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1-12           Cambodia                (12)     5 used   (January  11)
13 - 34       Thailand                  (22)     6 used  (February 31)       
35 - 43       Melbourne              (9)       2 used
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00 – 09      Asia January            (9)       3 used        TOTAL 02 NEW FOR BOOK 2
                                                                                        TOTAL 01 NEW FOR BOOK 1
10 –  43     Asia February         (32)      9 used       TOTAL 09 NEW FOR BOOK 2
44 - 121     Adelaide March     (77)    33 used       TOTAL 30 NEW FOR BOOK 2
                                                                                        TOTAL 03 NEW FOR BOOK 1
122 - 198   Adelaide April       (76)     43 used       TOTAL 03 NEW FOR BOOK 1
                                                                                     TOTAL 04 NEW FOR BOOK 4

                                                                                      TOTAL 01 NEW FOR BOOK 5
                                                       22 used York trip TOTAL 03 NEW FOR BOOK 2
                                                                                     TOTAL 27 NEW FOR BOOK 3
                                                        After York -         TOTAL 06 NEW FOR BOOK 3
199 - 336   Adelaide May     (137)    40 used         TOTAL 25 NEW FOR BOOK 3
                          (207- 229) used 9 Lyell McEwin -  TOTAL 09 NEW FOR BOOK 3
                                                                                      TOTAL 07 NEW FOR BOOK 4
337 - 466    Adelaide June    (133)   30 used         TOTAL 29 NEW FOR BOOK 4
                                                                                     TOTAL 03 NEW FOR BOOK 5

467 -  610   Adelaide July      (143)   06 used         TOTAL 05 NEW FOR BOOK 4
                                                                                       TOTAL 01 NEW FOR BOOK 5

486 – 568    to Sydney July     (82)    23 used        TOTAL 21 NEW FOR BOOK 4
                                                                                      TOTAL 02 NEW FOR BOOK 5

611 – 722  Adelaide August (111)     18 used       TOTAL 17 NEW FOR BOOK 4
                                                                                       TOTAL 01 NEW FOR BOOK 5

723 – 845 Adelaide September (122) 21used     TOTAL 21 NEW FOR BOOK 4
                                                                                      TOTAL 01 NEW FOR BOOK 5

846 – 9-- Adelaide October  (000)     16 used     TOTAL 16 NEW FOR BOOK 4

855  – 919 Melbourne October  (64)   07 used     TOTAL 07 NEW FOR BOOK 4

TOTAL FOR 2016 NEW USED = 242 ¬ book 1 = 7 book 2 = 44 for book 3 = 66   for book 4 = 121 for

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 Contents

1.      Celebrates come and go. 40

2.      I merge yesterday’s. 40

3.      Island of make-believe. 41

Book 2 p. 87. 41

4.      Corner of Ten before twelve and ten after midnight 41

Book 1 P. 30. 41

5.      Looked for a new line. 42

6.      Erased yesterday’s thoughts. 43

7.      The chimes of times. 43

8.      Re- writing history. 44

9.      Universal love. 44

10.        I wanted my poem to last 45

Book 2 P. 99. 45

Text = life is. 45

Sit com.. 45

11.        I wish I had thought of that 45

Book 2 P.99. 45

12.        Applause at landing. 46

13.        Two bytes short of a perfect poem.. 46

Book 2 p. 34. 46

14.        Downloaded your love. 46

15.        Recycled dreams. 47

Book 2 P. 18. 47

16.        Quietly love consumes. 47

17.        Drawn Conclusions. 47

18.        Blended visions. 48

19.        I hid in the alley. 48

20.        My dreams spilt out 48

21.        Riding away. 48

Book 2 P. 71. 48

22.        So excited to hear you say yes. 49

Book 2 P. 54. 49

23.        Lined up. 49

24.        Love is a magician. 49

25.        Free of beliefs. 49

26.        I became another year older 50

27.        Will my poems remember me. 50

28.        To dream again. 50

29.        Reflected echoes of pleasure. 51

Book 2 P. 144. 51

30.        At the shrine of the unknown god. 51

31.        Too short the thought 51

Book 2 P.148. 51

32.        I followed the instructions. 51

33.        Past flashes pass. 51

34.        Mechanical dreams. 52

35.        New page new book knew life. 53

36.        Finals. 53

Book 2 P. 17. 53

37.        Amongst the ashes. 53

38.        Love a final background. 54

39.        Sun broke through. 54

40.        Home – islands of memories. 54

41.        Scientifically. 55

42.        Today ended. 55

43.        I changed. 55

Book 2. P. 145. 55

END OF SIX WEEKS AWAY. 56

44.        The journey’s end. 56

Book 1 P. 92. 56

45.        Simple said in few words. 56

Ten words 50 characters with spaces. 56

46.        I thought my love for you was a virus. 56

Book 2 P.44. 56

47.        Yesterday’s sketch. 56

48.        I tried to escape. 57

Book 2 P. 113. 57

49.        We set the record. 57

Book 2 P. 154. 57

50.        If you had waited. 58

51.        While floating downstream.. 58

52.        On my way to now.. 58

53.        No one saw my creativity. 59

54.        I won the surprise prize. 59

Book 2 P. 58. 59

55.        Your love a placeholder 59

Book 2 P. 56. 59

56.        She had the right-of-way. 60

57.        Nice body I said to the Ford. 60

58.        Each one of them stopped me in my tracks. 60

59.        Obscure as I may be. 60

Book 2 P. 141. 60

60.        I changed my vegetarian diet 60

11 words 61 characters with spaces. 60

61.        Muted revolution. 60

62.        I stumbled on my last poem.. 61

63.        I used the wrong font 61

Book 2 P. 110. 61

64.        I you them.. 61

65.        Copied transparences. 62

66.        I believed it would work. 62

67.        Poetically yours. 62

68.        She fucked the world. 63

10 words 52 characters. 63

69.        As long as you see me. 63

70.        Time lost me. 63

Book 2 P. 114. 63

71.        Vanquished to a minor space. 63

72.        Where did you go. 63

Book 2 P. 63

73.        In the often time of failure. 65

74.        Stretched across the horizons. 66

75.        So many ways to tell the truth. 66

Book 2  P. 177. 66

76.        I reversed engineered your love. 66

77.        We dream that we are awake. 67

78.        To late the start 67

79.        Too few.. 67

80.        I was yesterday’s youth. 68

12 words 62 characters. 68

81.        So excited to be your shadow.. 68

82.        Thought I would never be satisfied. 68

Book 2 P/ 114. 68

83.        We connect at a higher level 68

84.        With forgetting yesterday. 69

85.        I watched the weeds bully my lawn. 69

Book 2 P. 171. 69

86. Missed the moment 69

Bk 2 P. 84. 69

87. stopped moving forward. 70

88. Rarely satisfied. 70

6 words 46 characters with spaces. 70

89. It is only a matter of time. 70

90. Dawn’s relatives. 70

Book 2 P. 86. 70

91. Went into competition. 71

7 words 43 characters with spaces. 71

92. Mimicking creation. 71

9 words 43 characters with spaces. 71

93. Overcrowded galaxy. 71

Book 2 P.84. 71

94. Sun rose as a mistaken identity. 71

Book 1 P. 124. 71

95. Desire perpendicular to dreams. 72

Book 2 P. 78. 72

96. Walked into a wall 72

97. Earth. 72

98. To quote my lower self 73

99. When you were a star 73

Book 2 P. 172. 73

100. On the way to greatness. 73

Book 2 Part of a group P. 16. 73

101. Creation tried a different technique. 74

102. Everything I do is outdated. 74

Book 2 Part of a group P. 16. 74

103. Snippets of facts. 74

Book 2 Part of a group P. 16. 74

104. Thawed love. 74

Book 2 Part of a group P. 16. 74

105. Step by step. 74

106. There are things I am not sure of 75

107. Surrounded sunrise surprise. 75

108. The first should be last 75

109. When finally, I had nothing left to say. 76

110. I like the way the pressure is finally off 76

Book 2 P. 119. 76

111. Stories of past times gone. 76

Book 2. P. 7. 76

112. People of earth. 77

113. Once again set adrift 77

114. Without translation. 77

115. Worked through the playful part 77

116. Sort of a theme here. 78

117. No! Not me. 78

118. I hid in my prehistoric disguise. 78

119. god copied and pasted our solar system into another galaxy. 79

Book 2 P.139. 79

120. Based on what I never did before. 79

Book 2 P. 140. 79

121. Starting tomorrow.. 80

Book 2 P. 151. 80

122. I use to know what I would do next 80

Book 2 P. 183. 80

123. Like any award-winning film.. 81

Book 2 P. 180. 81

124. Too many letters. 81

125. The day I died. 81

Book 1 P. 11. 81

126. I traded my happiness for your love. 81

127. Memory of who we were when. 82

128. Aligned. 82

Book 3 P. 45. 82

129. I thought we were retired. 82

Book 1 P. 9. 82

130. First impression. 83

131. Each new day a mystery. 83

132. At the height of foolishness. 83

133. Leaf on a branch. 84

Book 2  P. ?. 84

134. Watching time slip away. 84

Book 1 P. 7. 84

135. A reckless wind. 85

Book 2 P. 53. 85

136. I took a detour 86

Book 4 P. 7. 86

137. The feeling was mutual 86

138. Historically your touch. 86

139. I lost my creative function. 87

Book 3. P. 71. 87

140. I changed my diet 87

141.  It was not clear at first 87

142. I changed my calendar to fifteen years ago Leigh. 88

143. Fitting moments. 88

144. Letting loose the last grasp on reality. 89

Book 3 P. 78. 89

145. Waiting for the next big bang. 89

146. I spent sixty-eight years. 90

Book 3. P. 67. 90

147. I was put on to life supportive system.. 90

Book 5. P. 41. 90

Camping trip to York Peninsula. 90

148. Reflection perfection of morning. 90

Book 3. P. 141. 90

149. If only there was time and space. 91

Book 4. P. 96. 91

150. Where the sea meets my dreams. 91

151. While critiquing a thought recently shared with me. 91

Book 3. P. 12. 91

152. Unbeknown to those who knew.. 92

Book 3. P. 118. 92

153. I heard the warning. 92

Book 3. P. 135. 92

154. Snuggled up to falling rain. 93

155. Broken passage. 93

Book 3. P. 17. 93

156. I chiseled my memory into the cliff face. 94

Book 3. P. 127. 94

157. The transformational aura of a chance forgiveness. 94

Book 3. P. 91. 94

158. I look out the window into the darkness. 94

159. Under strong advice from a herd of nice mice. 95

160. Laughter mingled with evening breeze. 95

161. Shipwrecks along the coast Book 3. P. 110. 95

162. 816 full moons have passed my way Book 3. P. 58. 96

163. Closing my eyes. 96

Book 4. P. 56. 96

164. Absorbing fully the moment 97

165. I set the time to five-minutes before I would appear in your dream.. 97

Book 3. P. 33. 97

166. In a transformative haze. 97

167. This morning’s news. 98

Book 3 P. 49. 98

168. I try to imagine. 98

Book 3. P. 10. 98

Leigh. 98

169. Refresh reboot restart 98

Book 3 P. 87. 98

170. I heard on the news. 99

Book 3. P. 100. 99

171. The plot thickened  Book 3. P. 44. 99

172. Dreams tumbled in unison. 100

173. Waiting for change. 100

174. Heroes are nothing more than memes. 100

175. Morning yawned. 100

Book 3. P. 53. 100

176. The past crumbles. 101

177. To be lost on a path. 101

178. Through adaption. 101

179. Remove the distance. 101

180. Fantasies Dreams Hopes Wishes. 102

Book 3. P. 131. 102

181. Up before dawn. 102

182. I didn’t set out to be the legs of a table. 102

Book 3. P. 104. 102

183. Carol Ann part 1. 103

Book 2. P. 55. 103

184. Carol Ann part 2. 103

Book 2. P. 55. 103

185. Impossible to embrace past 104

186. Analytical contentment 104

-----------END OF YORKE PENISULA TRIP-----------BACK ADELAIDE------------- 104

187. Resting now.. 104

188. I saw a bird try to be different 105

Book 3. P. 28. 105

189. Error at the crossroads. 105

190. I wanted you to be more than a poem to me. 105

191. I tried to keep up with my youth. 106

192. Take away the motion of emotions. 106

193. I was stunned when I discovered Gods. 106

194. Too much pleasure. 107

Book 3. P. 75. 107

195. I thought it was just another average dawn. 107

Book 3. P. 15. 107

196. Ten minutes before I was born. 107

Book 3. P. 123. 107

197. Poetry is more than. 107

198. Broken narratives. 108

Book 3. P. 142. 108

199. My mum was confused when I was born. 108

200. I watched plants. 109

Book 3. P. 59. 109

201. While waiting on a new start book 3. P. 93. 109

202. We made so much of so little. 110

Book 3. P. 62. 110

203. Our love an accident amongst nature. 110

Book 3. P. 39. 110

204. Difficulty with starting. 110

205. Without letters. 110

206. Too short the dream.. 111

Book 3. P. 64. 111

Lyell McEwin Hospital * 207 – 2--  ******************************. 111

207. I began ten minutes before the end. 111

208. Filled my time with thoughts of you. 111

Book 3. P. 56. 111

209. Syncing tomorrow’s embedded memory. 111

210. Alarmed by sameness. 112

211. You sleep in my bed. 112

212. While reflecting on what was not my life. 113

213. I was so proud to be. 113

214. She waltzed into my room.. 113

Book 3. P. 13. 113

215. So close to end of life. 114

216. The reason I close the window?. 114

217. The joy of being here. 114

218. I offered my services to a fleeting shadow.. 114

219. Now that you are one with the wind. 115

Book 3. P. 5. 115

220. Never could ride life with a saddle. 115

221. It is not my choices. 115

222. Doctors set out 116

Book 3. P. 106. 116

223. Stalled Book 3. P. 25. 116

224. Expectations at the start of a rainbow.. 116

225. Without limitations. 117

Book 3. P. 08. 117

226. Colourful sounds Book. 4 P. 41. 117

226. Scanned brain for alien-irregularities. 117

Book 3. P. 8. 117

227. Love as an experiment 118

228. Subtracting differences. 118

229. Morning came early today. 118

Book 3. P. 88. 118

228. We were so superior 118

229. After realizing I had said it all 119

230. Enough room for the rain. 119

231. At the goal line. 119

232. Without your love. 119

233. Safe before birth. 120

Book 3. P. 138. 120

234. I dreamt we were two wheels. 120

Book 3. P. 112. 120

235. Juggle struggle. 120

236. Following particles through air 120

237. While making a graph. 121

Book 3. P. 8. 121

238. Hopefully there will not be a nuclear war 121

239. Thankfully trends change. 122

240. To be lost in the maze of love. 122

Book 3. P. 136. 122

241. Ritualistic fulfilled desire. 122

242. An over calculated moment 122

243. Galloping hope. 123

244. With no physical distance left between us. 123

Book 3. P. 140 Group. 123

245. With death. 123

Book 3. P. 140 Group. 123

246. I filled a mold with dreams. 123

247. Took time out 124

Book 3. P. 18. 124

248. I wanted to gamble responsibly. 124

249. I wrapped several memories. 124

250. I cast a dream at the crossroads. 125

Written: 12/05/16 Port Parham, South Australia. 125

251. Drive-through love. 125

Written: 12/05/16 Port Parham, South Australia. 125

252. Fanfare at the start of our love. 125

253. Settled. 126

Book 3. P. 6. 126

254. When time bended back. 126

255. Once back in order 126

256. Put on a disguise. 127

257. While looking forward to tomorrow.. 127

258. If it wasn’t for the same technique. 127

259. The day after I forgot my name she called me. 128

260. My father was a world-class explorer 128

Book 3. P. 19. 128

261. While waiting for life to load. 129

262. Morning laughed at night 129

263. You live in hope. 129

Book 3. P. 107. 129

264. We talked about times no more. 129

265. Raced through. 130

266. Great people. 130

Book 3. P. 96. 130

267. My life. 130

Book 3. P. 116. 130

268. Because morning. 130

269. God was created. 131

270. Clouds moved in. 131

271. Streets we once laughed and played in. 132

Book 3. P. 43. 132

272. I wanted to chart our moments. 132

Book 3. P. 73. 132

273. Silhouettes quickly dissolving. 133

Book 3. P. 87. 133

274. In perfect proportion. 133

275. Too tired. 133

Book 3. P. 139. 133

276. I came second. 133

Book 3. P. 51. 133

277. Frolicking cells in the bottom chamber 134

278. Chosen. 134

279. Dream snippets. 134

280. I thought my love for you was sustainable. 134

281. I had a significant consciousness-opening life-altering. 135

Book 3. P. 46. 135

282. Your life was my life neither no more. 135

Book 3. P. 140 Group. 135

283. Preparations. 135

284. In a disruptive moment Book 3. P. 16. 136

285. Along the ridge of my dreams. 136

286. In the least amount of time. 136

Book 3. P. 89. 136

287. As I thought it would be. 136

Book 3. P. 104. 136

288. Sky screamed. 137

289. A chocolate covered dream.. 137

290. Such drama. 137

291. Unfortunately each iteration. 137

292. Unable to locate. 137

Book 3. P. 15. 138

293. All that you could have been. 138

294. So many connections. 138

295. The plane crashed into the sea. 138

296.Only I knew it was my turn. 139

Book 3. P. 41. 139

297. I thought love had gone cold. 139

298. Love’s mask removed. 139

299. Genetic consciousness. 139

300. Waiting on a phone call from god. 140

Book 3. P. 141. 140

301. So surprised to be at the same. 140

302. In the future. 140

303. Random thoughts. 141

304. I traded love for desire. 141

305. I went missing. 141

306. Expectantly. 141

307. We do today. 142

308. Ideas replaced books. 142

309. A dream drought 142

310. Numb to now.. 142

311. The pedestal 143

312. By sleeping through today. 143

313. I downloaded today. 143

314. With an average of eleven memories. 143

315. With you as a basic ingredient 144

316. I did every single one. 144

317. While jotting down. 144

318. Without morning’s fickle startup. 144

319. I went to sleep looking at a photo of you. 144

320. By stretching the truth. 145

Book 4. P. 6. 145

321. I thought it was a metaphor about my heart stopping. 145

322. Losing becomes victory’s favourite. 145

323. A radical moment 145

Book 4. P. 31. 145

324, Too bare the winter 145

325. Farmers smiled. 146

Book 4. P. 24. 146

326. Proclamations absorbed. 146

327. I stumbled on an idea. 146

328. My proposal 147

329. I tried living life in the space between. 147

Book 4. P. 40. 147

330. I was on the wrong side. 147

331. The paranoid dawn. 148

332. Bouncing about 148

333. Thoughts of you casting shadows in front of each step. 148

334. Food for thought 148

Book 4. P. 64. 149

335. After gathering most of it all 149

336. Weeds in my garden. 149

Book 4. P. 20. 149

337. Words replaced feeling. 149

Book 5. P. 132. 149

338. “I will be right back”. 150

339. No attempt was made to record the change. 150

340. Creation began. 150

Book 4. P. 124. 150

341. Barely halfway. 150

Book 4. P. 106. 150

342. Such a distressed tree. 150

Book 4. P. 71. 150

343. Now she wants me: 151

344. While reframing today. 151

345. Lined up. 152

Book 4. P. 26. 152

346. Dissolving walls. 152

Book 4. P.47. 152

347. Deconstructed love. 152

348. If I could do it over 153

349. On my way to Shakespeare Book 4. P. 61. 153

350. Disappearing into the midst 153

351. A slow start 153

352. Abundance’s regrets. 153

353. Failed to understand. 154

354. While replaying a memory-film.. 154

355. We finally die. 154

356. Only one last 154

357. Not ready for the change. 155

358. The robot that was created. 155

359. Unexpectedly: 155

Book 4. P. 122. 155

60. Challenge misinterpreted. 155

Book 5. P. 103. 155

361. Threatened by the extinction of feelings. 156

362. Soon after life on earth. 156

363. What will be. 156

364. While watching words float by. 156

365. Humans were domesticated by cats. 157

366. To chance the sail Book 5. P. 90. 157

367. Mapped a way. 157

368. Dissatisfied with the laws of gravity. 157

369. What we lost gained momentum.. 158

370. Without magic. 158

371. I reshaped my life so it would fit 158

Book 4. P. 78. 158

372. Scribbled thoughts. 158

373. Times before. 158

374. All you could have been. 159

375. You and I 159

376. I do not care about living in a zoo. 159

377. Life like love lingers longer 159

378. My secret lovers. 159

Book 4. P. 111. 159

379. Re-invented memory. 159

379. I followed you to the end of my dream.. 160

380. I was so far from the truth. 160

381. I stretched my mind. 160

382. In the distance I saw my past 161

383. I took a day off from being me. 161

Book 4. P. 68. 161

384. Silence beckoned an evening calm.. 162

385. Spark of desire. 162

386. You cried I laughed. 162

387. Soon after I died. 162

388. So many theories. 162

389. We swept change away. 163

390. I lined my dreams up. 163

391. Without interpretation. 163

392. Life is. 163

Book 4. P. 34. 163

393. We remembered how it was. 164

394. So much easier to tell ourselves lies. 164

395. I downloaded karma recognition software. 164

Book 4. P. 117. 164

396. On a miscellaneous planet 164

397. On the final test of my life. 165

Book 4. P 4. 165

398. I scribbled my sentiments for you. 165

399. Heavy with sleep. 165

400. As if life does not continue. 165

401. I had so much. 166

402. I turned to a whispering wind. 166

403. Life neatly sorted folded placed. 166

Book 4. P. 101. 166

404. Having come to. 167

405. Rung dry. 167

406. Next life time if I come back as a shrub. 167

407. A chance for peace. 168

408. I looked you up  on the internet 168

409. While assembling an explanation. 168

410. The more I like this moment 168

410. I forget who I am.. 168

411. During a practice of total difference. 169

412. Cast out from a lingering memory. 169

413. Found love amongst a tear gas lit alley. 169

414. I dreamt of success long after failure. 170

415. I am a minor actor in my life. 170

416. With so little working this morning. 170

417. I traded now for then. 171

418. I moved into. 171

Book 4. P. 66. 171

419. Yesterday. 171

420. Your body. 171

421. I knew something had changed. 172

422. In a moment of anxiety performance. 172

423. Ripened fruit at the end of the alley. 172

424. In a dangerous speculation. 172

425. I watched outside my window.. 173

426. Frustrated with creation’s lack of desire. 173

427. Since you died. 173

Book 4. P. 119. 173

428. Too few pages turned quickly. 173

429. Wisdom floated out to sea. 174

430. “Is this all I lived for”. 174

431. Lost power 174

432. Now that the pressure is off 175

Book 4. P. 73. 175

433. I looked for a ring tone. 175

434. I looked for a ring tone. 175

435. Not being prepared for sudden passsions. 176

Book 4. P. 8. 176

436. Dimly the moment shines. 176

437. In a superstitious ritual 177

Book 4. P.80. 177

438. In a blended good-bad moment 177

439. We hold hands walking through the mall 177

440. Sensing a new scent 178

441. Left behind. 178

442. I started erasing. 178

443. I googled myself 179

444. I lay naked in the paddock. 179

445. In a transformative moment 180

446. Free-will is the biggest threat 180

447. In fear of re-incarnation Book 4. P.  46 In fear of re-incarnation  as a human the weeds in my garden refused to die. 180

448. While waiting for inspiration. 180

449. In a 3-D printed memory. 180

450. I found you on Facebook. 181

Book 4. P. 83. 181

451. Left behind. 181

452. Dream surfing. 181

453. Limited to not being. 182

Book 4. P. 108. 182

454. Without you. 182

455. Your touch. 182

456. We met by chance. 182

457.Always knew..