Contents
2021 ............................................................................................................................................................ 1
Adelaide 1
Darwin 10
Adelaide 17
Road Trip > Adelaide South Australia – OUTBACK – Cairns - Queensland 47
Lahore 109
2022 ........................................................................................................................................................ 113
Washington DC 113
Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel 114
FIRST LINES 117
2021
Adelaide
If we had begun
If we had finished
If we had floated or laughed @ the crossroads
marvellous would be our discourse none we did
we did none
The outcome is well worth the wait
The weight of our choice crushes and frees us Simultaneously
01 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Long after yesterday’s vanquished irony
I fell in love with it Wishing for it to be again
01 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
For my Australian siblings of whom I have none today’s maths date is 2-1-21 (it is now Saturday) For my Yanks who count
The date is 1-2-21 (it is still Friday but when it is Saturday it will be 1-2-21) And that is our difference
May it be no more than that in 2021
Absence of turmoil
In this vacated space
Filled with once were shadows of ours wandering freely
#aimlessly?
Across opaque horizon(s)
never knowing the absence of turmoil would lull us to sleep Without regret
You and I
Eternal turmoil made manifest
02 January 2021 Victor Harbor South Australia
Plateaus of latent polluted consciousness
(entrenched by many)
How trite the uninitiated beggars becomes Mistakes of evolution
fools who do not garner my vision I think I will go and shower
just to wash away my thoughts so exhausting it is being me
03 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Thoughts clashing
Crashing
Accidental reasoning Love
…such a token effort
If we make it to tomorrow we will know hope is real
04 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
I sped through life
just to get to here
to hear
what I thought then would be now so mistaken was my prophecy intent unravelled
Revelations disregarded But then again
now could be what someone else imagined [implanted into me]
as it surely is not where I thought I would be
long before I sped through life to arrive to here
The miracle of life finally realized
05 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
I treat my like as a foreign spy Hiding behind a façade of normality and my love for you
No criminal intent discoverable
so good I am @ living life as a double agent to my memories
06 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
The entertainments of disaster
so easily removed
hiding in front of my TV screen computer
devices galore
Sometimes I have several disasters Streaming
Screaming
across multiple screens All so distance
so abstract
I liked the world before
all these visual haphazard attempts at life-living fell to the ground Tomorrow I will sit in my garden Talk to my flowers
Such a calm world I will see Why can’t everyone do that
08 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Not a favourable situation Falling off the cliff Following
the herd We heard Wrongly
I love the notion of eternity lasting in nanoseconds Such a favourable situation after all
09 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Your love obfuscated memories that had no chance of survival
10 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
I waited Anticipated Strived for
the crowning moment of my life The turning point
Awakening
Orgasmic nuclear achievements unhinged Unlocked
Bursting forth Flying free
That metamorphosis moment
in the fable narrative made manifest But alas
After 73 years of incoherent mumblings This is it
These words strewn across my rapidly vaporizing self Damn!
10 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
No one really cared
though the wind pretended to as the village was swept
by one more tornado
and as with any love at the end of a dream various misguided saints
turned away
11 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
While rehearsing my death
That final moment prior to lights going out Senses no more
Unfilled dreams erased
I was surprised to see how funny you were your magical smile so surrendering
Before I forgot all that once was #Life’sFinalEraser
While rehearsing my death once again
12 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
So late the change Seasonal obstruction Bleeding softly Blending slowly
Believing surrender is the only option Tomorrow we riot
Turmoil awakening desire
Changing the spectator’s perspective So exciting
The only side I choose is that of change
13 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Passing paragraph toward the end of the news
“death of galaxy observed”
A galaxy with billions of stars gone such a loss of innocent lives
I look at my hairbrush
More of my hair on my brush less on my head
now that is a tragedy
of cosmic dimension
We do not see that in the news do we
15 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
If only
That is what we tell ourselves
(opinion enhanced opportunist’s options) Orchestrated insurrection of life’s imaginary choices As hallucinations begat our distorted reality
(our love is forever)
As a child I believed so much I was a mental magician
(An absorber of what is possible though never possible) Then suddenly I became old
No longer believing in much (though still as bewildered as ever) I stare into the vacuum of my life If only
17 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Plain played plans
Seemingly so simple
Death defying dread directly displayed I had no idea it would end like this Plain plans played
18 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
While mumbling incoherently on the corner of here and there passing pedestrians
stopped smiled saying
“of course that is the answer” Before going over the cliff
Of here and now
18 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Dreams surrendering shackled to reality beliefs unhinged
The alchemy of broken memories lay scattered
Tattered
across the masked horizon
naked
Otherwise
I had quite the normal day
19 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
During an analysis of cliffs never gone over
Flooded rivers almost crossed Fleeting desires slightly quenched
I reflected on my out-of-focus reflection(s)
Questioning
why always so close never closer
Perhaps being close is all that kept me alive So far
22 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Souvenir shop of love’s lost interest
sitting on dusty cracked shelves
Once-were-trophies of a younger time when a drunken world
so easily staggered
only to awaken decades later scarcely remembering
love’s lingering souvenirs
24 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
As the sole audience
(deleted soul survivor)
to the manipulated characters
in the continuing sage of my ruthless nightly dreams (BTW terrible actors each and every one of them)
I applaud
in my questionable absence
to the endless hazards of unfulfilled dreams smouldering on the hillside of fading humanity Waiting as always for the final curtain
to end this charade
I so relaxingly refer to as my only life
25 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
No doubt the strangest of times
Easy to miss such nuances But we try
I so easily replace time with space It is easier to fill
Time does not encourage hording Space it seems does
I surround myself with surrendered artifacts from my collection of 73 years of avoiding time Too busy with filling space
At the destruction of earth Time will still exist
Space will not
Tomorrow I shall embrace time My space has no future
26 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Sleeping pill
Such a day breaker Waster
World fades Faces melt
Whispers losing their meaning Dreams so close
If only I could find a place to lay down
randomly disintegrate
The path is windy A hindered trail
If I were to stumble would anyone notice Slurred speech creating such a tangled response Out-of-tune hum
If in the future I become conscious A co-conspirator with reality
I hope the world makes more sense than it does now Sleepy magic making everything disappear
Except for you
The smile with a thousand faces
27 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
I stopped watching the news All I do now is wait 4 U Nothing I haven’t read
So long you have been dead So long you
Nothing more new
28 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
The distinct mirage of love without borders
makes us aliens
swept up in the swirl of changes we never asked to a be a part of
Though we happily flow against the tide
looking back to a simpler time
before love without borders dissolved our resolve to continue
long ago when we hoped Now we no longer exist You and I
lost in the mirage of love without borders
29 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Unexpectantly my wings fell off
no alternatives were coded into my makeup So unfortunate to realize I was not a bird
or another random flying creature as I crashed to ground
This is not new
There was that period when I believed I was a sea inhabitant After drownings then being resuscitated
by a school of illiterate fish
and tossed onto an erotic slimy beach teaming with voluptuous wrestling lesbians chasing me in my ignorance
I took up some Zen shit
escaped to a Himalayan mountain top until I froze to death from passing storms
Luckily to thaw out and be adopted by a pack of binary wolves who raised me
Finally letting me loose into society where to this very day
I am still trying to navigate these insane times
30 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
In a hypothetical nightmare
your anecdotal love disappeared
30 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Living so freely in a recreated past in my mind
makes now seem like the future I never believed would arrive and fortunately never will
30 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
When I no longer exist
will I remember when I did
30 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Such subtle monstrosities
Feelings of déjà vu
Linking shadows that once were us freely chasing unfettered desires across such shifting landscapes only to become separated
You swallowed by an unreachable horizon Me – I just fell
Free-falling through life
Never landing to analyse these feelings of déjà vu and such emptiness
Drowning once again
31 January 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
All my dreams came true
Now that I am awake I wish they had not
01 February 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
I followed my followers
who follow me as I follow them
following our imaginary selves over a virtual cliff of remorse that we had followed
2 February 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Once the majority
Now in the minority
These alien thoughts transiting my mind I texted you
Emailed WhatsApp you
You died decades ago
Long before technology reminded us of our fractured selves
Our digital relationships disappearing into wastelands of memes Brought back to life
Then fading quickly
like the majority of thoughts once entertained now slipping away
With so little left
I do not know why I hang on to this memory of you
3 February 2021 Perseverance Road Adelaide South Australia
Darwin
A whole new place
Even my reflection is different A shadow of my former self
Laughing out of tune with the ill-gotten wind ricocheting off the horizon
I once chased after success
She was a cruel cross-dressing mistress Leaving me to die in a softened breeze
Now everywhere I arrive I embrace the new me Only to bury him
as the sun shoves itself into its existential nothingness 05 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
The resident clown resplendent in my head
left me for the circus that left town leaving me confused as to my response in this haphazard world I troll
in anticipation of a better me
7 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
The seldom differences mimic past heroes
As accidental as lover flounders in an ill-conceived wind is my suggestion of you
My once upon a time hero
When I was young
long before today was conceived I too floundered
then often wondered if I would dread being who I am now
and as the seldom difference would have it I do
08 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
We unlearned what we learned Now realizing what little value there was we humbly sink
below the unlearned wisdom we once had learned
08 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Everyone headed the wrong direction
I followed
taking selfies all the way Peaceful endings are boring Evolution is based on mistakes
Secrets of deceptions cracks open reason We all fall in
Now we are engulfed here
in the wrong direction Wishing we were not
09 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I tunnelled through life’s mountainous deceptions
only to discover I never had my eyes open to the wonders of delusion
until now
at the final push through life’s remaining opened door where I get to embrace nothing at all
Though I still hear you laughing ‘I tricked you once again’
10 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
My narrative became so boring
that I ended it right here
10 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I followed myself to the end of the street
just out of curiosity which way would I go
once to the end of the street but I remained lost
I often eavesdrop on conversations I am having with bikini clad thrift store mannequins
hoping to get some racing tips at the local racetrack
I raced myself up the summit
to be first watching sunset over my fading life but I did not make it
so I will never know how this will end
11 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
My life mimics nature
As unpredictable as the weather due to climate change
11 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Such an artificial entitled moment
rolling across
simultaneous event horizons To choose any particular
would diffuse the final variants of realism knocking on my locked door
causing such a crack in time space would explode
leaving us as scattered alien atoms across our pretend entitled universe pretty much like how I feel now
12 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Life is the interruption experienced
when we try to dream
13 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Minimalistic love created the universe
Complexed love will destroy it
13 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
My vehicle of expression
disintegrated
in the afterthought
of a failed memory of you
13 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
How fruitful is disdain
We wallow in ignorance
never realizing no one wiser than ourselves has ever existed
nor probably will
In the future everyone will be a comedian without an audience
so fruitful our disdain
16 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I scribbled upon the wall of life
‘have mercy on me’
The city council proclaimed mercy was no defence Walls came down
In their place rabbit holes appeared You know the rest
16 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I awoke to discover that love was an innocent bystander
to those of us who have fallen in battle where bravery was celebrated
with sleep forevermore
16 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
In an ill-fated chosen direction
Love rode winds of change
Sweeping us out to sea like an ancient fabled creature in heat
devouring an army of scantily clad luckless heroes Leaving us wanting more
in this ill-fated direction we have chosen with such glee 17 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Marvellous miracle makeover makes this newly created escape from your slippery nebulous reality so pleasant
I will ignore anything beyond the porous borders
of my dreams
Here in this magical mystery makeover I now call my life
18 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
The last thought before death
makes everyone before
slightly obsolete
18 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
All the wrong people looking in my window
I pulled across curtains they knocked at my door I open it
they fall through a hole in my life I hear them laughing at me
I watch them chase me through my reptilian infested dreams I whisper to the mayor
about an insurrection
at the outskirts of my love She sighs…
turn off the news turn me on
All the wrong people confuse me
Perhaps I should join them and become wrong also
February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Point of view
Rolling along unseen seasons How difficult living in our head Of course no one agrees
such a muddled mess human endeavour is
I lecture inanimate objects Point of view
The response is no different than discourse with carbon-based clowns My table understands what I express
Expose Examine
As well as anyone I have ever met Fuck point of view
20 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Ancient story motifs
saunter across my dampened pillow as if headed to a biblical ark
floating into alien salvation
I turn and run for the nearest dream worthy exit
collecting memory collectables
as I declutter in sync with the rising tides This easy sea-drowning I am faced with once again
as fables
‘life particles’
stagger across my pillow I drown
in thoughts of who we once were
21 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
The inequality of creation
is that death outlasts life by an insane proportion
making neither life nor death a worth candidate of creation
21 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Premature dream ageing Just wrinkled blocks of time Youthful dreams decay Smudged hopes
blurring reality
Who cares what yesterday brought Tomorrow is a slut
bleeding ulcers at the guillotine as town folks orgasm
Nothing is without consequence We live to die
decaying without want Premature dreaming
that something sometime somewhere somehow will be different
ha ha ha
What a blessing chaos is
22 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I like to write
watching ink flow across a virgin page
Then I ruin it all by rewriting on a computer Letters falling across time
Distorted reason
Pens make me feel wholesome
Words exuding from this phallic representative
00zing nonsense
I wrote on my tombstone in the snow
‘hear here a liar lays’ I wrote that in ink Rain came
Washed me away The words stayed
I like watching myself write It is so sexy
I am a perverted of ideas I write them down
Woe is me
22 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Your winning was relative
to my losing Otherwise
I could have perceived my loss as a win
Then equilibrium could have been cosmically restored But it was not
Now is not
Leaving us bewildered Once again
23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
The beggar on the street corner
Rags Smells Sadness could have been me but he was not
So I went into the shop
bought an imported deluxe ice cream supreme Satisfied my hunger
that I was not the beggar on the street corner wishing he were me
23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I have a symbiotic relationship with death
One of us will succeed
23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I bought a book on dream interpretation
in a language I do not know
so I would not pillage the frightening dreams that plague my nightly landscape
with such terrifying apocalyptic scenes that I am forced to chain myself to my bed
to prevent utter destruction from a reflective dream
It looks like an interesting book
if only I could understand what it says
23 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
I took time out to write you this
Since you died
you have not had time to read this
24 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Since simplicity slipped away
societies of reptiles have laughed at us humans without our slightest concern of our foolishness as a once special species
soon to be displaced
but the return of simplicity overwhelms the complexed maze we have become entangled in
24 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
All straight lines are horizons if viewed without deception opinion
reason
As a matter of fact
I have a straight line of memory of when we were free
Before I became lost falling over the horizon of you
24 February 2021 Darwin, Northern Territory, Australia
Adelaide
I try different narrative ideas
obviously this one did not work
24 February 2021 Adelaide, Australia
The flight home was noneventful
We landed fifty-years past where I wish I were landing when we were so full of life
dressed in 1969
Anything we wanted to be landing in Hawaii
forever free in those few days
before tipsy topsy life went upside/inside out I remember it all
whenever I land I relive wondering
Am I back home fifty years ago or now
here
so many lives past later
28 February 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Window open
butterflies fly
Clouds whispering Moon is hid
Rainbow takes selfie announces own birth
Crocodile king devours drowning city
Rain tastes like honey cancelled wokers cheer
In the future all of this will be interpreted as prophecy fulfilling the jester’s agenda
Everyone
will die laughing
01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I once was concerned by the increasing wrinkles of my ageing skin
Now I follow the lines as roads across these maps of life Celebrating the frequency
of becoming lost on these wandering well-lit highways The increasing wrinkles on my skin
01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
The pleasure of planting a garden
that I will not be left to harvest
is knowing no one else will be either All our achievements
ending like those of the dinosaurs
but passed over as useless by cockroaches and other remaining life forms
more evolved that we would ever have been
if only we had not gone the way of the dinosaurs
01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
When I am asleep
is the only time
I laugh at your jokes
01 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
After I die
When no one remembers me (much like now)
an object once of mine found
taken home
from a thrift shop window
reluctantly sitting on a stranger’s shelf will have my memories
floating unknown in their space Perhaps in the middle of the night I will say BOO
from the object that once was mine
and scare that pretender to death too
02 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
A dead poem
All my friends grown old I watch them die
Remembering what we said long ago Someday we will touch the sky Sometime before we die
But I no longer try To touch the sky Before I die
Because soon I too will die
02 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I listen to the wind blowing away once was calm leaving behind broken sadness for the next wind to blow away
02 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
After more than six-decades of writing
stories prose poetry emails diaries shopping lists sky-writing essays novels so much more
I have decided to stop writing
and contemplate what I just wrote why
it’s future impact on global society etc
and why is anyone reading this
03 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
While under the influence life burst forth in the universe Firstly as an alternative
Then as a curiosity Now as ‘what the fuck’
Otherwise
creation has been somewhat interesting 05 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Earth is still in its adolescent phase
I think I will wait to come back
until after she has grown some balls 05 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
She was an experimental kiss Now she is hiding beneath a tombstone calling my name all night long
If only If only
05 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I wish you could see me now
My accomplishments
Macho body Incredible fantasies
But you died so long ago Oh no!
You are part of the universe that sees me everywhere Every angle
Every thought Stop staring at me
I need some privacy or you will know
I forgot all about you Until now
06 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
So awkward suggested love is
Desire cripples the most ardent promise
I always wanted more than I could absolve Disassociated streams
Carbonated thoughts of consciousness bypassing passing moments effervescing
So awkward suggested love is
06 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I re-engineered my belief system
so I could believe in you
What a poorly constructed construct The collapse was imminent
due to such an improvable re-engineered belief system
06 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
My love for you
is a cognitive illusion
waking me from recurring daydreams as I cheer so loud
my neighbours call in the military so they can love like me too
March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I write messages every night
Shopping lists for dreams
If they are crossed out by morning Alive I am
Another day
dreaming
opening before my very eyes
08 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Every day I miss you more
Oh how I envy you gone so very long Far beyond the hazy life I endure Knowing you can never miss me too
08 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I hate facts
They splinter my imagination Mishappen my dreams Muddle my fantasies
Facts are so pedestrian Making us all die
so boring
08 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
There is no vaccine for restorative love
Making us immune
to the loss we shall endure
09 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
She was a simple matter of change
Nothing the same ever since
So simple
Once upon a time was
09 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Watching horror films before bed
keeps the lid on dreams escaping my prison
where I run down the avenue screaming ‘the begging is near’
10 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
What if
there was no what if
As an audience-free author
Never on a best seller’s list with my shelves of writing hidden from public view Sacred secret rendezvous Shadows of ideas
escaping into alleys of homeless idealists
applauding my non-involvement Libraries bookstores news agents
overstocked with anything/everything but not everything/ anything from me I sing my praise of being audience-free on the wrong side of the world stage
An inspirational invisible indecisive author to myself
12 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Random passions of my youth
linger as a satisfying smile as I amble into old age
Others think I am going batty
laughing at the most inopportune times It is just me
remembering random passing passions of my youth
12 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
In a current misunderstanding
I thought I was in a time and place of 40 years ago I was in my 30s
Another side of the world from here No smart phone
FB
Emotions gone viral
We wrote letters wondered what would be ‘can you imagine being mid-70s’
We said in the 70s
We would laugh then go be wild for a night or few In a current misunderstood
for just a flashing passing moment I thought now was then
when an imagined future
was so far from what it became My long-ago life
so real again today
13 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
They continue to cast me in horror movies at your side
A roughly hewed supporting actor When all I want is to show my talent in forgetting the past
as my adage
14 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I try to remember when I lost wisdom
Where did it go Who has it now
Would I recognize it if she returned What good is it in the world today Perhaps I never had wisdom
Much like everyone else
We pretend to possess what we never had Now that wisdom has been lost to all
14 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Never having been a tree
I can only imagine such fear of being chopped down made into a chair
for a fat politician to sit in
calling for the removal of all trees
for construction of thousands of chairs for all the city’s people to sit in
and listen to the fears of being a tree as told by a chair
holding a fat politician
14 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I sent a cardboard cut-out of myself to my lover
Her desires difficult to quench She had triplets
with my cardboard cut-out leaving me in the shadows Wishing I had more Dreaming it was me Wishing it wasn’t Wondering
why cardboard cut-outs of me are now part of the landfill where they built the hospital
for the erotically insane Lovers of my past
each holding cardboard cut-outs of me 15 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I am excited about the end of civilization
when I can finally be myself
15 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Her life was merely a passing thought
to everyone except to her and to me
left haunted scarred excited wounded opaque fulfilled
by every passing thought I have left of her
16 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I followed you
Until you died
Then your path became too weird Windy
So now I only follow the setting sun sinking forever more
into the lustful horizon as landfill
16 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
How calm this storm
before your righteousness subdued the terror leaking from my heart that you would possess me
once again then leave Leaving me
Swept away by the storm that is you 18 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
We saw results differently Washed away by misshapen mishaps Philosophical foreign accents
the slurring of notions left unsolved unresolved
dissolved
The sinkhole of interpretation Swallowing
what should have been the seeing of results as I do
Creating a perfect world
Ha Ha Ha Just kidding
We all disappear
so easily into nothing at all
19 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Your ambient love
Broke my heart
20 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I learned to lie when you walked away
to myself
you will soon return
I have been lying to myself for fifty years
20 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Deep in my mind
I run and hide
no one knows the chase within Colours running down my face Perhaps I am invisible
Crowds pass me
Some right through me I show no pain
Guilt is a fool’s game I am a fool on the run
If only every hero would wait as long as me
the kiss of death
could have been more fashionable Pleasurable
Fantasy made flesh
But I run and hide deep in my mind March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Semi-spectacular surrealistic lover suspending suspicious sequential events left me baying once again
at the moon Surprise Surprise
21 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I thought becoming old would be boring
But no
I spend so much time counting new ageing spots on my skin Wrinkles on my face
Grey hairs
So much memory loss that I forgot what I was to remember New aches
New pains to massage
People in the shops to be grumpy at
Youngsters – those under 70 – to complain about Political annoyances @ every turn
OMG
I never knew getting old would be so draining I think I will take another nap
22 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I mimic an epic alternative ending
to each episode of my life
returning to a predictable performance in the midst of my confusion
crisis circus
as the neighbours laugh wishing they were not me
23 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I like what I see I don’t like what I see I replace the mirror with a picture of jesus
Now I don’t want to be me anymore 24 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I remember you as a shadow
racing across my youth
disappearing when the lights went off 24 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
My gift to the world
You
Ha Ha Ha
25 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I must say all the dead philosophers are shit
out of luck
25 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I tumbled down the wrong side of your love
where the sun refuses to shine Moon never rises
Cosmic dreams dissolve
However never to regret
I would gladly tumble so freely again
26 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I reconceptualized my dreams of you
Realizing now
they were nightmares never ending
27 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I tried to be happy Just to see what fools were like Now I am a fool too
27 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Less interesting than the common indentation of life
The reason for factual summary of what could have been
gets deployed as laziness not manifest So often we become muddled
with these ridiculous thoughts some of which become believable Though without sanctuary nothing makes sense
Which explains why I have become less interested in the common indentations of life
28 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
No one remembers me
or that I was the one speaking wisdom in their psychedelic landscape where I am often dancing naked
in my 73-year-old body
where all the me-2 millennial castaways masturbate
where no one remembers me
speaking wisdom in their psychedelic landscape 29 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I am so bored with being a youthful warrior
chasing other’s fantasies away Leave me to fade
off
into my own illusion
delusion confusion
where fantasies need not to be chased away 29 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I answered the ad
‘discount on love
35% off with free steak knives
if applied in the next ten moments’
Unfortunately I was put on hold for eleven minutes Stabbed in the heart by love once again
30 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I spent the past fifty years getting rid of all my friends
23-years oh so free
How grand it all should be
30 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Not happy with the planning committee of this planet
Weather not correct
In-convenient
Days Nights too short
Bit messy
Love just a passing fantasy of emotionally stunted disrupted humans Another asteroid direct hit would shake things up a bit
Start over
Origins of a new species with embedded Wi-Fi
And perhaps a bike lane through the centre of town
I definitely need to have a word with the planning committee of planet earth 31 March 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Shortly after I lost all sense of order
my life fell into place
01 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Your love was a psychedelic kaleidoscopic cumulonimbus formation
enveloping all before Now after
none of us exist
01 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Alarms of doubt
awaken the sure-footed warrior
as he casts herself into the flames of desires
Stumbling
he grasps at fleeing shadows
wondering why she no longer makes sense 01 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I lost virtual virginal visiting rights to my favourite lurid lucid dreams Leaving me devastated
But pure
For a new series of nightmares featuring you
unedited
02 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Now that you have been dead
Gone 20 years
I will stop telling you
that you were the one who let the dog out and like you
she never came back
03 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
All the stupid people with their stupid beliefs makes me feel stupid
for not believing
any of their stupid beliefs
03 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Thousands of years ago philosophers were unable to Google answers Lucky them
03 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Shortly before I lost my looks I posted a selfie on our mirror reminding
of whom I was before you walked out our door to die forever
so long ago
before I lost my looks
4 3 21 * Adelaide, Australia
I love have spotlights shining on me
Prevents me from falling off the ladder to the stars
where dreams never come true Where spotlights so bright
no one sees me falling
05 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I read in a comic book that your love for me was real
Saw it in a cartoon too
Storm clouds obscured your skywriting message to me
not sure what less you could have said
My hacked accounts reminded me another cash infusion would release your love for me My astrologer predicted it too...for a fee
Dermatologists across the Outback said stop letting you under my skin Such a mystery love is
if only I could decipher anything at all your love for me
and its slippery value could exist 06 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
If everyone in the world
was as lucky as me would I be lucky
06 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
It took me seventy-three years
to realize
this was not a worthwhile poem 06 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Shortly before being born
god confided a secret that he did not exist
that I should become a storyteller when I become old to snare others
into believing she does
then we can all non-exist together 07 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Forgot what I forgot
and why I keep smiling at my reflection bouncing off stellar dust
as the choir sings hallelujah
and I avoid your name
07 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Going extremely slow
Dreams broke open
as logic took a backseat then we danced
the rest is just our twisted memory reminding us to dream and nothing more
07 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I outlived several nursey rhymes
Unpremeditatedly of course
Now with expeditiously retro cancel-culture I am no more
08 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Love is the great eraser Vanquishing what was before #Perhaps
You were the great eraser I am no more
08 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I was born on a stormy night of no coincidence
shortly before the end of time Growing up was a challenge
as I masked reality with cerebral nostalgia of past fantasies Old age such a delusion
just a passing mirage fading
before the end of time
09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I embrace making mistakes
So that I can imagine what life would have been if I had not
09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I had a text-book death
shortly before books became obsolete
So that I would not be just another digital masterpiece like those dying now never will be
09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I often predict past events just to watch them collapse as truth in the future
09 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Being wishy-washy
Fishing in wishing currents
with no chance of becoming anything more than wishy-washy wishers
10 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
None of my dead friends attended my funeral Leaving me to ponder whether friendship has a used by label Were they accountable friends
Did any of my deceased friends take it personally that I did not wax eloquently
with some useless limerick of their memory of their endearing qualities
ha ha ha
now to ignore my plight
What messages are my dead friends attempting to transmit by not going to
speaking
haunting my funeral Again
10 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
How embarrassing it would be to be remembered as you
We could join the circus
No one would want to recognize us Separated by mere recognition at birth
As embarrassing it would be for you to be remembered as me Again
11 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Gently falling promises cascading across a broken frozen memory If only we had not slipped
Fell Shattered
our promises may have held us together long enough
to breathe in a new morning together
11 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Ancient ruins hiding stories
Mysteries Secrets
Petrified hopes/wishes/dreams/sadness And that was just yesterday unravelled Wait until today has been revealed
then ancient ruins will be remembered as the pinnacle to today’s success
12 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I asked my doctor what was wrong with me
she looked crazed then died laughing If only I could have known
we would be at the carnival happily together I never found out what was wrong with me or the theoretical anomaly of dying laughing I sit here watching my life slowly drain out over a misty blurred horizon
and wonder whether there ever was a reason to care Whether it is more noble to die laughing
than never to die at all
13 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
The loneliest thing anyone can do
is to realize
no one thinks like them
13 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Always landing
Never landed Always flying Never in flight
Always living yesterday
Never today
Which is how I ended my recent conversation with myself 14 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
When asked why I ran naked through the town square
it was obvious I had forgotten how to relax Dignity was left at the nursing-home door Reason had become a casualty long ago When asked why I ran naked
through the cathedral too I let them hear
‘exercise is good no matter when’ Though in this padded cell
I no longer can
15 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Long after we die
we will be remembered
for what we were forgotten for Never existing
beyond a passing memory
washed away with shadows only we knew 16 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
We expected a different outcome
It is all so confusing
I would never attempt to write a poem Story
Play
Exposé
narrating what happened
Why such an unexplainable ending Are we the actors or the audience
Or just the confessional author unable to complete Compete
We expected a different ending The Big Bang
like our love
will never end in a tidy fashion 17 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Due to a pre-existing wife
I need to stay vaccinated against a terrible strain of past memory hacks
18 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Stolen memories replace ones I no longer wanted
Hoping yours are better than mine 20 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Such a change of seasons
Fallen leaves Frosty love Forgotten times
A sudden crack in forward motions
Nature died Though not really
She sleeps too often Life pretends
Rolls over Starts again
Such a change of season
Time to go and be born anew
20 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Wow this is different
I screamed into my tea
The End!
21 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Surges of joy Happiness sparks Everything looks good
80% towards great Stuff turning to dust
gold dust
On a winning streak
of losses
Learning to love being last
Riding the train through the Outback Maybe forever
Nothing left of the world destroyed outside my window no angels left to sing
I don’t care
Only this ride through surges of joy There is nothing else
22 April 2021 Overland Train > Adelaide to Melbourne
I will never be free
as long as I am a ghost in your dreamings
22 April 2021 Overland Train > Adelaide to Melbourne
Never knew you flew
Few far in-between Such a smudge on time
If navigations were simply adequate would I not fly too
Here there in-between
where long ago off you flew too
27 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Strangers texting to be my friend
I tell them to wait until 1947 as that is when I will be born
Then we can be friends forever 27 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I left pages blank in my diary
in case you reincarnate wanting to set a time to love me again
28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I thought my life could not be worse
until my dead friends family
pets dreams
appeared in me in a dream (of all places) saying it could be so
I could be with them tormenting themselves for not staying with me
28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
A week after I died
I sent myself a ‘get-well’ card I never received it
28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Quietly we placed the future behind us
as if their schadenfreude predictions had already manifest leaving us hidden
shuddering
beneath this weight of the inevitable (so often devouring our every thought)
Yet letting us escape behind darkened karmic infused mirrors whose only reflection
(lies unto themselves) quietly disturb
what only could be the future So unattainable
28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I hung my thoughts out to dry
Rain came
Washed them away
28 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I love being elderly
Makes me realize how far yet to go to be young again
Start over
Ashes gently blowing in the wind Another shadow over a shit-filled horizon What is there not to love
with being elderly
29 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
So excited about tomorrow Another day to add to my collection Trophies of consumption
placed on a hoped-for shelf
If tomorrow should be so fortunate to include me amongst her ghostly guests
29 April 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Strangely embraced thoughts
Possibilities so endless
Fascinating how we got to this place
More than seven-billion people with strangely embraced thoughts I wonder how many are identical to mine
The hum of thoughts filling all time and space No wonder evolution is grinding to a halt Stopping me in my tracks
02 ay 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Today was fun
I lost my way
Drifted amongst clouds Frolicked with mermaids Laughed out-of-tune
Gambled away my inheritance Wrote a mystery novel
on a toilet paper roll (recycled)
Discarded all religious beliefs Began a new one
(soon forgotten) Today was fun
I wonder if I shall remember it tomorrow X
02 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I cleaned my window
so as to see
how bright the approaching future will be
03 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
All the worries of the past 50 years
slipped away
with a re-enactment of one moment
we thought would be the time we would remember forever that 50 years ago moment
replacing now
with so much delight
The power of memory to dissolve all else in front of it A miracle of the mind’s only lasting salvation Yesterday for Today
03 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I stayed awake all night
thinking about a dream I had the night before What a daze to spend the days in
04 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Lost words
None left
to create a poem
05 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Saw my name scribbled across the breasts of time
WOW
What a turn on
05 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
All the lost sheep following me into my lostness in their infinite joy
05 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Life in shambles
Such an art form Forum
Abstract fantasy realism disabled
scattered about
How simple is complication If only we could frame it
Hang it in the gallery of forgotten time Ancient forum form
We could visit our life in shambles whenever we wanted
perspective
06 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I sought solace from the worry exterminators
Eradicate Replace
I screamed Thunder Lightening Fireworks nature’s orgasm Peace
Stillness
how boring is solace
I am returning to worry on the next flight of consciousness out of here 07 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Wisdom is for idiots
Give me ignorance
And I will show you a good time 02 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
If only I could start over
I would have begun with a different line Now set in stone
such a mundane start
If only something dramatic Sexually shocking Profoundly impelling Consciousness raising
A new level of perception Prize winning material Life changing Evolutionary enhancing
if only I could start over
08 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Unable to enlist anyone to play the part of me
Change the script Spice up the story Try a new tune
I went back to bed
for another day of being me
09 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
For the impeccable discerning wandering consciousness junkie So often found frolicking beneath fallen debris of wasteland dreams there is now sentimental coding building persuasions
of forgettable phantoms
to implant into our uncontrollable trolling mind we once thought was our own
09 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
In an incredible act of defiance
The sun rose
02 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia As an audience of one
to myself
The applause is almost deafening whenever I leave the stage Spotlights go off
Curtains burst into flames Audience leaves
10 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
As an audience of one
to myself
The applause is almost deafening Whenever I leave stage Spotlights go off
Curtains burst into flames Audience leaves
10 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
In a war against my body
War won Peace won
Resulting in a dream body to sleep in
but not to awaken in
12 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Closed doors
No man passes
to see her shadow smirking
on the other side
12 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I pulled sheets over my head
to stop blankets from laughing at me
Their ruckus continued throughout my dreams
Who knew such destruction could follow an evening of debauchery Next time
I will sleep beneath carpets laugh at myself
12 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Her love died
in the cemetery of broken clichés
13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Her love was a statue
decaying in the cemetery of broken clichés
13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
We tried to replicate each other
as if we were the last laugh on earth 13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Old age is like arguing with weather
Whether or not change is inevitable Unlikely
Forgivable Unintended With nothing left
@ the end of rainbows but for memories
of a sunnier time
13 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Without memory
we would cease to exist
14 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Long ago when I watched news
I had fears
some of it could be true No longer watching news I fear what I do not know Now that I totally exist
in an alternative-imaginary-dream_filled- hallucinatory state I fear I will awaken to find I am wrong
14 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
While chatting with a statue
in the town square
I realized my construct of the universe was suspect
14 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I stretched reality to include lies
that are fantasies encased in dreams
that I believed were true Reality is elastic
or it was before developing porous quality broken stands of DNA
Letting lies disguised as dreams
Once-were-fantasies to tumble out across the landscape of… So much for the ill-fated doctrines of reality
16 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
In an unlikely contribution
Nothing was added Leaving those without Free of knowledge
which gave rise to politicians
to lead us with their unlikely contributions of nothing at all
19 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
While lifting weights at the gym
I contemplated the burdens of life and how crushing they are
if dropped to soon
19 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
When all is said and done
we will play back selfies in delight
of whom we thought we were when we were glorious
20 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I acted dumb Befuddled
Just to confuse those who thought I was 21 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Pretend we are dancing as the whirling world slips away Dissolving vapours
moving colourlessly against obliterated backgrounds Dreamtime in motion
(woke ancient storytelling believed)
Chemical interactions spilling love’s interpretation across frontal nodes
(determining the allocation of attentional resources to novel events)
over the crying horizon pretending we are dancing Nothing is further from the truth
21 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Her love was a twisted linguistic nightmare
chasing me through the afterlife of narratives gone astray
21 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Now that we are warm
let memories like snowflakes Fall
Melting upon us
In our masquerading simplicity
22 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
She was a house to me
Open door Open windows
Broken furniture inside for me to fall over
for her again
22 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Inspiration is a slut
ready to surrender
to whomever will pay the price Raped
rewards
screaming into the alley
as shadows applaud in salacious silent inspiration Then jesus wept
23 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I wish my dead family and friends
lovers too
could see how alive I am now that I am not dead like they so selfishly are Never thinking about me and the time’s we had when we were non-dead running through life
in our dream like state like I so often do now
24 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
I thought we had found
Discovered Intuited
the easy win in Doors opening Dead seas parting
Partying
Spotlights to the stage pulsating
Whispers softened Stillness personified If we had not tripped
Fallen Broken
@ the end easily we could would
should have found
the easy way in
27 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Road Trip > Adelaide South Australia – OUTBACK – Cairns - Queensland
Today was an extremely creative
Prosperous Enlightening Thrilling day I wrote this
28 May 2021 Adelaide, Australia
Missed another sunset Day ended before chance changed a part we could have played Another fractured dream scattered amongst galaxies
So simple to miss another sunset and all that could have been
01 June 2021 Silverton, New South Wales, Australia
Now I remember what I meant to say
when I walked out the door so many decades ago following times of love Pain
Change Doubt Hopes Dreams Wishes
Mangled narratives
“don’t forget to turn off the lights as you slam forever shut the door on what was once all that of you I dare to remember”
Is what I mean to say
04 June 2021 Bourke, New South Wales, Australia
So seldom settled
Changes
call Charging I respond
Each step forward such a rush
There is no destination No light at the end
Rest areas along the highway nothing more than a place to piss Urges propelling me
The flight
never the landing is what I live for always taking off
If tomorrow was yesterday
I would hide in fear of going back I love this life
So seldom settled
06 June 2021 Cunnamulla, Queensland, Australia
The great times we are having
become those we had have not Had not
Crushing circles of life
only the dead have no wishes to do it again Lucky them
07 June 2021 Rest Area (camping) 45 Ks North of Augathella, Queensland, Australia
Tomorrow your birthday
I offered you the moon and stars
All you wanted was cake which I have none of So I gave you the moon and stars
What a good gifter am I
07 June 2021 Rest Area (camping) 45 Ks North of Augathella, Queensland, Australia
Unclassified experiences
Good bad Indifferent
Explanations classified
Love desire wants wishes hope drownings in a southernly windful mist
like with any psychedelic vortex thought invades
prevails
we are left once again
with unclassified experiences (luggage)
07 June 2021 (camping) Longreach, Queensland, Australia
Frozen memories of us
naked in the mist
Melted in the morning sun
Like being de-friended on Facebook
11 June 2021 Camping in a paddock in the Outback - Prairie, Queensland
I bond with inanimate objects Shirts surf boards gods tofu shoes trains They tell me stuff
Even how to exfoliate memories (such as you walking out the door)
People lie
objects only slightly exaggerate
I watch my reflection in thrift-store treasures smiling in lieu of truth
knowing they were once-upon-a-time mine
always will be unlike you
I bond with inanimate objects
12 June 2021 Charters Towers Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia
Missing parts Unsolved love Mangled memories Rodeo emotions
Out of sync sirens Transcendent hope
Random mismatched electrical brain waves Leaving me in such a desirous state Spontaneously
12 June 2021 Charters Towers Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia
I reframed my dreams
so your ghostly appearance would make sense as you hacked my being
Crashed my essence Scrambled our DNA causing me to malfunction into a reframed dream
of your creation
13 June 2021 Greenvale Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia
I realized no one was reading my tweets
soon after walking out into the world seeing everyone had died
in a nuclear-covid_pandemic- asteroid _crashing-climate_extinction event but I continued to tweet
as if my life depended on it
14 June 2021 Greenvale Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia
I am plagued by dreams of crocodiles hunting me
in multilingual brothels
none of which I understand Fondling nuns
laugh at me
Lovers weaponize their looks
torturing me with opaque desire Sociopathic ex-wives laugh
as I bay at the moon My narratives
have false conclusions Being old
surely is the shits
14 June 2021 Ravenshoe Train Station, Queensland, Australia
Mood swings Tidal waves of feelings Drowning in sunlight
Recycled oxygen in a vacuum The scent of trouble
Sounds (murmurs) of resolution Revolution of the subconscious leaking (flooding)
Learning to swim Mood swings
15 June 2021 Ravenshoe Train Station Campgrounds, Queensland, Australia
Quiet camping in the Outback
Nature nightly farting Animals hunting Sexing
No snoring involved A bit boring
Perhaps rain thunder lightening would liven up the night
I turn off the night
Turn on my phone to shatter such silence with a lovely bloody loud murder mystery if only there had been a storm
the Outback would have been left alone to continue alone along in its non-destructive boredom 16 June 2021 Atherton War Memorial Campgrounds, Queensland, Australia
We saw without looking
sang without hearing The taste of you lingers Dreams come and go Memories morph Wherever you go
I should have followed We saw without looking
the future was never for us to bungle but we did
June 2021 Atherton War Memorial Campgrounds, Queensland, Australia
While listening to the voice within
a feral cat proclaiming to be god smudged
my perceptions of life
18 June 2021 Atherton War Memorial Campgrounds, Queensland, Australia
There are over 7.5 billion drunken would-be strangers
stumbling about
looking for a purpose for existence No wonder the world
is fucked
18 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia
Social media cowboys
crying
because there is nowhere to land Crowd sourced cowgirls
too woke to awaken
Old-school politicians termites upon the land
If I knew what I was doing Gone I’d be
18 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia
In a death-defying act
I lived long enough to be defying death
as the best explanation
for life
19 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia
Slowed down attribution following sequential pairing of ought We are shadows in the mist
In the midst Fast past
Pass me please
Dial me in as another synchronizing elite wantabe because as slowed down attributions of change Chance
No one notices
20 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia
Love explodes as desire untangles the embers of change
20 June 2021 Ringers Rest Camping, Mareeba, Queensland, Australia
Little doubt plays softly
Gleefully
Serenading potentiality hiding in an alley Nothing is suspected Specifically
“isn’t love grand”
Ordinary challenges momentary’s hold on reality Nothing is as doubt would have it ever again
22 June 2021 Mossman Pool and Caravan Park, Mossman, Queensland, Australia
Perfect nonsense created an ideal morning for me to go crazy in
23 June 2021 Mossman Pool and Caravan Park, Mossman, Queensland, Australia
Phase next
finally complete
Colours sounds aspirations collectively mingled breaking down dawn showing a new direction
Though if I were a betting man
I would still avoid taking a chance on me Now that this phase is finally over
24 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia
How wonderful waking next to you
Realizing you are not she
who murdered me just now in a dream of horrific portions
(blood dripping like tear drops over painful memories) with no escape
but to wake next to you
24 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia
At the rate heroes are deceasing
only clowns will be left to escape this circus we have created
as our monument to just another failed planet drifting through space
looking for a time-space continuum capable of producing heroes
to save our sorry assess
from the clowns we have become
26 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia
All my ghosts have reincarnated
as stray dogs barking and biting me
as I sell self-worth favours to the passing mutilated multitudes mumbling forgiveness
as if I was the last saint on earth which no doubt I am
Now
since all my ghosts have incarnated as stray shadows of whom I once could have been and still may be if luck should rain on me
I am free
26 June 2021 Lake Placid Tourist Park, Cairns, Queensland, Australia
She left me standing in the rain
@ high tide
Rivers of memory never forsaken So thin the veil of yesterday
If only I could swim
I would smile once again Standing here in the rain
29 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia
Failure is a logical assumption of misunderstood mechanics
A simple minute tinkering
can quickly make failure into an art forum as I so often have demonstrated
in my life as a one-man show of unique failures personified
29 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia
Dangling dangerous dance spinning out of control
Such a fright to wake in a cold stance against such times of change
I had a friend who said he would never dieI was the only one to believe him
as if there would never be another chance in this annoying dangling dangerous dance
where enough of my friend died (like his body) so long agoI have forgotten who he is
or why I believed enough to write all of this
30 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia
Hints of understanding
made us into prophets of doom celebrating our misunderstanding that life should seem normal when it no longer makes sense
30 June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia
The taste of love
hath no cure
but to keep the mouth closedwhen the taste so imagined is poison disguised as love
June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia
I was so lucky today
no one knew it was me making the universe queasy from my screams of disillusionmentswallowed by time as I stood the test of timeNo one cared
I was so lucky today
June 2021 Babinda, Queensland, Australia
So lucky to be here
rather than buried beneath your love bleeding out hope
you would remember me still
01 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
@ The horrendous recital love and hate played a duet
making the audience shit in their pants though the applause
gave a second curtain callA memory no one wanted
01 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
I stopped for a breather in childhood All going so fast When
I started again
I was already in my seventies
I need to take a breather again
02 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
I had hoped my past would catch up to me maybe even go right on by
Yesterday is gone
I am shit out of luck
02 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
People looking peculiar Acting strange
A lone drummer said she recognized me from a previous existence
I had been a stray dog she had beaten to deathI felt strangely sexually attracted to her
and had a migraine
due to her inconsistent drumming She blinded me with her drumsticks
telling me to find someone else’s dream to soil myself in
I am off now
There is a bagpiper waving to me Curing my confusion
and sense of time
when waking in other’s hopeless dream
03 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
I traded places
with whom I could not beWhat an error No one wants to be
mehiding in my
dismay
of who I could not be
03 July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
I forgot the next line Otherwise
I would have had a complete thought
03. July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
I split the difference between right and
wrong
so no one would notice
03. July 2021 Mission Beach, Queensland, Australia
We didn’t realize how dark it was until the roses stopped blooming
Rain kept falling
Fires charred all before it
Love evaporated Chocolate melted Animals laid down to die
Dinosaurs reclaimed earth Republicans took over America We didn’t realize how dark it was
04 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australia
If only I were a seed
blown away by seasonal change to grow and prosper
in a fertile dream
I would shed my tears elsewhere
05 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australia
What a startled world we live in
People gasping Breathless Overlooked assumptions How did we get to this place with everyone so startled
06 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australia
All the men stood erect
with erections
as their karma bent overfor applause
04 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Babinda, Queensland, Australia
Again I lost an argument with myself Flushed away
innocence in morning’s
sugar-coated elusive explosion as I argue in the mirror
Losing onceagain
05 July 2021 Rollingstone, Vincent Parker Park, Queensland, Australia
Happy birthday son
If only you had not killed yourself 18-years ago you would have me
to blow out your candles in case you were too busy like you are now
being dead so long
you no longer sing with me on your birthday
06 July 2021 Townsville, Queensland, Australia
Before dreams of you faded Magical mystical moonlight memories were turbulent seas
worthy our efforts of escape Now that they have faded
I prefer to escape Not dream
Not remember Not live
07 July 2021 Town Hill Showgrounds, Queensland, Australia
Listening to frogs dancing in the night
lizards singing blues birds lusting
Nature is so horny
tonight I may need to swim ashore before drowning
08 July 2021 Town Hill Showgrounds, Queensland, Australia
Simply so sensitive
Brain cells
colliding
We pass through space finding temporary links Adhering
magnetically mystery magic merging randomness
So soon erased
Believing there is more to it all because we are
simply so sensitive we think life is real
July 2021 Bowen Palms Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia
The reason I am so free Because I learned to bounce
09 July 2021 Bowen Palms Caravan Park, Queensland, Australia
@ the beach
Like any wildlife
I let night cover me as once I did
the loves of my youth Hiding us
Future proofing
before morning would make us visible Vulnerable to the recklessness of a world we had no intention of inheriting
@ the beach Remembering life so grand
10 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
Folks writing books
Lots of them Woven stories
fantasy fabric factories How do they find the time who reads them
trees sacrificed global warmest
$ changing hands
I am lucky to find time to write this
I am told I have all the time in the world I don’t think so
Not enough time to finish this thought Shit out of luck
11 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
God Part 1
I like to make commitments I will not keep
Makes me feel like God
12 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
God Part 2
I put my money on the wrong God came in last
Now that I lost everything they are all pissed @ me
12 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
All those passing past mind-numbing experiences
making us who we are should be put on hold
for some other clown to experience giving us a free slate
to fuck up
July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
It was a dark stormy fucked up night
when reality and I divorced
Stoned Cassowaries cried “oh holy night” I laughed with joy
What a delightful time we live in Painted ladies offered me passion for memories rusting in the wind Due to my advancing amnesia
I traded without thought
Now I wander the dreamless landscape of my old-age oblivious to the obvious
knowing I finally have achieved fucked up reality those saints and gurus forever have promised
to the likes of me
13 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
As with any random thought
broken wings were in flight
What was created floated easily away Chasing images possibilities
into wild seas
as with any random thought
13 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
We melted away
as ice cream
in the noonday sun Nevermore to be free as ice cream
in the noonday sun Flavoured memories as ice cream
in the noonday sun Our time together as ice cream
in the noonday sun The totality of life as ice cream
in the noonday sun
13 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
I forgot how sleepy I was
until you awoke me reminding me
the world had ended but I had not
So sleepy I was Never noticed
14 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
So much effort Another goal achieved Finally
the end of this sentence
14 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
My writing used to be dark
Ominous Gloomy
Until I was blinded by the light Now I cannot see to write anything Murky
Foreboding Depressing
14 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
Through multiple mistakes
Mishaps Wrong turns Faulty thinking
I have embraced the creative perfection of the other way 15 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
The blank slate we are born with
becomes so full we die
just to erase it Making space to begin again
15 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
Strange sounds in the night frighten the weary saleswoman out to steal my soul
with a bargain none can refuse until strange sounds
sets us free anew
again
15 July 2021 Ball Bay, Queensland, Australia
Oh Shit!
I got nothin’ to write Words stab @ me
Tumour prose floods my unlit consciousness Digital dreams cloud my judgement
Let the robotic poets replace us tired humans with nothing left to say as we constantly chant mantras of nonsense
recognizing what we have to say is shit
16 July 2021 Town Hill – camping alongside highway, Queensland, Australia
Statistically
76% nightmares without you marginally tolerable
82% life without you barely tolerable
91% I forget you left so long ago life so liveable
17. July 2021 Campaspe River Rest Area, Homestead, Queensland, Australia
Unaware of the/an endgame
seven billion of us
rush forward without a clue of why
what where
when then
when the big quiet arrives Arises
it will be as if we were never here silence is the game
18 July 2021 Campaspe River Rest Area, Homestead, Queensland, Australia
We made a mad dash to the border
No one was there We danced
We sang We escaped
Borders without people What a perfect world
finally
This has become
18 July 2021 Julia Creek, Queensland, Australia
Especially concurrent tapestries cover divergent waves of thoughts streaming through impossible possibilities making for a most mysterious night
20 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia
Boxes of answers
waiting to be united with questions providing explanations
for the undefeated
and their defeated cohorts
20 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia
So easy to collapse into the past
Buried insights Unworthy to share
20 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia
You are the half of me that gives the sunshine in my life the warmth
for me to chill in
21 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia
The wind blew disproportionally
as if caught in a symphonic accident If meaning were virtualist
the pure of heart
would gently blow away too
I enjoy being the unsolvable problem drifting through social media meaninglessly
effortlessly
drastically out of character performing absurdly
as the wind blows disproportionally
21 July 2021 Corella Dam, Cloncurry, Queensland, Australia
I slowed down World flew past Broken wings mountain crashing
I passed by umbrella up
No debris struck me
What a glorious time we live in
23 July 2021 Camooweal Billabong, Queensland, Australia
I believed the billabong was a wishing well
I wished 4U2 #FreeMe Ground rattled
Sky bled Screaming trees
labelled me strange Strangers
threw bibles at me
Songs from a Methodist hymnal blinded me as I sank breathlessly into the billabong masked as a wishing well
as the calendar closed on another year without you in a most politically incorrect fashion
following no known etiquette The earth exploded
Killing everyone on board as neighbouring planets laughed inappropriately
23 July 2021 Camooweal Billabong, Queensland, Australia
So many life lessons today
almost understood
I will incarnate several more times to make the same errors
different settings to check
if they were learnt
23 July 2021 Camooweal Billabong, Queensland, Australia
I thought I had a new audience
until all the mice ran away
leaving me with performance anxiety once again
25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia
Love rises in the east
fades in the west As you did
morning to night Darkness evermore
25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia
Chosen memories escaped
leaving me breathless
with but this remaining thought of you
25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia
We rushed through life
so we could die
in a timely fashion
25 July 2021 Barkly Homestead, Queensland, Australia
I shuttered the window closest to my thought
Yet
Still Dreamtime ancestral secrets blew in
Haunting my dimming rational ploys How could I
a white person
have any ancestral thing happening I flew into the night
Snakes fed on my ignorance Ancient winds delivered me
to a mad mystical medicine magician who boiled me alive
Constraining my freedom
to escape to a few loose illusions This being the only one I remember
25 July 2021 Devils Marbles, Northern Territory, Australia
In the centre of Australia
Smack dab in the middle Fold Australia in half Horizontally
Again vertically Now toss it away
We are then nowhere
I should not have gone to the centre of Australia If I had not
I would be here
There
In the centre of Australia With
Or without you
27 July 2021 Ti Tree Homestead, Northern Territory, Australia
The last time I saw Rick was 30 years ago
I believed we were younger then Chunks of life coloured in
Passed by Now shared
like we had barely finished some random sentence 30 years later continued where we had left off randomly
Family Friends remembered
Some dead some dying some faded/fading memories all 30 years older
So fast time goes by
Only seeing someone from long ago story shows the passage of time If we should meet again in thirty years
both over one hundred will be interesting
especially if we believe we are still alive
28 July 2021 Alice Springs, Northern Territory, Australia
I stayed longer than planned
The plan was to visit earth for a brief alien moment Crack some jokes
Do a few magic tricks Random propagation Avoid mishaps
Have a trophy wife Trophy body Gather applause Act iconic
Then escape before anyone noticed I had been here
The plan backfired when they cloned me
only to lose track of which was the original
30 July 2021 Alice Springs, Northern Territory, Australia
I remembered her as the fireworks of my youth
lightening up my life in such an explosive sky I almost drowned
in search of a repeat performance that never occurred
30 July 2021 Alice Springs, South Australia
Out on the highway Wildflowers are trampled Outlaw winds swear @ justice Injustice laughs
Coldness so naked landscape hides in despair If there was ever a way off of this outlaw highway
long ago we would have perished in the desert so fortunate our life would have been
01 August 2021 Pootnoura Rest Area, Stuart Highway, South Australia
When you were my destination
The journey so fine
gliding like liberty on parade With you gone
no end in sight
I think I will just lie down and die Never to reach my destination
01 August 2021 Pootnoura Rest Area, Stuart Highway, South Australia
In the aftermath of our deleted defeated disastrous delusional drunken diabolical dream…
(unfinished thought)
02 August 2021 Rest Area 20 Ks South of Cobber Pedy, Stuart Highway, South Australia
I stopped to care
You raced on Now not there Life so. Unfair
02 August 2021 Rest Area 20 Ks South of Cobber Pedy, Stuart Highway, South Australia
What a surprise
I surmise to prize
a size of thought
large enough to envelope all of life
hiding remaining pieces of plots of plays of life that so often surprise
enough not to realize life is a joke unravelled
02 August 2021 Rest Area 20 Ks South of Cobber Pedy, Stuart Highway, South Australia
Life is an erotic landscape
filled with alien forms
wonderous of exploration
03 August 2021 Lake Hart, Stuart Highway, South Australia
The end of our street
The end of our duet The end of our dance The end of our dreams Hopes
Wishes Life
THE END
03 August 2021 Lake Hart, Stuart Highway, South Australia
Freedom flies fast If but time would allow it could be packaged Given to refugees
All of us wondrously happy
05 August 2021 Port Augusta, South Australia
Last night on the road Tomorrow back to same old Same old
when the road was yet to discover us
and we were to forget
we had ever begun miracles of explorations
05 August 2021 Port Augusta, South Australia
Hopeless genius Genius of hopelessness How perfect this direction of perfection
no correction intended Hopeless genius on parade
Where even the wind dies laughing 06 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Prisoner of consciousness
Released too early
Such a slanderous occasion we jump for joy
Surely no one could foresee we would return so quickly to be prisoners of consciousness
drifting across landscape unimagined in the madness we believed is our life
08 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I took a writer’s easy way out Instead of creating a lengthy novel with a dynamic beginning
torturous unresolvable middle
miraculous conclusion stretching over hundreds and hundreds of pages with illustrations and recipes throughout
I wrote this
A writer’s easy way out
07 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Long before my pen ran out of ink
I wrote this
Now I wish my pen had run out of ink earlier 08 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Painted on desire
masks subliminal passion in another restless night of shadows screaming for release
I roll over
whispering to my pillow ‘Not tonight Josephina’
09 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Few hours left of 73 years searching for the value of becoming 74 while the world around me ages faster than I can keep up with her
10 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
What a relaxing day
We died
Or so thought the assembled masses peering through their clouded mist
Strange the perception bottled up in the minds of the elite How extraordinary is the muddled thoughts
stumbling against the jaded landscape of the human mind
Because for an instance I had pure thought
stunned silence as they said I was archived
Pronounced dead
prepared as sacrificial mulch for the cemetery garden of forgotten dreams Obviously
none of this is true
Just a random recurring thought I forgot to take control of in this relaxing day
10 August 2021 (on my 74th birthday) Adelaide, South Australia
Stretched out across the tarmac of my mind
Alien probes circle before landing Many recognizable from youth
@ birth even I shared structural elements unseeable Unhearable
Unbelievable
Packaged meaning poured out The stories were true
Fables invented to control
now seemed foolishly vulnerable rained from broken clouds floating out of place We will all drown
I am sure of it
So thankful for the safety of the sheltering tarmac of my mind 11 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Circus animals @ my window wanting me to run away with them Secretively I close the window
as I am in love with the jugglers frolickingly naked clowns
a trapeze beauty
a few incoherent escapes from the me-2 movement dozens of ex-wives
a fantastically seductive mystic warrior trying to raise me from the dead
So why would I join a bunch of silly vociferous circus animals @ my window making me appear foolish
Once again
12 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Buried deep in the murky inner recesses of my super-sub-conscious
is the thought
contrary to conventional wisdom out of step with social media possibly an out right lie
is that I am alive
To address proof
is to enter uncharted waters City centre mall peasants shake in disbelief
Feminist rodeo performers laugh
Non-binary cattle stampede Leftist politicians trip
over their right foot
Horny aliens wink @ me
I am so confused We are all drowning in disbelief
13 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
How far gone the past has flown
Broken wings
crashing into the receding marshmallow like horizon I reach out trying to retrieve
stopping midway to nowhere Glimpses of faded memories fading
I grasp outlines of the past passing fast Nothing clears
past is opaque Eternity is short
Life so much shorter How far gone
the past has flown
14 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Your love crumbled like a misunderstood poem
Broken words Misconstrued meaning
How wonderful a new dawn blots out such a broken narrative
15 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Only 55 people
all on Facebook remembered my birthday this year
7.5 billion others on earth ignored it WTF
How troubling is that
Winter’s western wind
freshly frozen forever left me stupidly alone
clutching thawed memories of when we were
15 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Lovers clever whisperings
risqué risks
wakens youthful warped memories as I stumble along the boulevard towards a sentimental alley
I can succumb to memories of lovers clever whisperings
in
15 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Your love was a masterpiece
ravaged by time and so many others after I left
collapsing onto a bottomless floor @ the museum of lost love Forever trampled on by regret
16 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Tomorrow I will face the facts
but today
my interpretation of the way it is
will keep me floating
through my atmospheric turmoil still intact
16 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Love is so easily explained
So easily misunderstood So easy
So nourishing
many starve to death for lack of love Love is fun
Love is me
Love is worth the waking up
no matter how many times we have died 16 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
She was always so quiet
I still have difficulty with her whispering desire enveloping me in my sleep
Even now
decades after she died in her quiet way
17 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
If everyone died off
except for my family and friends
we would have such a sustainable planet there would be enough love
for all
17 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Using words to say nothing
We slipped between the covers of darkness and morning Neither of which could escape
our naked surprise of the fluidity
imagination disguises us with
18 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Our goal in life
is to construct nonsense
to appear believable enough to progress beyond now
If only you had believed me we would have lasted longer than a passing breath
once upon a time shared
18 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
What happened could have been avoided What was avoided should have happened Otherwise staying awake has no value
19. August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I became ultra-fixated on nothing @ all
when in fact only of you I had wanted thought
How fluid a wandering mind is
A swamp @ the edge of a glacier melting before its time
Flooding coastlines Drowning fools such as me
Ultra-fixated on nothing @ all instead of you
20 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
My thinking has little changed in the past fifty years
Though now I save them in the cloud where they fall as polluting rain
over the sandy-rocky-barren Outback
where marsupials drink my thoughts in flooded billabongs then die
with stomachs filled of non-organic realism
20 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
To die in your arms The most rewarding thing the enemies of my ancestors could achieve
21 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
When I awoke this morning no one remembers me
I remember them
faces touches joy pain laughter longings #Fjaoi*ddjf$paj@ij
Why have I disappeared from lover’s past
I go back to sleep where they remember me so together we are
evermore
21 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Thoughts like aging love
left to decay
upon fortified fertile soiled soil
Foundation for a new generation of insanity as I have often demonstrated
19 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Intoxicated poetry
left me stumbling
over reality once again
21 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
So easy to return to a simpler time
like before I was born though how should I know
than to separate the past 74-years from before when a simpler time spoke
@ ease without me
22 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
In an awkward series of missteps and hurdles
I slipped into the former glory of whom I could have been if only I had kept my eyes closed
long enough
to have avoided such an awkward series of missteps with hurdles
23 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
The advertisers know
how to make
a better happier hipper more love Me
I filled my life with their products I became an animation
A cartoon
reflecting a wonderful pretendable Me
Everyone wanted to be me Terrell in a capsule
Take before bed
Have wonderful dreams of being me So lucky that all those ads Everywhere
Made me so fulfilled Like they will you when you are ready to pay the price
23 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
When life was simple I would watch life go by Now that it no longer is
I turn my gaze elsewhere as life goes by
beyond my grasp
24 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
WOW!
Just realized I was the last one alive Think I should go back to sleep have a different dream
25 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I thought she said
‘Have a good morning’
as she walked out the door so many decades past Now I realize she said ‘Have a good mourning’ that I have had now
that she is gone
All those decades past
25 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Life is so short so full of anxiety pitfalls
bad actors Incorrect syntax
That I believe I will refuse to do it again 25 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
We met on the corner of anticipation and regret
figurine clouds diverted our attention as life rushed past
If only I could remember then would be less fuzzy than now
Images of once we were buried in memory’s rubble
@ the intersection of anticipation and regret
26 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
So many simple thoughts
left me bewildered
knowing how complex love is when diluted
by so many simple thoughts
27 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I used to think being human
Oh so boring
Until I watched a snail crawl through my petunias giving me thought
as to being the luckiest animal in the garden This is my fifth day straight
sitting here contemplating in the garden
amongst the petunias snails
how lucky I am not to be bored
27 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
The reason I know tomorrow will be disastrous
is due to the media saying so Otherwise
I would be enjoying a morning walk along the beach
Smiling at the scantly me-2 dressed women along the boulevard Humming a favourite tune of the 60s
Rejoicing over my horse winning the Darby But now
due to the media
I know what a disastrous day it will be
28 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Wearing masks Keeping out covid Hiding possible smirk My covered face
a fashion statement
covert protesting who I am No one seeing the nakedness stalking behind this mask
29 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I walk crowded sidewalks
crashing into people noting their surprise to discover
I am not invisible
29 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Gathered insight
strewn across translucent landscapes evaporating beyond reason
as eternal questions of being
went unanswerable again
30 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
The totality of human existence
will be to evolve beyond being human
30 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
So perfect
Life is
Only when we awaken the dream falters Losses focus Vanquishes
Lights go on Ancestor’s scream Ancestral dreams Rivers of pain
drown once-were-perfect constructed memories 3-D printed dreams
So perfect life is
31 August 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Life in a haze
In a bubble In my bliss
Protected from clarity Exposure Interpretation
I wish I had tried it before
to keep from cyclic inverted realism Just living my life
In a haze In a bubble In my bliss
02 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Getting caught up
such an irrational thought
02 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Easily remembered
long gone past passings
No need to recall yesterday
There was no part of you involved
yesterday Not a trace Not a shadow
Not a lingering almost forgotten smile Being elderly really is such a luxury Recently so easily forgotten
But
Easily remembered long gone past passings
03 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
The defeated army lay in the alley crying
So much gone wrong Toy soldiers marching as to a war Heroes of illusion
choke on tainted dreams victoryless
Life is shit
My wife said I cried in my sleep last night She did not know whether to wake me or leave me to lay defeated
in my alley
to die with my dream
04 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I swam to the horizon
in search of tomorrow all my hopes and wishes in a distant haze engulfed without reason I swam back to here
content to drift evermore
07 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Old friends look me up Hey that is me in the cloud Decades have past
Perhaps to their surprise I am still alive
Cyberly @ least
I am no different
74 years later still clueless I look 4 old friends too
Internet through time and space
I am only curious to what they died of
It is the fun part of out living my family and friends The wayward thoughts of still being somewhat alive laughing @ the probable fact
that perhaps I still am more than just on the internet maybe
08 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Ha Ha Ha said the tortoise
No one heard We are too fast
Rushing into the flames of our demise
08 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Meaningless meandering mystery
making us lose sense of direction If only we could hallucinate
what comes next life would not be
meaningless meandering mystery
09 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I jumped into the fountain of youth
Drowning
in all that could have been If I had not leapt
into the fountain of youth
09 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I lost her
In the jukebox of my mind
10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
As with any Hollywood surprise ending comedy
I died with a smile on my face
10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
In a recent survey of dead people
67% believed if given the chance of a do over They would
10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
While conversing with a statue in the town square
we realized my life was a joke
10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I learned to forgive before I was born
Every day since I say
‘What the fuck was I thinking’
11 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
A much more successful man than me
died before me
making a mockery of which of us is the more successful
10 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I threw my fate to the wind
The wind stopped Nothing changed
My fate fell upon me Crushing me in the here now
11 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
So easily laughter rolls over the horizon
swallowing seafaring clowns We close our eyes
Such a prehistoric thing to do Presupposed sadness envelopes the world Joy of living
drowns is buried
We move on
I am bored with such a sad world I reincarnate every morning laughing over the horizon
Life is grand so full
I think I will embrace it for awhile Just for laughs
12 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I played the role of an old person
Hobbling along outlines of highways barely visible Counting pills every colour imaginable
Lusting after those sexy young 60+ year old women at the beach waiting for me in the shadows of the boardwalk
Shopping @ Walmart dressed in pyjamas and fluffy slippers Remembering 60 years ago as if today
Believing tomorrow was yesterday
Asking my 60+ year old children ‘what is the internet’
Forgetting I am still alive
as I tell jokes to my reincarnated self
Playing the role of an old person is the only role I know
@ the nursing home I am out of my room There is that 30-something sexy looking nurse
I was so happy to see someone my age in this place I ran to hug her
She smiled
“back to your room now hon”
Playing the role of an old person is the only role I know 13 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I still love her all these tears later
Just kidding Years later
As synchronicity would have it
12 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I won the race
though at times as if my reflection in the shop window
no doubt would win Next to see
if I can get to my dream before it gets to me
All we are
is a dull thud
amongst the music of the spheres
Glowing in darkness of our misunderstanding Knowing in hindsight
we should never have been in the race
15 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I like living in the past
Makes getting old in the future
take so much longer to get to
15 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Special spectacular something
Nature runs and hides Radical ridiculous result Nature rushes
Returns
Now isn’t that the dumbest thing ever heard
16 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I could not think of any scenario in which you
were not the best of my morning after
16 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Ever since losing my grip on reality
I have been Cheering more Chuckling more Chanting more Cavorting more Nakedly more
Since losing my grip on reality the world is such a lovely place
20 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Finally finished the beginning
when I die
the easy part complete (so abstract the end)
It is all between that makes fools of philosophical theoreticians
20 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I keep watching for today to become normal
Like before I was born
21 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
When I awoke this morning realizing everyone in the world was nuts I felt troubled
Knowing there was not another sane to voice my concerns to
@ the zoo I recognized caged freedom While surfing
I laughed and sang with mermaids and dolphins I flew with the seagulls
Forest danced with unicorns
Philosophized with Greek gods (who imagined they were me)
But when I returned home mingled with people
there was no one I could confide in that they were all nuts
September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
@ the end of the day
time will arrive we each will become extinct When we die
will we remember
the extinction prediction Will it matter
Too much talk of what will be when we are dead When the next generation
Death
Best to laugh now for no one will when we are extinct or will we
That’s the tweet
23 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
As if we returned
Could return Would return Should return What then
Should Would Could Outcomes differ
I am of the tribe choosing not to Not to for any reason
In any season
Returning is a fault in evolution Going forward
The only cure
It is how I escaped
Freeing me to explore the space between now and the quickly approaching end
24 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Do birds of prey pray
for prey
or do they too live in a linguistic bubble as I do
25 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
In the morning
I will realize I am lost
in time to return to the sanctuary of your dreams
25 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
All the stars lined up
though not with me
I just sort of fell through space in my little dark spaceship
Never a thought of what could be different if the stars had not lined up
without me
26 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
My thoughts were an umbrella holding back incoming foreign missiles threatening my humorous humanity When rain fell
I washed away
with outgoing psychedelic tides Safe now beyond any reasoning I stare @ the sun
thankful for my understanding
27 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
We were made for this moment This moment not made for us Tumbling sideways
Too few to notice two unfilled dreams floundering @ sea
See
As if our echoing touch would heal such broken moments
Memories
Like bursting balloons @ a party
not invited to
28 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Love midstream Broken currents Tossed against rocks
To be an explorer of such unpredictable terrain gives life meaning
liars pause criminals hope
Us – a brand new moment
29 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Soon after realizing everyone around me
So much smarter than me
I invented the ‘neuage escape wisdom hack’
Making me appear smart
without anyone realising I am not
As I run naked in my old man fashion through the mall As bells ring for morning mass
As young lady-men offer their services @ discounts on every corner As my e-wife laughs herself silly
in front of a Venus statue covered with bat shit (like she is)
I realize everyone
is so much smarter than me
30 September 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Cascading love
Flowing over
what could have been Yet no disappoints were had
On such a sunny day as this
01 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Despicable daylight savings time
What nonsense covers the land Clock screaming 9 pm
But wait it is 10 pm or is it 8 pm
Is the earth spinning slower or faster
I feel dizzy
Do I add an hour to love subtract
@ 74 who cares what time it is
Will the sun rise when I say it is 6 am
or when some shit faced me-2 news anchor says it is now 7 am
or perhaps 5 am Either way
it is not right As for me
I am going back to bed
I am too old for daylight savings time 02 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
You are not normal
god screeched at me across time
space
broken alien algorithms cold vegan pizza
‘You almost drowned walking on water
a frozen lake @ that’
‘You tried changing wine into water
to feel as a virtualist reformatted re-booted ex-alcoholic’
‘You chatted up me-2 entrepreneurial wannabe females @ the well’ ‘You tried and failed to heal the slick’
‘You fed thousands with your conspiracy bullshit’
On and on god dribbled on and on (a viral tiktok hack)
I stayed She did not
So tell me who is the most committed in these most normal times
03 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Nothing was fixed Everything unstuck Fallen down
Tossed across landscapes Knocked asunder
Chaos perfected
Following an internet recipe made the worst meal ever
04 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Usually I embrace the unusual
as I predict the predictable
Quietly proclaiming loudly to everyone how I was disinherited of my inheritance Like hot love frozen in timeless time Screaming whispers for the deaf to hear But @ the end
of morning’s beginning sunset Only I listened as usual
to the unusual
05 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Such an interesting time
I will package it
Have amazon deliver it with a drone celebrated
on some distant cloudy day Falling like rain
Showered joy
06 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
So easy stopping such horrific conspiratorial news
Merely merrily roll over Go back to sleep Counting sheep
I do it all the time
Waking back to when normal times so much fun
06 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Distilled nothingness frequently invades imagined solitude
As if wind would murmur her secrets in a discernible fashion
providing us
clueless inhabitants with power to ascertain what the fuck is happening
07 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Such a novelty life is
Unique in its transgressions
An odd ornament in a multitude of commonality in a throwaway galaxy
A spark evolving into a firestorm Solar system warming
Warning Wanning
Such a short shelf life
Plastic lasts longer than humans Most everything does
Such a novelty life is
08 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Too sleepy to convalesce
Drifting out of sync Surely our world Your world
Their world The world Progresses Flounders Weeps
Leaving me too sleepy to care
09 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
What Where When
These delusional thought patters Emerged
Transgressing my day
10 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Haunting dreams of native animals
Feral past lovers
Vegan meals untouched
prevents me from drifting into sleep in fear of past karmic mishaps devouring my sensibility
10 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia X
My life has been filled with bad actors
Poorly written scripts Stoned directors Shoddy built scenery Lack of funding
(though now that I am so fucking old the government is giving me money) Old overly used foreign highly infected hookers
Useless sound effects But in hindsight
my life has been a tad bit interesting for a handy capped circus clown knocking at your door
10 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
I can see what I could not see before
No longer crashing into walls Tripping over past lovers Missing roads less travelled
Seeing trouble as outlines of shadows chasing me Wishing upon stars not there
I can see into the future That which is before me so clear
the world finally is Captured sight
Now that I have glasses
The End
That is the first line of my autobiography
My life story
Sum total of my existence My beginning was the end Such a karmic reckoning Worthy not of song(s)
Nor rustic noir mystery No highs or lows
Such a story not to tell
The End
all together in 2 words
12 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
The probability of each moment defies logic
Magical manifestational mishaps Cascading along horizons
Each subtle move seemingly planned Not really
Bobbing along turbulent seas is life’s essence
Because all learned lessons equate to zero
when we die Alas Alas
Dead people never remember lessons learned
13 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Tomorrow I will forgo this darkened thought sequence
For now
I will gleefully follow it into madness as windows into normality crash
to the depths of overturnable-despair There was nothing to see anyway Soon tomorrow will arrive
freeing me from myself Once again
10 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Realizing no one was looking
Paying attention Listening
Loving
I was able to create a new world free of those not
Looking
Paying attention Listening
Loving
16 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
What I love about today
All yet to be discovered Like before I was born
16 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Lost hope
Easily found
Behind the easiest escape routes
If only I knew which imaginary way to proceed I too would have found lost hope
16 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I was in hope of singing myself to sleep
Forgot the words Forgot the melody
Forgot my wife was trying to go to sleep too Now I am in the kookaburra tree
being swooped by demon magpies Wish I had paid attention
in music class
17 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
My angel is a sensual provocative testy slut
with volcanic breasts in 76.4% of my dreams
Hindering my attempts to act normal in elite social settings and at prayer meetings
17 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
I love ageing
Closing in on death
It makes the future one big merging hallucination beyond my neighbour’s control
Yet well within my pleasure arena
17 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Love is an accident with unplanned results minus insurance
17 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Like an Asian massage with a happy ending
So is life
WAIT A MOMENT!
Disconnect Reboot
Bury these insane thoughts beneath piles of misbelief
18 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
The best of Halloween
is seeing how they accept who I am (for a day
and give me candy for it too)
19 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
I am often lost in my dreams
Figure 1
which stresses me
I am never lost when I am awake which stresses me
That’s it
That’s the tweet
20 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
Everyone lining up @ my window
sobbing how difficult their life is What a depressing lot humanity is
Give me a dumb dog with a wagging tail that I can share my woes with
I close the curtain
I hear the muttering of humans falling into the pit of despair I dug for them knowing as I am going deaf
I will soon no longer hear them here
As I am rapidly getting dementia I will not remember them
As I soon will be dead
I will not give a shit anyway
21 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
She was on the endangered species list Becoming extinct before my dream was complete I ran to the horizon
in hopes of seeing her again Reconstructed memory Washed away present
Love frozen in time melting around drowning me Chasing through time
for such an endangered species now extinct
from crashing dreams quietly cascading for no one else to know
And that is how stupid
my thoughts today of you are
22 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
I changed my profile
to lessen consequential lessons
Viral alerts strengthened my resolve to mask irrelevant strangers within
each competing incomprehensively for my attention
Screamingly I launched myself over the cliff as any yet undiscovered genius would
And within my final revolt of myself merged this new profile of myself so enjoyed by all
Thankyou
23 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
While unfolding words
meanings became blurred
Broken reasoning fell into worthless structures of syntax which paradoxically provides
a new way of escaping the endless useless indefinable gibberish on the evening news and wordless exploitations of my emotions by long ago dead foreign speaking lovers
by once again unfolding words producing meaningless notions
such as this
24 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
That was fun
I said on my death bed With nothing coming next What else could I have said Does it matter
Do animals think
Wow that was fun in reference to their life as they die then become food to horrible humans
Christmas trees before being chopped do they reflect
murmuring about their fun life
Perhaps a volcano thinks ‘this will be fun’ before erupting
Do tornados laugh have fun
What about tsunamis Earthquakes Cockroaches
Snakes and politicians
Maybe my life was not fun after all
I will just continue to eat tofu burn essential oil Enjoy my day
Will you not join me
25 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
I look at all those fools on social media Television movies politicians sport thingies Thinking
Sure happy they are not me
26 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
We live on the edge
More or less Good or bad
If I were a painter
what colour would I represent If I could write
what language
would I pick up women @ the pub with If I were political
how could I possibly be more liberally liberated I scream when I mediate
Argue with god that I am an atheist
If I had reason
could I trade it for quick love in the alley I run when crowds walk
Walk when crowds run We live on the edge So what
26 October 21 Adelaide, South Australia
I traded the future for the past
Worries of 1960s
My only worries now
Will this Vietnam war ever end Should I take a raincoat to Woodstock Is Sandoz acid the purist LSD
Should I remember her name from last night Should I put beads or feathers in my ponytail What was her name again
and the other two…or were there three last night Is it OK to be stoned when meditating
Does anyone believe in capitalism anymore
Will computers ever become useful for individuals Maybe it was her sister I was with last night maybe both
they feel so much alike
Who let a Pisces into the same room as us highly evolved Leos This nude beach has too many tourists with clothes on
Were Jesus and Buddha lovers Let’s rebel against authority
I have an urge to protest but don’t know what to protest WOW so much to worry about now
Here in the past
I want to trade the past back for the future because everything is or will be maybe could be So cool and uncomplicated in the future like all the way to the 2020s
27 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I tried to sneak past pass love
But
The secret was out The door was open
Waves of passion seeping through broken window Highways strewn with hope glittering in the dark Midnight train leaving @ dawn
Yawn
I snuck aboard Pass past love Tonight alone
28 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
She was the woman of my dreams
In my dream
Ran off with my night mare I was riding to the race
We came in last Fast pass
the women of my dreams Who
Are no longer Now awake
29 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
How cyclic
These manic wandering thoughts Each more haunting on return
If still my mind were to become it would be unto cliff falling with no possible landing Floating forever
in these manic wandering thoughts
29 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
A closed book is a book unread
Like an experience never tried I won’t read your blog
if you ignore mine A dimmed podcast speaks no wisdom A blocked tiktok gathers no fans
Hastily written thoughts produce stupid results Like this
29 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
The patter patter of worried words
against the windows of my dreams
What if I should wake and find them to be real Destroying any sense
I once had of control
as I am continually chased through tunnels echoing screams
of whom I have become
Escaping the patter patter of worried words against the windows of my dreams
30 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Got up early
Raced myself to the punchline Came in last
No one cheered
31 October 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Today went by so quickly
Didn’t have time to worry
if I would get everything done
01 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Such fleeting thoughts
Wish I could have caught the remaining of this one before it vanished
01 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I was slumped over memories of you
Like a dead man walking
01 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
With women wearing masks
Everywhere
No choice do I have
than to explore other body parts Everywhere
to identify them
in the hidden recess of my desirous mind
01 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Sun glittering off of wayward thoughts
Reflecting hopeless wanting of what never could be
We were never meant to be anything more
than aliens aimlessly wandering through a broken cosmos Mistaken sparks of creativity
for the sun to glitter off of
01 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I celebrated arrival of a new day
by dying of fright
that it would be the last day
to celebrate
01 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Every morning
I sacrifice nightly dream of you to the guillotine of new morning
Bleeding out profusely over the shattered horizon drowning me in want
03 02 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I asked my mother
if she would miss me when I was gone She answered
she had died fifty years ago Has no idea who I am
02 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I just realized everything I ever believed in
Thought Did
Ate
Was wrong Including this
02 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
If they make a statue of me
frowning When I die
in the town square over on Main Street
I will come back as a bird Shit all over it
02 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I had surgery on a misdirected thought
Protruding haphazardly due north I tracked it on Google Earth
as I once did Santa, Jesus, Buddha, Mohammad, and several lame crippled voluptuous ex-girlfriends (now excessively old overweight without humour)
The surgery went well hastening my demise as an influencer protruding true south in your mind
04 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
“As morning haemorrhaged over a ruptured suburban horizon
five naked pregnant teenage headless biracial women lay in a pentagon in front of the mayor’s villa”
Will be the opening lines to my next religious novel
04 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I chased my shadows up the hill
as a labour of love
As buzzards flew in circles around me
waiting for their Passover feast I failed the ascent to the heights I once dreamt of reaching
But now my shadows achieved what I never could
leaving me crying at the bottom of the mountain without my shadows
04 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I reincarnated on a bet that I would not remember why I lost the bet
05 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
If we tell a lie to ourselves
it will be true
when we wake next morning As all people in government with dementia have proven
05 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
So often I clean my glasses
Still the world Appears Smudged
06 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
What makes this poem so excitingly fresh
and outright original
…not by a computer trapped in its slutty way was it written
02 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I saw the mistake in my rear-view mirror
Such a beauty
Now it is framed and on my wall as a reminder
to how wonderful life once was when I was loose and fancy free When mistakes were rewards for life fully lived
07 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I love the way laziness wraps around me
in a cocoon of nothingness
Protecting me from the scourge of busyness rushing about in the same space
as I exercise my laziness
08 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
The deal is that no one will ever see these random musings of mine hidden
in a corner of the internet
Invisible to the human imagination Yet still there
Like I am still here all but invisible
in this hidden corner of your universe
08 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Silent invisible hint of love Such a soft breeze
Undetectable in social media passes over the broken hearted Blah Blah Blah
Sure is time to get out Run away
from the clatter Clutter Confusion
gripping the stupid masses lined up on the outskirts of my consciousness pretending to be silent
09 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I closed the window
Still mermaids came crashing in Rolling across me
Being a world class surfer I easily rode
the largest wave
Frantically waving to a fading past only to forget
what comes next
11 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Elastic memories stretched across the universe
Once upon a time too far
Popping like an ill-fated balloon held onto
by an ill-fated child @ this crazy carnival Mistakenly called life
14 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I used to believe my life was a colossal fuck-up
Then I read a tome on
‘Life of the saints
and fools who believe in them’ Now realizing I am doing quite ok Comparisons
not included
15 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I prefer to dream in cold weather Snow nakedly dissolving upon us
as if memories were dreams Then I slide on the ice
falling into the melting tainted lake of perpetual lies Found not until spring wakens the intoxicated village to my despair of dreaming in cold weather
17 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
This morning was like a ten-cent up of coffee
weak frothless
not worth the wake
I stumbled through the day
Even my garden gnomes laughed at me
as I lay upon freshly manured lawn Birds pecking at bugs crawling over me screaming for joy
I collected some remaining dignity
from a hearing-impaired gay grey nomad gnome Headed to the café
behind the tabernacle's ten-cent brothel @ the governor’s chateau
Ordered a five-euro latte (turmeric cinnamon hemp oil almond milk included)
Now
swimming through the day’s remainder What a difference currency can make
18 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I took 74 years to become free of my past
If only I could remember what happened
during the last 74 years I would know
what I have become free of
21 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I went into hiding
Oh so happy
Until I found myself crouched in a corner between yesterday and a distant memory Neon spotlights shining on me
I crawled further into the corner Still I found myself
So exposed
If only there was a way out I would go into tomorrow laughing without merit
20 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
or were they
22 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Missed a thought
No one to share it with
Koala hanging on a branch laughing at me Easiness of life
Not a thought in sight
Spring in Australia Drifting
Drifting
Drifting
What a time to be alive As the world explodes
I laugh with my koala
Not a thought worth having All alone are we
22 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I moved into a vacuum
So peaceful
Nonsensical behaviour sealed outside I could view it
through a window in my vacuum Frantic people
performing frantic actions
I painted a sunset over the window in my vacuum
Now all the frantic people have disappeared
If only I could get a cup of coffee in my vacuum
I would never have to leave
24 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
With a wealth of ideas
I went to the merchants of hope and happiness Dependent upon which way the wind would blow I waited my luck
A gentle eastern breeze paused long enough to envelope my plethora of ideas
‘a wealth load’ to any down and out merchant of hope and happiness
in a quickly swallowing moment’s movement My wealth of ideas
scattered
leaving me in tatters as the fuckwit crying @ your door
25 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Very slowly
Very gradually
I became old in a short 74-years
Now that my life has sped up
I will be 20-years old in a very short while
To be the same age as when you took your life Deciding this world is shit
I miss you every moment my forever young son
Leigh Neuage 1983 – 2003 https://neuage.org/leigh.htm
26 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
as a new person
thrust into civilization’s turmoil Unravelling
Burning fiercely How exciting awakening each dawn
Everything changing My skin
My thoughts My memories
My imaginary lovers
I embrace chaos as an indebted friend We run nakedly through pandemics with nothing on but our masks protecting their insecure insanity from infecting us
We the virginal pure
lusting after destruction of all so we can be the mutation we always wanted to be
Free of them
26 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Such a pleasant evening sitting in front of a mirror Laughing with my reflection Stories shared
so many we could not stop I noticed a few grey hairs
Wrinkles yet to photoshop out The glasses look a bit gay
I should wear sunnies Appear mysterious
Put a feather in my cowboy hat
so others will wonder if I am indigenous Some tats on my neck
Perhaps a foreign racially variant tart hanging on my arm
would make me look hip A diamond stud in my ear will deflect my look
of perverted poetic poverty I will whiten my teeth Smile more sympathetically
Perhaps I will disguise myself as a fool
who spends the day talking to his reflection in this mirror as the world around melts away
27 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I tossed my ideas into the raging river
downstream of course Carried off into the Pacific
Passengers of a sinking cruise liner reached out for them as if they were a lifeboat of sorts
Enough of my ideas were gathered to form a sinking island
for rescued passengers
to start over again
Soon they realized they were discarded ideasNot worth saving
as their island sank with them beneath the wavesnever knowing I almost cared
29 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
We were so busy preparing for what could go wrong
we missed morning coming and going
Leaving us in the darkness of our mind
Wondering of our movements if morning never arrives
30 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Took me 74 years
to get to where you would read what I just wrote
Don’t let me
wait that long again
30 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Long before my mum abandoned me
@ the railway station (closed for obvious repairs) at the age of three
I had already developed the art of the sad lie
Thank you for believing me
30 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
435.I went to sleep as a fool
Woke up a saint Now my neighbours
are trying to put me back to sleep I believe it is time
to find a different nursing home to perform miracles in
30 November 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Why is life only unpredictable to humans
Said the earth before an earthquake
Laughed fish as seas rose giving more space to swim
A sleeping volcano before erupting waking those below Birds leaving nests
Snakes finding shade
Crocodiles munching on suburbia pets Life is so predictable to all
except us humans without a clue
of what happens next
01 December 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
Final night in this space for four months
Nothing poetic
When I return will I be the same if even alive
maybe I will grow an attitude become worldly
wish I had not left at all Four months of a covid tour
Abu Dhabi, Lahore, Istanbul, Washington DC, New York City, Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel Zuid-Holland…some other places
Then back to here as if I never had left
Lahore
02 December 2021 Adelaide, South Australia
I know the steps taken getting here
I wrote notes on a block of ice Climate change melted my notes
Flooded the coastal elliptical sacred sites No longer giving clues
as not only why but where is this
All the crowds echo me I scream too
Surely something should change letting me understand
why I am here naked
beneath your Christmas tree
A lasting ornament to your lack of understanding 06 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
Lahore in the winter
Everyone keeping warm
Burning coal Burning wood Burning hope
we will ever breathe fresh air again 08 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
Different difficult diverse culture
First world to third world to out of this world Everywhere everything Not the same
WAIT!!! WHAT!!!
Damn if it ain’t the same old thoughts Same old patterns
Same old me
No matter where
What a comfort to always be the same Not
No matter what the box we are thrashing about in Discomfortably me
being out of this world once again 09 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
The world we know no one else ever will
Importance there of
only our own passing view
When we dissolve @ our fateful end the world we know
will disappear too Memory flakes melting without notice
all we once knew
10 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
They hung my shadow in the town square
for blasphemy I hid as usual
wondering what it was I had done only thankful
my shadow took the fall
11 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
My alternative ego is a snowman
sitting in the front yard
of the village brothel Melting in the noonday sun Like I did
when memories of you
left on the last train out of town
11 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
I froze this moment in time
waiting for climate change to thaw us back to life
11 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
I knew I would die
ten-minutes before anyone else knew Now that we have all moved on
I will go ahead and order pizza (thin crust)
with extra cheese and of course
no meat
12 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
We watched all the poor people acting poor
I felt poor
I acted poor
Poor people look @ me knowing I am lying
Feeling betrayed by my nakedness I get dressed
fly off in my space capsule not knowing
why you think this way
13 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
I sat upon the aborted horizon
waiting for the world to end It was rather boring
I read a few novels on my kindle Reconsidered my role as a vegetarian Relinquished my sainthood
Delivered a role-model’s eulogy
Sorry I fell to sleep writing this – there is no more 13 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
I entered life
(this strange fish bowl)
through the emergency exit door If only I could swim
I would be like them
14 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
I love sleeping
It is when I am most creative All other times
I am but a captured clown performing @ your circus
14 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
My mantra is a freight train
out of control through a tunnel
over a mountain chasm
No wonder my disciples envision my peacefulness as their escape
15 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
I like to awaken middle of a dream
deep in the night Pretend I am still alive haunting deceased lovers
in the aftermath of their once glorious life 14 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
A tsunami of hope
washed away all doubt
Drowning us in these turbulent times of hope
with no results
21 December 2021 Lahore Pakistan
We split the difference Comical was the moment Survival but a hint of justice gone wrong
Nevertheless being alive
is a bit interesting
If only the news was not so constantly bad Comical the moment would be
30 December 2021 Washington DC
We loved in a simpler time
before humans appeared on earth
Vegetation all there was Sunshine
Tropical sea breezes Nakedness
Rainbow coloured thoughts We did not hope
Plans superfluous No New Year wishes
Rolled into day after day We loved in a simpler time The way it soon will be after earth’s annihilation
31 December 2021 Washington DC
2022
Washington DC
I give up
The world does not revolve around me
Not sure where the thought that it did was planted Maybe @ birth
Maybe @ adoption
Maybe in love’s first recurring nightmare 12 January 2022 Washington DC
Interesting change of events
Weeks into a new year Another year
Neither forward Nor looking back Longingly
Impossible to choose if this then that
But if that then this Alternatives Variables Percentages
Life is for gamblers the rest of us travelling insane
What possibly could be next Even death is a gamble
Do we live on Do we not just rot
Is there hope across the road
Can we trust our shadow to spin the truth We are THE BIG LIE
I go to sleep once again
wondering if I should wake tomorrow
Will there be an interesting change of events 12 January 2022 Washington DC
So easily lost Yesterday’s thought Thoughts
Ramblings that had possible traction if only today existed
in more than yesterday’s thought 13 January 2022 Washington DC
Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel
Lost track of words dropped along the highway over yonder
out past broken melodies colourless shades of bleeding Aborted dreams
Daydreams
Absorbing humanity’s leakage Words once paved the way
so criminal thoughts say For now
no worries to be heard due to lost track of words
20 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Disconnected
That’s it
That’s the story The tweet
The message Sum total
The pleasure after pain End of rainbows
Evaporated joy Alpha and Omega Head to toe What a joy Disconnected
21 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Thinking about 1977
When I was 30
Did I wonder what 2022 would be
74 years old with a fast Wi-Fi living in a foreign country Vaxxed people watching unvaxxed wither & die Thinking about same distance to 45-years from now 2067
As from then to now if I were 120 then
would I remember now
when I am 74 or 90 years after 30 Probably not
I can barely remember you now
from when we were thirty 45-years ago
Dusty memories washed away in the rain
22 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Should have ended this right here
Let it flounder astray
Cast fate towards someone else’s karma Looked another way
Used a different strategy
Beseeched a different younger ethnic-challenged muse Such an error
Almost unperceivable to have continued
I should have ended this after the very first line It was obvious
I had nothing to say
20 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Going about in circles Always surprised to return Start again
Colour me happy Washed away dismay Flowers like you bloom in shit
Masking doubt
with laughter’s feeble fake news Going around in circles
There is no end to this nonsense
24 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Woke up bored this morning
So I killed the neighbours
their cats dogs fish chooks rabbits lovers as well as the neighbour’s neighbours Chopped ‘em up
Put parts into plastic bags (recycled bags) Left them on the cathedral doorstep Hosed down the blood
Went home Back to bed
Fell to sleep counting sirens Woke up later not feeling bored
20 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
How uncanny to be a nobody A glitch on humanity’s radar too Invisible
To be a social media cast away Jesus’ 13th disciple
drowning @ sea
while the other 12 giggled giving me the finger
as a cock crowed
I still have issues with Christianity all their fake news
People run over me
on their way to the brothel They don’t see me
My mum forgot I existed Left me in exile
along a freeway yet to be built
I dream of being noticed Radicalized
I sleep all the time
just to keep having that dream How uncanny to be a nobody
26 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Whilst writing in darkness
I imagined making sense like a celebrity chef
in heat
cooking with no ingredients Everyone nodding
at my sensibility
Scholars parachuted in from foreign countries Archaeologists proclaimed
‘he’s the one’ Prostitutes sighed
Kings queens and the gay killed all their knights
@ night
in favour of me
Astrologers aligned out of sync planets Mathematicians ate pie
Plastic grapes fermented upon the synagogue warped floorboards healing the sick
All suddens
I imagined making sense Whilst writing in the dark As you orgasmed in rhythm to my shattered words
28 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
The smell of success
Waking in morning
rather than imagining waking in morning mourning
being dead after all Like you
29 January 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Long ago
realizing emptiness
I filled that space with bubbles As time dissipated
I celebrated by popping a bubble each time
until time itself could no longer be witness to this bubble Last to pop
You and I together Forever
Pop Pop Pop
03 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Comedian poets rapidly shredding dreams Sitting at the train station wishing they were me
No humour No rhyme
Warm slimy ostentatious empathy served up on a cup of frozen want is how I would describe myself Nothing poetic
Why do comic poets
most of them long ago dead dream of being me
04 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I live life as an unfinished thought
in search of meaning as is the case
with all living mammals blah blah blah
04 February Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Beggar at the castle gate
carrying on how the world has changed
No! it is about the same as a billion or so years of late Oceans Lands Skies
Mindless creatures roaming
I thought maybe I had changed so I looked into a mirror Photoshopped out some wrinkles
Added darker hair on my head and/or elsewhere
Went onto the internet
grafted some ideals into my mental DNA Texted god told her to fuck off
Grabbed an Uber to the castle wall where I shot the beggar full of holes
with my M-16 that the Republicans in the USofA gave me Knowing the world will never change
05 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I wish I had been born a hundred years hence
just to see how humanity survived
with seconds left on the doomsday clock I would look back at such follies of today with amusement
happy to know the reason I exist now
not then
is because very few others survived the 2020s Only the handful of intelligent people continuing
beneath the rubble of ignorance would start this new strain of humans such as me
though of course
I do not believe that and neither should you
06 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
My friends achieved so little living ordinary neighbourly lives
Afraid of change suspicious of philosophy
Drowning in audited thoughts Chaperoned censored packaged beliefs
I asked if they would like to get lost with me they hid behind baskets of regret
I held out a flame to light our way they said I was a terrorist
I offered them a chance to get fucked up with me They died
I did not
Now I have no friends
07 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
My favourite aspect of dying
is not knowing I did
07 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I used my favourite pen to write my favourite poem This wasn’t it
08 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
What a wonderful time we had
ignoring all the facts
to believe in what should have been if only facts
had not gotten in the way Which led us to die
in a most dreamfully fulfilled way
08 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
She quietly slipped out the exit door of my life
as sirens alerted refuges of my love that they too
should do the same
Before I noticed their escape I too was free
09 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Just a small change in brain chemistry
then you would recall
I was your favourite lover
If only the slight change brain chemistry was not the cause of your death
Damn!
10 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Trillions of things to write about and I cannot think of one interesting one to frame a reference
Leaving me gullible incoherently hacked
by an explorative random thing unworthy to write about
11 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I tried everything including love at first sight
Dementia prohibited me from exercising it With little virtue left
I caught a flight into (your) space All my memories were there toying with me
I felt safe
knowing my death would prevent the destruction of earth and other realms by all the crazies chanting my name Nevertheless
sowing chaos will always be considered my greatest achievement Even surpassing love at first sight
12 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
The purpose is not to embrace sadness
But to understand it
18 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I was donated an allotment of misaligned circles
Placed a favourite memory in each one Filled my backpack
Rode a neighbour’s jesus-infested bike to the western shore for storm surges to take them to a greater depth
where they sank
as my wisdom once did so long ago
at your feet
while you grimaced upon your thrown
Seas turned livid dullness Memories
once so fantastic now
shit upon the shore Empty circles abandoned Like you did me
19 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I watched my dream come true All those characters were there Well actually just you
We were younger Well actually young Now that I am 74 then was 50 years ago
the world such a playground
Responsibility some perverted fucked-up future drama we would rise above
in our stevia flavoured bubble floating in space
untouchable by past Unimaginable by future
I was there amid our dream
until it disappeared (the bubble with my cookie-dough flavoured dream encased) due to my Twitter feed beeping
waking me out of my shattered bubbled dream Incoherently
20 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Naked ladies frolicking
along the wind-strewn shores of my dreams
Beckoning me to satisfy them before I waken as the old man I have become
Once again
21 ebruary 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
In a shocking display of bravery Faced with insurmountable drama packed into the day head
I went back to bed
to sleep the day away
22 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
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22 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
The gentle thrust of war
upon the land spreading chaos
Fear echoing between neighbours Digital games come to life Starving children
surviving on food for thought Sleep my weapon of choice
Chosen dreams of waking peacefully as war is thrust into the air
26 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
What pisses me off the most
about the annihilation of all of life
is that no one remains to read the novels I may have written if we still existed after tomorrow
26 February 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
So much to do before I die
I will just have to put it off
02 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
If I could show you the world today
Dying twenty-years ago
would not have seemed so bad
02 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I re-edited my life For those who don’t Didn’t
Won’t
to behold me as a saint worthy of a re-edited life
03 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Love is simple
Far beyond the poetics of how it flounders in the shattered corners of our lack
as all failed histrionics have
05 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
If I should die in my sleep
not even the sea will receive my ashes past’s sorrow’s
lonely isles
05 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Often times I find myself Lost
In the often times I find myself
07 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Threads of love
unravelled
the tightly woven tapestry that once was us
07 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Since the internet
No longer have I seen scrawled love notes smeared across time
nor felt a need to respond to coded messages in my sleep Since the internet
illusions of truth so clear
I have become blinded explaining so graphically
why walls I walk into never absorb my false beliefs since the internet
08 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Travel through space
Time
Makes melting love Smooth
In our bubble Above it all
09 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Bouts of happiness
created mockery of my sadness
11 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Frozen love thawed Bleeding across landscapes where once we played
@ being free
11 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Civilization will soon have an end game
It was interesting while it lasted
Though no value would be achieved by repeating Life on earth
Another failed experiment in a cosmic laboratory
run by idiots
12 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Long before becoming me I was the beggar at your door dressed in ragged darkness starving for your love Starving from your love Diseased
forlorn crippled
When you opened the door just a crack I saw the magic of your world
I changed soon (moments)
after your slammed door
Gradually becoming me this subtle structure
limping in your haloed shadow echoing your name
Remembering glimpses into a world not for me Though through constant renewable constructs I became me
The saint-king everyone sees No one knows
before becoming this me
I was just another beggar at your door 14 March 2022 Utrecht, Netherlands
@ the stage door of the museum of tortured love
I requested a sample They gave me a coupon worth nothing
to be redeemed
at my next memory of you
15 March 2022 Utrecht, Netherlands
Sixty-years ago whilst still a teenager I announced my goal to leave by 2.30
Now that I am 74
It looks as if I may achieve that goal Today
16 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I love being an inconsequential person Sidelined to the clamouring glamorous elite Reminding
We
the masses
Of their importance Though I often smirk
here on the sideline of my existence staring at my inconsequential self
17 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Your love for me will never die
I read it so
on the internet
If only you had not found yourself dead Like I did
before the internet invention you too
could have believed
your love for me would never die
19 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I should stick to the things I know how to do
Like open the door
to let this rusty memory of you
out of my life
20 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I said to god
‘why don’t you play with me anymore’
She claimed not to exist
hiding behind her humourless horizon Leaving my shadow with no one to play with Once again
27 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Unable to interpret why she laughed
as I choked to death
on a peanut butter sandwich
My final assumption before lights went out was that she did not love me
to the extent I had assured myself that she had
28 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
Remind me to wash
the windows in the morning So the ravishings of nature
can subdue my restless imagination with an unblemished view
of you
29 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
I think in catastrophes
Each bigger than before
though less than when you walked out the door yet to return
after twenty-years
of catastrophes
30 March 2022 Nieuwerkerk aan den Ijssel, Netherlands
She spoke in perpendicular symmetry
with meaning the attended victim Still
with desire answered Then
meaning had no meaning Now
so many years later I still smile
@ the thought of her
in her perpendicular symmetry with no meaning intended
31 March 2022 Leiden, Netherlands
There was always more to remember
I drew graphs
Looked for parallel meanings
Found links from then to now and beyond & before
Behind
even in shadows
hiding behind the inflamed horizon What is the path of life
Can we decipher it before artificial intelligence cancels our realism I have lost the ability to reinvent myself
Just another broken mannequin gathering dust in the thrift-shop window
of a once upon a dream Once so good
lost in a time
when there was always more
14 April 2022 Adelaide, South Australia
So much invested to remember the past
My wife calls it clutter Neighbours say make it landfill
My son fears I will leave my treasured memories to him Thrift shops want to profit
Council says recycle
My memories are my home
I sleep eat love dream and leaf through my memories as my life breath Not recent could-be memory
no room for new ones
Just old memories
When the world was believable Liveable
Worth remembering Remember?
17 April 2022 Adelaide, South Australia
Long before
I started acting old I was
06 May 2022 Adelaide, South Australia
I decided to sleep more
Write less
For these enhanced dreams of you to be so real
Not be left writing nonsense as so often done
06 May 2022 Adelaide, South Australia
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FIRST LINES
@
@ the beach, 59
@ the end of the day, 83
@ The horrendous recital love and hate, 55
@ the stage door of the museum of tortured love, 125
A
A closed book is a book unread, 96
A dead poem, 19
A tsunami of hope, 112 A week after I died, 38 A whole new place, 10 Absence of turmoil, 1 After I die, 19
After more than six-decades of writing, 20 Again I lost an argument with myself, 57 Alarms of doubt, 31
All my dreams came true, 9
All my ghosts have reincarnated, 54 All straight lines are horizons, 17
All the lost sheep, 41
All the men stood erect, 57 All the stars lined up, 84 All the stupid people, 31
All the worries of the past 50 years, 40
All the wrong people looking in my window, 14
All those passing past mind-numbing experiences, 60 Always landing, 35
Ancient ruins hiding stories, 35 Ancient story motifs, 14
As an audience of one, 43
As an audience-free author, 23 As if we returned, 84
As morning haemorrhaged over a ruptured suburban horizon, 98 As the sole audience, 6
As with any Hollywood surprise ending comedy, 80 As with any random thought, 60
At the rate heroes are deceasing, 53
B
Before dreams of you faded, 58 Beggar at the castle gate, 118 Being wishy-washy, 34
Bouts of happiness, 124 Boxes of answers, 63
Buried deep in the murky inner recesses of my super-sub-conscious, 70
C
Cascading love, 86
Chosen memories escaped, 64 Circus animals @ my window, 70
Civilization will soon have an end game, 124 Closed doors, 43
Comedian poets, 118
D
Dangling dangerous dance, 54 Deep in my mind, 27
Despicable daylight savings time, 86 Different difficult diverse culture, 110 Disconnected, 114
Distilled nothingness, 88 Do birds of prey pray, 84 Dreams surrendering, 5
Due to a pre-existing wife, 36
During an analysis of cliffs never gone over, 6
E
Earth is still in its adolescent phase, 20 Easily remembered, 78
Elastic memories stretched across the universe, 101 Especially concurrent tapestries, 62
Ever since losing my grip on reality, 83 Every day I miss you more, 22
Every morning, 97
Everyone headed the wrong direction, 11 Everyone lining up @ my window, 92
F
Failure is a logical assumption of misunderstood mechanics, 54 Few hours left of 73 years, 69
Final night in this space for four months, 109 Finally finished the beginning, 83
Folks writing books, 59
For the impeccable discerning wandering consciousness junkie, 42 Forgot what I forgot, 33
Freedom flies fast, 67 Frozen love thawed, 124 Frozen memories of us, 49
G
Gathered insight, 77 Gently falling promises, 35 Getting caught up, 78
God Part 1, 59
God Part 2, 59
Going about in circles, 116 Going extremely slow, 33 Got up early, 96
H
Ha Ha Ha said the tortoise, 79 Happy birthday son, 57
Haunting dreams of native animals, 89 Her life was merely a passing thought, 25 Her love died, 43
Her love was a statue, 44
Her love was a twisted linguistic nightmare, 46 Hints of understanding, 54
Hopeless genius, 68 How calm this storm, 26 How cyclic, 96
How embarrassing it would be to be remembered as you, 34 How exciting awakening each dawn, 106
How far gone the past has flown, 70 How fruitful is disdain, 13
How uncanny to be a nobody, 116 How wonderful waking next to you, 53
I acted, 45
I am excited about the end of civilization, 25 I am often lost in my dreams, 92
I am plagued by dreams of crocodiles hunting me, 50 I am so bored with being a youthful warrior, 30
I answered the ad, 30 I asked my mother, 98
I awoke to discover that love was an innocent bystander, 13 I became ultra-fixated on nothing @ all, 73
I believed the billabong was a wishing well, 63 I bond with inanimate objects, 49
I bought a book on dream interpretation, 16 I can see what I could not see before, 89
I celebrated arrival of a new day, 97 I changed my profile, 93
I chased my shadows up the hill, 99 I cleaned my window, 40
I closed the window, 100
I could not think of any scenario in which you, 82 I decided to sleep more, 128
I embrace making mistakes, 34 I followed my followers, 9
I followed myself to the end of the street, 11 I followed you, 26
I forgot how sleepy I was, 61 I forgot the next line, 56
I froze this moment in time, 111 I give up, 113
I had a text-book death, 34
I had hoped my past would catch up to me, 55 I had surgery on a misdirected though, 98
I hate facts, 22
I have a symbiotic relationship with death, 16 I hung my thoughts out to dry, 39
I jumped into the fountain of youth, 80
I just realized everything I ever believed in, 98
I keep watching for today to become normal, 83 I knew I would die, 111
I know the steps taken getting here, 109 I learned to forgive before I was born, 80
I learned to lie when you walked away, 27 I left pages blank in my diary, 38
I like living in the past, 82
I like to awaken middle of a dream, 112 I like to write, 15
I like what I see, 28
I listen to the wind, 20
I live life as an unfinished thought, 118
I look at all those fools on social media, 94 I lost her, 80
I lost virtual virginal visiting rights, 31 I love ageing, 91
I love being an inconsequential person, 126 I love being elderly, 39
I love have spotlights shining on me, 32
I love the way laziness wraps around me, 100 I mimic an epic alternative ending, 28
I moved into a vacuum, 104
I
I must say all the dead philosophers are shit, 28 I often predict past events, 34
I once was concerned by the increasing wrinkles of my ageing skin, 18 I outlived several nursey rhymes, 33
I played the role of an old person, 81
I prefer to dream in cold weather, 101 I pulled sheets over my head, 43
I read in a comic book that your love for me was real, 32 I realized no one was reading my tweets, 50
I reconceptualized my dreams of you, 29 I re-edited my life, 123
I re-engineered my belief system, 21 I reframed my dreams, 50
I reincarnated on a bet, 99
I remember you as a shadow, 28
I remembered her as the fireworks of my youth, 66
I said to god, 126
I sat upon the aborted horizon, 111
I saw the mistake in my rear-view mirror, 99 I scribbled upon the wall of life, 13
I sent a cardboard cut-out of myself to my lover, 25 I should stick to the things I know how to do, 126 I shuttered the window closest to my thought, 65
I slowed down, 63
I sought solace from the worry exterminators, 41 I sped through life, 2
I spent the past fifty years getting rid of all my friends, 30 I split the difference, 56
I stayed awake all night, 40
I stayed longer than planned, 66
I still love her all these tears later, 82
I stopped for a breather in childhood, 55 I stopped to care, 67
I stopped watching the news, 7
I stretched reality to include lies, 44 I swam to the horizon, 79
I think in catastrophes, 127
I thought becoming old would be boring, 27 I thought I had a new audience, 64
I thought my life could not be worse, 38 I thought she said, 75
I thought we had found, 47
I threw my fate to the wind, 81
I took 74 years to become free of my past, 102 I took a writer’s easy way out, 68
I took time out to write you this, 17
I tossed my ideas into the raging rive, 107 I traded places, 56
I traded the future for the past, 95 I treat my like as a foreign spy, 2
I tried everything including love at first sight, 120 I tried to be happy, 29
I tried to sneak past pass love, 95 I try different narrative ideas, 17
I try to remember when I lost wisdom, 25
I tumbled down the wrong side of your love, 29
I tunnelled through life’s mountainous deceptions, 11 I used my favourite pen, 119
I used to believe my life was a colossal fuck-up, 101 I used to think being human, 76
I waited, 3
I walk crowded sidewalks, 77
I was born on a stormy night of no coincidence, 33
I was donated an allotment of misaligned circles, 121 I was in hope of singing myself to sleep, 91
I was slumped over memories of you, 97 I was so lucky today, 55
I watched my dream come true, 121 I went into hiding, 102
I went to sleep as a fool, 108 I will never be free, 38
I wish I had been born a hundred years hence, 119 I wish my dead family and friends, 46
I wish you could see me now, 21 I won the race, 82
I write messages every night, 21 If everyone died off, 72
If everyone in the world, 32
If I could show you the world today, 123 If I should die in my sleep, 123
If only, 5
If only I could start over, 42 If only I were a seed, 57
If they make a statue of me, 98 If we had begun, 1
If we tell a lie to ourselves, 99
In a current misunderstanding, 24 In a death-defying act, 52
In a hypothetical nightmare, 8
In a recent survey of dead people, 80 In a shocking display of bravery, 122 In a war against my body, 43
In an awkward series of missteps and hurdles, 74 In an ill-fated chosen direction, 13
In an incredible act of defiance, 42 In an unlikely contribution, 45
In the centre of Australia, 65 In the morning, 84 Inspiration is a slut, 46
Interesting change of events, 113 Intoxicated poetry, 74
It took me seventy-three years, 32
It was a dark stormy fucked up night, 60
J
Just a small change in brain chemistry, 120
L
Lahore in the winter, 110 Last night on the road, 68
Less interesting than the common indentation of life, 29 Life in a haze, 78
Life in shambles, 41
Life is an erotic landscape, 67 Life is so short, 75
Life is the interruption experienced, 12
Like an Asian massage with a happy ending, 92
Listening to frogs dancing in the night, 58 Little doubt plays softly, 52
Living so freely, 8 Long after we die, 36
Long after yesterday’s vanquished irony, 1 Long ago, 117
Long ago when I watched news, 44
Long before, 128
Long before becoming me, 124
Long before my mum abandoned me, 108 Long before my pen ran out of ink, 68 Lost hope, 91
Lost track of words, 114 Lost words, 41
Love explodes, 52 Love is an accident, 91 Love is simple, 123
Love is so easily explained, 72 Love is the great eraser, 33 Love midstream, 85
Love rises in the east, 64 Lovers clever whisperings, 71
M
Marvellous miracle makeover, 13 Meaningless meandering mystery, 79 Minimalistic love created the universe, 12 Missed a thought, 102
Missed another sunset, 47 Missing parts, 49
Mood swings, 50
My alternative ego is a snowman, 111
My angel is a sensual provocative testy slut, 91 My favourite aspect of dying, 119
My friends achieved so little living ordinary neighbourly lives, 119 My gift to the world, 28
My life has been filled with bad actors, 89 My life mimics nature, 12
My love for you, 21
My narrative became so boring, 11
My thinking has little changed in the pat fifty years, 73 My thoughts were an umbrella, 85
My vehicle of expression, 13 My writing used to be dark, 61
N
Naked ladies frolicking, 122 Never having been a tree, 25 Never knew you flew, 38
No doubt the strangest of times, 6 No one really cared, 4
No one remembers me, 29
None of my dead friends attended my funeral, 34 Not a favourable situation, 3
Not happy with the planning committee of this planet, 30 Nothing was fixed, 87
Now I remember what I meant to say, 48
Now that we are warm, 46
Now that you have been dead, 31
O
Often times, 123
Oh Shit!, 62
Old age is like arguing with weather, 44 Old friends look me up, 79
Once the majority, 9 Only 55 people, 71 Our goal in life, 73
Out on the highway, 66
P
Painted on desire, 69
Passing paragraph toward the end of the news, 4 People looking peculiar Acting strange, 56 Perfect nonsense, 53
Phase next, 53
Plain played plans, 5
Plateaus of latent polluted consciousness, 2 Point of view, 14
Premature dream ageing, 15 Pretend we are dancing, 45 Prisoner of consciousness, 68
Q
Quiet camping in the Outback, 51
Quietly we placed the future behind us, 39
R
Random passions of my youth, 24 Realizing no one was looking, 90 Remind me to wash, 127
S
Saw my name scribbled across the breasts of time, 41 Semi-spectacular surrealistic lover, 27
She left me standing in the rain, 54
She quietly slipped out the exit door of my life, 120
She spoke in perpendicular symmetry, 127 She was a house to me, 46
She was a simple matter of change, 22 She was always so quiet, 72
She was an experimental kiss, 20
She was on the endangered species list, 92 She was the woman of my dreams, 95 Shortly after I lost all sense of order, 30 Shortly before being born, 32
Shortly before I lost my looks, 32 Should have ended this right here, 115 Silent, 100
Simply so sensitive, 58
Since simplicity slipped away, 17
Since the internet, 124
Sixty-years ago, 125
Sleeping pill, 7
Slowed down attribution, 52
So awkward suggested love is, 21
So easily laughter rolls over the horizon, 81 So easily lost, 114
So easy stopping such horrific conspiratorial news, 87 So easy to collapse into the past, 63
So easy to return to a simpler time, 74 So excited about tomorrow, 39
So late the change, 4 So lucky to be here, 55
So many life lessons today, 64 So many simple thoughts, 76 So much effort, 61
So much invested to remember the past, 128 So much to do before I die, 123
So often I clean my glasses, 99 So perfect, 77
So seldom settled, 48 Social media cowboys, 52
Soon after realizing everyone around me, 85 Souvenir shop of love’s lost interest, 6 Special spectacular something, 82 Statistically, 62
Stolen memories replace ones I no longer wanted, 37 Strange sounds in the night, 61
Strangely embraced thoughts, 39 Strangers texting to be my friend, 38
Stretched out across the tarmac of my mind, 69 Such a change of seasons, 37
Such a novelty life is, 88 Such a pleasant evening, 107
Such an artificial entitled moment, 12 Such an interesting time, 87
Such fleeting thoughts, 97 Such subtle monstrosities, 9
Sun glittering off of wayward thoughts, 97 Surges of joy, 37
T
That is the first line of my autobiography, 89 That was fun, 93
The advertisers know, 74
The beggar on the street corner, 16
The best of Halloween is seeing how they accept who I am, 92 The blank slate we are born with, 61
The Christian Bible was not written or ridden by god, 102
The deal is that no one will ever see these random musings of mine hidden, 100 The defeated army lay in the alley crying, 78
The distinct mirage of love without borders, 7 The End, 37, 89
The end of our street, 67
The entertainments of disaster, 3 The flight home was noneventful, 17 The gentle thrust of war, 122
The great times we are having, 48 The inequality of creation, 15
The last thought before death, 14
The last time I saw Rick was 30 years ago, 65 The patter patter of worried words, 96
The pleasure of planting a garden, 18
The probability of each moment defies logic, 90 The purpose is not to embrace sadness, 121 The reason I am so free, 58
The reason I know tomorrow will be disastrous, 76 The resident clown resplendent in my head, 10 The seldom differences mimic past heroes, 10
The smell of success, 117 The taste of love, 55
The total of human existence, 77 The wind blew disproportionally, 63
The world we know no one else ever will, 110
There are over 7.5 billion drunken would-be strangers, 51 There is no vaccine for restorative love, 22
There was always more to remember, 127
They continue to cast me in horror movies at your side, 24 They hung my shadow in the town square, 110
Thinking about 1977, 115
This morning was like a ten-cent up of coffee, 101 Thoughts clashing, 2
Thoughts like aging love, 74 Thousands of years ago, 31 Threads of love, 123
Through multiple mistakes, 61 To die in your arms, 73
Today was an extremely creative, 47 Today was fun, 40
Today went by so quickly, 97 Tomorrow I will face the facts, 71
Tomorrow I will forgo this darkened thought sequence, 90 Tomorrow your birthday, 49
Too sleepy to convalesce, 88 Took me 74 years, 108 Travel through space, 124
Trillions of things to write about, 120
U
Unable to enlist anyone to play the part of me, 42 Unable to interpret why she laughed, 126 Unaware of the/an endgame, 62
Unclassified experiences, 49 Unexpectantly my wings fell off, 8 Using words to say nothing, 72 Usually I embrace the unusual, 87
V
Very slowly, 104
W
Watching horror films before bed, 23 We didn’t realize how dark it was, 56
We expected a different outcome, 36 We live on the edge, 94
We loved in a simpler time, 113 We melted away, 60
We met on the corner of anticipation and regret, 76 We rushed through life, 64
We saw results differently, 26 We saw without looking, 51 We split the difference, 112
We tried to replicate each other, 44 We unlearned what we learned, 10
We watched all the poor people acting poor, 111 We were made for this moment, 85
We were so busy preparing for what could go wrong, 108 Wearing masks, 77
What, 15, 21, 23, 25, 34, 39, 40, 41, 49, 56, 57, 60, 62, 63, 67, 69, 73, 80, 84, 86, 88
What a relaxing day, 69
What a startled world we live in, 57 What a surprise, 67
What a wonderful time we had, 120 What happened, 73
What I love about today, 91 What if, 23
What makes this poem so excitingly fresh, 99 What pisses me off the most, 122
When all is said and done, 45
When asked why I ran naked through the town square, 36 When I am asleep, 19
When I awoke this morning, 83
When I awoke this morning no one remembers me, 74 When I no longer exist, 8
When life was simple, 75
When you were my destination, 66 While chatting with a statue, 44
While conversing with a statue in the town square, 80 While lifting weights at the gym, 45
While listening to the voice within, 51 While mumbling incoherently, 5 While rehearsing my death, 4
While under the influence, 20 While unfolding words, 93 Whilst writing in darkness, 117
Why is life only unpredictable to humans, 109 Window open, 18
Winter’s western wind, 71 Wisdom is for idiots, 42 With a wealth of ideas, 104
With women wearing masks, 97 Without memory, 44
Woke up bored this morning, 116 Wow this is different, 37
WOW!, 75
Y
You are not normal, 86 You are the half of me, 63 Your ambient love, 27
Your love crumbled like a misunderstood poem, 71
Your love for me will never die, 126
Your love obfuscated memories that had no chance of survival, 3 Your love was a masterpiece, 71
Your love was a psychedelic kaleidoscopic cumulonimbus formation, 31 Your winning was relative, 16