit around your love
a space bubble
collided with me tonight alone
19/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So quick this short
time has passed
no one left to remember
who we were when
we were free
floating together when we were one
so quickly
that short time passed us by
only remembered now
in such a quiet time
when no sound can dispute
what I remember
of us so free so quickly
the time passed by
19/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Flooded memories swept
away
with other debris purifying us
in a possessive
sweeping way
clearing the path
to start a journey new
with no thoughts
but of hope now that flooded memories
will subside
19/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I was put on the spot when morning asked
if I could sacrifice a virgin rabbit
but being a vegetarian
I could only offer tofu
now the sun won’t rise
as my punishment
sorry world
20/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I changed the ending
to where we first touched
proclaiming forever
without end
our love would continue
even after the program faded
and all that remained
smouldering dreams unfilled
20/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
806. Laughter released
Laughter released
nothing serious
though I had hoped
for more than a sequel
to another blank moment
20/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Saw you again
not you
but an image
twenty-years ago
at our start
What a charmer
I never saw our end
we just disappeared
vanished lives
years rolled on
I don’t know
if you are still alive
was there ever anything more
that this photo moment
I have
you laughing so free along the coast at our start
but never ever ending
just melting away
inside a narrative
I never could follow
21/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
To calm the still held
memory of you lingers
time to re-invent long past visions
fly free fast
into a final freedom
if only I could
JUST TO KNOW
peacefulness alone
21/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
If we could be
who we were then again
now would never be
21/September/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Love is a mirage
appearing in panic
disappearing
at the first thought
of otherwise
21/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So perfect chaos is
leaving me
taking you
the natural order of any collapsing moment
broken molecules of thoughts
left to regenerate
forming new inhabitable experiences
for us to grow in
together
22/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Today ended like I
knew it would
unexplainable
start to finish
leaving me
in blissful surrender
to what I could control
22/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I knew the end was
near
when I was unable
to construct
a finish line
22/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While waiting time
stopped
making waiting impossible
so I decided
now that I have stopped waiting
I forgot why I was waiting
and was left
with waiting to forget
22/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Too plain the pain
covering such an exotic
pain
that I quit
and became
a hole in the ground
22/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Watching changes like
a reflection of someone else’s life
only it is me
Hello new me
Now if only the world would change
what a magical place this alley would be
Text: 23/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Photo: March, 2016 - Doi Chaang, Chiang Rai. Thailand
Lost at the corner
under cover
multiple choices
random thoughts
now is the time to follow my shadow
before loneliness
hides it in a crowd
23/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unlike today
tomorrow
cannot be forgotten
23/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Without a lock
this key
knows no freedom
23/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
No wonder
where with reason
is easily predictable
when choices
are washed wearily away
with blinded songless reason
23/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
After tossing my hat
into a foreign language
I escaped without understanding
23/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unable to dance
dinosaurs became extinct
23/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Dwindled to bite-size
memory
packed and ready to leave
taking all with me
to this island
living forever
with reconstituted thoughts of you
24/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Changed switched
direction
tonight new
when could it ever have been different
if not for known
impossible to see
lost at sea
now is the new way
all else turned to dust
24/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Inspired by yesterday
tomorrow began in earnest
but faltered when she learned
it was not yet her time
24/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
When we were wild
the streets became alive
love laughter play
little else mattered
the future was for adults
now was the only way for us
Looking back
forty-five years ago
why can’t I do
me then now
and forget the world today
just to be free
love laughter play
in the mind of New Orleans
one last time
25/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Freedom flew fast
long gone
now imprisoned
by today’s views
I look for escape
to return to when
freedom flew fast
25/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I buried myself in the
back garden
so the roses would have something
to hold onto in their loose soil
in this conspiracy filled collapsing world
25/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
There was always more
to do
which explains my dead lawn
wilted flowers
unpainted house
hole in my muffler
unkempt look
hole in clothes
and slipping away
so long ago
you from me
25/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In an alternative
reality
I saw my reflection in a future calm lake
I knew it was alternative
because it would never be
in this life
25/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Lasting longer than a
passing flash
gave me a glimpse
of love on the run
25/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Flowers picked to day
brought thoughts of you
filling my house
with scents
of when you filled my wold
25/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Unable to end I
started over
capturing my shadow
each time
in a startling discovery of pornographic poses
that scared me into submission
with no thought
but to start again
26/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I blended you with me
in a quickly dissolving haze
that was photoshopped almost perfectly
into a realistic 3D sculpture
that was swept out to sea
like we were
when we were
one-dimensional
26/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a shocking tale of
memory collisions
secrets exploded
filling mystifying particulars
with nothing at all
as clouds covered naked valleys
with unrepeatable whispers
and love that fell from birds with broken wings
echoing through time for others to interpret
26/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
836. Unsure to why the
direction we took
Unsure to why the direction we took
was going to lead me to a pot of gold
at rainbow’s end
I swam across the bay instead
now stuck on an island of make-believe
I wait for a karmic exchange that will free me of me
and create an us
out of nothing at all
27/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
837. Planned extinction
Planned extinction
the part of inevitable evolution
that humans share with galaxies
I forgot when I declared
love forever for you
27/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
838. Unlike most illusions
I dreamt I was real and bought myself a new tie
Now when you look into the alley
the fleeting image that you see
is me
27/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a slowly evolving
progressive space
we travelled from go to whoa
in a time unmanageable
28/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Tomorrow they will
take me apart
chop chop chop
sew me back
so so so
if I am not better
toss me into the community garden
for the vegans
to grow their veggies on
Text: 28/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Photos: 17/02/16 Chiang Rai, Thailand
There is so much to
worry about I don’t know where to begin
which to choose as worry number one
what happens if the second
or even fifth worry
is bigger than the first
there just is not enough time in a day
to give space for each worry
what a dilemma to be in night before
the world comes to an end
and
I am the
only one
left
Text: 28/09/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Photo: 19/07/16 "The Garment
Worker" 555 Seventh Avenue, New York City
Such a changed
environment
HERE
In some other magnificent mystical magical musical
kingdom where the wind blows
colourful tunes without question
celebration would go on without merit
But here so unexpected the view
once the chaos is removed
that even a circus elephant would applaud
and I the silent character
rests in the storm of this changed environment
with no story to tell
and no one to listen
29/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South
Australia
As if now was the time
at the edge of thoughts
remembering what could have been
such a translation
could have changed
the narrative of fulfilled
what a dream
if only
30/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Along a shortcut I
thought was to you
I picked brightly lit neon flowers
reflecting Teflon memories
we could have had
if I had not gotten lost
and to you
I had actually found the way
30/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
While lost in your narrative
the plot took an unexpected turn
leading me too quickly
to the end before understanding the start
Now I look blankly at the sky
trying to find meaning
where there should never have been us
to being with
30/9/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
The past lay strewn
across the present
new mingled with antiquity
what could we know
if now is all there was
dismissed yesterday
creates a blank today
but for instance
with you I could give up
the lay strewn past
01/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Concerned with today’s
appearance
I happily painted over it
with variants of grey
in hopes of a recognizable
scene capturing
love’s sullen hypocrisy
01/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a grand gesture of sympathetic
climate change
I recycled my love
using yesterday’s energy
in hopes of satisfying
power deficient concubines
01/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
It has become
perfectly clear
the illuminati have fired electrodes
into my parietal lobe
to prevent me from creating witty elegant
muse inspired poems from Erato
while blocking social media
from letting them go viral
leaving me with incoherent
non-textured verse
that does not even impress my grandchildren
or neighbour’s cat
01/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In a bouncing
untethered clear sphere
I bathed in meaning
and anti-language
then rolled
breathed in
laughed in
word groups
that filled the alley
providing no space to pause
before becoming intoxicated
with such alien sentence structures
01/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In an impossible
scenario
of unthinkable consequences
filled with delusional ramifications
non-constructed secrets
were whispered
and a new conspiracy was hatched
when the chicken laid a golden egg
but no one believed me
01/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
So totally confused
headed north
arrived south
tow-truck driver said it was due
to the tilt of the earth’s axis
the authorities informed me
I was lost because of my medication
the priest claimed my bewilderness
came from having unsustainable beliefs
my children said my digital direction had been hacked
politicians said I had no moral compass
my wife said we were lost and best to enjoy it
before someone found us
so we ran off and dissolved with the setting sun
02/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Frustrated at the
outcome to what could have been
a different assembly of thoughts
I scattered what remained and let the future destroy
what could have been
02/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Frozen laughter shook
the landscape
scarring away the storm that had gallantly leapt
across the broken horizon
distant shadows woke me from my search for peace
screaming resistance slogans
drowning my off-key singing of an early Dylan
non-electric folk song
in bland pop-song idiocy
causing me to flee inside of a bubble
floating above the mistakes of the world
another day of freedom
finally found
03/10/16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I lost you in the
rear-view mirror
always thought we were on the same highway
now the road is empty
except for me
weaving out of control
without destination
03/10/16 Dukes Highway – Victoria
Finally time to fill
this blank book
life as retirement
03/10/16 Dukes Highway – Victoria
While in la la land
I went off to prospect for love
at the edge of reality
I discovered fool’s love
hidden amongst want
so I looked for more substance orientated love
only to awaken alone
with no time left
03/10/16 Dukes Highway – Victoria
While waiting for the
effect to wear off
‘bliss over matter’
I became allergic to change
now never to reap the results
03/10/16 Dukes Highway – Victoria
As a lot less to much
more
everything pointed to the pressure of what should be
if only so much more
could have been a tad bit less
04/10/16 04/10/16
Halls Gap, the Grampians – Victoria
Out of reach gives strength and motivation
to stretch far and beyond
so out of reach
becomes close enough
to fill the ensuing
warmth
if only out of reach
wasn’t
04/10/16 04/10/16
Halls Gap, the Grampians – Victoria
This morning the river
of knowledge
broke her banks
flooding an ignorant landscape
with reasonable conjectures
but the drowned would not listen
04/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Forced completion
excited pain
final farewell
no love say
another emptiness
filled
04/10/16 Elwood, Melbourne,
Victoria
As a final howl
dogs cry in fear
bandits run off laughing
the deceived surrender
winners ejaculate
I stab peace with a pocket knife
the curtain is pulled
on another night
in the city
04/10/16 Elwood, Melbourne,
Victoria
Too busy to match
yesterday’s
catching up to the day before
I went deep into the forest
and slept through tomorrow
04/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
865. Morning tried to
befriend me
Book 4. P. 3
Morning tried to befriend me
favoured my posts
liked everything I said
reposted my reposts of other’s reposts
But when she blew clouds into images of playful cats and smiling dogs
I shut down and sank back into sleep
05/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
As a black and white
painter
my sunsets smudged
and blended unrecognizable
leaving to a colourful imagination of what could have been
if only I had a bucket of red
some blue
and a bit of yellow
to show what I see
yet no one else does
05/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I received a dangerous
driving summons
for letting my imagination run wild
on the curves of your body
and colliding with a speeding spacious thought
that had no place
to settle
05/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
An un-assisted feeling
of love over took a moment of doubt
that became swept away for no reason
though in hindsight
I can now laugh
05/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
While constructing a
new religion
based on an ancient alien lie
written in a future computer code
I chose four of my favourite
garden gnomes to be my followers
then successors
I lined them up on my balcony and day after day
lectured and ejaculated in front of them
until eventually I believed they believed
but when I tested them
by pushing them off of the veranda
they shattered upon landing
now I am in search of new followers
06/October/2016
Elwood, Melbourne, Victoria
Far out into the depth
the moment grasps for recognition amongst losers of the first order
I kiss the remainder of a neighbour’s dream
traffic comes to a halt
something about change
is hollered into the darkness
then the door closes
so nothing will ever be known
06/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Covered majestic peaks
with dreams of
mystical magical myths
you are always close
a touchable climb to the top
even clouds bow in admiration
but to be human
none of nature would wish such nonsense
in fear of no longer being awed in
such an astonishing place
06/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Being so ignorant for
such a vital time
gave way to being free
to learn a new how to be
thought the roses
before being tossed onto the bed
for first time lover
to desecrate
06/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Too many
interpretations of the way it was
created confusion for the way it is
though everyone died
no matter why
06/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
At the grave of the
unknown winner
the plastic flowers wilted
from an overheated moment
so no one came to view
the grave of the unknown winner
06/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I butchered the
English language
to create a witty broken poetic style
I thought would read
new anti-language-trendy-bohemian
but my spell checker rewrote it in higher ASXII code
which when translated read
“you are an idiot”
07/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Unable to define what
I defend
I easily fall into the trap set
by an alter ego
stressed beyond reprieve
07/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
So many declare
themselves so different
to be like another
becomes the new unique
07/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
878. I broke
I broke
falling off of the world stage
playing myself
battered and bruised
limping into a setting sun
once again
07/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
879. Now that the end is
here
Now that the end is here
I no longer wait for the start
it is easier to fall forward
roll downhill
handout promises
rebuke the naysayers
now that the end is near
07/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
880. I dream my life
I dream my life
is an ill-conceived film
badly scripted
horribly directed
made without special effects
but with possible streaks of genius
If only the ending
could be re-written
someone would watch it
maybe even me
07/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
881. Out of a vat
Out of a vat
of melting multiple memories
emerged colours
unseeable with yesterday’s eyes
but brilliantly displayed
in this new reality
07/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
In a definitive
defining declaration
morning proclaimed innocence
to the upcoming events of the day
08/10/16 Elwood, Melbourne,
Victoria
883. Girl with curls
swirls furls
Girls with curls swirls furls
passing by on skates
morning unfurled
like I would if youth was more
than a shadow
in the mist
uncurled
08/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Knowing life has been
spent
whether well or not
gives no matter
to what could have been
as everyone else
rushes by spending theirs
08/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I closed the door
to my social media pages
so the cold outside
would not corrupt
my remaining warmth
08/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Whispers in the wind
along the coast
promising virgin dawn
this time it will be different
08/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Who I was yesterday
dreamer in the sky
today asking why
I could not forever be
just a dreamer in the sky
08/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Too often the dead
taunt me
in the mirror
“join us join us”
so I no longer look
and listen to their cries
getting carried out to sea
while I laugh on the balcony
throwing bricks at my shadow
passing by so long ago
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Choppy seas stormy
life
know where
the no-where winds go
for the ill-fated
memories struggling
to swim ashore
to land upon
this unsinkable life
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I went to the shop
to purchase a bottle
of happiness
but they had sold out
to believers of fate
leaving me with no point of view
and without
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Shadows of love
dancing on my wall
asking me to join
in their flickering play of light
before my imagination
chases them away
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Shadows of love
dancing on my wall
asking me to join
in their flickering
play of light
before my imagination
chases them away
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Fantasy plagued dreams
created a blind spot
in my progress toward enlightenment
causing this crash and burn
parody my life has become
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I became lost in my
journey
through life which became this path
opening peacefully without plan or direction
through an unburden tomorrow
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
With so few steps
taken
progress was recorded
and birth delayed so the road
would not be worn by an unselected people
and the unworthy escaped
in dawn’s eager want
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I lost a poem but
gained a set of words
to use
the next time my dream goes quiet
09/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
No one called
echoes proved intent
when I am able
all will change
before then
listen to the wind
for my voiceover
10/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Green divided by blue
times red squared
foolish to think yellow
white could even be included
until it is
peak into a raindrop
for something that works
10/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
We lined up in
anticipation
believing the dark tale
of a lengthened sleep
punctuated by broken eons of time
would be rewarding
but instead nothing happened
10/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I wish I had spent
more time knowing you better
decades came and went
there would always be time
Forty years in a wink
I had just begun to hear what you had to say
to see your creativity
to touch your mind
Time steals
memories heal
distance erases
if only I could have spoken with you again
Australia to Guatemala
just a hello apart
all that is possible now is to unfold
crumpled memories
fading too quickly
yet still visible
barely
11/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Light touch
light taste
you give me a constant glow
11/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Innocence on parade
love around the corner
what a surprise
not knowing
what comes next
11/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I promised you a magic
carpet
taking us beyond these colourless shades of night
and the haunting sounds of dreams
that should never have been
I wove stories
you believed them
if any could have come true
I would have believed too
now our magic carpet
is a play area for our dog
chewing toys and bones and sleeping on
never knowing once it could have taken us anywhere
though it brought us to here
which is good
and beyond what I could have imagined
in a promised anyway
11/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
The journey from dawn
to sunset
was particularly long today
I waited at my door for you
as I have for the past twenty-years
believing as I do each time that this day
will be different
but the winds blew
I know they must
have blown off course
because again, today
you did not appear
but I did
11/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
In a gentler time the
wind was playful
plentiful
whispers travelled easily
quick promises of love
swept doubt out to sea
we loved easily on the shore
why are we not able
to be playful
has freedom given way to wisdom
impractical to practical
dreams to reality
the aging process needs to reverse
so once again
we can love in a playful breeze
11/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I keep going back
researching reviewing recounting
where we were
when we were free
to understand
why we no long are there
here anywhere
together
anymore
12/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
907. With nothing left to
interpret
our love into a communicative language
I went through ancient hieroglyphic translations
to read how our love endures
past cave drawings
of the likes of us
and found you beyond language
floating through time with me
12/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I went to the shop
to purchase a bottle of reality blended with love
but it turned out to be a mixture
of peanut butter and honey
now I no longer look for reality
and I am much more satisfied
12/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I went to sleep hungry
but awoke filled with dreams to mask
the day in special treated moments
to heal the day’s remainder
12/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
910. My father died aged
102
My father died aged 102
because he saw no point
in doing so sooner
12/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I heard a herd of
elephants
on a stroll through my garden
stopping only to perform a short dance
and a few magic tricks
with an adolescent baboon
But as they had no requests of me
I put my imagination back into a box
and went for a short
songfest with the daffodils
Words: 12/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Photos: 2016 Chiang Rai, thailand
I overheard God
speaking with a crippled beggar
in the alley
telling her
he was chosen
and that the rest of us
were the beggars
crippled by our thinking
12/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
I write self-inflicted
poems
and let the wounds flow freely
until they scar over my disjointed
lyrical past
13/10/16 Elwood,
Melbourne, Victoria
Being the last to hear
the news I celebrate quietly your achievements
winning again as you have for more than fifty-years
leading us through this abstracted life
paving escape routes with gold
exhaling meaning in a meaningless world
So often getting it
wrong
how it was
being right instead
does anyone care
the way it is will be
different come a change in time
14/10/16
Melbourne
In an
unsettled song
the stage became empty
while the audience
chocked to death
on popcorn
and yesterday’s sour dreams
14/10/16
Melbourne
Once so
believable
now we can only laugh
Once so understandable
now we can only scream
Once so possible
now we can only dream
This love story so unpredictable
Now we should dance
and let the past wash away
14/10/16
Melbourne
In a
fickle trickle of passing infatuations
there was little time
to choose wisely
so now I pretend to be someone else
instead of the reflection in a mirror broken
that my former self
once believed in
14/10/16
Melbourne
Roasted
love
another day
on the beach
in the tropics
15/10/16
On Hume Highway back to Adelaide
In a
limited fashion
everything dwindled
the rest remained the same
freedom yet
to be discovered
15/10/16
Perseverance Road
The
rivers passed me by
the clouds passed
as well as the girl on the corner
with the clowns laughing along the railroad track
but life
I got ahold of
a terrific ride all the way
Life did not pass me by
15/10/16
Perseverance Road
Book 4. P. 97
Disappointed at the array of colours
in yesterday’s dream
I merged with evening’s sky
and feigned obsolescence
so no one could find me
ever again
Words - 16/10/16
Adelaide, South Australia Photos: Statue – Hamburg, Germany, 2003
Sunset – New Year’s Eve 2010 Glenelg, South Australia
What needs wild animals have
so much worry
nothing simple like we have
Facebook friends
alt-tags
shared photos
World War Three talk
strange presidential elections
Wild animals just focus on
food, sex, shelter
What a boring life
They must envy us so
16/10/16
Perseverance Road
Photos: 2005 – 2016 neuage.org
I leapt forward in time
when time no longer
existed
and neither did earth
16/10/16
Perseverance Road
In a slow progress of time
the magician of love
fell from her perch
unable to release wings
to enable the moment
to hasten
and bring forth
the change necessary
to complete a forecast of love
16/10/16
Perseverance Road
While erasing non-sensible
lyrics my mind collapsed
leaving me with incomplete
structures of meaning
and no one left to reconstitute my broken thoughts
into sensible
though forgettable
lyrics
16/10/16
Perseverance Road
Upon a
jingle juggling jungle journey to the centre
where few had dreamt before
I found a reflection
of what could have been an ancient path
but to my surprise
it led back to my youth
where I decided to stay
and forgo the tragedy of growing old
Text ~ 17/10/16
Adelaide / Photo ~ 13/10/16 Melburne, Australia
A weed
became the voice of my garden
leading all the plants into a rebellion
that I quickly supressed
by building a statue
of myself in the midst of the garden
to block the sun
and wreak havoc upon the rebellion
in my once tame garden
17/10/16
Perseverance Road
Such
feelings
moving across my oasis of a life
sweeping all away
leaving me naked
and fulfilled to start anew
18/10/16
Perseverance Road
Each
day’s ritual consisting of changes out of control
through worth the view
18/10/16
Perseverance Road
Limited
to silence
at the end of the journey
no one got to hear
the harmony of flight
or whispers of wind
on this noisy path
to now
18/10/16
Perseverance Road
A quick
thunderstorm
this morning’s applause
to the start of day
18/10/16
Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
A far
flung favourite feature
from foreign friends
is to exchange memories
of freedom forgotten
finally found
once again to share
18/10/16
Perseverance Road
I fell to
sleep
before completing this poem
now I will never know
what comes next
18/10/16
Perseverance Road
Freed
from falling forward
I stopped at the edge
to stake my claim
embraced by all I had become
standing tall
no longer to fall
19/10/16 Perseverance Road
I reached
beyond where I could imagine
to float in a dimension
yet known
or conceived
though when I return
no one will believe me
so on second thought
I will return
without going beyond
what I can imagine
19/10/16
Perseverance Road
In an
ill-conceived notion of self-importance
the storm filled stream
filled the valley in jubilee
until it met the sea
and became nothing more
than evaporating insignificance
like love gone astray
19/10/16
Perseverance Road
Hopefully
today will be remembered
as more than another hungry moment
left unfilled
tomorrow
which promises even less
19/10/16
Perseverance Road
I spent so long setting down foundations
Never got a chance
to see a built life
fading in the shadows
20/10/16
Perseverance Road
Watching
winners become losers
what fun it is to be an observer
and critic of nothing of merit
and be just another bush
shedding leaves in my master’s garden
20/10/16
Perseverance Road
As
unfamiliar territory loomed across the horizon
questions arose
to the validity of victory versus experience
which gets more likes
cats or dogs video
or should we repost creative endeavours instead
just to fool proof the chance of alien life
viewing our priorities
as fools in action
who fear crossing the horizon
and merging with new and familiar territory
20/10/16
Perseverance Road
Easily
the wind blows true
swaying the most steadfast objects
resisting change
yet still love strengthens
amidst forces of change
and grows beyond containment
spreading across an accepting landscape
raising us all to new heights
20/10/16
Perseverance Road
I heard a
youthful voice
in the centre of the storm
sing my name just before I was swept away
and deposited out of reach
to solitude’s havoc
20/10/16
Perseverance Road
After
viewing my favourite conspiracy site
this morning
I realized the weeds in my garden
were plotting
to overtake firstly my life
then spread across
the horizon to destroy
democracy as we once knew it
21/10/16
Perseverance Road
Last time
together
never known
would have celebrated
life together
together
If had known
Now so long ago
if only said goodbye one lasting time
This empty space
could be filled with phantoms
maybe of you
maybe if not
maybe our shadows dancing together
in this mornings crying mist
Text: 21/10/16 Adelaide, South
Australia
Photo: July 2007 Angkor Wat,
Cambodia
“mornings
crying mist”
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
Extremes merge
blurry mirages
muddled thoughts
if only could translate what I see
what magic would erupt
21/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia’
Change
has no patience
‘Hey wait for me’
we bellowed
as next moment different
created a stampede
through my once long ago
serene nonsensible life
now so far blown off course
that even my dreams are unable to mimic
the once were me
so peacefully dying in the alley
before change uprooted me
so I could be accountable to the beggar saints
bleeding in their repentance
over my once pure life
when I was free
not to be free
when it was all so simple
when I was no longer me
long ago before this change
21/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
948. I am the tree in the
forest
I am the tree in the forest
that pledged to be the tallest
only to be the first chopped down
once I had achieved my goal
Text: 21/10/16
Adelaide, South Australia
Photo: August 2013 Big Canoe,
Georgia
“I am the
tree in the forest”
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
I was in
flight
at the start of my journey
to you
when I realised my wings never were
which is the only
explanation I can give
as to why I am sprawled upon the pavement
looking up at you
21/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Acting
like a warrior king saint
the cactus in my garden
protected her kingdom
from lovers frolicking nearby
as well as giving love
to a nesting off-key gilded flicker
22/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
951. Quick decision
Quick decision
no time to evaluate
directions everywhere
nothing wrong
only change
what a thrill it will be
once around the next corner
22/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
We sacrificed routine on the altar of
change
so liberated
it is time to fly
never to land
forever air born
beyond routine’s enslavement
22/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
953. Trying to predict the
future
Trying to predict the future
by counting clouds
I am a storm cloud reader
the future looks dark
with a chance of change in the future
and is all the prediction I am allowed to make
22/10/16 Perseverance
Road, Adelaide, South Australia
954. Instructions lost to
where to being
Instructions lost to where to being
reassembled life
placing missed pieces
to the left of centre
misfitted forward motion
if only could find which direction
to put my next step
chances of feeling complete
possible yet not probable
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
955. Finished
Finished
such an end to all the plans come and gone
Starting
such excitement
Empty
life fill me now
with experiences so new
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
956. Phases without end
Phases without end
blended migrations of experience
today the sky is blue
and that is all that matters
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
957. Unappreciated
Unappreciated
the undiscovered misunderstood
Dawn
left as an underachieving world
withers and dies
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
We pushed
through these hard times
to dream easily in this flower soaked meadow
that no one else could perceive
leaving us free beyond normal thought
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Glazed
over passing memory
if only could recall what we were
just to do so again
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
So easy
to forget
when now so full
what is remembered
is what could be tomorrow
delusion replaces illusion
neither are the same
both more interesting
than remembering
what I forgot
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Memory
drifting
snippets appearing in clouds
going to string them all together
a necklace of memory clouds
to parachute with
Back to walking the streets again today
23/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Little
worthwhile was said in the forest this morning
Trees decided to dance away the day instead
as no humans came to visit
to hear them freely
serenading cockatoos too
24/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Photos: August, 2013, Big Canoe, Georgia, USA
Cockatoos: Innes National Park, South Australia
I tripped
and fell
in between the alleys
of right and wrong
spraining volumes of values
and creating a limp in my approach
to happiness
24/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I
upgraded my happiness to bliss
then settled in for
the long flight of retirement
After one day
I have no intention
of downgrading to happiness
Text:
24/10/16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Funny
patterns flashing scattered shattered shadows
across the wall of time
In the midst glowing with transcendent thought
I saw you beckoning me
to stop playing lost and rise above what could have been
and become like you
another shadow
flung across the wall of time
scattered
shattered shadows
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
Text:
24/10/16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Photo: May, 2014
Golden Pebble Beach, Jinshitan, Dalian, China
There was
never another way
than to run into the forest and hide from the intimidating
flame of desire
closing in from all sides
threating to eliminate
every and any sense
that could extinguish what remained
leaving us naked and blank
Text:
24/10/16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Hold the moment
I need to change the momentum
reshuffled thoughts
the order of things has no boundaries
we will all be vanquished by someone else’s dream
All that will remain
what is left of sand castles
yet to be swept away by the sea
redistributing the moment
leaving nothing to rebuild the approaching moment
we all fall down
Text:
25/10/16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Sorry to see you leave
not sure what will be left
but whatever it is
thoughts of you
will make a cornerstone
to build a new upon
Text:
25/10/16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I cast myself forward
like a roll of a dice
taking this gamble
I call starting over
Text:
25/10/16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
When the weeds in my garden
saw me with poison spray
running nakedly toward them
they quickly gathered magpies as mourners
leaving my war-torn dream fields no peace for my
Cycas Revoluta to flower
I watched
snails racing across my garden
in search of friends amongst the weeds
reminding me
it was time to brick over my backyard
and put a statue of me in the middle
for birds of prey
to nest on
and sing my praise
26/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
So many
steps yet left
when we get to the top
will the magic change our perception
that we are only halfway there
26/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Sitting
on my special cloud
making plans to dissolve pretentious ideas
from manifesting as displaced hope
at the end of a trail
filled with one line jokes
that make no sense
And that fooled me into looking like this
26/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I knew
the way freedom seemed such a simple task
comfort became the guiding voice
sidestepping the resistance
we bled easily
no further future fun would do
26/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Book 4. P. 103
We all lined up excellent expectational expectations
Some chose analogous colours
Some chose impulsive noises
I chose a few isosceles triangles
We were not disappointed
as the sun set in praise of our choices
as she should
27/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Wonders
wild were lost
what could possibly be
nothing stood still
we fell of the planet
no one celebrated
27/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
At the
end of the moment
when time wraps around herself
excluding well-wishers and dreamers
I saw a chance to escape
to join the circus
to fly through the air
to be myself
at the start of a new moment
I could control as my own
27/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I
gathered together
my five favourite friends
who were dead
and had a rather noisy party
with them
on a crowded tram
We had so much fun
that even the mayor
asked if she could join in
So of course
I gave her an invitation
for next time she died
to join us
too
Text: 27/10/16 Adelaide
#my_five_favourite_friends
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
I fear
that by stopping
to think of you
I will disappear too
27/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Such good
news
never could go along with
bad news
mediocre news makes me cranky
no news gives me hives
conspiracy news gives us a laugh
sporting news makes me sleepy
political news is stupid
but this good news
that today is another day
is just great news
28/10/16 Perseverance Road,
Adelaide, South Australia
980. Suspended excitement until high tide
Suspended excitement until high
tide
to flout out to sea
and leave this planet behind
again
28/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Unable to
move forward
I fell through a hole beneath my feet
and came out fifty years later
searching for my youth that had run off
with the circus
long before I fell
28/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I stocked
up on magical memory moments
to sustain me during the storm
with nowhere to hide
I lost my grip
as memories washed out to sea
leaving me empty
to create new ones
28/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I got
halfway through a shortened thought
when I became lost in a hyper thought
that swept me off my feet
propelling tomorrow
with me screaming inside
into space
confused
once again
28/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Rapidly
rotating random love
free flowing flung far
with no anchor
lost at sea I will always be
28/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I have
nothing more to remember you by
than to walk
the streets you once believed would lead you
to being free
but only made you free of this life
28/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Book 4. P. 27
The weeds in my garden
mistook me as a dog
and peed on me
29/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
While
pretending to be
someone else
someone else
pretending to be me
was crying in the alley
I offered my condolence
he ran and pretended
to be someone else
leaving me in the alley
to pretend to be me
Alone again
Text: 29/10/16
Adelaide ~ Photo: 17/07/14 Hong Kong
We tried
following the wind
losing her at first in a tunnel
then catching up
tree tops
Outback
along coastal cliffs
I filled my balloon with her
grabbed on
cloud merging
you the wind and me
so far yet to travel
and I have yet
to get out of bed
29/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
In a
playful serenading performance
the nuclear warhead
merged with people filled of lesser ideals
changing the reluctant peasants into cosmic dust
for no one left to applaud
29/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
On my
journey from your toes to your lips
I lost my way
yet still I refuse to use a GPS
or text you for directions
while driving
on such curves
29/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
991. I saw you in my
kitchen window
Book 4. P. 60
I saw you in my kitchen window
appearing in my lost train of thought
whilst making my kale smoothie
I knew it was you
when you laughed at my healthy ways
then disappeared into the rainy morning mist
like you did from my life so long ago
that I forget why I try to stay healthy
except to clearly see you
in these passing glimpses of who we were
once we were one
appearing without notice so random
30/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
So
different
never knowing
always guessing
the equation
never understood
time to change the last line
no making sense
30/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
While counting
the stars in the sky
I lost track of why you left me in darkness
giving me a moment of freedom
without your memory
crowding my every thought
keeping me from counting the stars in the sky
30/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Chance
without choice
lucky dip
another night out on the town
tomorrow morning
time to go
in another direction
chance without choice
31/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
I hung
onto this month
until not another
moment to go
knowing it was all beyond
what another month could possibly endure
31/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Wondering
where you went
can you sense me
searching for you
now that you left your body behind
box of ashes
not describing
the moment we met
31/10/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
The stats
are in
data crunched
no facts left out
love for you
greater than ever
01/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Continued
stopped continued
following my heart beat
the weeds in my garden
hoped to be in sync with me
as if we were friends
but their little scheme did not work
which came to light
when I dug them up
and sent them of as landfill
for the new cardiology hospital to be built upon
01/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
From most
to least
celebrating missing pieces to this puzzle
what does not appear
reflected in a song
that was popular long ago
forgotten by most
but easily soothes the missing piece
from most to least
02/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Replaced
now with then
travel interrupted
if I could find the way back
I still would not start again
happily living then as now
being the only one living like that
makes me feel
out of place
living then as now
02/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Mistakes
filtering through so much perfection
few options but to evolve through broken patterns
Hello new morning
02/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Laid here
thinking how great it would be
if I were up doing instead
so I raised to the occasion
swimming across time
wishing I had remained
back when I was only thinking
02/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Back up
plans
life sent into space
earth re-booted
tomorrow again
02/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Today
passed by without incident
like fasting for a religious holiday
tomorrow will fill up on
too much
to process
today
with forever
yet to process
02/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Unable to
lead
unable to follow
circling myself
So dizzy I spin out of control
and fall to the ground
02/11/16
Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
On a
non-creative day
god created the universe
can’t wait to be a part of a creative day
perhaps even my writing
will make sense
then
Text: 02/November
16 Adelaide, Australia
Photo: July, 2010, Skerries, Dublin, Ireland (Elephant: March, 2016,
Chiang Rai, Thailand
Fed up with my greeting the dawn
with pithy positive motivational gibberish
the weeds in my garden
gathered together
in a heroic entanglement around my feet
bring me crashing to their level of existence
with my tidy word-structures breaking across
my garden
crushing all hope I had envisioned
of yet another enlightened day
Text:
03/November 16 Adelaide, Australia
Doll from my aunty brought back from China in the 1930s
pithy positive motivational gibberish
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
Bouncing meanings
landed
edge of a cliff
as I went over
not knowing why
Text:
03/November 16 Adelaide, Australia
Excited
by the news of innovation
Robotic futures
3D love
Satisfaction enhanced
Cool implants
Spiritual awakening
Fountains of youth
Millions of online friends
and other crap
I went back to bed to sleep through
your future
Text:
03/November 16 Adelaide, Australia
Photo: July, 2008
hotel lobby - Ho Chi Minh City
Left
behind
a forward-thinking proposal
waited for the alleged winners
to fall through the hole
in absence
Text:
03/November 16 Adelaide, Australia
Inconsistent dreams
made marginal lovers
appear as victorious warriors
and once featured lovers
as Christmas ornaments
in my night
Text:
03/November 16 Adelaide, Australia
In an empty corner of time
I lost track of space
which was fun
until matter
collided with reason
leaving me in despair
Text:
03/November 16 Adelaide, Australia
Collections
laying alongside the street
for rubbish pickup
decades of gathering
each piece once so special
soon landfill for the new casino
so others can gamble
their life’s savings
rather than make collections of things
to only end up one day
for rubbish collection
at your door
Text: 04/November
16 Adelaide, Australia
I was
improving daily so rapidly
that I slept through
a week to jumpstart
my life
now in a coma
I realise how wrong I was
Text: 04/November
16 Adelaide, Australia
Wonderful
whereabouts
wishes wandered with regard
when I awoke
the world was gone
Text: 04/November
16 Adelaide, Australia
With the
end of humanity
life will once again
evolve to perfection
as it was long before
humans evolved
to where we can all die together
Text: 04/November
16 Adelaide, Australia
Observation for the moment
trails cutting
if I could follow
this alley would be so much more
interesting
04/November
16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
We told
stories
long past listening time
nothing was true
the listening was superb
in our newly captured world
nothing else existed
not even this coming troubled times
05/November
16 Cudly Creek, Adelaide, South Australia
Inside
outside
turned upside down
all this is left
flown away
05/November
16 Cudlee Creek, Adelaide, South Australia
Unbelievable
choices
now the brothel is empty
while the canal
fills with lost hope
05/November
16 Cudlee Creek, Adelaide, South Australia
While
thinking of stores to write
possible real ones
passed by
with no chance
of their capture
Especially this one
05/November
16 Cudlee Creek, Adelaide, South Australia
Another
great start to the day
the news was off
comedians lined up at my door
Cinderella, Snow white
Iron Man and a politician or two
appeared without notice
I gave them all
a tofu sandwich
we went outside
played in the garden
then it was time
for bed
06/November
16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Unable to
fathom what we wanted
despair ran away
leaving this vacuum
with empty promises
06/November
16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Knowing
the difference
left little to my imagination
but still the dreams rolled by
none of which
made a difference
06/November
16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
Settled confusion
security surrounds my belief in anarchy
to bury this peaceful change
once again
so liberating
06/November
16 Perseverance Road, Adelaide, South Australia
In an unpredictable moment
my pen went out of ink
leaving my page blank
thoughts to wander
and the day unfulfilled
07/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
I cheered
for the losing side
knowing like my life
how quickly
all but the winner is forgotten
07/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
To make
today different
was easier than a collapsing galaxy
but more difficult
than love lost in the alley
07/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
In the
alley behind the local robotic brothel
I lost all desire
in a moment
of hypertextual surrender
at a fraction of the code
needed for sustainable love
07/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We could
have been fantastic together
if it were not for the end of all life
as was once known
on this planet
07/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Fortunately
for my imagination
rational thinking
left me long ago
Text: 07/11/16 Vista, South Australia Photo: 05/11/16
Cudlee Creek, Adelaide http://neuage.org/e-books/
The National
Museum of Anthropology Mexico City
Long before there was an after
we believed there was no alternative to forever
sun set morning rose
the alternative
I found
me without you
forever again
08/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
We were in a hurry
time stood still
we didn’t
heart stopped
easy to pretend
we were in sync
until no one was left
to hear our screams
08/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Concerned tomorrow would bend over
backward
for my perceived change about to begin
I hid amongst the gravestones
believing I would be overlooked
How wrong I was
tomorrow never came
08/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
Shocked by the unbelievability
of results
we surrendered
in hope that a magical mist
would replace
our tears of lose
09/November
16 Perseverance Road, Vista, South Australia
No matter the chaos humans create
summer cannot be removed
nor the waking dawn
nor us together
free to be
no matter the chaos
09/November, 2016 Vista, South Australia
No matter the chaos
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
1037. Facing
a new direction
Facing a new direction
casting the wind aside
a mirage of happiness
hugging the horizon
we all rush to partake
only to fall in despair
fools all the way
never to know
when when it is too late
09/November, 2016 Vista, South Australia
1038. In search of a happy
thought
In search of a happy thought
I went deep and far away
being alone in space
I found peace
but no one to share it with
09/November, 2016 Vista, South Australia
1039. All so new
All so new
features of today
·
Repeat same sun
·
Recycled clouds
·
Fast moving hours
But yet again
all so new
10/November,
2016 Vista, South Australia
1040. Goodnight to the
morning
it will all so soon
change without notice
10/November, 2016 Vista, South Australia
The once was the way
of doing other
than what is
being done now
no longer applies
so I will dance
alone along
this broken alley
one more time
10/November, 2016 Vista, South Australia
Too sleepy to conquer the world
for now
I will put my shoes on the garden path
with the hope of once inside
of then
I will easily reach your destination
11/November,
2016 Vista, South Australia
Too short
the time
magic withers
blows away
falling desire
no time to get up
to surrender
just enough time
to die in peace
11/November, 2016 Vista, South Australia
I reached upward
outward
beyond words
special space
nowhere left
but still in-route
never to arrive
12/November,
2016 Vista, South Australia
Found
songs
sitting on a cliff
pushed them over
to a lonely grave
12/November, 2016 Vista, South Australia
First one here
before the battle
before the storm
before the hoax revealed not believed
Everyone else drunk at the brothel
So I returned to a 3D printed copy
of the way ‘once-so-good’
to live out my days
in a brave-old-world
13/11/16 Vista, South Australia
“hoax revealed not believed”
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
Squeezed too much
Broke final transparent moment
Solid > Liquid > Air > Summer-Perfume
PUFF
All gone
Just a ghost
Hashtagging your evanescent memories
Text: 13/11/16
Vista, South Australia
Photo: April, 2007 Grand Central Station, NYC during filming of ‘I Am Legend’
Morning
compromised
with yesterday
no sun rise
until we are fulfilled satisfactorily
again
13/11/16 Vista, South Australia
Tip-toed
through her garden
so as not to wake the weeds
sleeping
dreaming
of being bellowing blossoming bougainvilleas
Though now fallen upon them
the weeds grieve
as all woken from mistaken dreams
we often do
13/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
‘Tip-toed
through her garden
Book 4 'Thoughts in Patterns'
http://neuage.org/e-books/
Not sure
what I feel is in-line
with ancient cave-dwelling thinking
though with our new leaders
it should be
13/11/16 Vista, South Australia
Winds blew my ripped-up memories
across a shredded landscape
in a most decluttered
moment
13/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
We
surrendered at the border
knowing dawn
would try us for treason
after evening captured
our desires
with fulfillment in our eyes
14/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
@ the end
it all came to this
you now in the ground
or not
We watched you disappear
What a strange custom death is
In the future
when it is outlawed
they will question
why so many people
bothered to die
when after all
it was just once such a strange custom to do
14/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
Parallel lives
intersecting
Your breath
my desires
merging magical moments
No thoughts of eternity
now forever all we have
15/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
You were
reading
I was dreaming
two drifters
worlds apart
unaware
we are
that is left
15/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
Thawed
loneliness
in a frozen crowd
chasing dreams
in a circle
sun hidden
clouds alerted
to this failure
I call my life
15/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
Same
words
changed meaning
interpretation
begging for change
on the street corner
another moment
of hunger
before starvation
15/11/16 Vista,
South Australia
---------------------past
stuff never used-------------
Like any good audience
we are still waiting
for the punch line
2000 years later
Written: 17-12-93 Victor Harbor, South Australia
2. Being
with you
is my greatest natural resource
9-20-78 Lutherville Maryland
3. You
had a choice
You had a choice why didn’t you stay
You had my touch
why did you take it
You had our memories
why did they
have to be buried with you
Written: 1-13-89 Port Elliot
Those beliefs that you defended so fiercely
all your life
Now that yours is over
do they still
have meaning for you too
Written: 4-1-94 victor
I still call my six-foot thirteen-year-old
my little boy
I still call this rapidly expanding suburb
my country home
I still call this world my safe little planet
I still call
but no one answers
9-17-94 Victor
Anger toward you to create a villain
so I can chain the masked stranger
who calls for you in my heart
3-3-86 Mt. Compass
I tried to duplicate the me
who I was when I first met you
by looking for a copy of you
in imitative illusions
of broken mirrored memories
of when first I met you
Written: 9-22-89 Pt. Elliot, South Australia
Chilly chilly Pass the spring please
Shiver shiver give me another dash of summer
freezy freezy pass some loving warmth again
thank you
February 28 1972 NYC
I enjoy entertaining my fantasies
may I entertain you
10-68 Los Angeles
I counted on you to raise the flag
call the press
sound the salute
But you just made a dress out of it
and walked down the street
to turn a trick in it
11-15-71 NYC
And when they said it was going to rain
the clouds got together
and went to the market
to buy glass
to make windows
for the sun to shine through
in rainbows of hope
I wrote your name
on my pillowcase
to hear more clearly
your whispers
in my dreams
Written: 21 April 1995, Hackham, South Australia
I like the way you look
at my nakedness
and imagine
how it would cover you
Written: 12 January 1995, Hackham, South Australia
Magic was in your eye
I became a rabbit
jumping in and out of hats
but you made me disappear
Now I look into everyone’s eyes
to see if anyone has the magic
to bring me back
to before you made me disappear
Written: 3/07/1994 Victor Harbor SA
It wasn’t my wanting you so
that made me go crazy
it was your not wanting me
that made me go crazy
Written: 3/07/1994 Victor Harbor SA
Like any man playing with his trucks
and earth moving equipment
I like to drive
up and down your
thighs
ankles
breasts
face
karma
neck
dreams
creating new highways
freeways
byways
to get from your toes to your nose
in rush hour traffic
Terrell Neuage April 05
- 12 199 Photo: Neuage - Mekong Delta, Viet Nam. July 2006
17. Another morning waking
Another morning waking
with you
what a kaleidoscope
of wonder your nature is.
© Terrell Neuage 1998
Adelaide SA
When I whispered
to the trees
along the boulevard
outside the cafes
yesterday evening
about the night before
with you
They embarrassed me
by whistling back
loudly
and out of tune
in front of the patrons
drinking cappuccino
along the boulevard
in the rain.
1992Victor Harbor South Australia
I got so angry
my dream exploded
now they’ll never come true. Will
you?
Bombs dropping continually
exploding myths of eternal life.
Where the bombs don’t land
snipers caress
the spring air.
There will be no new blossoming
here
In the shelters children plan the
rest
of their lives.
‘Two-minutes from now I’ll eat.
Four-minutes from now
I will kiss my mother’s tears
goodbye
Six-minutes from now I’ll open my
arms
to the American mortar fire in
front of my mother’.
“Wall to wall dreams
gave no room to hang a mirror”
Jan 13th 1974