Terry Lawrence Miller (1947-1950) became Terrell Kenneth Adsit (1950-1980) became Brother Arthur (Brother Terrel l) Adsit (1969-1978) became Dr Terrell Neuage (1980+
A Memoir of Adoption, Identity & Late‑Life Discovery
return home ~ post-neo-noir-neuage (Indescribable scribbles of Dr. Terrell Neuage) ~ YouTube ~ Leaving Australia (Before the After) / After
Orphan is the memoir of Dr Terrell Neuage — adopted in 1950, reunited with his biological families decades later, and now tracing the long arc of identity, origin, and belonging at age seventy‑nine.
The Orphan Project will include a piece on "how tofu could have saved my orphan self (it didn't)"
I was born in Battle Creek, Michigan, in the late summer of 1947, and for most of my life the story of my beginning "was something I carried like a sealed envelope"...not really AI wrote that line - but I did spend from my teen years looking for my birth family. (issue #1. On my original birth certificate my mother's name was spelt 'Billinger' and not until 1981 did I see the spellilng "Bellinger" when I started researching via that name and found & made contact with my sister (1987) & first met her in person 1992 & my brother from the Bellinger side in 2002 Then from my father's side, Miller, I first heard of a brother December 2025 while on a cruise through the Suez Canal, and first met him in April, 2026, when I was 78 years old. That is the first part of this tale.
The past doesn’t chase; it waits. In 2026, something in me began to stir — subtle at first, then insistent. It said: go back. Look again... Really a bit of a shit opening that AI came up with - but somewhat on the money...lets continue
I had left astrology decades ago, but when I asked an AI to read the sky for me, it answered with a pattern I recognized immediately...https://neuage.org/orphan/astro Well this is quite accurate - After 40 years as an astrologer in 2003 I quite it...
This project is not a memoir of closure, but a reconstruction — a return to the beginning so I can finally move forward without the weight of an unfinished past... Another stupid AI quote - but yes I suppose it is a year of reconstruction as I met my father's side family for the first time a few months ago (April 2026) at my age of 78 - and I had met my mother's side in 1992 & 2002.. BTW I do not have "the weight of an unfinished past..." Another pompous AI line. Obvioiusly, I am and have been a well adjusted human forever.
Blog: Meeting my brother (April 2026 - me age 78)
Bellinger Family Name updated August 10 2026
Early adoption writings (2003)
Images used in this story (this will grow into heaps as I go through boxes of stuff here in Australia that I dragged here from 60-70 years ago in New York) updated 07 August 2026 12:36 to be exact