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HAPPY 74TH BIRTHDAY TO ME forty-eight days ago

Terrell Neuage @ #IronicThoughts2021
27 September 2021 today's 1st thought > here

#OurCurrentLifeWithCovid as of 27 September 2021

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She was a carefree flower girl of 18
Selling flowers on Bourbon Street
1968
I was a street artist...

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  1. If we had begun
    If we had finished
    If we had floated or laughed
    @ the crossroads
    marvellous would be our discourse
    none we did
    we did none
    The outcome is well worth the wait
    The weight of our choice crushes and frees us
    Simultaneously
    01 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

2. Long after yesterday’s vanquished irony
I fell in love with it
Wishing for it to be again
01 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

3. For my Australian siblings of whom I have none today’s maths date is 2-1-21 (it is now Saturday)
For my Yanks who count
The date is 1-2-21 (it is still Friday but when it is Saturday it will be 1-2-21)
And that is our difference
May it be no more than that in 202101
January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

4. Absence of turmoil
In this vacated space
Filled with once were shadows of ours
wandering freely
#aimlessly?
Across opaque horizon(s)
never knowing the absence of turmoil would lull us to sleep
Without regret
You and I
Eternal turmoil made manifest
02 January 2021 Victor Harbor South Australia

5. Plateaus of latent polluted consciousness
(entrenched by many)
How trite the uninitiated beggars becomes
Mistakes of evolution
fools who do not garner my vision
I think I will go and shower
just to wash away my thoughts
so exhausting it is being me
03 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

6. Thoughts clashing
Crashing
Accidental reasoning
Love
…such a token effort
If we make it to tomorrow
we will know hope is real
04 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

7. I sped through life
just to get
to here
to hear
what I thought then would be now
so mistaken was my prophecy
intent unravelled
Revelations disregarded
But then again
now could be what someone else imagined
[implanted into me]
as it surely is not where I thought
I would be
long before I sped through life
to arrive to here
The miracle of life
finally realized
05 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

8. I treat my like as a foreign spy
Hiding behind a façade of normality
and my love for you
No criminal intent discoverable
so good I am @ living life as a double agent
to my memories

06 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

9. The entertainments of disaster
so easily removed
hiding in front of my TV screen
computer
devices galore
Sometimes I have several disasters
Streaming
Screaming
across multiple screens
All so distance
so abstract
I liked the world before
all these visual haphazard attempts
at life-living fell to the ground
Tomorrow I will sit in my garden
Talk to my flowers
Such a calm world I will see
Why can’t everyone do that

08 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

10. Not a favourable situation
Falling off the cliff
Following
the herd
We heard
Wrongly
I love the notion of eternity lasting in nanoseconds
Such a favourable situation after all

09 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

11. Your love obfuscated memories that had no chance of survival

10 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

12. I waited
Anticipated
Strived for
the crowning moment of my life
The turning point
Awakening
Orgasmic nuclear achievements unhinged
Unlocked
Bursting forth
Flying free
That metamorphosis moment
in the fable narrative made manifest
But alas
After 73 years of incoherent mumblings
This is it
These words strewn across my rapidly vaporizing self
Damn!

10 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

13. No one really cared
though the wind pretended to
as the village was swept
by one more tornado
and as with any love at the end of a dream
various misguided saints
turned away

11 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

14. While rehearsing my death
That final moment prior to lights going out
Senses no more
Unfilled dreams erased
I was surprised to see how funny you were
your magical smile so surrendering
Before I forgot all that once was
#Life’sFinalEraser
While rehearsing my death once again
12 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia


15. So late the change
Seasonal obstruction
Bleeding softly
Blending slowly
Believing surrender is the only option
Tomorrow we riot
Turmoil awakening desire
Changing the spectator’s perspective
So exciting
The only side I choose
is that of change

14 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

16. Passing paragraph toward the end of the news
“death of galaxy observed”
A galaxy with billions of stars gone
such a loss of innocent lives
I look at my hairbrush
More of my hair on my brush
less on my head
now that is a tragedy
of cosmic dimension
We do not see that in the news do we

15 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

17. If only
That is what we tell ourselves
(opinion enhanced opportunist’s options)
Orchestrated insurrection of life’s imaginary choices
As hallucinations begat our distorted reality
(our love is forever)
As a child I believed so much
I was a mental magician
(An absorber of what is possible though never possible)
Then suddenly I became old
No longer believing in much
(though still as bewildered as ever)
I stare into the vacuum of my life
If only

17 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

18. Plain played plans
Seemingly so simple
Death defying dread directly displayed
I had no idea it would end like this
Plain plans played

18 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

19. While mumbling incoherently
on the corner of here and there
passing pedestrians
stopped
smiled
saying
“of course that is the answer”
Before going over the cliff
Of here and now

18 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

20. Dreams surrendering
shackled to reality
beliefs unhinged
The alchemy of broken memories
lay scattered
Tattered
naked
across the masked horizon
Otherwise
I had quite the normal day

19 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

21. During an analysis of cliffs never gone over
Flooded rivers almost crossed
Fleeting desires slightly quenched
I reflected on my out-of-focus reflection(s)
Questioning
why always so close
never closer
Perhaps being close is all that kept me alive
So far

22 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

22. Souvenir shop of love’s lost interest
sitting on dusty cracked shelves
Once-were-trophies of a younger time
when a drunken world
so easily staggered
only to awaken decades later
scarcely remembering
love’s lingering souvenirs

24 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

23. As the sole audience
(deleted soul survivor)
to the manipulated characters
in the continuing sage of my ruthless nightly dreams
(BTW terrible actors each and every one of them)
I applaud
in my questionable absence
to the endless hazards of unfulfilled dreams
smouldering on the hillside of fading humanity
Waiting as always for the final curtain
to end this charade
I so relaxingly refer to
as my only life

25 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

24. No doubt the strangest of times
Easy to miss
such nuances
But we try
I so easily replace time with space
It is easier to fill
Time does not encourage hording
Space it seems does
I surround myself with surrendered artifacts
from my collection of 73 years of avoiding time
Too busy with filling space
At the destruction of earth
Time will still exist
Space will not
Tomorrow I shall embrace time
My space has no future

26 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

25. Sleeping pill
Such a day breaker
Waster
World fades
Faces melt
Whispers losing their meaning
Dreams so close
If only I could find a place to lay down
randomly disintegrate
The path is windy
A hindered trail
If I were to stumble would anyone notice
Slurred speech creating such a tangled response
Out-of-tune hum
If in the future I become conscious
A co-conspirator with reality
I hope the world makes more sense than it does now
Sleepy magic making everything disappear
Except for you
The smile with a thousand faces

27 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

26.  I stopped watching the news
All I do now is wait 4 U
Nothing I haven’t read
So long you have been dead
So long you
Nothing more new

28 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

27. The distinct mirage of love without borders
makes us aliens
swept up in the swirl of changes
we never asked to a be a part of
Though we happily flow against the tide
looking back to a simpler time
before love without borders dissolved
our resolve to continue
long ago when we hoped
Now we no longer exist
You and I
lost in the mirage of love
without borders

29 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

28. Unexpectantly my wings fell off
no alternatives were coded into my makeup
So unfortunate to realize I was not a bird
or another random flying creature
as I crashed to ground
This is not new
There was that period when I believed I was a sea inhabitant
After drownings then being resuscitated
by a school of illiterate fish
and tossed onto an erotic slimy beach
teaming with voluptuous wrestling lesbians
chasing me in my ignorance
I took up some Zen shit
escaped to a Himalayan mountain top
until I froze to death from passing storms
Luckily to thaw out and be adopted by a pack of binary wolves
who raised me
Finally letting me loose into society
where to this very day
I am still trying to navigate these insane times

29 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

29. In a hypothetical nightmare
your anecdotal love disappeared

30 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

30. Living so freely
in a recreated past
in my mind
makes now seem like the future I never believed would arrive
and fortunately never will

30 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

31. When I no longer exist
will I remember
when I did

30 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

32. Such subtle monstrosities
Feelings of déjà vu
Linking shadows that once were us
freely chasing unfettered desires
across such shifting landscapes
only to become separated
You swallowed by an unreachable horizon
Me – I just fell
Free-falling through life
Never landing to analyse these feelings of déjà vu
and such emptiness
Drowning once again

31 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

33. All my dreams came true
Now that I am awake
I wish they had not

01 February 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

34. I followed my followers
who follow me
as I follow them
following our imaginary selves
over a virtual cliff of remorse
that we had followed

2 February 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

35. Once the majority
Now in the minority
These alien thoughts transiting my mind
I texted you
Emailed
WhatsApp you
You died decades ago
Long before technology reminded us of our fractured selves
Our digital relationships disappearing into wastelands of memes
Brought back to life
Then fading quickly
like the majority of thoughts once entertained
now slipping away
With so little left
I do not know why I hang on
to this memory of you

3 February 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia

36. A whole new place
Even my reflection is different
A shadow of my former self
Laughing out of tune with the ill-gotten wind
ricocheting off the horizon
I once chased after success
She was a cruel cross-dressing mistress
Leaving me to die in a softened breeze
Now everywhere I arrive I embrace the new me
Only to bury him
as the sun shoves itself into its existential nothingness

05 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

37. The resident clown resplendent in my head
left me for the circus that left town
leaving me confused as to my response
in this haphazard world I troll
in anticipation of a better me

06 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

38. The seldom differences mimic past heroes
As accidental as lover flounders in an ill-conceived wind
is my suggestion of you
My once upon a time hero
When I was young
long before today was conceived
I too floundered
then often wondered if I would dread
being who I am now
and as the seldom difference would have it
I do

07 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

39. We unlearned what we learned
Now realizing what little value there was
we humbly sink
below the unlearned wisdom
we once had learned

08 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

40. Everyone headed the wrong direction
I followed
taking selfies all the way
Peaceful endings are boring
Evolution is based on mistakes
Secrets of deceptions cracks open reason
We all fall in
Now we are engulfed
here
in the wrong direction
Wishing we were not

09 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

41. I tunnelled through life’s mountainous deceptions
only to discover I never had my eyes open
to the wonders of delusion
until now
at the final push through life’s remaining opened door
where I get to embrace nothing at all
Though I still hear you laughing
‘I tricked you once again’

10 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

42. My narrative became so boring
that I ended it right here

10 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

43. I followed myself to the end of the street
just out of curiosity
which way would I go
once to the end of the street
but I remained lost
I often eavesdrop on conversations I am having
with bikini clad thrift store mannequins
hoping to get some racing tips at the local racetrack
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I raced myself up the summit
to be first watching sunset over my fading life

Darwin sunrise at the Randa Zen hotel 13th floor
but I did not make it
so I will never know how this will end

11 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

44. My life mimics nature
As unpredictable as the weather
due to climate change
11 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

45. Such an artificial entitled moment
rolling across
simultaneous event horizons
To choose any particular
would diffuse the final variants of realism
knocking on my locked door
causing such a crack in time
space would explode
leaving us as scattered alien atoms
across our pretend entitled universe
pretty much like how I feel now

12 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

46. Life is the interruption experienced
when we try to dream

13 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

47. Minimalistic love created the universe
Complexed love will destroy it

13 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

48. My vehicle of expression
disintegrated
in the afterthought
of a failed memory of you

13 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

49. How fruitful is disdain
We wallow in ignorance
never realizing no one wiser than ourselves
has ever existed
nor probably will
In the future everyone will be a comedian
without an audience
so fruitful our disdain

16 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

50. I scribbled upon the wall of life
have mercy on me’
The city council proclaimed mercy was no defence
Walls came down
In their place rabbit holes appeared
You know the rest

16 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

51. I awoke to discover that love was an innocent bystander
to those of us who have fallen in battle
where bravery was celebrated
with sleep forevermore

16 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

52. In an ill-fated chosen direction
Love rode winds of change
Sweeping us out to sea like an ancient fabled creature
in heat
devouring an army of scantily clad luckless heroes
Leaving us wanting more
in this ill-fated direction we have chosen with such glee

17 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

53. Marvellous miracle makeover
makes this newly created escape
from your slippery nebulous reality
so pleasant
I will ignore anything beyond the porous borders
of my dreams
Here in this magical mystery makeover
I now call my life

18 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

54. The last thought before death
makes everyone before
slightly obsolete

18 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia


I pulled across curtains
they knocked at my door
I open it
they fall through a hole in my life
I hear them laughing at me
I watch them chase me through my reptilian infested dreams
I whisper to the mayor
about an insurrection
at the outskirts of my love
She sighs…
turn off the news
turn me on
All the wrong people confuse me
Perhaps I should join them and become wrong also

19 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

56. Point of view
Rolling along unseen seasons
How difficult living in our head
Of course no one agrees
such a muddled mess
human endeavour is
I lecture inanimate objects
Point of view
The response is no different than discourse with carbon-based clowns
My table understands what I express
Expose
Examine
As well as anyone I have ever met
Fuck point of view

20 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

57. Ancient story motifs
saunter across my dampened pillow
as if headed to a biblical ark
floating into alien salvation
I turn and run for the nearest dream
worthy exit
collecting memory collectables
as I declutter in sync with the rising tides
This easy sea-drowning I am faced with
once again
as fables
‘life particles’
stagger across my pillow
I drown
in thoughts of who we once were

21 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

58. The inequality of creation
is that death outlasts life
by an insane proportion
making neither life nor death
a worth candidate of creation

21 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

59. Premature dream ageing
Just wrinkled blocks of time
Youthful dreams decay
Smudged hopes
blurring reality
Who cares what yesterday brought
Tomorrow is a slut
bleeding ulcers at the guillotine
as town folks orgasm
Nothing is without consequence
We live to die
decaying without want
Premature dreaming
that something sometime somewhere somehow will be different
ha ha ha
What a blessing chaos is

22 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

60. I like to write
watching ink flow across a virgin page
Then I ruin it all by rewriting on a computer
Letters falling across time
Distorted reason
Pens make me feel wholesome
Words exuding from this phallic representative
00zing nonsense
I wrote on my tombstone
in the snow
‘hear here a liar lays’
I wrote that in ink
Rain came
Washed me away
The words stayed
I like watching myself write
It is so sexy
I am a perverted of ideas
I write them down
Woe is me

22 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

61. Your winning was relative
to my losing
Otherwise
I could have perceived my loss as a win
Then equilibrium could have been cosmically restored
But it was not
Now is not
Leaving us bewildered
Once again

23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

62. The beggar on the street corner
Rags Smells Sadness
could have been me
but he was not
So I went into the shop 
bought an imported deluxe ice cream supreme
Satisfied my hunger
that I was not the beggar on the street corner
wishing he were me

23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

63. I have a symbiotic relationship with death
One of us will succeed

23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

64. I bought a book on dream interpretation
in a language I do not know
so I would not pillage the frightening dreams
that plague my nightly landscape
with such terrifying apocalyptic scenes
that I am forced to chain myself to my bed
to prevent utter destruction
from a reflective dream

It looks like an interesting book
if only I could understand what it says

23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

65. I took time out to write you this
Since you died
you have not had time
to read this

24 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

66. Since simplicity slipped away
societies of reptiles have laughed at us humans
without our slightest concern of our foolishness
as a once special species
soon to be displaced
but the return of simplicity
overwhelms the complexed maze
we have become entangled in

24 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

67. All straight lines are horizons
if viewed without deception
opinion
reason
As a matter of fact
I have a straight line of memory
of when we were free
Before I became lost
falling over the horizon
of you

24 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

68. I try different narrative ideas
obviously this one did not work

24 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia

69. The flight home was noneventful
We landed fifty-years past where I wish I were landing
when we were so full of life
dressed in 1969
Anything we wanted to be
landing in Hawaii
forever free in those few days
before tipsy topsy life went upside/inside out
I remember it all
whenever I land I relive
wondering
Am I back home
fifty years ago
or now
here
so many lives past later

28 February 2021 Adelaide, Australia

70. 1. Window open
butterflies fly
2. Clouds whispering
Moon is hid
3. Rainbow takes selfie
announces own birth
4. Crocodile king
devours drowning city
5. Rain tastes like honey
cancelled wokers cheer


In the future all of this will be interpreted as prophecy
fulfilling the jester’s agenda
Everyone
will die laughing

01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

71. I once was concerned by the increasing wrinkles of my ageing skin
Now I follow the lines as roads across these maps of life
Celebrating the frequency
of becoming lost on these wandering well-lit highways
The increasing wrinkles on my skin

01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

72. The pleasure of planting a garden
that I will not be left to harvest
is knowing no one else will be either
All our achievements
ending like those of the dinosaurs
but passed over as useless by cockroaches
and other remaining life forms
more evolved that we would ever have been
if only we had not gone the way of the dinosaurs

01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

73. When I am asleep
is the only time
I laugh at your jokes

01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

74. After I die
When no one remembers me
(much like now)
an object once of mine
found
taken home
from a thrift shop window
reluctantly sitting on a stranger’s shelf
will have my memories
floating unknown in their space
Perhaps in the middle of the night
I will say BOO
from the object
that once was mine
and scare that pretender to death too
After I die

02 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

75. A dead poem
All my friends grown old
I watch them die
Remembering what we said long ago
Someday we will touch the sky
Sometime before we die
But I no longer try
To touch the sky
Before I die
Because soon I too will die

02 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

76. I listen to the wind
blowing away once was calm
leaving behind broken sadness
for the next wind to blow away

02 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

77. After more than six-decades of writing
stories prose poetry emails diaries shopping lists sky-writing essays novels
so much more
I have decided to stop writing
and contemplate what I just wrote
why
it’s future impact on global society
etc
and why is anyone reading this

03 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

78. While under the influence
life burst forth in the universe
Firstly as an alternative
Then as a curiosity
Now as ‘what the fuck’
Otherwise
creation has been somewhat interesting

05 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

79. Earth is still in its adolescent phase
I think I will wait to come back
until after she has grown some balls

05 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

80. She was an experimental kiss
Now she is hiding beneath a tombstone
calling my name all night long
If only
If only

05 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

81. I wish you could see me now
My accomplishments
Macho body
Incredible fantasies
But you died so long ago
Oh no!
You are part of the universe that sees me everywhere
Every angle
Every thought
Stop staring at me
I need some privacy
or you will know
I forgot all about you
Until now

06 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

82. So awkward suggested love is
Desire cripples the most ardent promise
I always wanted more than I could absolve
Disassociated streams
Carbonated thoughts of consciousness
effervescing
bypassing passing moments
So awkward
suggested love is

06 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

83. I re-engineered my belief system
so I could believe in you
What a poorly constructed construct
The collapse was imminent
due to such an improvable
re-engineered belief system

06 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

84. My love for you
is a cognitive illusion
waking me from recurring daydreams
as I cheer so loud
my neighbours call in the military
so they can love like me too

March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

85. I write messages every night
Shopping lists for dreams
If they are crossed out by morning
Alive I am
Another day
dreaming
opening before my very eyes

08 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

86. Every day I miss you more
Oh how I envy you gone so very long
Far beyond the hazy life I endure
Knowing you can never miss me too

08 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

87. I hate facts
They splinter my imagination
Mishappen my dreams
Muddle my fantasies
Facts are so pedestrian
Making us all die
so boring

08 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

88. There is no vaccine for restorative love
Making us immune
to the loss we shall endure

09 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

89. She was a simple matter of change
Nothing the same
ever since
So simple
Once upon a time was

I got you babe

09 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

90. Watching horror films before bed
keeps the lid on dreams
escaping my prison
where I run down the avenue screaming
‘the begging is near’

10 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

91. What if
there was no what if

What if

11 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

92. As an audience-free author
Never on a best seller’s list
with my shelves of writing
hidden from public view
Sacred secret rendezvous
Shadows of ideas
escaping into alleys
of homeless idealists
applauding my non-involvement
Libraries bookstores news agents
overstocked with anything/everything
but not everything/ anything from me
I sing my praise of being audience-free
on the wrong side of the world stage
An inspirational invisible indecisive author
to myself

12 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

93. Random passions of my youth
linger as a satisfying smile
as I amble into old age
Others think I am going batty
laughing at the most inopportune times
It is just me
remembering random passing passions
of my youth

12 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

94. In a current misunderstanding
I thought I was in a time and place of 40 years ago
I was in my 30s
Another side of the world from here
No smart phone
FB
Emotions gone viral
We wrote letters   wondered what would be
can you imagine being mid-70s’
We said in the 70s
We would laugh then go be wild for a night or few
In a current misunderstood
for just a flashing passing moment
I thought now was then
when an imagined future
was so far from what it became
My long-ago life
so real again today

13 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

95. They continue to cast me in horror movies at your side
A roughly hewed supporting actor
When all I want is to show my talent
in forgetting the past
as my adage

14 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

96. I try to remember when I lost wisdom
Where did it go
Who has it now
Would I recognize it if she returned
What good is it in the world today
Perhaps I never had wisdom
Much like everyone else
We pretend to possess what we never had
Now that wisdom has been lost to all

14 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

97. Never having been a tree
I can only imagine such fear
of being chopped down
made into a chair
for a fat politician to sit in
calling for the removal of all trees
for construction of thousands of chairs
for all the city’s people to sit in
and listen to the fears of being a tree
as told by a chair
holding a fat politician

14 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

98. I sent a cardboard cut-out of myself to my lover
Her desires difficult to quench
She had triplets
with my cardboard cut-out
leaving me in the shadows
Wishing I had more
Dreaming it was me
Wishing it wasn’t
Wondering
why cardboard cut-outs of me are now part of the landfill
where they built the hospital
for the erotically insane
Lovers of my past
each holding cardboard cut-outs of me

15 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

99. I am excited about the end of civilization
when I can finally be myself

15 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

100. Her life was merely a passing thought
to everyone except to her
and to me
left haunted
scarred
excited
wounded
opaque
fulfilled
by every passing thought
I have left of her

16 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

101. I followed you
Until you died
Then your path became too weird
Windy
So now I only follow the setting sun
sinking forever more
into the lustful horizon
as landfill

16 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

102. How calm this storm
before your righteousness subdued the terror leaking from my heart
that you would possess me
once again then leave
Leaving me
Swept away by the storm that is you

18 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

103. We saw results differently
Washed away by misshapen mishaps
Philosophical foreign accents
the slurring of notions left unsolved
unresolved
dissolved
The sinkhole of interpretation
Swallowing
what should have been the seeing of results
as I do
Creating a perfect world
Ha Ha Ha
Just kidding
We all disappear
so easily into nothing at all

19 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

104. Your ambient love
Broke my heart

20 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

105. I learned to lie when you walked away
to myself
you will soon return
I have been lying to myself
for fifty years

20 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

106. Deep in my mind
I run and hide
no one knows the chase within
Colours running down my face
Perhaps I am invisible
Crowds pass me
Some right through me
I show no pain
Guilt is a fool’s game
I am a fool on the run
If only every hero would wait
as long as me
the kiss of death
could have been more fashionable
Pleasurable
Fantasy made flesh
But I run and hide deep in my mind

March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

107. Semi-spectacular surrealistic lover
suspending suspicious sequential events
left me baying once again
at the moon
Surprise Surprise

21 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

108. I thought becoming old would be boring
But no
I spend so much time counting new ageing spots on my skin
Wrinkles on my face
Grey hairs
So much memory loss that I forgot what I was to remember
New aches
New pains to massage
People in the shops to be grumpy at
Youngsters – those under 70 – to complain about
Political annoyances @ every turn
OMG
I never knew getting old would be so draining
I think I will take another nap

22 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

109. I mimic an epic alternative ending
to each episode of my life
returning to a predictable performance
in the midst of my confusion
crisis
circus
as the neighbours laugh
wishing they were not me

23 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

110. I like what I see
I don’t like what I see
I replace the mirror
with a picture of jesus
Now I don’t want to be me anymore

24 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

111. I remember you as a shadow
racing across my youth
disappearing when the lights went off

24 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

112. My gift to the world
You
Ha Ha Ha

25 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

113. I must say all the dead philosophers are shit
out of luck

25 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

114. I tumbled down the wrong side of your love
where the sun refuses to shine
Moon never rises
Cosmic dreams dissolve
However
never to regret
I would gladly tumble
so freely again

26 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

115. I reconceptualized my dreams of you
Realizing now
they were nightmares
never ending

27 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

116. I tried to be happy
Just to see what fools were like
Now I am a fool too

27 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

117. Less interesting than the common indentation of life
The reason for factual summary
of what could have been
gets deployed as laziness not manifest
So often we become muddled
with these ridiculous thoughts
some of which become believable
Though without sanctuary
nothing makes sense
Which explains why I have become less interested
in the common indentation of life

28 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

118. No one remembers me
or that I was the one speaking wisdom in their psychedelic landscape
where I am often dancing naked
in my 73-year-old body
where all the me-2 millennial castaways
masturbate
where no one remembers me
speaking wisdom in their psychedelic landscape

29 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

119. I am so bored with being a youthful warrior
chasing other’s fantasies away
Leave me to fade
off
into my own illusion
delusion
confusion
where fantasies need not to be chased away

29 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

120. I answered the ad
discount on love
35% off with free steak knives
if applied in the next ten moments’
Unfortunately I was put on hold for eleven minutes
Stabbed in the heart by love once again

30 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

121. I spent the past fifty years getting rid of all my friends
23-years oh so free
How grand it all should be

30 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

122. Not happy with the planning committee of this planet
Weather not correct
In-convenient
Days Nights too short
Bit messy
Love just a passing fantasy of emotionally stunted disrupted humans
Another asteroid direct hit would shake things up a bit
Start over
Origins of a new species with embedded Wi-Fi
And perhaps a bike lane through the centre of town
I definitely need to have a word with the planning committee of planet earth

31 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia

123. Shortly after I lost all sense of order
my life fell into place

01 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

124. Your love was a psychedelic kaleidoscopic cumulonimbus formation
enveloping all before
Now after
none of us exist

01 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

125. Alarms of doubt
awaken the sure-footed warrior
as he casts herself into the flames of desires
Stumbling
he grasps at fleeing shadows
wondering why she no longer makes sense

01 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

126. I lost virtual virginal visiting rights
to my favourite lurid lucid dreams
Leaving me devastated
But pure
For a new series of nightmares
featuring you
unedited

02 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

127. Now that you have been dead
Gone
20 years
I will stop telling you
that you were the one who let the dog out
and like you
she never came back

03 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

128. All the stupid people
with their stupid beliefs
makes me feel stupid
for not believing
any of their stupid beliefs

03 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

129. Thousands of years ago
philosophers were unable to Google answers
Lucky them

03 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

130. Shortly before I lost my looks
I posted a selfie on our mirror
reminding
of whom I was before you walked out our door
to die forever
so long ago
before I lost my looks

4 3 21 * Adelaide, Australia

131. I love have spotlights shining on me 
Prevents me from falling
off the ladder to the stars
where dreams never come true
Where spotlights so bright
no one sees me falling

05 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

132. I read in a comic book that your love for me was real
Saw it in a cartoon too
Storm clouds obscured your skywriting message to me
not sure what less you could have said
My hacked accounts reminded me another cash infusion would release your love for me
My astrologer predicted it too...for a fee
Dermatologists across the Outback said stop letting you under my skin
Such a mystery love is
if only I could decipher anything at all
your love for me
and its slippery value could exist

06 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

133. If everyone in the world
was as lucky as me
would I be lucky

06 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

134. It took me seventy-three years
to realize
this was not a worthwhile poem

06 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

135. Shortly before being born
god confided a secret that he did not exist
that I should become a storyteller when I become old
to snare others
into believing she does
then we can all non-exist together

07 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

136. Forgot what I forgot
and why I keep smiling at my reflection
bouncing off stellar dust
as the choir sings hallelujah
and I avoid your name

07 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

137. Going extremely slow
Dreams broke open
as logic took a backseat
then we danced
the rest is just our twisted memory
reminding us to dream and nothing more

07 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

138. I outlived several nursey rhymes
Unpremeditatedly of course
Now with expeditiously retro cancel-culture
I am no more

08 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

139. Love is the great eraser
Vanquishing what was before
#Perhaps
You were the great eraser
I am no more

08 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

140. I was born on a stormy night of no coincidence
shortly before the end of time
Growing up was a challenge
as I masked reality with cerebral nostalgia of past fantasies
Old age such a delusion
just a passing mirage
fading
before the end of time

09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

141. I embrace making mistakes
So that I can imagine what life would have been
if I had not

09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

142. I had a text-book death
shortly before books became obsolete
So that I would not be just another digital masterpiece
like those dying now never will be

09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

143. I often predict past events
just to watch them collapse as truth
in the future

09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

144. Being wishy-washy
Fishing in wishing currents
with no chance of becoming anything more
than wishy-washy wishers

10 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

145. None of my dead friends attended my funeral
Leaving me to ponder whether friendship has a used by label
Were they accountable friends
Did any of my deceased friends take it personally
that I did not wax eloquently
with some useless limerick of their memory
of their endearing qualities
ha ha ha
now to ignore my plight
What messages are my dead friends attempting to transmit
by not going to
speaking
haunting my funeral
Again

10 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

146. How embarrassing it would be to be remembered as you
We could join the circus
No one would want to recognize us
separated by mere recognition at birth
As embarrassing it would be for you to be remembered as me
Again

11 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

147. Gently falling promises
cascading across a broken frozen memory
If only we had not slipped
Fell
Shattered
our promises may have held us together
long enough
to breathe in a new morning together

11 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

148. Ancient ruins hiding stories
Mysteries
Secrets
Petrified hopes/wishes/dreams/sadness
And that was just yesterday unravelled
Wait until today has been revealed
then ancient ruins will be remembered as the pinnacle
to today’s success

12 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

149. I asked my doctor what was wrong with me
she looked crazed then died laughing
If only I could have known
we would be at the carnival happily together
I never found out what was wrong with me
or the theoretical anomaly of dying laughing
I sit here watching my life slowly drain out
over a misty blurred horizon
and wonder whether there ever was a reason to care
Whether it is more noble to die laughing
than never to die at all

13 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

150. The loneliest thing anyone can do
is to realize
no one thinks like them

13 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

151. Always landing
Never landed
Always flying
Never in flight
Always living yesterday
Never today
Which is how I ended my recent conversation with myself

14 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

152. When asked why I ran naked through the town square 
it was obvious I had forgotten how to relax
Dignity was left at the nursing-home door
Reason had become a casualty long ago
When asked why I ran naked
through the cathedral too
I let them hear
‘exercise is good no matter when’
Though in this padded cell
I no longer can

15 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

153. Long after we die 
we will be remembered
for what we were forgotten for
Never existing
beyond a passing memory
washed away with shadows only we knew

16 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

154. We expected a different outcome
It is all so confusing
I would never attempt to write a poem
Story
Play
Exposé
narrating what happened
Why such an unexplainable ending
Are we the actors or the audience
Or just the confessional author unable to complete
Compete
We expected a different ending
The Big Bang
like our love
will never end in a tidy fashion

17 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

155. Due to a pre-existing wife
I need to stay vaccinated
against a terrible strain
of past memory hacks

18 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

156. Stolen memories replace ones I no longer wanted 
Hoping yours are better than mine

20 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

157. Such a change of seasons
Fallen leaves
Frosty love
Forgotten times
A sudden crack in forward motions
Nature died
Though not really
She sleeps too often
Life pretends
Rolls over
Starts again
Such a change of season
Time to go and be born anew

20 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

158. Wow this is different
I screamed into my tea
The End!

21 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

159. Surges of joy
Happiness sparks
Everything looks good
80% towards great
Stuff turning to dust
gold dust
On a winning streak
of losses
Learning to love being last
Riding the train through the Outback
Maybe forever
Nothing left of the world
destroyed outside my window
no angels left to sing
I don’t care
Only this ride through surges of joy
There is nothing else

22 April 2021 Overland Train > Adelaide to Melbourne

160. I will never be free
as long as I am a ghost
in your dreamings

22 April 2021 Overland Train > Adelaide to Melbourne

161. Never knew you flew
few far in-between
Such a smudge on time
If navigations were simply adequate
would I not fly too
Here there in-between
where long ago off you flew
too

27 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

162. Strangers texting to be my friend
I tell them to wait until 1947
as that is when I will be born
Then we can be friends forever

27 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

163. I left pages blank in my diary
in case you reincarnate
wanting to set a time
to love me again

28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

164. I thought my life could not be worse
until my dead friends
family
pets
dreams
appeared in me in a dream (of all places)
saying it could be so
I could be with them
tormenting themselves
for not staying with me

28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

165. A week after I died
I sent myself a ‘get-well’ card
I never received it

28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

166. Quietly we placed the future behind us
as if their schadenfreude predictions had already manifest
leaving us hidden
shuddering
beneath this weight of the inevitable
(so often devouring our every thought)
Yet letting us escape behind darkened karmic infused mirrors
whose only reflection
(lies unto themselves)
quietly disturb
what only could be the future
So unattainable

28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

167. I hung my thoughts out to dry
Rain came
Washed them away

28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

168. I love being elderly
Makes me realize how far yet to go to be young again
Start over
Ashes gently blowing in the wind
Another shadow over a shit-filled horizon
What is there not to love
with being elderly

29 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

169. So excited about tomorrow
Another day to add to my collection
Trophies of consumption
placed on a hoped-for shelf
If tomorrow should be so fortunate to include me
amongst her ghostly guests

29 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

170. Strangely embraced thoughts
Possibilities so endless
Fascinating how we got to this place
More than seven-billion people with strangely embraced thoughts
I wonder how many are identical to mine
The hum of thoughts filling all time and space
No wonder evolution is grinding to a halt
Stopping me in my tracks

30 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia

171. Today was fun
I lost my way
Drifted amongst clouds
Frolicked with mermaids
Laughed out-of-tune
Gambled away my inheritance
Wrote a mystery novel
on a toilet paper roll
(recycled)
Discarded all religious beliefs
Began a new one
(soon forgotten)
Today was fun
I wonder if I shall remember it tomorrow

02 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

172. I cleaned my window
so as to see
how bright the approaching future
will be

03 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

173. All the worries of the past 50 years
slipped away
with a re-enactment of one moment
we thought would be the time we would remember forever
that 50 years ago moment
replacing now
with so much delight
The power of memory to dissolve all else in front of it
A miracle of the mind’s only lasting salvation
Yesterday for Today

03 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

174. I stayed awake all night
thinking about a dream I had the night before
What a daze to spend the days in

04 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

175. Lost words
None left
to create a poem

05 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

176. Saw my name scribbled across the breasts of time
WOW
What a turn on

05 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

177. All the lost sheep
following me into my lostness
in their infinite joy

05 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

178. Life in shambles
Such an art form
Forum
Abstract fantasy realism
disabled
scattered about
How simple is complication
If only we could frame it
Hang it in the gallery of forgotten time
Ancient forum form
We could visit our life in shambles
whenever we wanted
perspective

06 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

179. I sought solace from the worry exterminators
Eradicate
Replace
I screamed
Thunder
Lightening
Fireworks
nature’s orgasm
Peace
Stillness
how boring is solace
I am returning to worry on the next flight of consciousness out of here

07 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

180. Wisdom is for idiots
Give me ignorance
And I will show you a good time

07 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

181. If only I could start over
I would have begun with a different line
Now set in stone
such a mundane start
If only something dramatic
Sexually shocking
Profoundly impelling
Consciousness raising
A new level of perception
Prize winning material
Life changing
Evolutionary enhancing
if only I could start over

08 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

182. Unable to enlist anyone to play the part of me
Change the script
Spice up the story
Try a new tune
I went back to bed
for another day of being me

09 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

183. For the impeccable discerning wandering consciousness junkie
So often found frolicking beneath fallen debris of wasteland dreams
there is now sentimental coding building persuasions
of forgettable phantoms
to implant into our uncontrollable trolling mind
we once thought was our own

09 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

184. In an incredible act of defiance 
The sun rose

10 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

185. As an audience of one
to myself
The applause is almost deafening
whenever I leave stage
Spotlights go off
Curtains burst into flames
Audience leaves

10 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

186. In a war against my body
War won
Peace won
Resulting in a dream body
to sleep in
but not to awaken in

12 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

187. Closed doors
No man passes
to see her shadow
smirking
on the other side

12 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

188. I pulled sheets over my head
to stop blankets from laughing at me
Their ruckus continued throughout my dreams
Who knew such destruction could follow an evening of debauchery
Next time
I will sleep beneath carpets
laugh at myself

12 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

189. Her love died
in the cemetery
of broken clichés  

13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

190. Her love was a statue
decaying in the cemetery
of broken clichés

13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

191. We tried to replicate each other
as if we were the last laugh on earth

13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

192. Old age is like arguing with weather
Whether or not change is inevitable
Unlikely
Forgivable
Unintended
With nothing left
@ the end of rainbows
but for memories
of a sunnier time

13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

193. Without memory 
we would cease to exist

14 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

194. Long ago when I watched news
I had fears
some of it could be true
No longer watching news
I fear what I do not know
Now that I totally exist
in an alternative-imaginary-dream_filled- hallucinatory state
I fear I will awaken to find I am wrong

14 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

195. While chatting with a statue 
in the town square
I realized my construct of the universe
was suspect

14 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

196. I stretched reality to include lies 
that are fantasies
encased in dreams
that I believed were true
Reality is elastic
or it was before developing porous quality
broken stands of DNA
Letting lies disguised as dreams
Once-were-fantasies to tumble out across the landscape of…
So much for the ill-fated doctrines of reality

16 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

197. In an unlikely contribution
Nothing was added
Leaving those without
free of knowledge
which gave rise to politicians
to lead us with their unlikely contributions
of nothing at all

19 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

198. While lifting weights at the gym
I contemplated the burdens of life
and how crushing they are
if dropped to soon

19 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

199. When all is said and done
we will play back selfies
in delight
of whom we thought we were
when we were glorious

20 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

200. I acted dumb
Befuddled
Just to confuse those who thought I was

21 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

201. Pretend we are dancing 
as the whirling world slips away
Dissolving vapours
moving colourlessly against obliterated backgrounds
Dreamtime in motion
(woke ancient storytelling believed)
Chemical interactions
spilling love’s interpretation
across frontal nodes
(determining the allocation of attentional resources to novel events)
over the crying horizon
pretending we are dancing
Nothing is further from the truth

21 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

202. Her love was a twisted linguistic nightmare 
chasing me through the afterlife
of narratives gone astray

22 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

203. Now that we are warm 
let memories
like snowflakes
fall
Melting upon us
in our masquerading simplicity

22 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

204. She was a house to me
Open door
Open windows
Broken furniture inside
for me to fall over
for her
again

23 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

205. Inspiration is a slut 
ready to surrender
to whomever will pay the price
Raped
rewards
screaming
into the alley
as shadows applaud in salacious silent inspiration
Then jesus wept

23 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

206. I wish my dead family and friends 
lovers too
could see how alive I am
now that I am not dead
like they so selfishly are
Never thinking about me
and the time’s we had
when we were non-dead
running through life
in our dream like state
like I so often do now

24 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

207.  I thought we had found
Discovered
Intuited
the easy win in
Doors opening
Dead seas parting
Partying
Spotlights to the stage
pulsating
Whispers softened
Stillness personified
If we had not tripped
Fallen
Broken
@ the end
easily we could
would
should
have found
the easy way in

27 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

208. Today was an extremely creative 
Prosperous
Enlightening
Thrilling day
I wrote this

28 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia

209. Now I remember what I meant to say 
when I walked out the door
so many decades ago
following times of love
Pain
Change
Doubt
Hopes
Dreams
Wishes
Mangled narratives
“don’t forget to turn off the lights as you slam forever shut the door on what was once all that of you I dare to remember
Is what I mean to say

04 June 2021 Bourke, New South Wales, Australia

210. So seldom settled 
Changes
call
Charging
I respond
Each step forward
such a rush
There is no destination
No light at the end
Rest areas along the highway
nothing more than a place to piss
Urges propelling me
The flight
never the landing
is what I live for
always taking off
If tomorrow was yesterday
I would hide in fear of going back
I love this life
So seldom settled

06 June 2021 Cunnamulla, Queensland, Australia

211. The great times we are having 
become those we had
have not
Had not
Crushing circles of life
only the dead have no wishes to do it again
Lucky them

07 June 2021 Rest Area (camping) 45 Ks North of Augathella, Queensland, Australia

212. Tomorrow your birthday
I offered you the moon and stars
All you wanted was cake which I have none of
So I gave you the moon and stars
What a good gifter am I

07 June 2021 Rest Area (camping) 45 Ks North of Augathella, Queensland, Australia

213. Unclassified experiences
Good bad
Indifferent
Explanations classified
Love desire wants wishes hope drownings
in a southernly windful mist
like with any psychedelic vortex thought
invades
prevails
we are left once again
with unclassified experiences
(luggage)

07 June 2021 (camping) Longreach, Queensland, Australia

214. Frozen memories of us 
naked in the mist
Melted in the morning sun
Like being de-friended on Facebook

11 June 2021 Camping in a paddock in the Outback - Prairie, Queensland

215. I bond with inanimate objects
Shirts surf boards gods tofu shoes trains
They tell me stuff
Even how to exfoliate memories
(such as you walking out the door)
People lie
objects only slightly exaggerate
I watch my reflection in thrift-store treasures
smiling in lieu of truth
knowing they were once-upon-a-time
mine
always will be
unlike you
I bond with inanimate objects

12 June 2021 Charters Towers Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia

216. Missing parts
Unsolved love
Mangled memories
Rodeo emotions
Out of sync sirens
Transcendent hope
Random mismatched electrical brain waves
Leaving me in such a desirous state
Spontaneously

12 June 2021 Charters Towers Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia

217. I reframed my dreams 
so your ghostly appearance would make sense
as you hacked my being
Crashed my essence
Scrambled our DNA
causing me to malfunction
into a reframed dream
of your creation

13 June 2021 Greenvale Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia

218. I realized no one was reading my tweets 
soon after walking out into the world
seeing everyone had died
in a nuclear-covid_pandemic- asteroid _crashing-climate_extinction event
but I continued to tweet
as if my life depended on it

14 June 2021 Greenvale Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia

219. I am plagued by dreams of crocodiles hunting me
in multilingual brothels
none of which I understand
Fondling nuns
laugh at me  
Lovers weaponize their looks
torturing me with opaque desire
Sociopathic ex-wives laugh
as I bay at the moon
My narratives
have false conclusions  
Being old
surely is the shits

14 June 2021 Ravenshoe Steam Railway, Queensland

220. Mood swings 
Tidal waves of feelings
Drowning in sunlight
Recycled oxygen in a vacuum
The scent of trouble
Sounds (murmurs) of resolution
Revolution of the subconscious leaking
(flooding)
Learning to swim
Mood swings

15 June 2021 Ravenshoe Train Station, Queensland, Australia

221, Quiet camping in the Outback
Nature nightly farting
Animals hunting
Sexing
No snoring involved
A bit boring
Perhaps rain thunder lightening
would liven up the night
I turn off the night
Turn on my phone to shatter such silence
with a lovely bloody loud murder mystery
if only there had been a storm
the Outback would have been left alone to continue alone along in its non-destructive boredom

16 June 2021 Atherton War Memorial Campgrounds, Queensland, Australia

222. We saw without looking
sang without hearing
The taste of you lingers
Dreams come and go
Memories morph
Wherever you go
I should have followed
We saw without looking
the future was never for us to bungle 
but we did

17 June 2021 Atherton War Memorial Campgrounds, Queensland, Australia

223. While listening to the voice within
a feral cat
proclaiming to be god
smudged
my perceptions of life

18 June 2021 Atherton War Memorial Campgrounds, Queensland, Australia

224. There are over 7.5 billion drunken would-be strangers
stumbling about
looking for a purpose for existence
No wonder the world
is fucked

18 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba,  Queensland, Australia

225. Social media cowboys
crying
because there is nowhere to land
Crowd sourced cowgirls
too woke
to awaken
Old-school politicians
termites upon the land
If I knew what I was doing
Gone I’d be

18 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia

226. In a death-defying act
I lived long enough
to be defying death
as the best explanation
for life

19 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia

227. Slowed down attribution
following sequential pairing of ought  
We are shadows in the mist
In the midst
Fast past
Pass me please
Dial me in as another synchronizing elite wantabe  
because as slowed down attributions of change
Chance
No one notices

20 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia

228. Love explodes
as desire untangles
the embers of change

20 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia

229. Little doubt plays softly
Gleefully
Serenading potentiality
hiding in an alley
Nothing is suspected
Specifically
isn’t love grand
Ordinary challenges momentary’s hold on reality
Nothing is as doubt would have it

ever again

22 June 2021 Mossman Pool and Caravan Park, Mossman, Queensland, Australia

230. Perfect nonsense
created an ideal morning for me
to go crazy in

23 June 2021 Mossman Pool and Caravan Park, Mossman, Queensland, Australia

231. Phase next 
finally complete
Colours sounds aspirations
collectively mingled
breaking down dawn
showing a new direction
Though if I were a betting man
I would still avoid taking a chance on me
Now that this phase is finally over

24 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia

232. How wonderful waking next to you
Realizing you are not
she
who murdered me just now
in a dream of horrific portions
(blood dripping like tear drops over painful memories)
with no escape
but to wake next to you

24 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia

233. At the rate heroes are deceasing
only clowns will be left to escape
this circus we have created
as our monument to just another failed planet
drifting through space
looking for a time-space continuum
capable of producing heroes
to save our sorry assess
from the clowns we have become

26 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia

234. All my ghosts have reincarnated
as stray dogs barking and biting me
as I sell self-worth favours to the passing
mutilated multitudes mumbling
forgiveness
as if I was the last saint on earth
which no doubt I am
Now
since all my ghosts have incarnated as stray shadows of whom I once could have been and still may be if luck should rain on me
I am free

27 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia

235. She left me standing in the rain
@ high tide
Rivers of memory never forsaken
So thin the veil of yesterday
If only I could swim
I would smile once again
Standing here in the rain

29 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia

236. Failure is a logical assumption of misunderstood mechanics
A simple minute tinkering
can quickly make failure into an art forum
as I so often have demonstrated
in my life as a one-man show of unique failures personified

29 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia

237.  Dangling dangerous dance
spinning out of control
Such a fright to wake in a cold stance
against such times of change
I had a friend who said he would never die
I was the only one to believe him
as if there would never be another chance
in this annoying dangling dangerous dance
where enough of my friend died (like his body) so long ago
I have forgotten who he is
or why I believed enough to write all of this

30 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia

238.  Hints of understanding
made us into prophets of doom
celebrating our misunderstanding
that life should seem normal
when it no longer makes sense

30 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia

239.  The taste of love
hath no cure
but to keep the mouth closed
when the taste so imagined
is poison
disguised as love

31 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia

240. I was so lucky today
no one knew it was me
making the universe queasy
from my screams of disillusionment
swallowed by time
as I stood the test of time
No one cared
I was so lucky today

31 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia

241.  So lucky to be here
rather than buried beneath your love
bleeding out hope
you would remember me still

01 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

242.  @ The horrendous recital love and hate
played a duet
making the audience shit in their pants
though the applause
gave a second curtain call
A memory no one wanted

01 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

243.  I stopped for a breather in childhood
All going so fast
When I started again
I was already in my seventies
I need to take a breather again

02 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

244.  I had hoped my past would catch up to me 
maybe even go right on by
Yesterday is gone
I am shit out of luck

02 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

245.  I think I awoke in the midst of someone else’s dream
People looking peculiar
Acting strange
A lone drummer said she recognized me
from a previous existence
I had been a stray dog she had beaten to death
I felt strangely sexually attracted to her
and had a migraine
due to her inconsistent drumming
She blinded me with her drumsticks
telling me to find someone else’s dream
to soil myself in
I am off now
There is a bagpiper waving to me
Curing my confusion
and sense of time
when waking in other’s hopeless dream

02 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

246.  I traded places 
with whom I could not be
What an error
No one wants to be me
hiding in my dismay
of who I could not be

3. July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

247. I forgot the next line 
Otherwise
I would have had a complete thought

3. July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

248.  I split the difference
between right and wrong
so no one would notice

03. July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia

249. We didn’t realize how dark it was 
until the roses stopped blooming
Rain kept falling
Fires charred all before it
Love evaporated
Chocolate melted
Animals laid down to die
Dinosaurs reclaimed earth
Republicans took over America
We didn’t realize how dark it was

04. June 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australia

250.  If only I were a seed 
blown away by seasonal change
to grow and prosper in a fertile dream
I would shed my tears elsewhere

04. June 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australia

251. What a startled world we live in People gasping
Breathless
Overlooked assumptions
How did we get to this place
with everyone so startled

05 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australia

252.  All the men stood erect 
with erections
as their karma bent over
for applause

05 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Babinda, Queensland, Australia

253. Again I lost an argument with myself 
Flushed away innocence
in morning’s sugar-coated
elusive explosion
as I argue in the mirror
Losing once again

06 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australa

254. Happy birthday son
If only you had not killed yourself
18-years ago
you would have me to blow out your candles
in case you were too busy
like you are now
being dead so long
you no longer sing with me
on our birthday

June 2021 Townsville, Queensland, Australia

255. Before dreams of you faded
Magical mystical moonlight memories
were turbulent seas
worthy our efforts of escape
Now that they have faded
I prefer to escape
Not dream
Not remember
Not live

07 July 2021 Town Hill Showgrounds, Queensland, Australia

256. Listening to frogs dancing in the night
lizards singing blues
birds lusting
Nature is so horny
tonight I may need to swim ashore before drowning

08 July 2021 Town Hill Showgrounds, Queensland, Australia  

257. Simply so sensitive 
Brain cells colliding
We pass through space
finding temporary links
Adhering magnetically mystery magic merging randomness
So soon erased
Believing there is more to it all
because we are
simply so sensitive
we think life is real

09 July 2021 Bowen Palms Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia

258. The reason I am so free
Because I learned to bounce

09 July 2021 Bowen Palms Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia

259.  @ the beach
Like any wildlife
I let night cover me
as once I did
the loves of my youth
Hiding us
Future proofing
before morning would make us visible
Vulnerable to the recklessness of a world
we had no intention of inheriting
@ the beach
Remembering life so grand

July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia  

260. Folks writing books
Lots of them
Woven stories
fantasy fabric factories
How do they find the time
Who reads them
trees sacrificed
global warmest
$ changing hands
I am lucky to find time to write this
I am told I have all the time in the world
I don’t think so
Not enough time to finish this thought
Shit out of luck

11 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

261.  God Part 1
I like to make commitments
I will not keep
Makes me feel like God

12 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

 262. God Part 2
I put my money on the wrong God
came in last
Now that I lost everything
they are all pissed @ me

12 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

 263. All those passing past mind-numbing experiences
making us who we are
should be put on hold
for some other clown to experience
giving us a free slate
to fuck up

12. July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

264. It was a dark stormy fucked up night 
when reality and I divorced
Stoned Cassowaries cried “oh holy night”
I laughed with joy
What a delightful time we live in
Painted ladies offered me passion
for memories rusting in the wind
Due to my advancing amnesia
I traded without thought
Now I wander the dreamless landscape of my old-age
oblivious to the obvious
knowing I finally have achieved fucked up reality
those saints and gurus forever have promised
to the likes of me

13 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

265. As with any random thought 
broken wings were in flight
What was created floated easily away
Chasing images possibilities
into wild seas
as with any random thought

13 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

266. We melted away
as ice cream
in the noonday sun
Nevermore to be free
as ice cream
in the noonday sun
Flavoured memories
as ice cream
in the noonday sun
Our time together
as ice cream
in the noonday sun
The totality of life
as ice cream
in the noonday sun

13 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

267. I forgot how sleepy I was 
until you awoke me
reminding me
the world had ended
but I had not
So sleepy I was
Never noticed

14 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

268. So much effort
Another goal achieved
Finally
the end of this sentence

14 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

269. My writing used to be dark
Ominous
Gloomy
Until I was blinded by the light
Now I cannot see to write anything
Murky
Foreboding
Depressing

14 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

270. Through multiple mistakes
Mishaps
Wrong turns
Faulty thinking
I have embraced the creative perfection
of the other way

15 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

271. The blank slate we are born with 
becomes so full
we die
just to erase it
making space
to begin again

15 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

272. Strange sounds in the night 
frighten the weary saleswoman
out to steal my soul
with a bargain none can refuse
until strange sounds
sets us free
anew
again

15 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia

273. Oh Shit!
I got nothin’ to write
Words stab @ me
Tumour prose floods my unlit consciousness
Digital dreams cloud my judgement
Let the robotic poets replace us tired humans with nothing left to say
as we constantly chant mantras of nonsense
recognizing what we have to say is shit

16 July 2021 Town Hill – camping alongside highway, Queensland, Australia

273. Statistically 
76% nightmares without you
marginally tolerable
82% life without you
barely tolerable
91% I forget you left so long ago
life so liveable


17. July 2021 Campaspe River Rest Area, Homestead, Queensland, Australia

274. Unaware of the/an endgame 
seven billion of us
rush forward without a clue
of why
what
where
when
then
when the big quiet arrives
Arises
it will be as if we were never here
silence is the game

17. July 2021 Campaspe River Rest Area, Homestead, Queensland, Australia

275. We made a mad dash to the border
No one was there
We danced
We sang
We escaped
Borders without people
What a perfect world
finally
This has become

18 July 2021 Julia Creek, Queensland, Australia

276. Especially concurrent tapestries
cover divergent waves of thoughts
streaming through impossible possibilities
making for a most mysterious night

20 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia

277. Boxes of answers
waiting to be united with questions
providing explanations
for the undefeated
and their defeated cohorts

20 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia

278. So easy to collapse into the past
Buried insights
Unworthy to share

20 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia

279. You are the half of me
that gives the sunshine in my life
the warmth
for me to chill in

21 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia

280. The wind blew disproportionally
as if caught in a symphonic accident
If meaning were virtualist
the pure of heart
would gently blow away too
I enjoy being the unsolvable problem
drifting through social media
meaninglessly
effortlessly
drastically out of character
performing absurdly
as the wind blows
disproportionally

21 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia

281. I slowed down
World flew past
Broken wings
mountain crashing
I passed by
umbrella up
No debris struck me
What a glorious time we live in

23 July 2021 Camooweal Billabong, Queensland, Australia

282. I believed the billabong was a wishing well
I wished 4U2 #FreeMe
Ground rattled
Sky bled
Screaming trees
labelled me strange
Strangers
threw bibles at me
Songs from a Methodist hymnal blinded me
as I sank breathlessly into the billabong
masked as a wishing well
as the calendar closed on another year without you
in a most politically incorrect fashion
following no known etiquette
The earth exploded
Killing everyone on board
as neighbouring planets
laughed inappropriately

23 July 2021 Camooweal Billabong, Queensland, Australia

283. So many life lessons today
almost understood
I will incarnate several more times
to make the same errors
different settings
to check
if they were learnt

23 July 2021 Camooweal Billabong, Queensland, Australia

284. I thought I had a new audience 
until all the mice ran away
leaving me with performance anxiety
once again

25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia

285. Love rises in the east 
fades in the west
As you did
morning to night
Darkness evermore

25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia

286. Chosen memories escaped 
leaving me breathless
with but this remaining thought of you

25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia

287. We rushed through life 
so we could die
in a timely fashion

25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia

288. I shuttered the window closest to my thought
Yet
Still Dreamtime ancestral secrets
blew in
Haunting my dimming rational ploys
How could I
a white person
have any ancestral thing happening
I flew into the night
Snakes fed on my ignorance
Ancient winds delivered me
to a mad mystical medicine magician
who boiled me alive
Constraining my freedom
to escape to a few loose illusions
This being the only one I remember

25 July 2021 Devils Marbles, Northern Territory, Australia

289. In the centre of Australia
Smack dab in the middle
Fold Australia in half
Horizontally
Again vertically
Now toss it away
We are then nowhere
I should not have gone to the centre of Australia
If I had not
I would be here
There
In the centre of Australia
With
Or without
you

27 July 2021 Ti Tree Homestead, Northern Territory, Australia

290. The last time I saw Rick was 30 years ago
I believed we were younger then
Chunks of life coloured in
Passed by
Now shared
like we had barely finished some random sentence
30 years later continued where we had left off
randomly
Family Friends
remembered
Some dead some dying some faded/fading memories
all 30 years older
So fast time goes by
Only seeing someone from long ago story shows the passage of time
If we should meet again in thirty years
both over one hundred
will be interesting
especially if we believe we are still alive

28 July 2021 Alice Springs, Northern Territory, Australia

291. I stayed longer than planned
The plan was to visit earth for a brief alien moment
Crack some jokes
Do a few magic tricks
Random propagation
Avoid mishaps
Have a trophy wife
Trophy body
Gather applause
Act iconic
then escape before anyone noticed
I had been here
The plan backfired
when they cloned me
only to lose track of which was the original

30 July 2021 Alice Springs, Northern Territory, Australia

292. I remembered her as the fireworks of my youth
lightening up my life
in such an explosive sky
I almost drowned
in search of a repeat performance
that never occurred

30 July 2021 Alice Springs, Northern Territory, Australia

293. Out on the highway
Wildflowers are trampled
Outlaw winds swear @ justice
Injustice laughs
Coldness so naked
landscape hides in despair
If there was ever a way off
of this outlaw highway
long ago
we would have perished in the desert
so fortunate our life would have been

01 August 2021 Pootnoura Rest Area, Stuart Highway, South Australia

294. When you were my destination
The journey so fine
gliding like liberty on parade
With you gone
no end in sight
I think I will just lie down and die
Never to reach my destination

01 August 2021 Pootnoura Rest Area, Stuart Highway, South Australia

295. In the aftermath of our deleted defeated disastrous delusional drunken diabolical dream…

(unfinished thought)

02 August 2021 Rest Area 20 Ks South of Cobber Pedy, Stuart Highway, South Australia

296. I stopped to care
You raced on
Now not there
Life so. Unfair

02 August 2021 Rest Area 20 Ks South of Cobber Pedy, Stuart Highway, South Australia

297. What a surprise
I surmise
to prize
a size of thought
large enough to envelope all of life
hiding remaining pieces of plots of plays of life
that so often surprise
enough not to realize
life is a joke
unravelled

02 August 2021 Rest Area 20 Ks South of Cobber Pedy, Stuart Highway, South Australia

298. Life is an erotic landscape
filled with alien forms
wonderous of exploration

03 August 2021 Lake Hart, Stuart Highway, South Australia

299. The end of our street
The end of our duet
The end of our dance
The end of our dreams
Hopes
Wishes
Life
THE END

03 August 2021 Lake Hart, Stuart Highway, South Australia

300. Freedom flies fast
If but time would allow
it could be packaged
Given to refugees
All of us wondrously happy

05 August 2021 Port Augusta, South Australia

301. Last night on the road
Tomorrow back to same old
Same old
when the road was yet to discover
us
and we were to forget
we had ever begun miracles
of explorations

05 August 2021 Port Augusta, South Australia

302. Hopeless genius
Genius of hopelessness
How perfect this direction
of perfection
no correction intended
Hopeless genius on parade
Where even the wind dies laughing

06 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

303. Prisoner of consciousness 
Released too early
Such a slanderous occasion
we jump for joy
Surely no one could foresee we would return so quickly
to be prisoners of consciousness
drifting across landscape
unimagined in the madness
we believed is our life
07 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

304. I took a writer’s easy way out
Instead of creating a lengthy novel
with a dynamic beginning
torturous unresolvable middle
miraculous conclusion stretching over hundreds and hundreds of pages with illustrations and recipes throughout
I wrote this
A writer’s easy way out

05 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

305. Long before my pen ran out of ink
I wrote this
Now I wish my pen had run out of ink earlier

08 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

306. Painted on desire
masks subliminal passion in another restless night of shadows
screaming for release
I roll over
whispering to my pillow
‘Not tonight Josephina’

09 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

307. Few hours left of 73 years
searching for the value of becoming 74
while the world around me ages faster
than I can keep up with her

09 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

308. What a relaxing day
We died
Or so thought the assembled masses
peering through their clouded mist
Strange the perception bottled up in the minds of the elite
How extraordinary is the muddled thoughts
stumbling against the jaded landscape
of the human mind
Because for an instance
I had pure thought
stunned silence as they said
I was archived
Pronounced dead
prepared as sacrificial mulch for the cemetery garden of forgotten dreams
Obviously  
none of this is true
Just a random recurring thought I forgot to take control of
in this relaxing day

10 August 2021 (on my 74th birthday) Adelaide, South Australia

309. Stretched out across the tarmac of my mind
Alien probes circle before landing
Many recognizable from youth
@ birth even I shared structural elements unseeable
Unhearable
Unbelievable
Packaged meaning poured out
The stories were true
Fables invented to control
now seemed foolishly vulnerable rained from broken clouds floating out of place
We will all drown
I am sure of it
So thankful for the safety of the sheltering tarmac of my mind

11 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

301. Circus animals @ my window
wanting me to run away with them
Secretively I close the window
as I am in love with the jugglers
frolickingly naked clowns
a trapeze beauty
a few incoherent escapes from the me-2 movement
dozens of ex-wives
a fantastically seductive mystic warrior trying to raise me from the dead
So why would I join a bunch of silly vociferous circus animals @ my window
making me appear foolish
Once again

12 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

302. Buried deep in the murky inner recesses of my super-sub-conscious
is the thought
contrary to conventional wisdom
out of step with social media
possibly an out right lie
is that I am alive
To address proof
is to enter uncharted waters
City centre mall peasants
shake in disbelief
Feminist rodeo performers
laugh
Non-binary cattle stampede
Leftist politicians trip
over their right foot
Horny aliens
wink @ me
I am so confused
We are all drowning
in disbelief

13 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

303. How far gone the past has flown
Broken wings
crashing into the receding marshmallow like horizon
I reach out trying to retrieve
stopping midway to nowhere
Glimpses of faded memories fading
I grasp outlines of the past passing fast
Nothing clears
past is opaque
Eternity is short
Life so much shorter
How far gone
the past has flown

14 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

304. Your love crumbled like a misunderstood poem
Broken words
Misconstrued meaning
How wonderful a new dawn
blots out such a broken narrative

15 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

305. Only 55 people
all on Facebook remembered my birthday this year
7.5 billion others on earth ignored it
WTF
How troubling is that

306. Winter’s western wind
freshly frozen forever
left me stupidly alone
clutching thawed memories
of when we were

15 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

307. Lovers clever whisperings
risqué risks
wakens youthful warped memories
as I stumble along the boulevard
towards a sentimental alley
I can succumb to memories of lovers
clever whisperings
in

15 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

308. Your love was a masterpiece
ravaged by time
and so many others
after I left
collapsing onto a bottomless floor
@ the museum of lost love
Forever trampled on by regret

16 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

309. Tomorrow I will face the facts
but today
my interpretation
of the way it is
will keep me floating
through my atmospheric turmoil
still intact

16 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

310. Love is so easily explained
So easily misunderstood
So easy
So nourishing
many starve to death for lack of love
Love is fun
Love is me
Love is worth the waking up
no matter how many times we have died

16 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

311. She was always so quiet
I still have difficulty with her whispering desire
enveloping me in my sleep
Even now
decades after she died
in her quiet way
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17 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

312. If everyone died off 
except for my family and friends
we would have such a sustainable planet
there would be enough love
for all

17 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

313. Using words to say nothing
We slipped between the covers of darkness and morning
Neither of which could escape
our naked surprise
of the fluidity
imagination disguises us with

18 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

314. Our goal in life 
is to construct nonsense
to appear believable enough
to progress beyond now
If only you had believed me
we would have lasted longer
than a passing breath
once upon a time shared

18 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

315. What happened
could have been avoided
What was avoided
should have happened
Otherwise staying awake

has no value

19 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

316. I became ultra-fixated on nothing @ all
when in fact only of you
I had wanted thought
How fluid a wandering mind is
A swamp @ the edge of a glacier
melting before its time
Flooding coastlines
Drowning fools such as me
ultra-fixated on nothing @ all
instead of you

20 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

317. My thinking has little changed in the past fifty years
Though now I save them in the cloud
where they fall as polluting rain
over the sandy-rocky-barren Outback
where marsupials drink my thoughts in flooded billabongs
then die
with stomachs filled of non-organic realism

20 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

318. To die in your arms
The most rewarding thing
the enemies of my ancestors
could achieve

21 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

319. When I awoke this morning no one remembers me
I remember them
faces touches joy pain laughter longings
#Fjaoi*ddjf$paj@ij
Why have I disappeared from lover’s past
I go back to sleep where they remember me
so together we are
evermore

21 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

320. Thoughts like aging love
left to decay
upon fortified fertile soiled soil
Foundation for a new generation of insanity
as I have often demonstrated

21 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

321. Intoxicated poetry
left me stumbling
over reality once again

21 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

322. So easy to return to a simpler time
like before I was born
though how should I know
than to separate the past 74-years from before
when a simpler time spoke
@ ease
without me

22 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

323. In an awkward series of missteps and hurdles
I slipped into the former glory of whom I could have been
if only I had kept my eyes closed
long enough
to have avoided such an awkward series of missteps with hurdles

23 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

324. The advertisers know
how to make
a better happier hipper more love
Me
I filled my life with their products
I became an animation
A cartoon
reflecting a wonderful pretendable
Me
Everyone wanted to be me
Terrell in a capsule
Take before bed
Have wonderful dreams of being me
So lucky that all those ads
Everywhere
Made me so fulfilled
Like they will you
when you are ready

to pay the price

23 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

325. When life was simple
I would watch life go by
Now that it no longer is
I turn my gaze elsewhere
as life goes by
beyond my grasp

24 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

326. WOW!
Just realized I was the last one alive
Think I should go back to sleep

have a different dream

25 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

327. I thought she said
‘Have a good morning’
as she walked out the door
so many decades past
Now I realize she said
‘Have a good mourning’
that I have had now
that she is gone
All those decades past

25 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

328. Life is so short
so full of anxiety
pitfalls
bad actors
Incorrect syntax
That I believe I will refuse to do it again

25 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

329. We met on the corner of anticipation and regret
figurine clouds diverted our attention
as life rushed past
If only I could remember
then would be less fuzzy
than now
Images of once we were
buried in memory’s rubble
@ the intersection of anticipation and regret

26 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

330. So many simple thoughts
left me bewildered
knowing how complex love is
when diluted
by so many simple thoughts

27 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

331. I used to think being human
Oh so boring
Until I watched a snail crawl through my petunias
giving me thought
as to being the luckiest animal in the garden
This is my fifth day straight
sitting here contemplating
in the garden
amongst the petunias
snails
how lucky I am not to be bored

28 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

332. The reason I know tomorrow will be disastrous
is due to the media saying so
Otherwise
I would be enjoying a morning walk along the beach
Smiling at the scantly me-2 dressed women along the boulevard
Humming a favourite tune of the 60s
Rejoicing over my horse winning the Darby
But now
due to the media
I know what a disastrous day it will be

28 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

333. Wearing masks
Keeping out covid
Hiding possible smirk
My covered face
a fashion statement
covert protesting who I am
No one seeing the nakedness
stalking behind this mask

29 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

334. I walk crowded sidewalks
crashing into people
noting their surprise
to discover
I am not invisible

29 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

335. Gathered insight
strewn across translucent landscapes
evaporating beyond reason
as eternal questions of being
went unanswerable
again

30 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

336. The totalityof human existence
will be to evolve
beyond being human

30 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

337. So perfect
Life is
Only when we awaken
the dream falters
Losses focus
Vanquishes
Lights go on
Ancestor’s scream
Ancestral dreams
Rivers of pain
drown once-were-perfect constructed memories
3-D printed dreams
So perfect life is

31 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

338. Life in a haze
In a bubble
In my bliss
Protected from clarity
Exposure
Interpretation
I wish I had tried it before
to keep from cyclic inverted realism
Just living my life
In a haze
In a bubble
In my bliss

02 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

339. Getting caught up
such an irrational thought

02 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

340. Easily remembered
long gone past passings
No need to recall yesterday
There was no part of you involved
yesterday
Not a trace
Not a shadow
Not a lingering almost forgotten smile
Being elderly really is such a luxury
Recently so easily forgotten
But
Easily remembered
long gone past passings

03 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

341. The defeated army lay in the alley crying
So much gone wrong
Toy soldiers
marching as to a war
Heroes of illusion
choke on tainted dreams
victoryless
Life is shit
My wife said I cried in my sleep last night
She did not know whether to wake me
or leave me to lay defeated
in my alley
to die with my dream

05 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

342. I swam to the horizon

in search of tomorrow
all my hopes and wishes
in a distant haze
engulfed without reason
I swam back to here
content to drift evermore

07 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

343. Old friends look me up
Hey that is me in the cloud
Decades have past
Perhaps to their surprise
I am still alive
Cyberly @ least
I am no different
74 years later still clueless
I look 4 old friends too
Internet through time and space
I am only curious to what they died of
It is the fun part of out living my family and friends
The wayward thoughts of still being somewhat alive
laughing @ the probable fact
that perhaps I still am more
than just on the internet
maybe

08 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

344. Ha Ha Ha said the tortoise
No one heard
We are too fast
Rushing into the flames of our demise

08 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

345. Meaningless meandering mystery
making us lose sense of direction
If only we could hallucinate
what comes next
life would not be
meaningless meandering mystery

09 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

346. I jumped into the fountain of youth
Drowning
in all that could have been
If I had not leapt
into the fountain of youth

09 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

347. I lost her
In the jukebox of my mind

10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

348. As with any Hollywood surprise ending comedy
I died with a smile on my face

10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

349. In a recent survey of dead people
67% believed if given the chance of a do over
They would

10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

350. While conversing with a statue in the town square
we realized my life was a joke

10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

351. I learned to forgive before I was born
Every day since
I say
‘What the fuck was I thinking’

11 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

351. A much more successful man than me
died before me
making a mockery of which of us
is the more successful

11 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

352. I threw my fate to the wind
The wind stopped
Nothing changed
My fate fell upon me
Crushing me in the here now

11 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

353. So easily laughter rolls over the horizon
swallowing seafaring clowns
We close our eyes
Such a prehistoric thing to do
Presupposed sadness envelopes the world
Joy of living
drowns
is buried
We move on
I am bored with such a sad world
I reincarnate every morning
laughing over the horizon
Life is grand
so full
I think I will embrace it for awhile
Just for laughs

12 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

354. I played the role of an old person
Hobbling along outlines of highways barely visible
Counting pills every colour imaginable
Lusting after those sexy young 60+ year old women at the beach
waiting for me in the shadows of the boardwalk
Shopping @ Walmart dressed in pyjamas and fluffy slippers
Remembering 60 years ago as if today
Believing tomorrow was yesterday
Asking my 60+ year old children ‘what is the internet’
Forgetting I am still alive
as I tell jokes to my reincarnated self
Playing the role of an old person is the only role I know

@ the nursing home I am out of my room
There is that 30-something sexy looking nurse
I was so happy to see someone my age in this place
I ran to hug her
She smiled
“back to your room now hon”
Playing the role of an old person is the only role I know

13 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

355. I still love her all these tears later
Just kidding
Years later
As synchronicity would have it

13 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

Damn! don't have anything to say today
but tomorrow - you just wait...

356. I won the race 
though at times as if my reflection
in the shop window
no doubt would win
Next to see
if I can get to my dream
before it gets to me
All we are
is a dull thud
amongst the music of the spheres
Glowing in darkness of our misunderstanding
Knowing in hindsight
we should never have been
in the race

15 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

357. I like living in the past 
Makes getting old
in the future
take so much longer
to get to

15 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

358. Special spectacular something
Nature runs and hides
Radical ridiculous result
Nature rushes
Returns
Now isn’t that the dumbest thing ever heard

16 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

359. I could not think of any scenario in which you 
were not the best
of my morning after

17 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

360. Ever since losing my grip on reality
I have been
Cheering more
Chuckling more
Chanting more
Cavorting more
Nakedly more
Since losing my grip on reality
the world is such a lovely place

20 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

361. Finally finished the beginning
when I die
the easy part complete
(so abstract the end)
It is all between that makes fools of philosophical theoreticians

20 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

362. I keep watching for today to become normal
Like before I was born

21 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

363. When I awoke this morning
realizing everyone in the world was nuts
I felt troubled
Knowing there was not another sane
to voice my concerns to
@ the zoo I recognized caged freedom
While surfing
I laughed and sang with mermaids and dolphins
I flew with the seagulls
Forest danced with unicorns
Philosophized with Greek gods (who imagined they were me)
But when I returned home
mingled with people
there was no one I could confide in
that they were all nuts


21 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

364. @ the end of the day
time will arrive we each will become extinct
When we die
will we remember
the extinction prediction
Will it matter
Too much talk of what will be when we are dead
When the next generation
Death
Best to laugh now
for no one will
when we are extinct
or will we
That’s the tweet

23 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

365. As if we returned
Could return
Would return
Should return
What then
Should Would Could
Outcomes differ
I am of the tribe choosing not to
Not to for any reason
In any season
Returning is a fault in evolution
Going forward
The only cure
It is how I escaped
Freeing me to explore the space between now
and the quickly approaching end

24 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

366. Do birds of prey pray
for prey
or do they too live in a linguistic bubble
as I do

25 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

367. In the morning
I will realize I am lost
in time to return to the sanctuary
of your dreams

25 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

last night's last thought

(which explains why I had those strange dreams)

368. All the stars lined up
though not with me
I just sort of fell through space
in my little dark spaceship
Never a thought of what could be different
if the stars had not lined up
without me

26 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia

 

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